at a lost at how to feel....

My Grandfather just called.
My Great Grandmother passed away yesterday, approximately 2 and a half years after my grandmother, her daughter, died.
My GreatGrandma, whom I am fortunate to have met, even for that short period which I could hardly recall, lived to 102 years old. She was a happy old lady with a very positive view for life, partly (I think) due to having slowly lost much of her memory (she claims she didn't know i existed..). Fortunately, she passed away peacefully during her sleep, serene.
I pray for her safe journey in the other world.
Now that I have only 2 Grandparents left, Grandpa from my mother's side, and Grandma from my father's side. I didn't have a complete set of grandparents to begin with, my dad lost his father during the tomultuous period, when he was only 16.
Life and Death...
I'm beginning to think about living and dieing...
sometimes, i couldnt feel alive, i feel as if i'm dead but still moving like i'm not.
i m confused...not really sure about how to think or feel about my GreatGrandma's death...the sadness came in slowly, to think that I announced it loud and clear to my mom...now, I can't seem to think anymore..........

my bro

haven't been blogging for pretty long time i think.
juz felt like writing smth after reading my brother's blog. dam philosophical he became. however his philosophies centre around love and the nature of sex and stuff liddat, juxtaposition of sex between animals and humans.........tt kind of freaked me out. Guess this is wad guys his age think about. They tend to give it the scientific tinge instead of just the emotions and feelings we girls have. werd.
anyway, i could still remember the day he introduced his girl to me, i was dam smart to see through his teeny lie that she was only a friend. I was a little shaken and melancholic after he confessed that the girl was his special person. Not that I'm in lurve with my brother or wad, but the possesive inclination just couldn admit that my brother had a girl other than me. well, i happily forgot about it aft that, and went around telling my relatives abt it other than his mom, coz however big my mouth is, i kept my promise to him, not to let his mom know abt it. Secretive... If i was his mom, i would have known tt my son had gotten himself a girl, its female intuition, or my aunt was pure dumb, oops.
in his blog entry, he wrote that he doesnt ask much out of this relationship, doesnt necessarily have to have alot to talk abt when they are together, he's juz happy that they are together even if they feel akward. That really sounded like a love story, kind of cliche, but i guess its bcoz everybody felt the same way. it spanned 6 yrs since his confess and their first date. I'd always knew my bro was resilient ^^. anyway i m really proud of him, at least he's one guy i know that is serious about his girl and their relationship, that's worth celebrating for.
congrats to his girl too, my bro is that one in a million guy and she found him.
haaa~~~ so sweet ><
wish that my bro can tell me his love story from the very beginning ><

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