fuck you, asshole!

thank you, god, or whoever's up there, for giving me and my family the most unthinkable gift on the bloody christmas night. Whoever's up there, i m definetly gonna smash ur ass.This is the worst day of my life! My mom's crying again. My Dad's silent, and i m not sure what he is thinking, and me, am here cursing the god. Why? We just received a call from my Unc, that my aunt, mom's younger sis, has got some bloody illness! I loved my aunt alot! She's de nicest aunt ever! And for god sake! Why does my mom's family keep getting these bloody illnesses!? WHO'S GONNA BE NEXT? huh? You bloody hyprocrite, it's christmas! u ass.....................

“一个不相信自己的人，没有值得认同的价值。”
“下次再见面时，我会成为更厉害的男人！” ----------小李。

ooooo

long time never blog liao, rusty le.
today is de official day of me starting to learn flute(by meself leh!!! proud sia). I was playing "Serenade" just now, although total only 4 notes to play, still got me all sweaty sia, play flute must have v big chest, then can have enough air to blow. Heard that someone even play until vomit blood because of improper breathing and over-exhaling, bla bla. I definetly don't want that, that poor guy never can play de flute anymore after that mouthful of blood, serious damage to system. So this kind of thing is not going to happen overnight, so i'd better not dream and be pratical, practice everyday lor..... must change attitude, cannot procrastinate anymore, must be eager in life, look down on others but never look down on self (my no. n th moto)
but considering whether want to go for trainin tml, really don feel like seeing all those ppl de faces, 気持ちが悪い。。。 I think now most de boys all start to grow le, tt day saw ChangRong, he taller than me liao, tt y didnt want to talk to him, cause v paiseh, used to look down to talk to him de, now muz look up liao.........aaaargh, i so wish that i could be a guy!!!
anyway, was watching ONE PIECE just now, finally got to the part with the Ms Wednesday and Mr9 thing liao, v amusing sia. Got one guy, code name Mr.8, kept on singing Ma~, Maa~, Maaa~~ like choir ppl, made me laugh until fall of the chair. I LOVE ONE PIECE!!! And Luffy and ZORO are SOOOOOO COOOOLLLLL!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh

muscles

a few minutes ago, i was singing to Ayumi's End Roll, with my ears plugged. My Dad must have shouted pretty loud as i was able to hear him over my earphone's volume 9. He said my singing was horrible, i didnt believe him, so i used me hp to record my singing all over again. It wasnt tt bad, i mean, anyone who sings with the ears blocked comes out that way wat, and mine was still with the tune and all, jus tt it sounded like desperate cries or something if i put it in an v objective way. Hmm, i shall practise my singing sometime, i m somehow losing the grip nowadays......... haha.
anyway, today went with Mom to that Sheng Song (watever.....)Super Mart today, there was a LOT of stuff, and a LOT of ppl, and very little space. I kept banging into ppl, and get pushed around by sickening malay woman, really, she really pushed me!!! how @#@$!#$#@$@#$%
so we bought a lot of things, and we walked all the way to Hougang Point, wasnt that far, but was really tiring, coz i held the bags like monks holding water............sounds weird, but anyway, i held the bags of stuff with my arms outstretched, straight. and according to me mom, i looked totally amusin, she was laughing her head off while watching me behind. i did that in order to develop some more muscles on my arm, but the process proves to be quite harsh, but i'll try and keep up the funny work, and someday i'll............................................

sianzzzzzzzzzzz

totally bored, how?
i had even resulted to try and watch TWee all day to kill my time, and even that was futile effort. NO decent programmes to watch, i had long gotten sick of the bloody maths questions, and now it seems that boredom has stripped away all my desire to draw. The pictures that i drew these few days were bullshit. Souless, meaningless, and what more? how i wish i could find myself a decent job to do.........................................................................................................................................................

omg compare and contrast!!! wa kao, that guy is so good!!! must bai ta wei shi!!!! man! i m absolutely stunned!
i m not stealing the pic! i onli want more ppl to see, copyrights to Kaedi from oekakicentral..........gomennasai!!!

mei yan told me yesterday that i got into the chinese lit, damn, i was shocked. I pratically wrote piles of bullshit on that sheet of question paper. maybe it was because there was only Angeline and me going for that thing, so it won't hurt to have an extra person there. Uh, i got a bit offended by refering myself as extra, but yar, still i was v shocked. My Dad was shocked too, he went into a bit of a blank when he heard that, haha, no la, exageratin oni, he got shocked and then asked me did they make a mistake..... surprisingly i wasn't e least offended and told him "probably" and he replied "that should solve the question", funny conversation between us rite? but i know deep down he was sure that i m smart, but definetly not smarter than him, both of us are such freaking narcistic ppl, haha, genetic u see.........
speaking of Mei Yan, she definetly stepped on my tail today, hard. She asked me to go for vball training in TJC and i thought "Ok better than Anderson one" so i got up v early today, washed up, jell my hair and blah blah blah, and walked all e way to that bloody-very-far 854 bus stop to wait for her. And i waited and waited and waited, so long till i realised that she flew my pigeon. I got her home phone no. from Angeline and demanded mei yan's mom to wake her up (actually not demand la, i was v polite de), true enough she went flying my pigeon in her dream, and was much more shocked to find me calling her than me realising that she flew my PIGEON!!!!! Damn, i was angry, how could she do that, so v irresponsible!!! waste my time and energy, curses........... next time she asks me out, i'd have to wait for her signal before i take actions.............provided there is a next time.
Then just now, Desiree called. Wonders how it's been since we last talked, and i recognised her voice immediately, but somehow her voice sounded very soft and gentle, i got scared, haha, Desiree becomin gentle comes after the end of the world, very very scary.... um, her email add, one thing i must add, was very very .........unique and ..........stylo? it was wa-biong-eh.......@hotmail.com...........i got shocked once again, scientists said that getting shocked too many times a day could land u with spastic bladders..............
um, then we talked abt M1, everythin under de sun............brrrr, shudders, suddenli v cold sia.
and found out that she had had 2 BFs and had just broken up with the second one. hmmm, i'd always knew she'd find someone, so i wasn't surprised. yar, so we tok and tok and tok, after a while we all got out of topics and so we hanged up.
currently mom and dad are toking abt me hp bills, i donno how the number shot up to 75 bucks, which was e biggest shock i'd gotten recently. my msg and calling time wasnt even near being used up how did that $42 pop up from nowhere? i m gonna call singtel tml, my dad nagging again, so irritatin...............aaaaaaaaaaargh

Casshern Part II

i have to finish wat i have started, i have to be v determined, i can do it!!!! YOSHI!

so um where was i? oh yes, the running part. Brai and some others were running running and more running, before they came pass Testsuya's dead body, and Brai had some eye contact with Tetsuya's spirit, who's got heartache at that moment, i think, (what do u suppose he has?!). Brai went on running, and ran into Dr.Midori's small little black car, that ger with her somehow died, and then she was trying to save one of the dying New Human, Brai was very touched by this. So after that Midori realises that she couldn't save the person, Brai takes her, and went on running again..... for a short 5-10 min, i went to release myself, and when i returned, Brai and company were somewhere at the northpole, probably, but you never know where in Kazuaki's movie, the places start jumping all around and you can get really confused. yar, so those ppl were covered in snow, and still inching forward, in search of smth-i-donno-wat. One of them, a woman, i think she was Sagray, started crying really painfully as her baby died, she buried it in the snow. Brai was deeply engraved by sadness that he howled at the sky (soundless), and then the clouds cleared and then "there was light" (i half-expected to see a smiling sun), later, a huge castle emerged. the ppl went in and somehow took over it, and started fitting weapons to themselves. Brai went on blabbering abt that the humans do not have the right to kill their ppl and blah blah blah, they wanted revenge.
meanwhile, Luna found Tetsuya's dead body and she was crying and screaming over it, then came Azuma, you can't tell whether he's sad or happy, he was emotionless. He opened e coffin and carried Tetsuya to the blood pool, and tried to revive him. true enough, he revived, and with supernatural powers.
Then i couldn't remember much what happened next, i will jus skip to where i still remembered.........
The new humans set up their own empire, and start to kill the human from all over, and capturing scientists. one day Sagray together with Akubone went to capture Dr.Kozuki, just when Kozuki was telling Luna abt Tetsuya's new outfit, which was souly to protect him so as his skin would not tear due to the powers. there was a little bit of struggle between Sagray and Kozuki, but of course Sagray had no effort to capture him, Sagray was so cool!!!!
then Tetsuya appears to be e hero, fight Sagray, and whoever saw his suit, would think how come Power Ranger came to visit. At least make the costume nicer, it totally shattered the cool impression earlier.............. and now to stress on the director's filming skills. What he did to the Sagray vs Casshern fight scene was suitable for MTVs not for movies, why? because it was too god damn flashy!!! at least let us see how they fight right, let us be impressed by Tetsuya's supernatural powers!? but then, there were onli flashes of their faces here and there, and Sagray's screams of "yaaa!" "haiiiii!", and then there was a knife in her belly and she went staggering back and out of view. we ppl watching were shocked, because this is ferst ever movie you'd ever watched filmed in MTV style, pure MTV i can say. What can u expect?! He's a MTV director wad, and it's really v unbelievable that this movie actually cost US$6 million. de worst thing i can say about it is, "it's a waste of money."
ok, i shall continue another time,

Naruto Character: Naruto Sama Desu!!!!

Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net

hooo that was fun, nice quiz, i m pretty glad tt i'm him, hehe
and me got a new email!!! mugiwara_kaizoku@orangeday.net

Casshern Stuff, OOo Yea

Time to update about yesterday, boy, t'was pretty crazy....
yup, it was the Manga Competition, plus the movie preview of Casshern, I will tok abt de movie later.
Ferst, it was the competition, i guess it was pretty smart of them to decide to not fix any place for us to draw, they told us we could sit anywhere we like within de boundary between "this building" and "that building", they don have to busy themselves to arrange anything (I was jus bitten by a god damned bug), and we could make ourselves real comfortable, me and Sarah sat at against de pond, the pond was rather beautiful, with ALOT of fish. And mind you, when they say it's a building, it really is one, if i was a guy, i would have went to Chinese High no doubt, the school itself is enough to shut u up, damn, it's huge @. @ So yup, we started drawing at 4.30 sharp. We were supposed to draw 1 out of the 6 Casshern characters into Manga style, Sarah drew Luna, coz she thinks she's really beautiful, and I drew Barashin, coz he's really cool. Well, i think that both of us did pretty well tt day, and the pictures were bravo, her Luna looked so sweet and my Barashin looked so hot, haha.... after that we went to hand in our works, according to character, and we saw really great ones, the pros, and the really bad ones, "amateurs" i told Sarah. She said i was mean, i bet she's got it in her mind too, only that she didn’t say, hmmm.
After that, we walked around a little before the buffet started. Man, when it comes to food, it seemed that everyone turned into savage animals, i could never forget the picture when all de ppl swarmed to the food, it took the both of us quite some time before we managed to get our dinner, that was when the troglodytes started to evolve, they queued up, how amazing, this was like a miniature evolution stage, haha.
One terrible thing happened when we were scooping our fried rice and mee?? (Forgot what its called), guess who popped up from nowhere and said "Hi.” o, it's too terrible to refresh the memory.......... ok, let me continue the story. We sat on one of the benches and devoured our food. it was really good! Yum Yum! But i can't help to notice what's going on with the family sitting right opposite us, we were "this" close. Sitting in e middle was a scrawny thin little ger, in between her parents (i think, coz one of them looked pretty old to me), and oh man, i wonder whether tt ger has any dress sense, she's already that skinny that it made her head look big, she's still wearing clothes that makes her look skinny all the more, haizz, how i wish to tell her....
on her right left was her Mom, another woman with bad dress sense, i cant remember exactly what she wore, except for the strikingly pink scarf she has round her neck, and her pinkish makeup combo, oooo, no offence, but she really reminds me of that evil woman from e Dalmatian movie, Devila (was it????). I guess, the ger must have felt all embarrassed as the pink-Dalmatian-evil-woman wasn't really well mannered, although i can see she tries very hard to look all nice and ravishing, but i guess she just tried too hard. Ok, enough with this, Sarah’s gonna say I’m v mean.............am i? I thought i was a rather kind person, hehe.
After the food, was the movie preview.
The movie Casshern, was produced by a used-to-be MTV director and photographer, Kazuaki Kiriya, who's also Utada Hikaru's husband, that solves e mystery why they kept playing Utada's songs, over and over again, but it was nice, both me and Sarah loved Sakura Drops.
According to what I’ve read abt the movie on the admission ticket, Casshern cost US$6 million, which contained 70% CGI, what they say a unique (why do they say "a" not "an") blend of live action photography and computer generated anime effects, which was very very true....
the story's about 2 men's struggle with love and life. (I just found out that bloody bug bit me 2 times!!!)
List of Characters...........
Prof. Azuma (genetics scientist), Prof. Midori (wife of Azuma), Tetsuya (Son of Azuma), Luna (Tetsuya's Love), Dr Kozuki (Luna’s Dad). New-Cells-Generated-Human aka New Human: Brai, Sagray, Barashin, Akubone, Casshern (Tetsuya)

(ok, i m copying this following part wholesale from e synopsis on e ticket, heehee)
The father Prof.Azuma, sacrifices family life to find a cure for his terminally ill wife Prof.Midori, a victim of the chemically continuous war.
The son Tetsuya, who is alienated from Azuma, is unaware of his father’s military supported secret experiments on human cell regeneration, which could provide mankind with everlasting life. (Which is reproducing human body parts, but later in e show, the body parts joined together and formed e nu human...)
Against his father's advice, Tesuya leaves his fiancée Luna and volunteers for military service. He dies in combat. Strikingly beautiful Luna is shattered at her loss (i dono y they wanto mention tt she's strikingly beautiful here, doesn’t make much sense).
It is as if heaven heard Luna’s longing for Tesuya, a powerful lightning bolt strikes and Prof.Azuma's human cell regeneration pool begins to activate. Body parts rejoined and mutants emerged.
Casshern, the reborn Testuya with superhuman powers (these powers made him look like Power Ranger and Chicken, according to Sarah and me), returns to "Stop e War" between mutants, their army of robots and the ruling Eurasia armed forces. Will Luna find her loved one in Casshern? Can Professor Azuma save his wife? Is it possible for mankind to co-exist and avert self-destruction? .....This US$6 million Casshern Partners and Shochiku Presentation of a live action sci-fi adventure film directed by Kazuaki Kiriya has won critics ' praises since opening in April 2004 in Japan.......Almost 70% of the film is CGI, a unique blend of live action photography, a computer generated and animated effects. Kazuaki Kiriya who is one of Japan's top fashion photographer and MTV director recently married Utada Hikaru, a top international J-pop star, who sang the Casshern theme song..............


Ok, that was e synopsis. i was very eager to watch this movie after i read these, but was really disappointed after the movie's finished. Let me tell u my part of the story. Ahem....
the movie started with Azuma announcing to the audience abt his theory of the new cell thing, and made the crowd real angry which later left, leaving only the above mentioned military ppl, bcoz the Commander (a reeeelly old man) wants to live longer... and blah blah blah (there’d be some missing parts, coz i do not have a superb memory). Then was e scene of the Azuma family and Luna + her father taking photos in a reeeelly beautiful garden with those white flimsy stuff flying around, it was really a beautiful picture, and i have to admit that Kazuaki sure puts in photography skills to good use. (Back to e show) so they were taking the picture, and suddenly Tetsuya announces that he wants join army, but Azuma disagrees, and you know typical father and son quarrel. One thing i wanna mention is that, when Tetsuya announces that he wants go army he said it (in Jap) so fast and emotionless, u'd think he's a lousy tape recorder. So yar, Tetsuya joins e army and went fighting with the 7th ??? (paiseh, forgot what they called it) and the scene goes back to Azuma in his lab and was toking with Dr.Kozuki, telling him tt his theory isn't working blah blah blah when his phone rang ..........
Meanwhile, Ds.Midori was still in that beautiful garden with some other ger, when some car arrived outside and she sent the ger to go look. After the ger's gone, Tetsuya appeared and went to Midori and told her "Mom, I'm back." what a touching scene, beautiful mother and handsome son.............. They went on toking for a while before the ger returns, with a guy whom i suppose is Tetsuya's comrade in battle. Then he saluted, and suddenly it was soundless, and u could only see his mouth moving (typical MTV style), luckily both Sarah and me could read his mouth and knew wad he said, hahahahahaha. Well, he said "tetsuya ga shin!” which meant testuya is dead. Then he went on about how he died (he was killed by a bomb when he was trying to carry a little ger up) and what an honorable death it was and he'd be granted the highest military funeral, in between sobs and tears and bogies. The scene switched back to Midori, and u cant actually see her face draining, coz she was wearing all white, her expression then really tears ur heart, u know, so sad that we almost shared her sadness. But it was her scream of despair that triggered our tears, (i did shed a few at tt moment, honestly). Then de lightning strike Azuma's lab. It could be so amazing if they jus let the bolt go, but instead the bolt solidifies and just, well, stayed there, in the lightning shape some more..........u'd think it's stupid, typical MTV again.........
after the lightning, the bodies in the lab, in the red water pool, or was it blood pool whatever, started joining up, and WOALA!!! The pool's filled with naked bodies........... Whoever called the military, and they all started shooting all the naked bodies, only some managed to escape.
They ran ran ran ran...................... no more naked, they rap themselves up with dirty linens. Their leader, Brai, however rap himself up with the military flag on top of the building (god knows how he got up there). Then more running.................. (This is getting confusing...hmmm)

咳嗽好难受啊

今天和诗棋跑去Jurong Library，到那里消遣。哇塞！那里真的好宏大呀，那有人把图书馆开的那么大的呀！有病啊！？但是开那么大有屁用呢，我要的书始终没找着，真是失败。
我到现在还在咳嗽，好像有点变本加厉的感觉，好辛苦呢。刚才在车上差点咳得都要吐了，为什么我的咳嗽还不好？老天无眼！！今天出门的目的是要卖画漫画的用 具，结果没想到那些东西贵得已经远远超出了我的预算，所以才只卖了两支笔，但却花了12块钱了！！！新加坡的书店真吃钱！老子又没钱你，干吗买那么贵 嘛！？

Boredom No. 26545

haaaaa, now i really wish that i have a scanner, then can scan and upload e beautiful pic i jus drew, am so proud of it!!! so sad, cannot show off, haiya...........
it was a pic drawn to a scene from Cinderella Story (which i watched almost over 10 times), the scene where Hilary Duff danced with Micheal Chad Murray ( or Murray Chad Micheal or Chad Micheal Murray...........) in de pavillion, it was so sweet!!! (Austin Ames was so cute!!!) ok, although in de pic i drew, Sam didnt look like Sam, and Austin didnt look like Austin, but, it was still a brilliant masterpiece.............i know it's kind of thickskin to praise me work like that, but, i m onli telling the truth (blink blink).
today, i received a letter from another wannabe pen-pal, she's 2 yrs younger than me (not that interested), but i think i will write back to her some other day. how come i don't get some guy pen-pals, Japanese guys are kind of cute, i heard.......heehee
i m still coughing, yar, was recovering already in the morning, but curse myself for eating the look-so-delicious-peanut butter and now i m coughing like Angeline................
wonders how they are now, angeline, mei yan and my laogong, they've been in me hometown for 3 days already, so envious, i also wanna go!!!
oh ya, big news, Jian Rong got stead already!! woohoo! congrats, bro, never thought u'd get attached so soon sia. but better than that Yuan Hong, i heard he's got stead also, man that's when you say "Unbelievable sia O.O", i bet his stead mus be blind physically and mentally, haha.
but for Jian Rong, yarlar, expected one, it's a sooner or later thing, at ferst wanted to match-make him and Shimin one, then my plan failed, abish........ but nvm, will go and dig for more details on nx Thursday, at least he must show his gerfren de photo to me, mus let me know ferst hand wat, i m ur Jie Jie leh, but then, haizz, guess i'm a very shi bai jiejie..............sobs
tml, going kino, get watever i can get and watever affordable, and maybe go to tt Jurong Library Shi Qi was toking about. Truthfully, now i'm very into books, i donno why............
haiz, now got inspiration again, go draw erotic pic liao, haha

supposed to have alot to say one, but donno how come now nothing come out..........haizz
should be toking abt chalet, quite fun, for e ferst day onli, de staying over part was like torture for me. i didnt get to sleep, not because i cant, but i don want, i hate sleeping with other ppl, somemore squeezing with 3 other ppl onto one bloody bed is too much for me, and that day itself, because of e bbq, i think made my cough worsened, then lie on de bed, cant sleep juz keep coughing and coughing, very 辛苦 then after that got up and went to toilet, stomache pain and lao sai (paiseh), very 难受. the part where we told ghost stories was quite fun la, like really camping lo, except i cant stand Joan's whines, it's like she keeps wanting ppl to give in to her, to give her wat she wants, bloody hell, as if i would care, other than that, she's ok.
haizz, now come to think of it, nothing much about the chalet lor, cant remember much about it, if 难听一点, it was pretty sian....too bad, cough cough
right now, i m still coughing non stop, but at least got 理由 can escape training, if not, haiya, donno wad will happen, later i m going to de doctor there, ask him get my obs thing signed, then everything done, then tml go orchard buy manga materials, come back practise abit of drawing skills, get ready for monday's competition, i hope i get chosen leh, de chosen ones get so much to do lor, get to design stuff for some movies, or so i remember, aaaaaaaaaaaargh, pray pray pray

my cough has worsened, and i had to drink alot of water, which doesn't seem to help, and my pee is to be calculated by galons............let's see
i drank 7 one-litre-bottle of water, (how many litres = 1 galon arh?). if one galon = 1000 litres then, i've drunk total 0.007galons of water......and hopefulli my pee isnt tt lot, if not, i m afraid i might choke de pipe............
anyway, i pray that i didnt get bronchitis like Angeline, seeing her cough is hard enough, seeing me cough....i donno what to say.............
tml going for e chalet, yup, should be staying there overnight, what am i gonna wear???

I'm coughing like mad right now, and finally i understand Angeline's pain, hope i didnt get any serious problems, pray pray.............

老爸又在取笑我了，太过分了，居然把我的创作当成笑话看待。虽然是有那么点好笑 （这不是重点），但是也太过于清是我的感受了啦！！！
昨天我闲暇时写了这么一段：
[ 人非草木，我是人，又如何能不动心。如今我已失去令我动心的“他”，麻木的心确任然动着。。。。]
哪儿好笑呢？老爸说，既然我已失去令我动心的东西，为什么我的心还在动着。。。
想起来，的确听矛盾的，所以我也觉得蛮好笑的啦。
明天要干啥嘞，真伤脑筋，希望我拜托老妈买得The Incredibles 能尽快到手，我都等不及了啦!!!

黑血慢慢地淌着，但我却。。。。
直到大地被我的血染成一片漆黑，我才发现，
原来我已不再。。。
虚拟的我，漫无目的地漂浮。
看见了，在黑暗中的一丝光芒。
我欣喜地飞去，身体渐渐有了温度，黑白电视机变成彩色的了。
我飞啊飞，和光芒拥抱，与其合为一体。
我好开心。。。
黑暗慢慢散开，黑血也渐渐蒸发，而我则成为光明中的一颗小黑点。

海賊王の事はちょっと久しぶりだた。今日はもう一度XPは俺のパソコンに取付けられた。ちゃんとOKです、いままで。
今日は少し退屈させった、でも楽しいかった。
明日きっと朝の走る事が絶対できる、まだ逃げられないです。私臆病者じゃないです、ですから、恐れの事は逃げられないです。それは、新しいの俺です。

我好累呀，这一天下来我都快虚脱了，明天要穿什么呢，好伤脑筋啊。
爸妈好像蛮反对这份工作的，说会浪费掉这一个假期，我也不知道该怎么办。
找工作真麻烦，我好想这个假期就这么混过去就完了，妈咪怎么这么强人所难呢。我好辛苦呢。。。我去睡了。

on the edge of a mental breakdown right now, feels like i haven't been actually talking to anybody in days, let me see whether i have bad breath......
lame, ok nvm, boredom boredom boredom, guess that's e only word to describe our pitiful holidays, and u actually have to go back to school 4 days per week for bloody volleyball trainings.....this is pure torture, i managed to skip today's session coz of the rain, but still can't come up with an appropriate excuse for it, everyone else has MCs, how could they do that, all get flu and cold at the anointed moment? why am i left out? curse tt bloody runny nose, why cant it run a few more days longer?
guess it's me 5th time watching Cinderella Story, ZiJun would be so proud. why? beats me....
y cant i just get a bloody part time to waste away this eternity of boredom? why do i have to put up with that bloody volleyball trainings where i m obviously not needed, i hate to admit it, but yar, since they do not need me there, why do i still have to go?! bloody assholes!!!!

feels weird, maybe i've grown taller....? coz today wake up then go outside skipping, my used-to-be-long skipping rope seemed so short, and i couldnt skip normally, had to like curl my legs....haha, i really did grow taller!!!! weee!!!!
ok, taday is officially de first day of my holiday, and i can't stand it already, so boring!!! i m like watched the Cinderella Story for 3 bloody consecutive times already, although it was quite sweet, but u see, i really cant keep myself busy, and not wasting my precious time......i m bored i m bored.....
later, going to Ethel there to play badminton, although she did not invite but i decide to tag along, entertain myself, maybe pretend the others (ahem.....u know) are invisible, anyway, i think de only ones that could really play are Jelyn and Lap Tak, and i'm definetly not going to play with Lap Tak so ya, that narrows. wats wrong with Ethel anyway, she's like leaving me out on everything, even if she's knew that i may reject because of some ppl, but she could have at least asked me, at least make me feel needed, wads fucking wrong with her?! I don owe her, bloody hell.....
aaargh, irritating, i go watch One Piece...... fuck .......

the light in the living room is going on and off, very irritating, and Dad, out of pure laziness will say " 没关系，闪就闪咯。。。”I can no longer fish out anything to say, speechless...
anyway, today's Jelyn's birthday party and we had a hell of a time, woohoo! Congrats Jelyn, for turning 14!!!
yup, ferst we did the bloody water bombs, and one thing i must comment, it was pretty fun, and curse that bloody Chloe, she poured one whole basin of water down my back, and poor Jelyn, i think wherever i went i always left behind a print of my ass.
they we went to play 终极密码, that must be either Jelyn or Angeline's favourite game, this time is like last year, same place same people, same punishment, eat gross mixture of things.
i m particularly proud of the grape one, the one that we split the grape in half, put one M&M on one half and two drops of tobasco( i know it's wrong spelling), and guess who gana-ed? Meiyan!!!
poor she, she total gana 3 times, eat all the horrible stuff. haha
me gana one time only, the last round, the one that i had to pick out 8 M&M/Resin using me mouth from a plate of flour. not that bad, but i wonder whether they'd got that idea from Fear Factor, they always ask them to pick things up with their mouths....prrrr, and now that my nose is feeling kind of weird, the right nostril is running profusely, and i think that ( this may be disgusting but i still wanna say) i have "flourified" mucus.....pretty disgusted myself, but it sure is de truth and a truth nonetheless, how stupid of me to inhale when my face is in the flour!!!
then come the birthday cake, hardcore man, haha, very difficult to cut, and the toy they had on top was sweet but hard, i couldnt devour the white elephant....remorse...
then came the cater, yup, it was pretty good, and we ate it while watching Mean Girls, which i think, didn't make much of a sense to me, t'was pretty funny when we watched it, but yar, didnt make that much sense now, can't even remember clearly a scene from it....hopes that Cinderella Story's nice, and yar, many thanks to dear dear ZiJun, she was so nice!!!
yar, and yesterday, last day of school, pretty sad, coz no more 2/4'04 and no more Jelyn, Ethel and Mei Yan next year, sobs, will miss them dearly.......it's really very sad!! only one thing that i'm glad of, that is no need to be same class together with some freak, whom yar, i really detest, abhor and alienate. i pratically hate his company, nothing good comes from it..... but who cares now, that i m free from the torments....muaharharharhar...
one more thing, i m so power man, i downloaded almost 20 over episodes of One Piece in just two days!!!!! no mean feat, man, it's the achievement of the century!!!! whish!!!!

真可悲，2/4‘04 只剩明天，最后一天了。这两年来，这个班给我们大家带来了欢喜和眼泪，友情和亲情，是个十分活跃又温馨的班级，在这个班级里上课，总是笑声不断，开心不绝。直到今年转来的那个混世魔王，真是一颗老鼠屎坏了一锅粥。虽然我承认有他在，一些时候是蛮好玩的，不过久了就觉得厌烦了。不过在怎么样，2/4’04 还是最棒的！

泪

wadever......slack......
today cannot be considered as any nice day in my life. my life was always ruined starting from the moment i decided to join volleyball as my CCA. Ruined ruined ruined....... i like playing volleyball, but the problem is i never get a proper chance to do so. reasons, there are, but i don't think they are my causings, i never did anithing to deserve that. wad else can i say, this is fate, Unmei, 命运。。。however hard i try to defy, it still overpowers.... yar, sure, i m not the only person getting this, guess many others do too, and so there actually is someone who shares the same pain, not that pathetic anymore....... i ve tried to be optimistic about this thing, but, sometimes, your will overpowers e thought, painful...... i asked Mr Lim why did he pick me among e others for the OBS camp thingy, the one that Jelyn's swimming coach said that we have to bring that whatever-they-call-it to manually dig out the hole to BURY your shit, yar, and he said that, he wanted to find someone different, not as to send all the same people every year. how different am i?
i don want to be different, more appropriately is that i want to be unique, not different, ain't i different enough already?!
i hate this, alot, two more years to go, and i m fucking out of this school...... i really am regreting my choice of coming to anderson, makes my four years of secondary life so miserable, and pathetic, was it my fault?

痴

本来呢，今天是要去找工作的，结果没找成，因为他们都嫌我们太小了，像是请童工似的。所以后来我就跟诗棋去拍Neoprint，说实话，还蛮好玩儿的，不过就是贵了点儿，嘿嘿。我还照得挺不错那，挺有味道的，哈哈哈哈，真不害臊。。。。
好玩儿是好玩儿，但是一想到我那该死的成绩不知该如何是好时，一股子怨气就冲上云霄了，不杀几个人是无法平静下来的，就如西索一样，嗜血如狂。。。
真悲惨啊！！！！
我下辈子该怎么办？？？

影

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Currently listening to Shimatani Hitomi's 期待的一天，she rocks man, her voice is like 天籁之音，superb!!!
volleyball practices resumes, start of ours days of torments and living hell (not tt bad actually), the whole 中二 ppl wasted long long time, coz ya, the whole sec 2 is not gonna play in any games, not that it affects me in anyway, but still it's pretty depressing.... who the hell cares when they heck abt us, just hope that ......nvm, i shall be a kind little girl (XD)
got back our fucking stupid(i jus sneezed, i m excused) exam papers, and now i donno how to break the terrible news to me parents......seems like they are more disappointed than meself. How's that possible?! I m like worked so hard for the papers and i get all those very pathetic grades and stuff, now what did i get for working so hard? bloody shitty marks, how grateful....
aaaargh.............
tml, going to find meself part time jobs le, hope that i can get one, i need $$$ desperately, for? donno, maybe stuff me self with KUISHINBO stuff.....or buy W-inds' nu CD.....tons of things to get, and most importantly i m getting me self tons and tons of assessment stuff. if i worked so hard to get bloody marks, then all i have to do is to work harder, til i get a satisfying grade, seems like it's pretty slow for me to realise this...... but better late then never, and yar like Mr Lim says, be more optimistic....
Ethel's planning to sell me her Anderson exercise books, i demand 1/2 price (is that too harsh, maybe lesser) and she's so reluctant, looks like i have to use some business tactics, 1/2 price is ok wif me wad.......haha.........
aaaaaaaargh.........frustration.........

Finally i activated e WAP and MMS 功能 in me 宝贝，so happy, and got me 座充 also, and got to know tat the kind and 可爱 lady who smittened me to buying the phone, 她的名字 is Michelle, and she is those type of outgoing, 搞笑，cute and nice, and looks nicer in photographs, pple. So glad to know her, 嘻嘻。
今天，went to Yio Chu Kang there to play badminton with Jelyn, and her swimming coach, and de lifeguard Terence, and some other ppl. 好爽啊，but both v tired and "screwed" at the 同时。i feel as if my arms are floating around, my back is twisted and bent, my legs are like screws..... v undesirable feeling, feels as if........ u've just discovered tt ur fav vask just went "weeeee-ing" out the window.
then when we play 完了that time, got one ....middle aged man (his face looked as if you'd just punched out all his teeth, from far), came to borrow a 羽毛球。i chatted wif him a while when he came to return the ball, and he said tt he is a coach in AJC and he coaches staff and tchers....没听说过。aniway, so glad tt i went out today, or else i won be so sure that i wont do anithing 愚蠢。

e second day of me owning me phone, this is wad Jap "Shiawase" means, n today total sent 50 over 简讯， gana 谴责 by my father, and he was very 惊讶 when he saw in me contacts, me 老公 Geraldine 的 name, coz i put 老公there, haha, 好险啊。 and 拜托， i m like (count fingers) 16 了, and my Daddy like so worked up when he saw guys' names in the list, as if i got 男朋友like dat. As if i want to....(ugh...freaks), i just want to 嫁给 my phone and 伸也，鲁夫，
庆太，敬多 and 悠，and maybe 右典 also, yup, tt's all, hahaha.
tml, waiting for 芝苓 to confirm time for badminton in Yio Chu Kang, 我想我 hav no idea where the badminton courts are in YCK, heck lar, v glad to be able to do smth, not like now, still lazing around, rotting, wasting me soul, and i think, i havnt shower et, oops. well, i smelled like ....me...., normally we would say this is 有性格。haha. then 可能 Tues can go Escape le, 等了好久哦，等到花儿也谢了。。。sobz...
tml still hav to go to Hougang Mall again, coz tt woman didnt get me my charger today, waste my time, 讨厌啦！

currently lazing around, feeding my toes to e decomposers,eating me rotting Fairprice Chocolate Icecream, downloading One Piece, reading peeps' blogs, 犹豫 between whether to buy Nokia 3220 or Sony Ericson T630 later, oh fug it lar, so 麻烦。。。
last night, I 一口气 finished watching 10 episodes of One Piece, took me 5 hrs man, from 9 pm to 1 am, so 爽, and now i m transfering the stuff onto CDs coz 10 episodes are damn 大Size one, 1.3GB leh, will take up alot of 空间的，now copy until episode 29 了，this sure is one cheaper way to get meself anime, and God Damn the fucking
尾田荣一郎，wad for he draw the anime so damn long, now it's almost 200 episodes liao, i will download like siao de, but do i hav a choice? （叹气）this 5 days here is boring like hell 了，other than watch TV, download One Piece, come here write crap, read some bloody Sanctum book...what else do i do? bloody hell, today i still hav to go for tuition, crap rite, if i don go, i'd be paying de 70 bucks for bloody no thing. 天啊！！！i don wanna admit tt, I WANNA GO TO SCHOOOOOOL!!!!!

i just read that ger Genevieve's blog, scared the hell out of me man, and please lor, she's onli like 13? and she cuts herself, man, there's other things to do and she chose to cut herself, it's so v unblivable!? i mean tt onli since last yr, start goin to secondary schools then i came to know ppl who really cut themselves (altho better than cutting others), due to wotever, but, mayb i m too naive, but i still finds that this is so hard to contemplate, dear, there's alot other stuff to do here, like stop producing carbon dioxide......
ok, back to tt genevieve... i nv did like her, but i don detest her either, neutral i'd say, well i kind of admire her for being so defiant, at least she dares to be, when most of the ppl want to but dont dare (im not saying tt it's good, but..). but please man, she's like so...(um um..) , she diss mrs kamal, say tt mr ismail is gay (bloody hell! he's a nice tcher lor), and like has to c mr ang everyday (mr Ang Chipmunk). diaoz, i'd think it be better for her if she migrated together with Roy to Toronto (did i get e place rite?), benefits both she herself and all others, she can go there and cut herself to pieces for all i care, and she also gets her piece of cake....
till now, i still cant accept the fact tt ppl in me school do actually cut themselves, wad for? u like all the scars here and there?! u think it's art?! de "in" thing?! aaargh, i m so freaked out by her blog entries, guess tt cant slp tight today....

damn damn damn, now then i can do me maths test paper in 15 min, all correct somemore, aaaaargh, why like that!? so unfair, u wan make me cant do it then cant do it all the way lar, why make me now can do it liao, so so so.......aaaaargh!!!! somemore now i think de questions so easy!!!! abish abish!!!

堕落啊！！！我已经看了一整天的电视了，怎么办啊！！！好希望明天快点到来嘞，快闷死了啦。。。

YEAH!!!!!考完试了！！！快乐啊！！！自由啊！！！爽啊！！！
终于自由了 ne, 不用再K书了！！！可以。。。。。了！！！
再过两天，偶就可以跟偶的 HP 见面了，真期待 ne。。。。
受不了了，真是爽毙了！！！！

ha, never knew i can relate pythagoras, and congruence/similarity thingy with e graph man, cool... lurves maths (temp) and luvs me DAD, muackx
today is Alice de birthday, wee!!! loved her so much that i skipped me lunch to create e ultimate birthday present for her, so proud of myself, yar also becoz she sang me a song over the internet from far in China (lurve me country), and i was so touched that i swear tt can't giv a lousier one. and sure i didnt, if not y it is e ultimate one, muarharharharhar.

today is Johnathon's bday!!! Happi bday!!!! and found out tt Cybil's bday was e 3rd this month, how come this month so many bdays, lucky i nv bother prepare presents, if not i die of mental stress.
anyway, jus found out tt actually no one reads my blog, so nvm, to hell with it, now more private liao, better lar, can write wotever i want, muehehehehhe
guess i'd take down da pictures also, and maybe......nvm
taday Lit exam, crap until siao, me nu G-1 pen finishing, now finding my answers v stupid liao, then come to think of it, not tt stupid, then again.....stupidity.
then one v infuriating thing happened taday, stupid ethel and jelyn and chloe, gang up make fun of mi, think i realli donno wad u all doing meh, hng, i won be Ace Zhou if i realli tt stupid.. anyway, wads their problem man, crazy bunch of troglodytes...sweat....somemore bully my SantaClause, naughty naughty, bad ppl
marking of history: today is the day, the day i named my Santa, Nelson....... (they forced me one!!!) evil ppl

today is meiyan's birthday, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY YO MEIYAN!!! Wooohoo!! and i think i didnt get her any present, but she wont mind one lar, a friendly blessing is enough, yup.
today, revised Lit like siao, managed to put something inside "there", but wonders whether it can stay till tml, pray pray pray and pray somemore....
tml, i think is Johnathon's birthday....
the day after, the 9th Oct, will be QiYue's 16th birthday also!!!! Luv You, me dear QiYue!!!!
haha, all the best to ye exams!!!
pray..........

today is me 16th birthday. and is the day of W-inds' new single SHIKI!!!!! woohooo!!!!
I'm 16!!!! Ethel said tt I can go watch Excorsist (wads tt?), haha, how friendly ......
anyway, today is my 16th birthday, i m officially alive for 16 years, 192 months, 834 weeks, 5840 days........
see?
when it comes to figures, my life seemed so short....haizz......
today, is my 16th birthday, and my grandest of all grands birthday present, was the English Paper 2 exam, how nice....
nv thought i would receive any presents, but instead i had 2 birthday cards from my Lao Gong (lurves ) and Shi Min (naughty naughty, she wrote me a love letter from LYC) haha.
well, i think i did ok for my english paper, it wasn't that difficult either, apart from the summary, which now i darent comtemplate what i had wrote. you know, it occured to me that whenver after a particular exam, u either think that your answers are splendid or spattered with shit, worse you cant even remember what you wrote. exams.....now 2 down and how many? and 6 to go, great.
tml is history exam, until now, i only managed to thoroughly inscribe my mind with Chapter 4 - External Events That Affected Singapore, and with 6 more to go... 6 again, what an evil number, aaaargh, stress.....

i m strong!!!! har, finally windowblinds is all mine, muarharharharhar!!!
birthday countdown 3 days.....
http://hi3teacher.www9.50megs.com
this is a damn good website with powerpoint slides for all the history chapters tt we'd be tested on.
http://www.sparknotes.com/lit/pearl/themes.html
and this site is so good that, read this, u don have to read the lit book already, i m so wei da man, lurve myself....
muahahaha
ppl who come to me webby, get alot of sweet stuff one.....
muehehehehehhe

today i think is 5th day, let me count, yar, 5th day....
today, um, wat to say leh? this proves that my daily school life is so, so, um, routined.....diaozzz
donno y my laogong, geraldine so depressed de, i so sad leh, she say she want to be in cliques and stuff, and she reject frenz and yearn for frenz, i so shocked leh, sound so not like the geraldin i know....
haizz.....slp lar zzzzzzzzz

fourth day....abnormal me.....
science lesson we watched da video on how to create a baby, and it's pretty freaky to look at the whole process, u see the stuff that's llke inside ur body and then....
just creepy and freaky and kind of cool, it's always so bewildering when it comes to the magic about life... i didnt know that foetuses have tails before born, what if the tail doesnt go away? guess it'd be quite difficult fitting into pants....
discussed about the mock exam paper today (english), my script was pathetic, ferst few parts, total 20 i only scored eight, pathetic, i almost had to risk my lowest record for vocab cloze, i got a pathetic 2 upon 10, equivalent to 4 upon 20 which was my lowest one ever in history of vocab cloze.......
hmm, nothin much today again, only that i missed my lunch and i was damn hungry, and struggled to finish my past yr exam paper, and to my great distraught, i fell to a puny trial and error qn. got scorned by me father...again....mental shock....
later, went to irritate ppl by askin them to teach me the mode, median and mean thingy, i sounded so ignorant...haizz....exams...how come nobody good luck me?
and yar, abt shimin's stupid submarine, she is mentally torturing me!!! her abstract submarine, QUICKSILVER, is launching attacks to moi.....poor me....

third day.....
nothing much today, only that i spent almost the whole of the day's primetime screwing my book and i finally triumphed, guess i wont have to face it ever again in the next 10 days, i screwed it so hard today, so hard till i actually found it quite fun. wonders, hard to say, but learning could be quite interesting. but it's learning i m tokin abt, not studying, two diff kind of things. and i also found out that the dictionary can also be quite fun to read.... hopes i m alright....
tml, school day, again, i would lurve school days if i don hav ta wake up so early, and miss the midnight shows everyday.....
i just sent a mail to tim, hopes he can reply soon, wonders wat he's doin.....
got nothin better ta do, diaoz......
today missed Factory Generation, coz my mom wanted to watch tt v old show, sometime 10 yrs ago, when they still used the huge hps. it was so cool then, come to think of it, but now it just seems like huge angular piece of shit they are tokin to........
gods, how do i get myself into exam mood? i m like no diff, i really wanna make a diff this time, show me dad wad i m made of, haha, if not he will keep harping abt changing me to normal stream...insulting right!? how can they say tt to me, aaaargh....

ferst day...
today is the official day that we started our long earned for chapter 6, and we got to see our class photo, and i got a shock, my hair was all flat, i remembered tt i had made it stand, and on the informal photo, my hand was right in shimin's face, haha, i laugh until feel like shittin,(wonders how come i always write such coarse stuff??). then today, the 2/9 ppl walked around the lvl as if want to gang fight, but in the end also nothing happen, haizz, got excited for nothing, please lor, if u ppl want to fight then fight lar (as if i wld bother...no iwant to see onli), don giv the spectators the suspense feeling, i find tt damn irritating.
long time since i last walked with jelyn to amk to take bus le, on the way we pretended to be bull-fighting (correct? i happen to forget the word when i want to use), then we play like siao one, i almost tripped. haha.
haizz, just now when revising stuff i realize tt it is like alot much easier to do mechanical revision (weird) as in if revising Cheng Yu then u write down is much better than using comp or other stuff lar....lame....anyway, tml muz studdy chinese and transfer my Lit notes, haizzz, exams.....haizzzzz.....jelyn said tt i was balding, don shit me lar, i v easily frightened one, scare me, me? balding? aaargh, faint.....

exams somewhere near, weird, i don feel any different, shld be like laptak like dat, nervous like siao, but i m calm and peaceful, jus like the shit floating on the water in the toilet bowl....i m not refering to tat...anyway....
discovered tt my history text book has got some weird problems, it can jump directly from pg 178 to 163 then to 205.....weird...
my dad is going to take bus with me again tml morning, weird feelings, but i m not embarassed like i might have felt if t'was before, but now its just weird because it is not everyday tt u see ur father sitting beside u on a bus on a school day......wonders if anyone understands what my point is......tml gonna wear volleyball t shert....whole load of us are wearing, jelyn say she check whether hers in in laundry cause she wore it last sunday....weirdo, how long the interval between times of washing ya family's derty cloths?!
my father jus shouted at me and i shouted back, i think he's coming to get me, i think i'd better leave....

today i successfully held my tongue and didn't start teasing shimin again, i really didnt think tt my tease was that serious, i mean, i do that to everyone (almost), guess shimin is just an exception, if she cant take it then nvm, i will target someone else, hehe.
i really feel kind of bad for not walking to the Amk MRT with Jelyn recently, seems like has been a long time already, jelyn and ethel are leaving us in about 4 to 5 more months, and i think i will cry when they actually do leave. the sole reason i had decided to sign up for the program in the ferst place is also because the both of them are going, now that our fate has been decided, we are not fated to be together for the next two yrs... hard to imagine though, life without them....no more crazy and sick jokes, no more acting like idiots on the way to Yio Chu Kang MRT, really cant bear to leave them, sobs......
change subject, i ve been harassed by psychotic housefly for the past 4 hours, it followed me everywhere i went and left trails. 2 o'clock, eating in the living room, kana 2 bits. 4, went to shit, kana another 2 bites. 6, revising my chinese in the study rm, kana another 2 bites, perverted fly ! (swearing to fly : u 他 妈 的！Bite me again, i peel off ur wings, poke right thru ya many eyes, flatten u with the wheels on my chair, then pick u up and fling u out of the window)....sad case....

currently my family is in a state of war, cold war, between mom and dad. the whole thing, till now, no matter how i tried to comtemplate it, it all seemed to me a joke. it all started from this morning, my mom didnt want to sleep right away after she came home after work, either she played the comp or she watched the TV, so she ended up unable to wake up in time to fix our dinner for us, so dad took the initiative to cook the rice ferst, then he went to wake me mommy, who then maybe harshly told him that she planned to cook noodles tonight and she didnt want to wake up then to cook the rest of the dinner. so my dad got frustrated at her and said smth like ok fine, work me to death, or stuff like that. i dont know whether i did the right thing or not to tell dad's situation to mom, i thought she would like cajole him or smth, cool my dad down, then we can have dinner happily. but she ended up getting angry at me dad, and though they didnt start quarelling or smth, they both are ignoring each other, like how we always did in prim school yrs, like the "i-don-fren-u" thing, haizz, my childish parents....hope that they can be magnanimous and go back to usual by tml, if not maybe i will join the war too...haizz....

big news,
xue ru & steward = hanky panky!!!
not really v new news lar, but i still find it hard to blive leh, they are like Hansel adn Yvonne in my school leh, lov each other like hell de, how well informed i am. haizz, i donno when they started, but i vaguely remembered seeing them together at compass point, thought they were normal frenz then. then xue ru now chio le, accordin to what her testimonials, netball captain somemore leh, doesnt sound like the xue ru i knew. hard to say lar, last time i thought her as a crazy woman, with a flat nose, no offence, that was like centuries ago, now she hanky panky with steward, lov sure makes a ger pretty, thats all i can say. i m finding myself more and more lacking latest information from surroundin ppl, surprises everyday man, i m afraid i can't quite keep up, even Alice, she told me she slimmed down to 40 over kilos, now tt's even more diff. to blive, and she became really chio also, according to her, cause now is impossible for me to see her when she's far off in china, and she's got admirers all over the place. haizz, big change in her man, i got shocked when she told me she was not the Alice I had rememebered. haizz, me pri school frenz all changed so much, wonders abt myself.......maybe i occur to them as one who got a sex transfer.......sinister ppl!!!

finally i solved the problem on my blog, where stuff that shouldnt be linked was linked somehow, i m such a genius, muarharharhar.
i got a nu haircut today, threw away that bloody idea of trying to keep my hair long, i think that was kind of impossible for me to have long hair, shakes head, hard to imagine even, but no matter! someday somehow, i will succeed in keeping it long, coz my father wants to see, hehe. i m also quite interested...hmmm...
continued reading da book Martha Peake, abt the story of a man wretched by bad gin, his drinking of gin caused his wife's life and almost taken his, he was then left with half humanity, his backbone was crushed during the fire he caused, after it healed, he became a monster. Martha was his daughter, who sticked with him through thick and thin, but as she grew up, she turned into a fine woman, her father's anguish and humiliation mounted as the years passed. the father, though resisted the temptation for many years couldnt help himself but to drown himself in it, and once he is drunk, he lost his remaining half of humanity, he would abuse himself at first. but as the times increased, martha became his target for release. until the part where i am now, the second attempt the father made, and successfully raped his own daughter, and worse deposited his seed in her, his daughter conceiving his child.....
how sick, vomits, told you it's a sad story, sobs....

Got meself a nu pair of shoes today, haha, finally i don't have to suffer the pain of my toes squeeshed together, the thirst for freedom finally quenched, nothing better than this, difficult to describe the feeling in words, this is something that you can only feel but never be contemplated. and i found the "Martha Peake" book again, expected, cause i couldnt finish reading it last time, it is a great book, a sad story though, wonders when did i start liking sad novels. reminder for me, next time i go to e library, look for da book "Sanctum" (i dono wat it means) by Denise Mina, i m onli half way through also. I ve been trying hard to increase my reading speed, it did increase but somehow not so significant, only if i dedicate myself enough...
currently, dad is watchin the football match, Arsenal vs Bolton Wanderers. New name, i think, never heard of it before, but the team plays quite well, and there's curly haired guy who reminds me of instant noodles, hehe. current score, 2 - 1, Arsenal lead. although, i don really like or like to watch football, i admit it's pretty good a pastime, u forget about time watching it, smitten. this dont happen while watching volleyball matches, as the same thing repeat itself over and over again during the matches, the person surf the ball, someone opposite digs the ball, someone sets, then someone spikes it over, and the sequence repeats.... i m not saying volleyball is boring, it is fun when you are playing.
my poor mom, she only slept for 6 hrs today, hope she's mentally stable when at work.
and i got attacked by a bee today, darn those insects, hadn't they better stuff to do than to harass me?!
seems like bolton wanderers managed to score again

nothing much today lar, just a normal school day, and one day less from my entire life, sound so sadistic....need to slp lliao, bb

I'm freaking free now, nothing important to do, kana pestered by the little kids next door and that Andy toh's brother, what have i done wrong in my past life to deserve this cruel treatment....
today photo taking session, nothing that special, only i think that i will look damn ugly when the photos come out, coz nelson's standing behind me, and ew, it's sick. this yr, very weird, the front two rows all gers, then the guys stand thirsd row, u know i always stand at the third row until today...how insulting...
ok, i'm not trying to be sick, but this is a mental stress, and if i don spit it out, i think i will be mentally sick forever and ever until the end of the existance of chocolate pies...
so the guys all stand at third row, so whenever i turn my head back, for whatever reason, i come face to face with their ahem, sick right, especially nelson's right behind me, or mayb a little bit left. this is so sick!!! scream!!! x.x

昨晚，我做了一个非常美妙的梦，其实并不是像一般十分浪漫的美妙，而是我自己特别喜欢的魔幻美妙。所谓魔幻当然是跟魑魅魍魉等生物有关系的。在梦中，我是名英勇的骑士，拥有非一般的力量。事情发生在某某学园里，一个普通的教学日被来历不明的魔物给占领了，接下来就引出了我的英勇事迹。。。怎么样，很罗曼薙克吧。嘻嘻。
其实睡醒后，过了这么久，这个梦也忘得七七八八了，但我不想用现在的想象来弥补他，以免遮盖住了原汁原味。
。。。魔物就在校园里打开杀戒，残酷的屠杀了无数个无辜的灵魂。身为英勇骑士的我，当然不能坐视不管，袖手旁观啦。所以我便换下制服，变身成为了骑士模样。很帅吧，虽然有点像日本动画里面的情节。。（笑）
接下来，我便和我的排档一起跟魔兽展开了一场激烈的战斗。经常在电视里看到，老人总跟小孩子说 "长得像人的鬼物最可怕”。此话确实，因为在梦里的没收个个都长得人模人样，要不是我和排档潇洒非凡，不然很容易会被和魔兽们混为一坛。（放心这只是梦而已）
后来的打斗场面才叫精彩，简直是无与伦比的壮观。开战后不到10分钟，敌人已被咱俩干掉一大半！打得真是畅快呀！我映像最深刻的画面就是面对剩下的最强的两只魔兽，在罗马古桥上的背水一战。我和排档两人虽然没有受重伤，但是面对蜂拥而上，成千上万的魔兽，难免到最后会感到精疲力竭，难以招架的。咱俩被那两只最强的魔兽逼到了桥的末端，无计可施的我们也只好放手一搏了。我在先前的战场上无意的丢失了传家的宝剑，只好废物利用，一手拾起脚边的一支黑铁箭，从体内向其注入真气，被注入真气后的黑铁箭巍巍的泛着蓝光。当我正想掷出铁箭的时候，铁箭却因为无法承受如此强大的能量而产生裂痕，眼见铁箭在我的手里即将化为灰烬而两只魔兽又趁机铆足气力朝我们冲来。情势危急，我只好听天由命了，我闭上双眼，使足全力将铁箭掷出。铁箭一离手便化为了碎片，神奇的是碎片并没有落下，反而胀开来，如行星似的围绕着箭形的真气旋转，乍看下就像一团蓝火正急速地朝着两只怪兽飞去。
两只怪兽眼见“蓝火”越逼越近，却因为惯性的关系无法及时停下来，与蓝火撞了个正着。
刹那间，似乎全世界都封冻住了，然后裹在蓝火内的真气瞬间爆炸，两只怪物顿时化为了灰烬，这个梦就这样结束了。。。
很美妙吧！哈哈！

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hum, today went to do Literature project at laptak's place, supposedly we were to do task one, but somehow we ended up doing both... troublemakers
anyway, WeeLic is such a blurblock and we can't stop laughing abt him and his plastered neck, cauz he said he slept on onli one side of his head...
why is it that we can't cut our hair during the ghost festival? weird right, my dad told me that, but when i asked him abt it, he um-ah-um-ah the reply... so patronizing
one thing that you must achieve while washing dishes, thou must wash it clean! if not ur mom will howl with disgust...
me dad did the um "huo guan" (use of vacuum suction to astract the extra moisture in ye body) thing today, and he got 7 little blisters on his back, it looks horrifying man, bet i can't sleep properly tonight.
yesterday there was some techinical errs with the blog thing, that's why my yesterday's entry was only published today, i was so panicky, thought it was me comp's problem, coz me comp always got problem, as can see from me pathetic state of using the non-java messenger.... guess i ve to kiss goodbye to my chatting days...
ever notice in movies or shows, where there were chinese subtitles, that they dont literally translate phrases such as "kiss my ass" or "fuck" and stuff. for "kiss my ass“,i think they wrote "去吃屎”， as for "fuck", i donno what they wrote... weird...haha...of course you can't expect them to write their "亲我的屁股！"

this is like the countless times that i m grumbling about this lousy computer, i ve tried to appreciate it and its efforts (whatever) but i still can't stand the lousy part of it. uuurgh... i can get bald because of this stupid computer. now i can't even use the Msn messenger, not even the old versions, and now i ve resulted to use a non java online messenger, as in online to be practically on the internet explorer itself, whatever, i know this describtion sounded like no describtions at all, but the thing is like that, i have to admit that this is my fate, i m not that much fated with my comp, either it makes loose my hair, or my foot gets stuck its ass, (firstly, where?). anyway, the messenger that im currently using is:
http://e-messenger.net
funny huh, haizz, my fate....

俺は海賊王になるの男だ！
目が痛い、泣きだ関係です。考えると長い間泣いてしまわなかった。泣き後気楽を感じだ。何かおかしいでしょう。今まて、怒っているもうが、でもまだ不幸でいる。この調子。。。だめ、日本語の執筆日記は困難であるよ。ああああ！

俺は海賊王になるの男だ！
盯了一整天的电脑，眼神呆澈的我，看起来肯定是副愚笨之极的呆样。没办法，为了完成工作，我不得不把我的青春和美貌舍去。。。哎呀，在说什么来着，又开始发疯了，真拿她没办法。
我平生第一次面试，被我搞砸了，是太紧张了的关系，所以导致我的言语乱七八糟，相信那校长也一句都没听懂，难为她了。不需多想，搞砸了面试和考试的我到底是没被录取，好凄惨啊！！！这次对我的打击是蛮大的，通常一贯的要风的风，要雨得雨，如今一扫而空，悲惨。。。
可能是因为对TJC的向往不够强烈的原因，因为那个校长说我并没有表现出非常向往的模样。
如果是以前的我，我会说，有什么了不起的，不录取我是你的损失，我无所谓！
如今，虽然我依旧是无所谓，但是会追根究底地找出问题所在，然后把它斩草除根，并且多多加强努力，使自己更上一层楼。对，我知道这句话听起来有多么老套，所以我才选择把它写下来，一面别人听后当面说我老土。哈哈。不过很明显的我成熟多了，成熟真好！
没被录取，我虽然感到挺失望的，但却没有一丝难过或伤感，奇怪么？更奇怪的是，我居然搞不清自己到底是开心还是不开心，好矛盾的感觉呐。
最近经常会涌现出许多矛盾的情绪，我会不会得个什么精神分裂症？应该不是，我觉得自己还算蛮正常的。
好啦，算了吧，该去休息了，希望以后我不会再做出什么令自己后悔的事了。晚安。

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
此时此刻的我不知该用怎样的词汇来形容，该说自己笨，还是自己蠢？真是复杂的方程式啊!
从成都回来后，功课不断地退步，连唯一能见人的华文也落后他人，我十分清楚这是由我的自大和怠惰所造成的，一切一切都是我咎由自取，怪不得他人。想到这儿，我不禁惭愧起来，这已不是第一次的领悟，而是无数重复的犯下同一个错误，我该如何是好？
我独自穿梭于自己的愚笨，从来没有实现过对自己许下的承诺，要努力学习，抓紧时间，等等。。。诸多此般的空头支票对自己来说已经是见怪不怪了。好奇怪呀。。。
眼泪不停地淌下，无论我再怎么擦拭，却无法拭去深深烙在脸上的泪痕，是同？还是麻木？我早已分不清，脑袋里一片混沌，思想断断续续，乱七八糟的思绪是“剪不断，理还乱”。
躺在床上，感觉不到床垫的柔软，却承受着无数针扎，刺痛。脑子里一直回响着“滴答，滴答”，液体的声音，是泪水还是血液，是汗水还是雨滴？为什么我连这个都分不清呢？难道我头骨下的那团东西真的如此伪劣？
我不想了，想不下去了，越是想，越是痛。不仅我痛，妈妈比我更痛，爸爸的表情是悲哀和自责的混合体，见此，我又如何能不痛？
真的，不写了。。。

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
yup, today went for the exam held in TJC, flunked the maths part but the English part was quite satisfying though i had stomache halfway through and went to shit straight after the english test. even though i flunked my maths and those the english compos are onli to me own satisfactory and i could laugh my head off for the creative writing that i wrote. gonna have to go for the interview on Thursday, kind of scared of such things, like u sit in a room with some unknown ppl and they ask you weird questions and u have to giv weird answers and stuff...uurgh...weird, afraid that i would be flunking everything...duh..like i've never done so before, and i m scared of those aunties!!! how!!! scream!!!

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
I can't believe it! My hands are trembling as i type...
Ethel has received the email from TJC saying that she's "in" yesterday! She told me this morning, so happy for her. Another guy, that KaiJie, Chew Yan's "very good friend" got "in" also, and they called his hp during lesson time, so "dua pai". I went to check my email just now, i went through countless torments in my mind hoping that i could see some "Temasek Junior College" in the title lane, ha, guess what, i found none. Maybe they just have not sent me the thing yet, coz you know, i handed in quite late, so maybe not my turn yet. i really hope that i can get in!!!! Please TJC, don't abandon me!!!!
another thing, flunk my maths test, passed by 3 and a half marks, pathetic, haizz, should work hard more!!!!
Another Another thing, Yuga's leaving tomorrow morning 7.20 am plane, so fast, she's been here for about 3 weeks, we went through a lot together, but now she's going back already, hope to keep in contact with her, don't wanna lose such a good friend...anyway, she liked my present hehe...

i m so proud of myself!!!

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
I donno whats got into me today, when Jelyn told me that she and Ethel are signing up for the "through train" thingy in TJC, i went like "wooow, i also wanna go!!". so now i end up with all these stuff to photocopi and blah blah, yar lar, bring trouble to myself by myself....how nice. Really hopes that Mdm Foong comes tml for our ferst HOme econs pratical of da yr, not supposed to call her names because of the uknowwat, bloggy incident.....actually we got quite alot of names for her, not so suitable to disclose it here, watever. woahaha, um, and Yuga cried today during History lesson coz we were watching the "和平的代价" show, or some documentary stuff, shows de ugly Jap soldiers massacre-ing all those poor souls, so she cried, for wat, not so sure, but a little sure, smth to do with the show....lame....sorry lar....correct wad....it must have smth to do with de show, if not y she cry, bcoz i so handsome? (=o)
Then lunch today, me and jelyn had Kway Chap, double for each, shiok, so full, went out of our minds, and i totally forgot abt my ...63.4....hehe
go, going, and gone....weeeeoweeee

wow

I swear i didnt write this, i just went to this Flame's website, and they have this story there, that they ask for your name and stuff then just put ur name there. Guess u ppl know who [悠]is, if you dont, just refer to that huge pic on the previous entry, so cool!!! i swear again that i didnt write these stuff, and i m not a lesbian!!!

我喜歡她...
可是, 她喜歡的是...


One and Only


Ace 「對不起, 我不能接受你的心意...」
悠 「...已經有了喜歡的人?」
Ace 「嗯, 我好喜歡, 好喜歡她啊~」
悠 「她?」


她, 喜歡的人是女生
而且是她最要好的朋友 -- 琦玥


Ace 「你可以幫我守這個秘密嗎?」
悠 「啊... 好的」
Ace 「謝謝你! (笑) 真羨慕你, 可以向喜歡的人告白呢... 啊, 對不起, 我不是有意說些...」
悠 「唔, 沒關係...」



其實她並不是天生就喜歡女生
以前她也曾跟好幾個男生交往過
只是, 她給那個「最後交往」的男生狠狠的傷害了、背叛了
因而造成了內心對男生的不信任, 讓她慢慢的喜歡上同性別的女生
而我, 是現時她唯一一個能讓她交出真心的男生



在別人的眼中, 我們是一對的
不過實際上是我想保護她
免得她的朋友知道她真的心意而討厭她
然而, 這或者是我心中的貪念...
只要這樣的話, 我就能一直待在她的身邊... 直到她討厭我為止


☆☆☆☆☆


琦玥 「那麼5時半我們在這裡等吧~」
Ace 「嗯~」


我們在遊樂園裡四人約會
我和 Ace 、 琦玥 和她的男朋友
雖然說是四人約會,
不過到了遊樂園還是分開去玩了


Ace 「對不起呢, 悠 ! 好像對你很不公平, 硬要你來了」
悠 「沒關係啦~ 朋友嘛, 就要互相幫助. 我就知道妳拒絕不了 琦玥 」
Ace 「你也知道我喜歡 琦玥 嘛~ (笑)」
悠 「妳也知道我喜歡妳耶!! 所以我就陪妳來了嘛~」
Ace 「謝謝你呢~」
悠 「那麼今天就陪我玩個痛快吧!」
Ace 「玩就玩, 誰怕誰呀!? (笑)」


我對她的感情, 由始至終都沒變過
而且愛得愈來愈深


悠 「這個是妳的嗎?」拿起檯面上的手巾
Ace 「啊~ 是 琦玥 的」
悠 「那麼我就給妳收好吧~ (笑)」然後把手巾交給她
Ace 「你笑得好奸啊! 在想什麼呀你!?」
悠 「妳是知道的~」
Ace 「我什麼也不知道!! 是不是要去玩個痛快啦? 再不去, 天就要黑啦!!」
悠 「那先挑戰這個吧~」


只有我跟她在一起, 難免也會對她有點非分之想
牽手、擁抱、接吻...
所有男女朋友之間的事, 有的沒的, 我都很過分的想過
雖然我知道這是很不應該
可是... 她終究也是我的理想對象


她, 也明白到這點...


Ace 「我知道, 要你跟我單獨相處, 是件很為難你的事...」
悠 「啊呀~ 這些東西就不用說了, 好嗎?」眼睛帶著懇求的視線「只要妳明白就好了, ok? 別的事情妳就不要自找煩惱的去想!」
Ace 「 悠 ...」
悠 「這一切都是我自願的, 明白嗎? 我會一直的守護著妳啊~ (笑)」
Ace 「這樣真的好嗎? 沒有回應的感情...」
悠 「那妳也不是堅守著這沒回應的感情?」
Ace 「對於 琦玥 , 我得到友情之間的愛. 但是你呢? 一直以來, 好像只有你在付出而已」
悠 「嗯」微微的搖頭「我的付出, 得到妳的關心, 不是嗎?」
Ace 「謝謝你...」牽著他的手「『裝作男女朋友, 也要有個樣吧』你不是常常這樣說嗎?」



這是她第一次主動牽著我的手
而且是在沒有認識的人的面前...
她知道我的感受


Ace 「今天我就做你一天『真正』的女朋友吧~」
悠 「真的?」活像一個給媽媽讚賞的小孩
Ace 「我不騙人的唷! (笑) 可是呢, 別的行為只容許在腦子裡存在, 不准行動化呀!!」
悠 「係係~ 我不會對妳亂來的...」


今天絕對是我最快樂的一天
真希望時間就這樣永遠停頓下來, 沒有終結...


琦玥 「呃... 那個... 我有點不舒服, 我跟男朋友先回去」
Ace 「不要緊吧?」
琦玥 「沒, 沒事. 不好意思, bye-bye!」立即掛掉電話
悠 「 琦玥 她什麼事了?」
Ace 「她說她有點不舒服, 跟男朋友先回去. 那我們要繼續玩嗎?」
悠 「唔... 不了, 時間也不早了, 再晚點回去的話, 人會很多啊!」



在沒有多想之下, 我們就這樣的回家去了
從沒想過回校之時會引起大騷亂...
風暴來之前總是平靜的...


☆☆☆☆☆


女A「呢呢~ 有聽說過嗎? 那個...」
女B「妳也聽說了嗎? 真是的! 氣死我了!」
女C「對啊~ 妳喜歡他的呀!」
女B「就是說嘛~! 怎可以這樣?」
女A「好了, 她回來了啦~」
女C「那又怎樣? 我就是要說呀! 變態女、同性戀、怪胎!! Ace 喜歡上自己的朋友 琦玥 ~」
Ace 「...」當作什麼也聽不到
男A「嗄!? 不是吧?」
女D「她不是有男朋友了嗎?」
女C「那個只是煙幕, 真難為了 悠 呢, 一直都在幫她掩飾同性戀的身分!」
Ace 「...」她選擇不回應


右典 「喂, 悠 ...」衝入教室
悠 「怎麼了啦? 你沒遲到就不用跑進教室呀! (笑)」
右典 「那個是真的嗎?」
悠 「什麼那個呀?」
右典 「 Ace 是同性戀的事, 是真的嗎?」
央登 「你聽誰說的啦? 悠 不是好端端的在跟 Ace 拍拖的嗎?」
悠 「...」
右典 「我剛才經過她教室聽到的!」
恭平 「同性戀的話就不會接受 悠 的告白啦」
右典 「可是她班上的人都鬧哄哄的在說這件事耶! 碰巧 Ace 在這時回來, 所有的說話她都聽進去了, 可是就沒說過一句話...」
老師「喂喂, 你們幾個聽不到上課鐘聲嗎? 還不趕快回自己坐位!!」
一同「係...」


這時的我, 腦袋完全處於一片空白的狀況
身體也有點不能彈動
整個上午的課也都沒聽進耳


小休時, 本想去找 Ace 的
可是有的沒的, 那些湊熱鬧的人都過來八卦一番
好不容易熬到午休, 而且還能逃出他們的重重包圍...


叭叭叭!!
從體育館的儲物室傳出奇怪的聲音


悠 「該不會是...」想起自進校以來就聽到的「五大傳說」, 心裡不禁有毛毛的感覺
可是在好奇心的驅使下, 手已經不自覺的伸出去把儲物室的門打開
悠 「!?」


我沒想到這麼快已經演變成這個局面

悠 「 Ace ?」門一打開, 看到的竟是她
Ace 「 悠 ...」臉上有兩行很明顯的淚痕
悠 「怎麼了? 為什麼會在這裡? 是不是受到欺負了?」
Ace 「沒, 沒事啦!」趕緊抹掉溢滿眼眶的淚水, 然後立即換上笑顏「她們跟我玩玩而已」
悠 「妳認為我是那麼蠢的嗎!?」
Ace 「那麼我還能怎樣呀? 她們說的都是真的呀!! 」
悠 「去跟她們說清楚呀!」捉住她的手, 向著教室走「同性戀是錯嗎? 不能喜歡同性別的嗎? 難道這就不是愛?」
Ace 「夠了! 我不想再把你拖下水」甩掉他的手
悠 「什麼拖下水呀? 難道到現在妳還在跟我計較這一切嗎?」輕撫她的秀髮「那可是不能計算的, 是無限的愛啊~ (笑)」
Ace 「我知道你站在我這邊就夠了, 不用再幫我做些什麼. 我暫時也能應付得來」
恭平 「誰說只有他站在妳那邊的? 還有我們也是!!」
悠 「 恭平 、 央登 、 右典 ?」
右典 「不好意思啊, 我們不是有意偷聰的...」
央登 「因為我們怕 悠 你逃脫不了, 所以才一直跟在後面的」
悠 「那我應該謝謝你們, 還是要生你們的氣呢?」
恭平 「當然是謝謝我們啦! 我們可是支持你的愛啊~」
右典 「我們也支持 Ace 的啊! 因為妳並沒有錯, 是那些欺負妳的人有問題」
恭平 「所以一定要跟她們說清楚」
Ace 「唔」搖著頭「我想她們終有一天會明白的」
央登 「可是妳不就一直會受到欺負嗎?」
Ace 「沒關係... 但是請你們別干涉其中, 這是我們女生之間的事. 要是你們幫忙的話, 就沒有了當中的意義了!」
悠 「...要是她們的欺負太過份的話, 我可不知道會做出些什麼事啊!」
Ace 「我知道你會聽我的話 (笑)」
恭平 「我有個問題! 知道是誰傳出這個消息的嗎? 有頭緒嗎?」
Ace 「不知道...」
悠 「 Ace 從不與人為敵的」
央登 「知道這件事的人有...?」
悠 「一直只有我知道, 現在才多了你們三個」
央登 「那麼最近一次談及這事的是什麼時候?」
Ace 「前幾天去遊樂園時」
右典 「而今天事情才傳出來的... 那我們幫妳查一下是誰吧!」
Ace 「你們該不會對那個人怎樣吧?」
悠 「那可是不清楚了... (笑)」
右典 「至少也要那人向妳道歉吧!」
Ace 「謝謝你們, 那麼我先回去教室了」
悠 「嗯~ 對了! 手機要一直帶在身邊! 要是再像剛剛那樣就打給我, 我會第一時間來救妳! 還有, 要常常傳mail過來, 報告一下情況!」
Ace 「係係~ 你比我老爸還要長氣耶!! (笑)」
悠 「我不是說過會一直守護妳的嗎? 現在可是發揮我的『功能』的時候了, 我會暗中保護妳的!!」
Ace 「好像笨蛋一樣啊~」
悠 「我是因為妳而變得笨笨的 (笑)」

愛, 的確讓人變得愚笨
特別是當人愛得愈深的時候


☆☆☆☆☆


悠 「怎麼會這樣?」
右典 「這個可能性很高」
悠 「但是...」
央登 「要跟 Ace 說嗎?」
恭平 「我覺得先不要跟她說, 去證實了再去想辦法」
悠 「...感謝你們的幫忙! 之後的事, 我自己去辦. 你們暫時只要別讓她知道就好了! 我現在要去問個明白, 無論如何也不要讓 Ace 到頂樓去」


一開始我就忘了這件事最重要的那部份...

悠 「真的是妳嗎? 傳出這件事的人?」

沒錯, 我肯定是她!
除了她, 我真的想不到還會有誰


她並沒有否認


悠 「為什麼妳不否認? 為什麼會是妳呀? 她是這麼的喜歡妳」
琦玥 「我, 我沒心說出來的... 對不起, 我不知道會變成這樣的」
悠 「她是妳的好朋友呀!」
琦玥 「可是... 你認為給自己同性的好朋友喜歡上, 感覺會很好嗎? 你有沒有想過我的感受呀? 我可不像你能這樣接納她的感情呀! 那完全是因為你本身喜歡她呀~ 這個對於我來說可是煩惱」
悠 「我喜歡她是我自己的事, 她也知道的! 她也有叫我放棄對她的感情, 但是我看見她對於妳是不偏不倚的喜歡著, 即使換來的是友情, 她也沒任何一句怨言, 所以我才一直的支持她!! 妳卻說她的感情是妳的煩惱? 她可曾給妳麻煩了? 她對妳的感情都一直放於心底呀!」
琦玥 「...」她無話可說, 因為 Ace 真的從來沒給她任何的麻煩
Ace 「 悠 , 別再說了, 好嗎?」
悠 「 Ace ... 妳怎麼會在這?」
Ace 「你忘了這裡是我常來的地方嗎? (笑) 琦玥 , 對不起呢! 我不知道這樣會做成妳的困擾. 我只是想能夠一直待在妳的身邊, 永永遠遠也是以好朋友的身分喜歡著妳... 對不起呢!」
琦玥 「...」
Ace 「 悠 , 陪我回家好嗎? 身體不大舒服的, 可能是感冒了」
悠 「嗯, 回去吧! 要休息幾天嗎?」
Ace 「可能要了... 嗯, 這手巾是妳上次在遊樂園遺下的, 這幾天一直都沒機會還給妳. 這幾天我也應該也不會回校的了, 所以現在就還妳...」然後 悠 就牽著她的手走了


☆☆☆☆☆


悠 「對不起, 沒跟妳說就去了跟她對質」
Ace 「沒關係, 我應該一早就想到是她」回到房間就坐到床上
悠 「妳也恨不了她吧?」
Ace 「一直以來就只有你最明白我...」
悠 「這種話放在心裡就好, 不用說出來的」然後閉上眼「現在我可是什麼也看不見啊~ 妳想怎樣就怎樣吧!」
Ace 「...謝謝你...」淚如雨下
悠 「乖乖~」將她的臉藏在懷中「盡量哭吧! 沒人會看到的」
Ace 「為什麼呀... 到底為什麼會這樣的呀?」
悠 「不要再想了, 再想下去只會更傷心. 現在的妳需要好好的哭一場, 然後就睡過飽! 我會一直的陪在妳身邊...明天就請假不要上學去了!」撫摸著她的背, 好讓她的心情好一點
Ace 「...」心情是平穩了一點, 可是還是抽泣著「為什麼呢? 為什麼在我最困難、最無助的時候, 悠 總是會在我身旁的呢?」
悠 「因為我是妳的守護神呀!」溫柔的訴說著「我不是說過會一直的守護妳的嗎? 我是妳唯一一個的守護神, 而我也只會守護著妳」
Ace 「我從一開始, 就在倚賴你的愛、利用你的愛, 為什麼你從不叛逆過我的倚賴和利用? 那全都是讓我自己覺得好過些...」
悠 「因為我並不覺得那是利用... 而且妳的倚賴讓我覺得我的愛並沒有白費, 所以請妳不要把自己想成那樣好嗎?」情不自禁的輕吻著她的眼「...對不起...」
Ace 「...為什麼要說對不起?」
悠 「我不是在乘人之危... 因為我覺得好心疼, 看見妳哭成這樣... 我卻幫不上忙...」
Ace 「為什麼我現在才承認你的好? 為什麼你那麼遲才出現在我眼前?」
悠 「...」完全答不出答案
Ace 「為什麼要在我喜歡女生之後你才出現? 為什麼你要向我告白? 為什麼你會一直陪在我身邊? 為什麼事情會變成這樣? 為什麼我現在才發覺我是喜歡上你了?」激動得一邊拍打 悠 的胸口一邊問「到底為什麼呀?」
悠 「...妳這樣是叫做感情轉移, 妳對我只是...」忍住心痛繼續說下去「...友情上的喜歡. 再這樣下去... 我會忍不住去吻妳、抱妳, 我會傷害到妳的! 拜託, 不要說妳喜歡我...」
Ace 「是你的話, 我沒關係... 一直以來你是保護我的, 從沒做過一些傷害我的事」
悠 「可是現在不同, 這樣的話我不止傷害妳的心靈, 就連身體也...」她的唇貼著他的唇


這一吻好久、好久
這也是我渴望了好久、好久的一吻

Ace 「我喜歡總是為我設想和只是保護我的你, 還有只會為我付出愛不求回應的你. 各式各樣的你, 我也喜歡... 可以再向我告白一次嗎?」
悠 「...我不想妳後悔...」
Ace 「我是認真的, 讓我認為重要的男生就只有你一個, 而你是我唯一一個讓我覺得有存在必要的男生. 所以再一次好嗎?」
悠 「...」閉上眼重新整頓好心情之後, 慢慢的張開眼說「我對妳的愛已經不能自拔, 妳的說話我都叛逆不了. 雖然這是妳的要求, 但是我說的一切一切都是真的. 我已經從那時的喜歡妳變成愛妳, 我一直也想把這個心情告訴妳! 如果可以的話, 我真的想跟妳在一起... 」
Ace 「我想一直被你所愛...」再次吻他的唇「我愛你可能不及你愛我的多, 你還是願意愛著我嗎?」
悠 「我會一直愛著妳, 直到妳不再愛我為止」
Ace 「有了你, 我不會再愛上其他人了」


一個接一個的熱吻
填滿了我們心靈上的需要
撫摸是彌補我們之前浪費了的時間
我們用汗水沖洗了過去


現在, 不再只是我, 而是「我們」...


binbo... binbo...(門鈴聲)


悠 「是誰了啦~!? 這麼早就吵醒人...」懷裡的她還在熟睡當中


我望出窗外看看是誰...
竟然是她來了


Ace 「唔...」揉著那哭腫了的眼睛「是誰呀? 好吵啊~」
悠 「 琦玥 ...」
Ace 「是她啊~ 悠 去開門請她進來好嗎? 我想先去喝杯水, 好渴啊~」
悠 「係...」穿好衣服就立即跑去開門


琦玥 「 Ace ...呢?」
悠 「她已經起床了, 先進來再說吧!」
琦玥 「呃, 不了...」
悠 「沒關係, 她要我請妳進來」
Ace 「 琦玥 , 早呀~ (笑) 要不要一起吃早餐?」拉著她的手, 硬要她進來
琦玥 「對不起! 真的很對不起! 讓妳受到欺負了...」
Ace 「我們還是朋友嗎?」
琦玥 「...還可以嗎?」
Ace 「妳說呢? (笑)」
琦玥 「...」
Ace 「給妳選擇, 是好朋友還是普通朋友? 是好朋友的話就請進來, 我有些事情想要告訴我的好朋友聽!」
悠 「她是想妳繼續當她的好朋友」
琦玥 「係! (笑)」

悠 「先喝杯茶吧!」
Ace 「謝謝你!! (笑)」
琦玥 「對不起, 要是回到學校妳還是被欺負的話...」
Ace 「這事情妳不用再擔心了, 現在她們所說的都變成假的了!」
琦玥 「嗯??」
Ace 「妳沒留意到嗎? 我們... (笑)」
琦玥 「妳跟 悠 ...? 啊.../// 對不起, 一清早打擾妳們了!」
Ace 「唔...」輕輕的搖頭「沒關係啦~ 我也是想跟妳說這個. 妳不用再介意這件事的發生. 不過呢, 今天我不去上課了」
琦玥 「是因為怕被欺負嗎?」
Ace 「不, 有人答應了我會保護我的 (笑)」望望 悠 「妳也看到吧~ 我的眼睛...」
悠 「明天我會跟她一起上學的了, 妳放心吧! 今天我們要去玩, 我們之前浪費太多時間了, 所以... 嘿~ 請妳不要說出去啊!!」
琦玥 「你們好奸乍啊!! 逃學去玩... 不過我會保守秘密的 (笑)」看到牆上的時鐘「啊~ 糟了, 我快要遲到啦! 那麼我先走了, 明天在學校見囉~ bye-bye!」


悠 「...還以為妳... 昨晚是騙我的...」
Ace 「我什麼時候有騙過你呢? 笨蛋!」輕吻他「這是Morning Kiss啊~ (笑)」
悠 「因為喜歡一個人並不是那麼簡單的事嘛...」
Ace 「你想要有多難呢? 你挑戰的難度已經夠高了吧? 算一算... 已經半年了吧? 你向我告白的事」
悠 「感覺好像已經是很久之前的事呢~」
Ace 「還記得你的告白很簡單的呢!! 『我喜歡妳, 可以跟我交往嗎?』, 而且還一臉緊張得要死的樣子 (笑) 那像昨晚... 情意綿綿的說了很多心裡的話」
悠 「/// 啊~ 那個就不要再說了嘛!」想著昨晚只有他們二人知道的每一個細節, 臉頰都變得通紅了
Ace 「...(笑)在想昨晚的事嗎?」
悠 「妳, 妳怎麼知道...!?」
Ace 「別以為只有你最明白我, 我也很明白你的. 我們也是同樣的平凡啊~」


☆☆☆☆☆

悠 「事情就是這樣了!」
央登 「什麼嘛~」
右典 「你們害我們擔心了兩天耶!!」
恭平 「你到底會不會先打個電話告訴我們呀?」
悠 「抱歉嘛~! 事出突然呀, 我也不知道最後會變成這樣」
Ace 「 悠 ~ 等了很久嗎? 對不起唷! 老師要我...」
央登 「喂喂~ 妳的眼中到底有沒有我們三人在呀? 我們也是在等妳的呢!!」
Ace 「對不起嘛~」
悠 「你們就別計較嘛~」
恭平 「我們怎麼會計較呀... 你們可是熱戀中的戀人咧!」
右典 「也不想想你們的開始, 有一部份也是跟我們有關的...」
悠 「你們就這麼會計算! (笑) 好了, 待會的KTV我請你們吧~」
一同「 悠 大人萬歲!!」


FIN


☆小奈☆
很久沒寫那麼長了~
這個可是「0517特別獻禮」呢!!(笑)
雖然~ 早了很多就寫完了... 差不多一個月呢
至於寫這篇的idea... 小奈忘了是因什麼而起的
小奈好像是先想到title先的, 然後才開始想story的內容
完成這篇, 小奈大概用了三天的時間(十三號開始的)
還是在深夜寫, 感覺才寫出來... 這幾天也是寫到零晨四時才關電腦呢~
下午的話, 小奈真的寫得很辛苦耶>< 寫的期間聽了很多歌啊~ Sonim「ナモシマゼ。」、SHY「氣持グ」、sacra「yeaterday」, 還有Lead「Only You Can Hurt Me」, 這首真的很適合我寫的時候的那個心情. 但是呢~ 基本上所有的慢歌小奈都給它全聽了!! 不過呀... 小奈好像遺忘「Dear Friend」了 呵呵~ 最後最後~ 右典シ央登﹑れ誕生日れバザシ！！ 而且FLAME VIBRATION也已經兩週年了呢~ 請大家也要繼續支持這裡啊~！ 14:55 15/04/2004

俺は海賊王になるの男だ

shoujo ai & yuri = ....

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
yup, found out what shoujo-ai or yuri meant, accidentally, wonders if i write out the meaning will i get bloggy detention? who cares, bleahz. shoujo ai - simply in english, means girls in lov. but yuri gets on another lvl, yuri, in jap refers to lily, and accordin to wat i found out, it means some female body part (ahem), and it usually refers to lesbian s** and stuff. don worry, i m not on some stupid porn website, but just accidentally landed on a page where some analyst analyses these stuff. and guess wad, they said that though many guys are interested in yuri stuff, some gers are too, and are pretty curious abt that....hmmm...wonders.....
yesterday, we went to that battle tour, the guide mrs "Spoon - drop off the 'S'" was nice, wonders how much she has to remember for the battle history stuff, bet she has brain twice the size of mine, wow.
bukit chandu, labrador park then kranji war memorial.
all pretty war-smelling places, esp. kranji, too many died for e war, for all free men, so sad, haizz.
wars are stupid, and ppl say "wars are fought for peace"....diaoz, makes some sense, but so much sense after all. wad i liked of all, was the weapons though, they are cool, although i would prefer much ancient weapons like knives and swords and stuff, that's why i like "Rurouni Kenshin" so much, the skill and techniques are much more unique, rather than jus pulling da trigger and go "bim boom bim boom bim boom..." all the way. not cool at all, even more with the comparison of de coolest Kenshin Himura (luv luv).
for peace!!!!

tangent, sine, cosine = TOA CAH SOH

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
I finally understood that Trigonometrical thingy, mostly by meself seh, i so pro. haha. anywayz, today while i was doing me homework, or rather just stare into the comp screen and dream, some very un-shuai ppl came to da door. knock knock and say they come in repair da window and stuff. I didnt mind lor, just open da door, let them do their stuff and i mind my own business. Whatever they've done, i try to close one eye, ha, and then one of them, this very uncut guy, was repairing da window of my study rm, where i was, started whistling ugly tunes and talking rubbish on his phone and whistling again. whether he meant to disturb me or not, i think he is very "low" kind of person. haizz, not that i m being too highly esteemed of meself, but, u know, not very nice, this type of person. whenever he talks, i was afraid that he'd spit unto me. how...yuc...
failed like the n th time in trying to dl new songs into my mp3 player, ha, the format wasnt right, have to copy all over again, this is stupid, but nvm, i succeeded 5 minutes ago. hahahaha, laugh of utter triumph!!!

GB rox!

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Today is just any normal sundays, when i awoke with Mom screaming/nagging at me ears, then went to e market, get some fish and meat and stuff, went to have breakfast, then returned home, watched half an hour of Dear Boys, went to revise me science and chinese until 1 pm, had lunch, watch tv again, play Gunbound (cool), made dumplings, had dinner while watching AFVs, had a good choke, watched SPAWN (i like the cape), now sitting by the damned computer, waiting for the completion of the copying of songs.
well, a little bit of other stuff. A little of a bicker went on between me Dad and Mom just now, about some stuff in my father's side of family, that's smth to do with me Grandma. Some previous entries ago, i noted that me Grandma had breast cancer, and on Friday, she had them cut off, that's a piece of good news. Me Grandma walked over the line safe and sound with just a little loss of hair and weight, and all of us are just too glad that she returned to earth. But there was smth wrong btw me Dad's 3 brothers and sister, saying that his eldest bro had nv went to visit grandma ever since she was sick, or even b4 that. that's kind of not nice, i'd say.
so my mom was asking dad to call that unc. to like...persuade him to go visit grandma, but me dad keep saying that his bro was not in good health either, that he is a person who's came back from the dead or smth coz like a few yrs ago, he almost died in the hosp. (wonders how he survived =P) yar, so, and me mom said a very serious thing. "tell your bro that as long as he is alive, he has responsibilities to go and visit his own mother!" i thought the "as long as" part, kind of crude, coz he was family, not very gd to talk like this and stuff. yup, abt all. who cares abt those adult peeps, i m just happy that me grandma's alright. =)
ps: i won 2 games in GB today, big step for newbie like me!

dum dee dum

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I like how the name of my blog appears on the task bar, so pro looking.

Current Status: In me blue-bear pajamas, waiting for my hair to dry so that i can sleep

Most exciting thing i did today, hum, play GunBound, it's really fun, only that i keep hitting my own mates, ha, and i got ostracized. U know, it really feels double the pain while you are insulted online, right into your face, mayb to me particularly. I was shivering when that "animesteeve" person told me ..."go to hell", i felt like scolding back, but that'd be against my principle, haha, my principle, funny. yar, the only time, when i reprimmand peeps is only when i m superior to
them in the topic concerned. so now, while i still remains a newbie(today's me second time on GB), i'd just have to keep quiet, wait till i get back at that "animesteeve" person. muahaha

while i was showering just now, i got some weird thoughts in mind(weird does not = to dirty), like i was thinking abt that particular eps. from Cow&Chicken, that Chick was trying to get his hands on that um... toy... you know, u slot in one coin, it starts singing n'moving, yar that thing. Chicken was dying to ride on that thing, but somehow, he just can't. he like, bought tons of wires, to connect to that machine coz his dad's car's driving away, then that red-butt guy came and towed the machine away, chicken went chasing for it like ..wow, then in the end, he ended up back in his home, coz the butt guy towed the machine to his home(obviously), to add to his dad's collection.....

lame, but come to think of it, this situation does appear in our lives, somewhere somehow. that's why i like animes/cartoons so much, they convert serious things into simpler substances to be digested....so philo....

yup that's abt all... gonna attempt gunbound again, sure not gonna hit my own team ppl again!

well...i m not sure...

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had thought abt alot to write just now, now it's all gone, donno wat to write about today. hmmm.

phew!

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2.4 today! Wheez! Not a very good timing but much better than last year sia, so happy, and i fullfiled my mission of at least seeing "him" once a week, blushes :P. anyway, my shirt was damn wet, and i bet i was damn sexy, ppl can see everything as i flashed, haha, so paiseh. wanted to run with me MP3 player, but got scared lar, then nv wear, lucky i nv wear lor, coz we ran in de rain leh, later "sotz" then die, haha. That Mr Lim Kiang Wee, was so irresponsible lor, he said he wanted to meet all  the sec 2 vball gers after 2.4, coz we skip training , alot la. Then he called and said no need after we like waited for everybd and like almost everyone all gone liao. How can he like that?! His time precious, as if ours are not, make us wait like "nelsons"... huh, scratch scratch.

..heheeheee

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Am i like overly sensitive to "him"? i m like everytime i see anything abt him, there's bound to be some negative effects. BUT, who cares, i m getting apathetic, and i think he must be very very irritated with me, coz i ve not seen him around online for quite a few days, why, i must be missing him, but i guess i shouldnt be, should just think that he does not exist in my life, not now, but maybe a longing but, definitely not gonna go near him. everytime i do that, i get hurt in some ways, so in order to keep from those hurtings, i just have to stay a good distance away. so , yup that's it, i m not gonna mention abt such things much more, it must be getting irritating to read all these things all the time.
so anyway, i got pretty fared up at me dad yesterday, well not exactly fared up like we gonna have some showdown or smth, but only i went a little bit too harsh and too loud at him. I nv meant to do that, i wish i could always be like a little kid clinging on to Dad's back upside down like how we used to back in the 1990s, talking like some old geezers, am i ? hehe. But the thing is that, he always asks me stupid questions abt the com, and repeating the same old questions over and over again just that he phrases it in another way. That's like so , um... not needed. But, after all , my Dad is my Dad, no matter how he's blabbering on and on, he'd still be my lovely father, did i mention that me dad is really cute? haha, gtg , didnt get much sleep, hav 2.4 NaFa test tml, hope i can run well.

oops

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Oops, slacked a bit (sticks out my tongue). Ok, i m kind of starting to get fed up of the LYC thingy, yar, found that i m not that interested anymore, and yarlar, gettin apathetic also. Who cares abt him, also not my business. Anyway, finally get to see Fredrick (did i get it right?) , the face behind the SMSs, that's what Ethel said, i still finds him utterly similiar to Wee Lic, when asked for Ethel's opinion, she told me she didnt see..... diaoz.
Think that i've become rather "nice" recently, well i still do get kind of an annoyed feeling when it comes to the remind of PSQ, the last incident when i was totally insulted and she treated me and my family with absolutely no respect, i think i m not gonna be as close to her anymore. Although i thought that i knew her kind of "well" before we went to different Sec schools, but she really amazes me by how fast she changes her face. I admit that she's really pretty nice sometimes, but when it comes to family, I may be overly sensitive or wat, but she insults my family, i m gonna squeeze her throat into a toothpick. Well, maybe not, that's kind of a... um ... violent sia.... hez.
Im so desperate lately, last friday, ahem,  (whispers: i had a close contact with ...him.. blushes)
yar, i m not gonna write it out here, coz i know ppl are watching, i shall just keep it within me, and i m quite contented, i m a easily contented person.
I miss Alice alot, why isnt she replying me?

omg

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ok, i m not sure what i m gonna say about this....
anyway, today i was um, kind of high spirited, yar, first because, i saw him... :p
now my target is to only see once per week, and  i think i 'd be quite satisfied already. yar, quite fun lar today.. hehez, so paiseh, went like mad after he passed by our classroom, shimin had a good laugh i think... haizz, find that i m very innocent person....haha

hi

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People with itchy butts will wake up with smelly hands....LAME!!!(scream scream)
Anyway, um, nothing much today, and i think i shall just end it right here... hehez. oh yar, i wrote a letter to my beloved Alice (vomit vomit) who so heartlessly nv returned me any, wonder whether she really is busy over there or has she thrown me to the back of her head? Please don't, that's so sad.... sobz, yar, i realised that i havnt treasured her when she was around, and when she's gone, i start to miss her, oh lame, isnt that the most old fashioned things ever....duh.... oh, and 2/5 moved back to the classroom nextdoor, i don like that....hmm....byz

吓了一跳。。。

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今天回到家的时候，从信箱里取到了一封寄给我的信吔。当时我还在想可能是王琦玥给我写的信呢，可是你猜是谁？居然是一个日本笔友寄来的嘞！真是难以置信呀！后来回到家，我很迅速的就给她也写了一封信，还是我平生第一次用日文写信呢，感想：写日文信真的好辛苦啊！翻字典都翻的眼睛花，头晕目眩的，痛苦啊，痛苦。嗨呀，叹气叹气。。。。

哈哈， 哈哈哈，哈哈哈哈。。。

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没什么好写的嘞，就是有点儿想笑，神经质，好想成都哦！该写什么好呢？老妈刚才跟我一起照了很多张相呢， 好好耍哦！哎呀，不说了啦，真的真的写不下去了。

bad day....

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haizz, separated from my dear Ethel(ahem, vomit vomit) because of tt Ms Lee wadever, though separated, our hearts will go on (omg, faint faint) anyway, today's volleyball practise, i made damn lot of mistakes, i jus cant control, i donno why, and was so paiseh, haizz, jus finally fixed my comp and i m having a vocab test tml, and i have aching tighs and butts....

......biting my lips, srp, oh ya!

wat's wrong with this stupid (lost count of how many times i've said that word today) computer!
am i getting used to or am i just plainly scared the hell of my ass, that now i donno how i m feeling with almost half of my family having cancer. its on me father's side, me granny has got breast(don laugh, i will slap u) cancer because of being worried sick for me dad's 3rd brother or eldest brother or the second brother, anyway, one of me uncles who has got some complicated cancers or swelling organs or watever, that two out of the 3 of them almost died right in the hospital and t'was a miracle that they were still alive. i m not trying to be sarcastic here, they are my uncles after all although they were brought upon these by themselves. t'was said that they drink and smoke terribly, and thus got some liver and bladder probs. and then they drag me granny down too, how cruel! me small aunt, dad's younger sister has some womb cancer or smth, how stupid is that, it's like everyone in the house was trying to get a piece of havin cancer. urrrgh! and she said that maybe it's in our genes that our liver was born with some problems, bringing moi into the topic, oooh am i gonna die. double urrrgh!!!!

how can i like my body?

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Ok, fine! I admit that I'm fat, i have fat arms, legs, waist and butt, what else.... how stupid! my mom doesnt grow fat no matter how she eats and sleeps but me dad does, and i take after me dad, aaargh! not that i m saying takin after me dad is totally bad, for one thing, he's tall, if i'd taken after mommy, i'd be like a miggit, no offence mom!
(:P) anyway, i heard from me aunts that 20 yrs ago, when me mom was like my age, she was even more WOW than me, much more, and until she reaches 20 and over, she slimmed to her current shape, shapely, weeowee! so i m totally confident that maybe after all i had taken smth from mom, heehee. but still i cant stand meself being so WOW, i m very self-conscious person, i've once again decided to start me runs in e breakin mornin, doubt that im able to wake up tt early, oh god. but for the sake of healthy body shape, im willing to forsake anything! onward slimming runs!

Returned to Singapore for 2 days liaoz, boredom, homesick

Having returned back here to Singapore for 2 days, i've grown rather homesick, sick, very sick. I can't possibly imagine how am i goin to live until the next time i again goes back. how fast has one month passed? i dono, nv bothered to calculate, but that period of time may be the happiest moments of my few decades of current still-on-goin life. Anyway, as all eyes can see, i hav slagged quite a lot from updating this freaking thing because of the stupid server that cant find almost anything but blogger back home, so, yar, i missed out quite alot of events. i will find some time, some other day maybe, not now, no time.
reminds: call shiqi for retrieval of me One Piece CDs
call Desiree Tay for confirmation tt she knows Jerico Lee
Clear out my luggage and deliver all the presents
buy uniform, draw out $50 from bank, cry...

在大姨朋友家..无聊TAKES OVER, WE WILL TRIUMPH!

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刚刚跟大姨还有她的同事们去吃了有名的"铺盖面"，好吃得很呢！我总共吃了二两。好饱哦！现在呢，正在他们同事家里，他们呢都在打麻将，我就落了个清闲，独自在这儿玩电脑，希望的大姨不要忘了我明天还要一大清早去“九寨沟”的事情，祈祷祈祷。下午，我去剪了个头，好时髦的发型呢，不过不怎么保暖呢。大姨现况：输得很惨，现在退出，去切西瓜，哇哈哈。这几天，爷爷把我的行程安排得好紧张啊，先是“九寨沟”4天游，然后去湖南，还要去北京，还得抽时间和蔡婷去逛街，我真没想到自己会这么忙。好想假期可以延长一些哦。好久没跟爹地说话了，待会儿去找他聊天。

每天都过得好充实！

今天是我回到中国四川省成都市的第7天了吧。时间飞逝啊，一转眼我在成都的日子已经所剩无几了，真是很舍不得呢，毕竟这儿才是我的家嘛。两天前，爷爷带我和张姨到《春西路》去配眼镜，结果给我弄了个贵死人的，我怎么都说不过爷爷，我连撒娇都派上用场了，可怎么都没法挽救局势，结果还是收了那“差5块一千”的一副镜子。“那么贵，我都舍不得戴了！”，我总是怎么跟爷爷说，可他就“哈哈”两声就把我敷衍了。怎么可以这样？！太不尊重我的选择权了嘛！虽然我很清楚爷爷这么做无非是出于对我的疼爱，但是。。。（叹气）。不说了。
昨天呢，分别去咨询了两间牙科医院，两家的牙医都说我的牙齿只能用矫正的方法才行，就跟当初在新加坡的牙医说的一样。第二间医院的牙医，再给我看牙齿的同时，胳膊肘不时地碰到我的胸部，我想他自己也没发觉吧，所以我并没有吭声。后来想想，若他是有意的，那我不是吃大亏了吗？我难得偶尔上一次网，却没有一个人跟我聊一下天，真是令我伤心透了。现在我每天晚上都跑到蔡婷家去做作业，以帮她补习英语为名，其实咱两在哪儿叙旧呢！真担心我这样会影响她准备高考考试，若是这次考不好的话，我真不知道该怎么补偿她。。。（内疚，内疚）
我发现，我和老爸都不是太斤斤计较的人，从我们程度垫底的杀价工夫来看就知道了。我始终无法接受在国内的这种杀价方式，太不符和我的性格了。记得有一次，我听说的，我三姨与别人杀价，杀得都哭了。太离谱了吧！成都真的变了好多好多，但唯一没啥改变的就是成都人的一些不好的习惯。好希望我下次回来的时候，成都已经成为像新加坡，甚至超越新加坡的礼貌城市了。

me 3rd day back in China...so nice and heart warming

this is me third day back in China, i've been quite busy these 3 days, went to me brother's school yesterday, ooooo, 2 times the size of our small little puny Anderson, it should be much bigger coz it needs to accumulate 6000 over pupils, plus two student dorms. well anyway, have been quite happy these days. ChengDu has changed damn lot, man, cant even recognize my house anymore, haha. Still needs to have ppl with me if not i might get lost. Just went out with my aunt and she had a total makeover for me, just one outing and she got me changed from head to toe, bravo, and i realize that i can be slim too. hahaha.

last day of school and leaving tml morning

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today is sports' day! wheepee! my class again in e second consecutive year nv been winning anything, coz this year no banner, so whole thing diqualified, so shiok, muahaha. I hate myself for whatever i have done today, and i've slapped myself countless times. when i was queueing up for 72 today after sports day, he came running to the bus (wow! i m de mos stupid person ever!), dats the ferst time i saw him on a bus. he chose to sit at the lower deck, i chosed to too! but i had a sudden change of mind and quickly joited up the stairs to the upper deck! how stupid is that!!!??? i hate myself for that. I m leaving for China tml ferst thing in the morning, waking up at 4 am, thats damn early man, damn early. yar, i wrote something like a love letter jus now, to u-know-whu and then i sent it to clara to read coz she say she wanna read, and then told me that it didnt sound like a love letter at all, like some finance companies' o$pay$ letters. I was so insulted. Ok, i may not be able to update it for quite a long time, abt 30 days, so ...um...by

hmm, i lurve me primary school

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yup, went back to Seng Kang with JianRong today, and was late for almost an hour, paiseh. Was pretty surprised when Jianrong didnt complain alot for me being late, so gentleman, haha. Tml gonna watch Shrek2, i have longed to watch it, just that I cant find a companion, so happy that jianrong so nice to promise me to go, still waiting for him to come online for a 100% confirmation, hurry hurry!!!

spent so much money but it's a worth!

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currently listening to W-inds' new album PRIME OF LIFE, whoo damn nice siah, i lurve w-inds!! current song [So What?], nice is the only word i am aware of now. Along with the CD i bought, i bought a Toemarok 3rd Book - The Secrets of the Chochi Sword. It's out-of-this-world cheap, totally much cheaper than what i'd imagined it be. Leaving days countdown = 4, WHEEE!

van helsing = cool ... totally

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Van Helsing rox man, it really is great! I cant use my limited vocab to describe it further, the experience was once in a lifetime! wow!!!

i hate"that person" in case he sees, then i die

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oK, I totally give up on him. Everytime I chat with him, i will end up being angry, he doesnt give me respect, and yar fine, finds me irritating. Who cares about this jerk, stupid idiot, if i ever get to see him again, I will stare at him until his guts fall out. How can such a jerk be existing on this planet?! I hope his balls fly away during his sleep!

van helsing...

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Was planning to watch Van Helsing today, and i "cheonged" straight to the MRT station to await for the arrival ShiQi, and she was late for half an hour. Then we took the MRT but in the wrong direction, we should be heading for Causeway Point. but we travelled all the way to Changi and only until then did we realise that we were on the wrong track. Stupid. We quickly changed trains and headed back to the correct direction and sure enough we missed our slot for Van HElsing, on the way, there was a minor train breakdown and we wondered whether the train would explode or just peacefully continue. So in the end we didnt get to watch Van Helsing but we decided to make another go for it on Saturday. Haizz....

inspirations...woa

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Jusdone watching Factory Generation, the 3 groups really are busy:
W-inds are compelling there PV Best.
Lead preparing for live tour with Flame and movie "KAMACHI".
Flame training voice percussion.
Ryohei(W-inds)and the twins(Flame) are both going to their twenties, wooo, congrats(how i wish i could shake hands with them).
From Flame's new single "Fundamental Loop"'s PV, I was finally able to draft out a plan for my english composition, that cliff-hanging effect, speaking of cliff, reminds me of Ethel's cute little lemmings, haha.
ShiQi called to fix a time for movie tomorrow, finally I'm gonna watch VAN HELSING!! Wee! It's been long since I watched any horror shows, ShiQi's scared of ghost movies and yet she promises to accompany me, I'm so touched (sob sob).
A few days ago, Alice finally went online and accepted my friendster invitation, but she didnt reply my sweat-and-blood emails, how cruel.
Final descision on my speech topic : The Many Things That I Hate To See in People.
(Dad's back ((shiver)) )