some 4 days after end of os...well...what can i say...it was fast
one min i was dreading it, and then its gone! i definetly hope that i can achieve 6 pts, but i giv myself leeway, 6-8 would be acceptable. i dont really expect to get n a1 or even an a for english n geog...dam geog........
anw...been going out for the last 4 days, super relaxed...attempted job hunts but so far not successful. haiz...wad is with those ppl, i rather them tell me in the face that i dont wanna employ u, then make me anticipate their call within the next hrs/days...
i spent too much money these days, my slippers broke or tore when i was walking arnd Plaza Sing, so i bought this pair of sneakers, and a pair of jeans at the heat of the moment. well, so far i'm happy with buying my own clothes rather than my mom buying for me...hehe.
today, i more or less gao ding my grad ball clothes, cost me 70 bucks....its gonna be v shocking...i cudn blive it myself, let alone u...
shoes and accessories...and shud i ask huiyi to do my hair too?? lol...worth a try...

woosh! one and one-third down! chem prac tmr! kinda relaxed, this o lvl feels like nothing, probably too used to exams already, wonder whether its good to not feel nervous. anw, found some really nice Bleach pics, shall upload here haha. found them at bbs.dmzj.com. aw i juz love all the guys from bleach!!!

probably a worm juz wriggled into my head and decided to settle there for the rest of my life, this bulge on my temple juz wont go down...and it hurts...
this reminds me of that little joke my cousin told me.
'What's more terrifying than seeing a worm in your apple?'
'Half a worm...'
LMAO....

anyway, i kind of realized something really philosophical today, i feel like a grown-up.
My neighbour held some kind of party or celebration today, it seems. Because they live at the end of the walkway, there were many people walking up and down outside my house. I was pissed, cause i couldn't quite focus on my work. Anyway, more distractions came along, and i totally gave up studying and started to sulk and curse my neighbours.

Who would not be pissed if people were playing mahjong and laughing like anything outside your window?

I tried shutting the door and window, I even stuffed tissue in my ear! Even that couldn't stop the noise.

There were some even more audacious people who decided they could lean against my window and start checking themselves out, with me at the desk trying too hard to be calm.

In the evening, I thought I could finally have some peace and quiet, more people came streaming in...I was screaming...inside..

These people just seem to really enjoy testing my patience, some even sat right under my nose and smoked their cigarettes happily, blabbering dialect that sounded like animal talk.

Alright, they pushed me too far, I was going to show them who's the boss, display my prowess...but, well i didn't quite dare...politeness, you see.
So i decided to turn on my audio to max volume, and had TVXQ's new single blarring out the window.

Aha, they jumped in shock. Revenge...is sweet. They started rolling their eyes at me, talking even more loudly (in dialect, while obviously they were badmouthing me). Well I didn't really care, I was just happy I could save my ears from those dialects, they make my heart itch.

After much staring, they finally gave way, I admit the volume was probably too loud, I couldn't stand it either, I had no choice..
And hurray, one by one, they cleared the way, and I had my clean view-from-the-window back. WHo's da MAN?

And then my philosophy came in, I realized that people are really a pain in the butt when u think they are, conversely, if you think they are nice, they are too...
I happen to see this old man, who stared at me when I tried to blast him away, I thought of smiliing at him, and when i did, he smiled back...
then it dawned on me...it takes alot to be magnanimous and not to get pissed by every little thing people do, but it sure feels better when you receive a smile rather than eyeballs that threaten to disappear into their sockets (too much rolling).

Graduation....

the LAST day of school. We've graduated from Anderson officially.
Altho the farewell assembly wasnt really sad or touching, in fact it was juz givin out certs for prelim results, but the sight of MR CHYE really make mi wanna come back to Anderson. All in all, Anderson is a good school, 4 yrs has gone by, and we've all grown up, memories n more memories....
its always this kind of scenario that i fear most, sad to part, but have to move on.
after today, 4/2'06 is no more, SHIMIN JOANNE CHARMAIN YUXIAN PUQIN APRIL ANNA NAT ANGELINE EUNICE HUIYI WEIMUN LINXIU....we are classmates no more...tears....may we remain frenz and keep in touch even after we pursue different paths. all the times that we went crazy together, laughed n cheered for our class, etc etc, will be fresh in my heart and shall never be forgotten....FRIENDS FOREVER!!!
well the only person tt i m glad to NOT see anymore is Abel, @#!$%%#$@, rejoice! let him "own" all the poly ppl if he ever managed to get in thr. like weihao said, "double the shock" when he play DOTA and get back his results. well, if it was anybody else, i'd sympathise with him, but if for ABEL! I'm happily laughing my head off! But, if he decides to pull up his socks from now, it might be very much too late, but better late than never, at least it wont be sooo bad...but hey, its not my problem.
anw, juz wanna take this time to thank all the ppl who made my secondary school life enjoyable and meaningful, esp 4/2 gers, haha we kinda bonded only in the second half of our last yr, short but sweet, i'll nv forget everyone!
lastly, hope every1 pass O with flying colors, and shall we party all night long right aft the last paper, ooo i cant wait...O lvl SUX, but WE ROCK!

My 18th Bday...

My bday's in 4 days...should i say its special coz i'd be 18?? Dont really feel any excitement towards my bdays tho, coz theres no practice to celebrate it in my family, not that i care...
but this yrs bday kinda special, coz it falls on the exact same day as the Mooncake festival! my bday has never been so special, shall i make it really memorable??? but seeing that my mom n dad are both working night shift on that day, i doubt anything much could happen...guess i have to spend the day alone, maybe i could go gaze at the moon and imagine my family gazing at it too.........
nah...too sentimental for me...but i would really hope that my bday this yr could be once in a lifetime...

O is in 30days!

Just felt like liven up my blog abit, changed the background, stung by that pic, wonder if its based on real life person...
found some pretty cute pics, shall upload it here...

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i haven been blogging...
just received an email from Alice, kinda glad to be still in touch with her. Seeing how she's still regarding me as her closest friend, i kinda feel guilty for detesting her behind her back. its not that Im those kind of scheming backstabbers, its not that i behave differently infront of her and behind her, at least not i intended to. when she's nice, i totally love her alot, but when she gets cross and detestful, i cant help but to feel irritated n annoyed, i m torn in trying to decide exactly how to feel towards her, she put me in a dilemma that lasted almost 6 yrs till now....but deep down, i know im grateful to have her as a friend, we have an affinity, and it has not ended...

this one is sooo cute!!! cant stop laffing omg...



this one abit...like going to de zoo liddat...micky so funny!!!

reading bleach haha, the manga story is so much more interesting than the "BOUND"s, the new character's name all so greekish, ~~~OLA....all ends with LA.
dun feel like sleeping, haiz...., dam hungry, all tt CY's fault. Ask me translate some freaking chinese love story coz he freeking cant read chinese. the passage so freakng long!!! curses.... i m amazed at my translating skills tho, not bad huh me.
i did 2 geog essays today, kudos.... i m Da MAN, woosh, 17 left harhar.
i tried to copy down some korean song lyrics juz now, ended up onli managed to copy one, used up 5 pages in my notebook for ONE song! keep copying the wrong verse coz i duno wad im copying, all the words look the same to me....
feel like eating kfc now....aaa so hungry!!! someone feed me........
shiqi is such a #$!^$, i was hoping she could get through the audition today n she told me she backed out last min, i feel like wringing her head, uuurgh, made me feel so anxious for her.
i told my mom the condtion of my jap class, n she laughed she choked on her food. coz i tried to imitate that JOEY-san in my class reading the passage. OMG, i really cant stand the way she read kno, its annoying to keep waiting for her to read the nxt word. The smart guy, the teacher n me were like practically teaching her how to read alr, and she still read it wrongly. let mi show u:
Joey: Kare wa....shi...shiio...hi..hi..hi
Smart guy: shiohikari
me: shiohikari
SenseiL shiohikari shiohikari
Joey: hi...hi....
$%@#$%!

naruto

im reading naruto now, feeling a sense of loss, coz naruto is getting lamer and lamer, for both the anime n the comic, wth...it was so interesting in the beginning, and now it bcom like this.....when is the naruto i luved coming back??? same goes for bleach, idun understand these ppl, if they havn finish with the show then put it off for the moment la, y do they have to force themselves to come up with sucky fillers to make their fans disappointed? I've totally given up chasing those new animes, stick to 2 at a time, i still have my OnePiece there collecting dust...i downloaded too much for mi to swallow, really have to take care of my com prevent from formatting it, dun wanna lose all my treasure.
i did one geog essay n one a maths paper today, feel v accomplished, i shall treat myself with icecream and tea. tmr got jap lessons, i really dun feel like going, my tcher sux, i'd rather go kinokuniya there n pore over the books there then sitting in tt shabby classrm, arnd uncool ppl and listen to his crap...ok, sometimes he's nice n benign etc, but u see the huge generation gap and the huge boring face he has, it cancels everything off. n my classmate, omg, all of them are dorks and nerds, jus dun like the way they read jap, they sound like my neighbors playing mahjong, v loud n clear, yes, but really v unappealing, onli mine is good, soothing n nice.
last lesson tmr, guess i shud put it off for the moment, get the O done first then take care of jlpt...lvl2 is quite hard la, got alot of sentence structure to study, i nid a dict la, my mom reluctant to buy for meee, liddat how i study??? sianz....

at a lost at how to feel....

My Grandfather just called.
My Great Grandmother passed away yesterday, approximately 2 and a half years after my grandmother, her daughter, died.
My GreatGrandma, whom I am fortunate to have met, even for that short period which I could hardly recall, lived to 102 years old. She was a happy old lady with a very positive view for life, partly (I think) due to having slowly lost much of her memory (she claims she didn't know i existed..). Fortunately, she passed away peacefully during her sleep, serene.
I pray for her safe journey in the other world.
Now that I have only 2 Grandparents left, Grandpa from my mother's side, and Grandma from my father's side. I didn't have a complete set of grandparents to begin with, my dad lost his father during the tomultuous period, when he was only 16.
Life and Death...
I'm beginning to think about living and dieing...
sometimes, i couldnt feel alive, i feel as if i'm dead but still moving like i'm not.
i m confused...not really sure about how to think or feel about my GreatGrandma's death...the sadness came in slowly, to think that I announced it loud and clear to my mom...now, I can't seem to think anymore..........

my bro

haven't been blogging for pretty long time i think.
juz felt like writing smth after reading my brother's blog. dam philosophical he became. however his philosophies centre around love and the nature of sex and stuff liddat, juxtaposition of sex between animals and humans.........tt kind of freaked me out. Guess this is wad guys his age think about. They tend to give it the scientific tinge instead of just the emotions and feelings we girls have. werd.
anyway, i could still remember the day he introduced his girl to me, i was dam smart to see through his teeny lie that she was only a friend. I was a little shaken and melancholic after he confessed that the girl was his special person. Not that I'm in lurve with my brother or wad, but the possesive inclination just couldn admit that my brother had a girl other than me. well, i happily forgot about it aft that, and went around telling my relatives abt it other than his mom, coz however big my mouth is, i kept my promise to him, not to let his mom know abt it. Secretive... If i was his mom, i would have known tt my son had gotten himself a girl, its female intuition, or my aunt was pure dumb, oops.
in his blog entry, he wrote that he doesnt ask much out of this relationship, doesnt necessarily have to have alot to talk abt when they are together, he's juz happy that they are together even if they feel akward. That really sounded like a love story, kind of cliche, but i guess its bcoz everybody felt the same way. it spanned 6 yrs since his confess and their first date. I'd always knew my bro was resilient ^^. anyway i m really proud of him, at least he's one guy i know that is serious about his girl and their relationship, that's worth celebrating for.
congrats to his girl too, my bro is that one in a million guy and she found him.
haaa~~~ so sweet ><
wish that my bro can tell me his love story from the very beginning ><

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i honestly abhore my personality, sometimes i hate myself so much that i wish i wasnt myself....someone kill me....

i honestly do not know wad to blog about. i leave my computer on for nothing in particular, and do my work in front of it. amazingly, i do not get distracted. 3 consecutive days of rest was not relaxing at all, i m not allowed to relax at all. be it in school or not in school, i m as tensed up anywhere. every thought going on in my head is about study and school work. at home, i spend most of time doing homework, if not, worrying about it. yesterday, i suddenly came to realize that i had not sat infront of the tv to watch a tv show properly in days, or even months. (though i watched anime on com...)3 consecutive days of rushing my work, i'm still left with mounds of hw......they could bury me alive if i were to shake the foundation a little......maybe it would be better if they did........
dreading school..i wish i could be anywhere but school....school is even more horrifying that before. its horrifying the way it makes time go so fast, like its eating up ur time and that the time has passed without u noticing it...
i shud go to sleep...but its only 9.30, not used to going to bed this early....feels as if there's still incomplete work...

am sooo tired...more tired than yesterday after the run, weird isnt...
anyways, its been a long time since i'd finished reading a story book from head to toe. the book's called "Kite Runner", i cried once half way through the story.
It's a recount of a man's life from when he was 12 to somewhere arnd 40, the story abt how he had betrayed his best friend when he was young and found out that his best friend was his half illegitimate brother, but by the time he found out, he was nearing 40 and his brother was executed some time ago. he thus had a mission to seek out his nephew and bring him away from afghan and raise him as his own. along the way, he finally confronted his cowardice years back where he witnessed his brother raped but was too afraid to stand up for him. He fought the man who raped his brother, who also intended to rape his nephew. in the end, his nephew saved his by shooting a steel ball into the man's socket, just like how his father used to protect his brother in the past. then, it was a journey to bring his nephew into his family, along the journey he had carelessly and momentarily shattered the boy's new found hope by offering to temporarily place him in an orphanage while he settle the adoption matters. The boy attempted suicide that night, and he was terrified, he started to pray and do all sorts of religious thingies that he had not practiced in decades, suddenly realizing that there is a God, and God will forgive him and keep the boy alive.....
i cried once more at the end of the story, it was like a long journey finally coming to its end, and then u realize that u still want to continue walking...
...i dunno wad im talking abt, ...so wadever, i m going to sleep, nitez

yes i havn been blogging, i m sorry....
anyway just felt that i shoud blog for once in a long long time.
today was 2.4, blardy hell i failed again...nvm i shall excel in my retest....not that i din do my bes today, i really couldn run for some stupid reason, like my muscles are too tight...blah blah, they really were, i promise i will not walk for goodness sake during the rerun. anyway i always run better during reruns......
wth...time passed so fast that i din even realise its april already!!! eunice wrote down the countdown days to olvl and preprelim today and it was only 200+ days away!!!! aaaaa omgomg....and i m like still not done with my geog holiday homework which is due two days later and my blardy career essay due today but i m planning to do a draft for it tmr....slack right?
tmr is another long long day and i m now watching anime....slap myself....but i did my homework u see, so i deserve a bit of relaxation b4 i go to sleep....
sleep is like never enough these days, its like u lie on bed for awhile and u have to wake up alr....not even enough time to make out with whoever in ur dreams la....doopez....lucky i nv go to TJC, else my sleeping time would be cut until its so short that its uncuttable......
oh, no more wasting time, i shall go watch NANA ^^, yes NANA got anime ler! first episode yeeps1!!

just done watching HUNTER x HUNTER, not very happy with the ending, but rather happy that i finally finished the whole anime, from head to toe! 92 episodes leh, no mean feat ok, lol. what's really impossible is to try finishing ONE PIECE, coz its blardy damn long la, i m like at 169 only, and i have until 240 on my com, and it seems that its out till 260+ liao....dioonz...totally harshed my mellow....lol.
ONE PIECE is really fun to watch, am starting to go into this frenzy again alr...aaargh...
like i m juz done with one thing, and here comes another, tho i nv thot of watching anime tedious, but still i cant help but feel that there really is toooo much anime alr...its taking up too much of me, i cant concentrate on other things when theres anime around...
aaargh, i m going mental....

its raining outside, im looking at the cute little birds jumping arnd in the tree outside my window. just hope that they dont jump into my room, tt's all i ask for. remembering last time when we just moved in to my current residence, there was no curtain in the kitchen. and everytime we leave the window open for ventilation, the stoopid birds flew in and created a rackus out of my kitchen. why do i say they are stoopid??? coz they know how to come in, but they duno how to go out......silly billy....
anyway, i have to agree that rain makes ppl sad. "alot of ppl cry when it rains" quote Crystal from MIB2....ha... to think that i was so high just now singing in the shower.... (aw the birds look so cold...they keep fluttering their wings and trying to find shelter beneath the leaves.........)
i havn done a single piece of homework this whole aftnn....the time is sooo freaking wasted, but i just couldn bring myself to do my work...what is this??? uuurgh, curses...
oh man, today i unintentionally overheard someone's conversation over "what kind of gers guys like...." =.= dooopezzz... yes, this is the stage everyone goes through, the practise hunt for potential other halves...wadever it is...but, its really quite annoying to hear like almost everyone talking abt it..... what use is it to analyse what kind of gers guys like, so what if u found out?? it'll just put you down more as u realize u dun fit the descriptions at all.........=.=
oh well..............
shimin went home early today, she wasn feeling well, thought she acted strangely since morning. my darling : pls take care of urself...and get well soon...
the Mrs Secretary/Clerk (or duno what...) asked shimn whether she had flu-like symptoms or fever, just to play safe i guess...
anyway, today's council invest was boooring, i only liked Geraldine's dance, she rox!!! haha..ourclass sat at the last row, and slacked...it was the seat that *** sat last yr LoL, can i say i can still feel the warmth??? bwahahahaha...
saw Krystal on bus today, LoL it was sooo funny ^^. She msged me to say that we were on the same bus, and i realize that she was siting right infront of me...I LURVE KRYSTAL!!!! she'll always be the big SIS in my heart, i so envy that asshole alan to have such a nice sister, if only she was mine...boohooo...
right...shud i go do my work??
wait, wad are the stuff i need to do.......
oh yes... the freaking compo...i sincerely hate english lessons...for wadever reasons there be............

reading ppl's blogs can be really annoying, esp. ppl like PhOBeeBee....i didn noe she has a blog until one day i saw it. I went to read out of curiosity and found myself twitching at every word, it just gets on my nerve, really. i mean, some ppl are just so not realistic, why cant they be someone who's more acceptable and acknowledgeable?? why does she still have to obstinately go her own way when she knows that it's not reaping the fruit she wants. Super ACBC lor! I cant stand it! Never have i been annoyed this much, felt like punching her. Come one man, why do u have to be someone that ppl hates........
enuf.....i shall not let my mind linger over this subject anymore, disgusting out my brain cells...later i die of disgust how?

4/2'06 ROX!!!!

blog about today's March Games.
Our class emerged 3rd!!!! amazing rite, we actually beat so many classes! and last year we like kena kicked out in the 3rd game....
Wow, I lurve 4/2 man, my class rox seh! Didnt realize tt until today, =)
our team: Lester, Nat, Apr, Divek, Karnt(LoL), WeiHao, Adlin, PuuQin, Yuxian, Shimin (^^) and me, lol. Lester's so cool, and today's his bday ><, and Ian's too. Eck.
anyway, abt today.
met Shimin at the usual place at 0800. We were deciding wad time to meet ytd, she said 0755, and i was like "no not so early, so on time for wad, lets meet at 0805...lol" well so we met, i've given up hope to cajole, lure, seduce, plead, whatever her to play for the game. It's so wasted! She can play so well, and she dun want to play. She's soo obstinate and stubborn, haiya.... but bobian, she's shimin wad...
dono y our class's match was scheduled until so late, we waited and waited and waited somemore, still not our turn yet. Poor angeline, she came at 0745 and left at 0830, without watching our match, so poor thing...
so we went to watch bball matches with PuuQin and YuuXian, lol, first match was 5/1 against 4/8. it was fun to watch, we cheered at every goal, didn matter which side's goal also. Mr Lim played v well, and i rmb him saying he wasnt in his school team when he was in sec school. anyway, there was this LARD in the 5/1 team, ppl say that he's soooo PHAT he couldn even fit into the 2 poles of the basketball goalpost. damn, and u see the ripples when he run, yeeks, really look like running piece of Lard....
den later was bball match btw 4/3 and 4/6. and 4/3 won!!! woosh! LoL, i m loyal supporter. score was 12-10, i cudnt belive that they actually scored this many in such a short time. the match was good, coz the two teams got standard, lol. nice. realize most of the girls in the team no use one, haiz, there to fill up the names only, pathetic...
den hmm, wad did we do....
slacked arnd loh....... i tried to find balls so can play with shimin, ha, today she v ting hua, so obedient, ask her to play, she will play one, gd gd ger! Long long time nv play vball liao, reminisc...(wadever). (if not for tt f*king cheePANG, we wouldn land up liddat...) anyway, we were playing vball with Shimin, Apr, Nat Puu and surprisingly Mr Leow...din know he cud play...hehe. Den this terrible thing happened. I wanted to hit the ball, then walk walk, and trip over this little girl, and i fell flat on my face, not heavily la, but i hit my knee and it hurts. >< boohoo i must have fell damn ugly man, so no face liao lar....sit up and they all crowd arnd me and asked me whether im ok anot, ^^ feel so gd to hav ppl care abt u ><. Then i saw the Weihong and Jiahao there laughing at me!!! Woa, i can go flush myself down the toilet bowl liao, sooooo paiseh!!!!
Lol, stupid, then was the match against 5/1... oh b4 that, long long b4 that got play against 4/4, (seriously i dun like tt team ><). And we WON!!! WOOSH!!! I was so happy that i kissed Puuqin, lol, then she went eeeeeeeeeeing all over. Coz monday we lost to 4/4 4-3, sai, all my fault, keep falling off the chair... and tt fooking JAMES, that duno who's bf, keep knocking me off. And i think that he thinks his legs are beautiful (puke puke and puke somemore), coz he keep doing these, these stretches and duno what poses he did to show off his legs, diaoz....guys can be obsessed with body parts other than their chic?? lol, sick...
den aft tt match wit 5/1, we lost, but we played well, our team got fighting spirit! and Lester v GOOD ^^, the 5/1 team all so impressed haha. according to shimin, that shawn grabbed my hand when i was unstable on the chair.....i din know...now my hand feels weird...(faints) woa n he hit my waist during the game, duno whether he got grudges towards me or wad, hit until so hard, damn painful....haiz...den later they ask me to go down and change lester be captain...no choice, i go there be extra. ...i couldn do anything lor, kns, i was so angry wif myself coz i really made them lose the ball, later couldn get over it and i...last game against 4/3, i become spectator, sub PuuQin in... shout until voice hoarse liao...but realize tt 4/2 is really a nice class (except for some ppl....Lol)

okay, i knoe that time goes by fast, and it really does go by fast, im still traumatized that it has gone by so fast.
for crying out loud, its half way thru march alr.........
anyways, my results for this term was lousy, got a pretty 50 for my english, and bloody 60 for CHInese.
Hello? Me? Getting a fooking b4 for chinese?! I could go knock myself on the wall already.
Am i really more deprived or wad? y do ppl get 90+ while i could hover around 50-60?? Am i really that stupid??
oh shux......nvm........like everybd else's doing, i shall work xtra hard for the second term.

I do not think that my intepretations to life and understanding to certain issues are shallow and superphicial (however u spell it...), i do catch the gist of things and can add in my own opinions. y is that my mom keep saying that my comprehension skills are lousy? more often than not, i deem myself to be able to understand things that many can't. Izzat lousy??
in my opinion, my mom is the one who has weird understanding of things, sometimes i really couldn't care less about what she thinks, cuz it would always oppose to mine. Always......
even without realising that she's doing it, she says "no" by instinct.
why am i downgrading my own mother here......
nope, this is not downgrading, i luv her as much as i luv life (well...) its just that sometimes ppl need to complain.
i can't complain to her not because i think it's rude or disrespectful, but because that whatever i say will be immediately butted back at me.
i m 17! i know to a certain extent what is right and what is wrong, why is that every sensible thought I have, had to be shot back at me being unrealistic and impractical?? Come on!
Maybe sometimes what i say could be pretty improbable, like building castles in the air, unrealistic ramblings abt what i wanna do in the future. Hey, isn't there at least a little room for imagination and creativity??
I've just read an analysis on THE ENGLISH TEACHER. The themes about predictability vs unpredictability never hit me as much it did. It applies so well to my own life, that i kind of feel a connection with Narayan, that our lives have a similiar scent.
That our lives are stifling and mundane due to all the timetables and schedules and deadlines...where did the spontaneity and "live" life go??

I m posting the pictures i took at the Zoo yesterday, LoL, my first time at the Singaproe Zoo.
COOOl..........

siao ah pek

what a freaking day it was....
let me briefly recount the terrible event that took place 3 hrs ago.
...
it was a beautiful aftnn, with the terribly beautiful sun showering us with his beautiful rays of light.........
along the busy street of AMK, beside the teeny little bank,
this PESTY INSANE AH PEK came to us...
"$^%@$#^%$&...BO...^*^&*$"
i m thinking that he's probably asking for $$.
we picked up our speed and he sped up his.
we raced across Guardian, and we ran into the MINOSHE Brassiere shop.
AHA, come n get us old man, LoL.
He walked straight and down the road, disappearing around the corner of the bakery shop.
"Did he go away??"
"Let's cross over to the other side ^^."
We ran.
We saw.
He saw.
I peeked around the corner to see if he's still following, that's when my gaze met his, sending shivers down my spine. He's crazy.
We went crazy and took off running.
Thinking of heading back to PoPuLar, but no, we will still go to Mac.
So we took a UlU route along the carpark, and ran with all our might, charging into Mac.
Panting and sweating, we sat down at the small corner at the rear end of the mac.
we changed places 3 times, and ended up in the corner near the counter.
we thot we lost him.
we were wrong...
just as we savoured the last spoon of Msflurry icecream, i saw him sneeking around outside.
"Oh Shiit! He's here!"
Ducking my head under the table, futile attempts to hide myself. We put our heads on the table, and peeked from below our arms.
He peered around, sniffing our traces.....
he sneeked in, heading towards our first seat.

That's it! We are leaving this place!
I stepped out and almost got tripped over by a freaking umbrella poking out from the neighboring table.
"Damn it"
Meanwhile, Shimin was working on the entangled strap of my bag and the stool with futile efforts.

We shot out of the door and ran for our lives as fast as our trembling legs could carry us. We managed to escape. Once again. Cool.

Asagao

I found out what Morning Glory is in Japanese.
「朝顔」(asagao)
not fair, it sounds so nice ><
tt is one thing i like abt Jap, it sounds really soothing when u read it.

ok fine, i m rewriting my post, cuz the previous one was lost due to unknown causes.
im frustrated, cuz i hav to write this all over again.......
[breathe in....breathe out.......]
[SMACK!]
anyway, i ve got a new series to catch. I duno wad its name is, >< but it looks kind of promising with pretty nice graphics, and I think it's a Bishounen anime, and of cuz i would support all bishounens!!!
ok, tt was crap.
today is one whole week aft last saturday, the horrible outing i went to.
guess now i can say smth abt it.
ok, i shall continue tmr.....

a new anime coming ur way!

woosh! new anime to watch!
tho i've never heard of it b4, but its kinda promising ^^, excitement.
and later at 2230, its my fav kor. show! final episode, harhar, must watch.
and wad else....
the lost city of Bombay has appeared in the lift lobby, and I have to step over the relics everytime i go out or come back. Why do they have to do this? The floor looks pretty ok to me, doesnt look old enough to be replaced, y's the govt doing unnecessary things? Its not juz my block, the whole area is undergoin the same thing. Isnt it wastage?
my dad said it was inevitable coz the construction workers had to do some work, if the govt dont giv them smth to do, they'd have no income.
True.
Guess we'll juz have to put up with Bombay for some time then. Its not that bad either, kind of fun to walk on uneven ground.

Samurai Champloo!

i've just finished watching Samurai Champloo.
The ending was not remarkably touching or twisted.
Not much of an emotional stir even.
But I feel so fulfilled. Maybe because finally I finished this anime.
Samurai Champloo has a very unique style, there's one episode which was utterly stupid, it was abt the Mugen Jin and Fuu and somemore other unimportant people playing baseball with the americans. The americans inside were spastic, all they could say was "jesus", "oh my god" and "bastard"....it was like in the end the jap thrashed the americans and they did not dare to set foot on japan ever again. As if it was really true la. So gullible these ppl.
But of coz i was on Mugen's side, he was so hunky!
I liked Mugen and JIn, both of them were so desirable!!! lol....
anyway, what i liked abt them was that they are brave and they kill with style. Come on man, all who fight shud see how they fight la! Kewl beyond description man.
Envy Fuu so much, get to travel with those 2. I'd be so blessed if i cud really meet ppl like them. ><
Long Live! Mugen and Jin!

0h no......i m terribly regretting what i had just done.....how the hell did i coax myself to do it???
boohooo....cries........
its unblivable, i m actualy regretting this when i ve thot "dam it, juz do it man, cut! cut it. No more, finish, enuf!"
now i m really regretting it alr........
why the hell did i do tt for???
now it seems so empty alr.
noooooo.....it isnt happening.......
my mind is going bonkers!
life is so stressful!
i wanna die............

oh its really nice to kno tt i'm actually unattractive and undesirable.
great, brilliant.
that's all i wanted to hear.
Fine! I'll show u ppl what attractive and desirable is, bring it on man.
i feel so darn insulted.........
kns.
u ppl suck!

Feb 18th...the outing....the sadness...the tears.....

ever since last night, i cant help thinking abt him........
like the scenes kept replaying and I think I was very harsh and difficult.......
its not tat i did it on purpose, i jus didn like to left out, i get very frustrated. Especially is that kind of outing, all the more i'd think he hates me.
sighz.........guess i screwed up...........
frenz?

today is a super sucky day! i hate today!
was it me or jus that ..............hurrrrgh........forget it.....
jus remember tat today sucked like hell.

Os

The Day...
The day which the previous batch got back their "o" results.
There were alot of 6 pointers, it was so encouraging, i felt almost that I could be one of them too. If only i could get 6 points, i'd be able to go to TJC.
Anyway, I got back my Express Chi o results, I got an A1, i wasnt surprised, but b4 i got it back, i was dam worried and paranoid. I didn know that I would cry, it just came out when i heard my dad's voice. I sobbed into the phone, and gave my Dad a scare. He thought something terrible happened to me........ my dad....
it's always liddat, the paranoia b4 getting ur results.
you cant help but let your thoughts stray and get the better of you.
it depends on how you take the stress.
seeing the seniors get their results, i thought abt next yr, would i be able to walk out of the hall smiling? mayb not, would I be able to walk out with joy or sorrow? with pride or regret? it all depends, depend on how hard I work myself this yr.
2006, the very impt yr, the yr I take my Os.
but as Mrs Tan said, even tho O lvl is very important, it is only a passing stage in our life. whether we do well or not, we'd still have to get on with our lives. true?

I'd wish for all andersonians to fare for their Os, and pass this mere stage of our lives with no regret, and carry on, living our lives to the fullest, and make the best out of each and everyone of us. For everybody is a gem, u will polish and carve in order to shine. And it's impossible to not shine if you have polished and carved hard enuf.

I really hate myself...
Why can't i juz act normal? why do i have to be so uncomfortable arnd people?
Is it me? or what?

went for the MILK fund CIP thing this morning. Quite fun at the beginning. Feels great when u hear the coin doink into ur can. I observe that the elderlies are generally more generous. They doink quite alot of money. The kids also. when it comes to teenagers or young ppl, they are $%@$^%. Some just stare at me, some ignore me, some run away when I approach them. Like the hell i want to see their face so badly. Someone donated sweets to me, that's fresh.
Had to walk around smiling so brightly that i wonder what the hell happened...
anyway, it was quite ok la, at the beginning.
later, we were like dam tired. I m lazy to even talk. i became totally anti social and i duno, dun even wanna talk to shimin, who also didn bother to talk to me, coz she got her glamourous Charmaine.
sigh, why didnt daryl come to ToPaYo today??? would have walked up to him n ask for donations and hp no.... LoL
oh ya, i asked for donations from a tcher in anderson whom i duno, oops, awkwardness...
the stupid 88 and 159 take so long to drive from tpy to my home, i sit until i want to puke.
better avoid going to tpy...
when i got home, i ate noodles, it was heavenly coz i havn eaten since morning. then i went to sleep, i think i drooled alot, coz my pillow smells weird, eek.
I've got plenty of work to do tmr, hw and tests to study for, and i have lessons in the aftnn.
buzy day, all by myself, tt explains why i m anti social. i m like always alone.......
there were this 2 guys from china, they make their own mvs and upload onto e net, they are like so famous now, coz their mvs are dam funny.
when i watched their mvs, i laughed non stop, coz its really hilarious.
then i felt miserable, how i wish i cud be liddat, doing crazy things with my pal.
problem is where the hell is my pal?!
applying perfectly to this ancient saying:
(the one puuqin said for chinese lesson...)
相识满天下，知己有几人。
something like that, its a shame i forgot the orginal vs. well the meaing is there...
its really hard to be a happy teen.
like always thinking abt whether u are good enough, doubting yourself, unsure abt yourself....
hope i can step out of this, soon...

man, it sucks, i wanted to buy the inbase shoes today, but they were not there anymore! sobx....
anyway, engl. lesson today was not fun, tt Ms Heng was obviously biased la,every other group presented and when it comes to mine, she just let it be when we said we've got nothing much to add, when she insisted other groups to present when they were like also had nothing to add.
I dono what to say abt her, i like her lessons, its interesting but somehow i just feel quite uncomfortable. Like i always find her way of looking at me not very appealing. anyway, we've got another troublesome thing to do, prepare for a 3 min speech on reflections upon reading this article on Bullying. Well, this is a topic that I might have alot to say. But to say it infront of her, i probably need a dose of courage. I cant talk to her at all, i feel oppressed when she talks to me, like i find it difficult to even to look her in the eye. Guess I'll just have to brace it through, its due nxt fridae, i have one week's time to prepare, i m not sure whether its enough.
Today is obviously wasted, couldn buy the shoes i wanted, wasted 2 hrs walking arnd j8 for something not quite my business. i just don feel right, i mean its like its not even our business and u drag us along, and like leave us when u don need us anymore. Please la, i deem myself with alot of pride, i don like being treated like that.
cmon la, crap shit.....
i wanna watch advent children tmr and kns got the stupid MILK thingy.
we are doing it at tpy, again. no big deal for me. I shall go slag and pull thru the thing and return home in one piece to watch my beloved CLOUD!!!
Dad was sposed to swim with me today, but what a @$%@&%, he forgot to bring his swimming trunks. MAN, and he told Mom that it was because I didnt keep it for him! Aaaargh, isnt he atrocious??? so it ended up me swimming alone, and my Dad sleeping on the chair, darn he was so comfortable la.
let's see... i ve got tons of work to do, and i ve got my jap lessons on sun again. kind of don feel lke going....I m planning to cramp all my work to do on sunday tho. shud have enough time la....haha, im lying to myself obviously......dam...
ooo, its getting itchy, i wanna watch FF7 now!

i havnt been blogging for sometime, did i?
right now, i m breaking my head over that stupid lit essay about goodness of children...
there's no goodness in children! they are lil devils running all over the place!i find them cute when they cry...sense of superiority maybe. its ecstatic to see them cry, LoL, that was my secret hobby a long long time ago.
so, what shall i write for my essay?
i find it more frequent that I can't write an essay or a compo smoothly or fluently, it just gets stuck somewhere somehow. either it's because I m slowly forgetting my vocab or I m aging backwards that I donno how to construct a proper sentence. As Ms heng said, my writings are atrocious. never mind that, I think i'm running short on time to do my homework. there's pretty much i need to do. sighs....i m glad there's alot of work, but i juz don have the time and energy to do it....
god bless me ><

oh my god, i'm practically breaking my head over the two essays. its difficult to think. my story is in a mess. I can't even sort out how to begin it. I was trying to start writing out the plot, before I actually go to organise and present it the way i want to. However, even writing out the plot seems almost too impossible for me. i spent one day to come up with a story based on a dream i had, which i could only remember almost nothing about. and spent another day to think of a way to present it, and finally i did come up with something creative as i sat dreaming at the basketball court. I was glad that i went there, because it's pretty relaxing to sit and daydream. I know i shouldn think it a chore which would only make my life more difficult. but i cant help but think it a horrible horrible chore, as writing was never my forte (totally untrue of wad ms Heng said). I have to come up with a 1500 words long essay. I doubt i can even come up with 1500 words long rubbish, let alone a proper essay that would promise me an A in my CA2. Why do i have to go to b1??
the other essay, which I'm supposed to write about my father, was another tedious task for me to do. look at him, what 1000 words can i possibly make up to say about him? well, i could always start by saying that my dad is very very noble and kind...and blah blah blah....but i don want to write untrue stuff about my dad. not because i m worried that if my essay's chosen somehow and my dad gets invited and discovers that what i had written about is all bullshit crap. why would i ever think of that, i wouldn even want anyone to read my essay, for privacy and for dignity.
what can i do???
right now, i'm focusing on my commonwealth essay. i hope i can really really come up with something right. it was a fabulous dream i had, its a pity i forgot about it.
oh man...................i'd rather die........

Worshipping.......

I SAW DARYL!!!! AFTER SOOOO MANY DAYS!!!!!!
KEWL!!!!!!!!!!!!
LoL....
HE'S WEARING ALL RED JERSEY, OOO HOT, HAHAHA, MUZ B AFTER SOME TOURNAMENT BA.
KEWL KEWL!
WEEEEEEEE.................

i'M really starting to abhore ppl who do not respect others.
Either not respecting teachers, or just fellow ppl.
who do they think they are anyway? Being rude and all to ppl, and yet expect ppl to respect them? I think not.
everybody is so darn full of themselves that they could afford to trample on other's dignity. so what if you don like that particular teacher? U "walao" at whatever she says that you do not agree? u sleep during the class right below her nose?
think how does tt feel if it were you?
I bet you are too thick to even think of that.
probably you think its cool that u do not see the big deal of a teacher, that you are brave enuf to go up against her by doing little fidgets just to irritate her.
what good does that do?
and u get angry coz other ppl responds to that teacher u don like?!
please...save me the atrocity...
its just unbelievable that you are like that, I thought you were the sort who knows right from wrong, who respect others....
yet...
just take it that i've been blinded and...wadever...

freaking stupid singaporeans

i hate to say this, but those singaporeans are really getting on my nerve.
i don care if this is a sweeping statement, i m damn unhappy abt this.
Are there anyone more stupid than those ppl? I cant belive this la/
they can barbeque outside the lift, on the 5th floor...
siao la these ppl
dam inconsiderate, i bet those bags of rubbish tt were stuck in the chute were theirs, so darn stupid, they have to taught how to dispose rubbish?
they can freaking throw themselves in!
curse them.
its so dam obvious the father is having affairs, coz he married a dam uncouth and ugly woman who has never properly learnt her manners.
if she doesnt show respect to us, i can jolly well forget abt mine.
she's getting hell from me, mark my words, suckers.

A.I.R

看完了A.I.R 这部动画了。 好感动的。最后还哭了呢。
我好像从中学会了非常珍贵的东西。到底是什么呢？
我说不上来。
不过好像有种很满足的感觉。让人十分温暖那 (笑)
A.I.R 其实是一部很美的动画，描述着一个很凄美的故事。
刚开始还有点看不懂得说，有点摸不着头绪，跟一般的动画不一样。
说它曲折离奇吧，又好像不怎么复杂，蛮简单的故事背景来的。
但要说它简单吗，却又觉得故事的含义很深，令人回味。
所以我才说它很美 (^_^)

到现在，对A.I.R的映像还不是很清晰，朦胧的感觉挥之不去。
似懂非懂的样子。
回味呀，回味。。(v_v)

总觉得我好像变成熟了呢，长大了呢。
A.I.R 值得一看啊，感叹人与人之间的爱。
强力推荐哦！