I have had a little beer and I'm reading the wallflower story (can't remember the title due to the beer), and listening to indie music, all accomplished on my iPad, I love it, maybe except the drinking part, that basically is just me and my can.
Well, life has been good, I wouldn't call it great because I haven't found the love of my life yet and I am not being payed to do work that I love and also I suck at doing the work that I love. Yes the beer makes me honest and I love it like that.
My theory is that yes there are a lot of probabilities that could-have-been but did not happen for some reason, and I'd like to call that destiny because as corny as it is I believe one thing leads to another, and you wouldn't be surprised that the reason that you were conceived is because a certain gene merged with another gene.so it is fate and so far all the things that I have gone through are unique Or happened in a unique sequence that any different it would have been a whole different person.
I think at any one stage one has to come to terms with something in their life. I have had no proper boyfriend, although by comparison to peers, it may look like some sort of deficiency or abnormally, to me alls natural, no one whom I appreciate and appreciates me back has come by and also I happen to value my individual freedom a lot more than having constant male company. Also I would not like to hang out with uncouth, unwitty, unfunny, annoying people even if they are by society terms very socially attractive. I think i dislike people easily, and find it difficult to love people, my love is precious,I'd like to think that way, it cannot be applied to all mankind, not even everybody in my social circle. So people who have gained my love, char Tyler yongcheng Stepf sq Jess qiyue Ren michael wahk rachel ymy... And many more actually be it they still participate in my life or not, you guys are like seashells that I pick up from the sand and keep with me. Like a java program, you guys have Access to my private variables.
I haven't had a really inspiring teacher,a really special someone who helped in my puberty process that I'd like to give thanks to, but well I respect all my teachers because teaching is indeed a respectable profession and those who has a passion for it have my respect for all times.
Sometimes I lament I have had a difficult childhood surrounded by loneliness, helplessness, estrangeness, but sometimes I look at the good times, they are not that significant shapers or modificators after all. For I have a happy family, parents an
grandparents who love me, whom I love, friends whom I love and loves having me around. I am healthy, I am pursuing my passion I am heading in the right direction upwards in a pretty organized society. It's really not bad a life I have had.
Yes I do not yet have a sex life, I still have my first kiss and my hymen intact at this ripe old age, well I'd have to admit I am old fashioned that way even though I am not against premarital sex and in fact quite supportive of it knowing that a good sex life is very important for a healthy relationship.
Sometimes I think not having a sex life is sad because that's what all the US dramas tell me, I just hope that this stage of sexlessness will come to an end soon. Any normal young woman would fantasize, so Yar...
I am thankful for the friends have made over the past 10++'years, especially ones who have stuck with me for rather long. I wishI could say that we went through thick n thin together but no, I rarely had very difficult times in my life so far so, nothing to attest these friendships yet but I know for sure I will do my best to keep up the good end as I have watched enough animes to know that friends are people worth to die for.
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