Friday, April 30, 2010

CompClub MC

omg, just saw this email from the compclub president, seems like there's work to do during the hols. Me gravitate towards just ignoring it and run away since I've already gotten the mc points to allow my hall stay nxt sem. LOL major must thank them for the 10 points even though I nv did anything remotely related to them. I have never liked to be student leaders, especially this kind of com members, not just bury yourself in mounts and mounts of junk and shit jobs, you work your ass off for ungrateful people like me. hahaha. Im not ashamed, I just refuse to do their stupid work and attend their stupid meetings, the most they can do is kick me out of the com, which I seriously don't mind, I even want it. So alios, suckers :):)
the only thing I will feel bad about is Michael is the marketing director, I'm supposed to assist him, oh well, if he asks me of anything then I will poke two knives in my ribs for him, but if he doesn't I will just enjoy my well awaited holidays :):)
Not that I'm that repulsive of comm works, but I feel that it really depends on the people who are there, they should have some standards, even the president is shit lousy, what to expect??? and with people like me inside, woohoo, compclub is no club.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

ALAN 阿兰达瓦卓玛

I AM GONNA SPAM HER VIDEOS.

PS: IRON MAN IS FUCKING AWESOME!







have been sleeping on and off this morn.
feels really tired. ugh

last night in my dreams, there were two odd things, and I still remember them.
1. My secondary school best friend SM did very sweet things like visiting me in hall, making huge board cards and notes and more notes and pasting them on my door.
2. 3 black crows were outside my window, and came into my room, and shat the whole place.

I am honestly bothered about the second one, coz I went to google, and people say it's never good to see crows, in real life, even so in dreams. It means people you know will die. Or you will hear of stories of people dying. But then I saw this one other post, that says one black crow means bad luck, but three means health!

Its all superstitions I know, but the image of the 3 black crows gawking and rustling outside my window really stays on my nerves and bothers me.
escapism ttm, wad a well-deserved break from it all, i felt like if i dont leave my body and soul will extinguish.
caught Date Night, it is an immensely surprising movie which I would like to make my parents watch, reignite the passion. Beneath it's seemingly mild pretense, it's a verbally-hilariously-vulgar show. There are lines like "Penis blood, there's gonna be alot of penis blood!" and "Shut your vagina!" and stuff like that. Noormally, I'd find the later line damn crude, but this one is just plain funny. HAveta find it on the net.

Fuck laundry, i want to sleep zzzzzzz

Sunday, April 25, 2010

i look at some people's msn nick and i shudder in disgust.
feeling bitchy and irritated now.
Been staring at econs for the whole day. Somehow i just can't make myself study. the song 我的月光 by alan keep replaying in my head, and when i turn it on and sing along, it doesnt feel as nice as it was when it was in my head. Somehow, just somehow, I can't make myself do things that I have to do. watched a couple of movies in the afternoon, took a nap. Was all alone the whole day so much so that when I see people, I'm slow in reflexes thoughts and reaction. Abit of conversation during dinner cheered me up, I am sort of a people kind of person, can't handle aloneity without getting depressive. but sometimes, i am the other way round. and being in the same place for so long, is numbing to the point i don't even feel like cursing the situation. yet, cant find the reason to leave this place, because I know i have to be here. wow. actually i can just put on my jacket and go out for a walk. thing is, my econs is only halfway revised and is the paper... need to go out....need to see someone not from school....

Saturday, April 24, 2010

2 down 3 to go

wew, 2 down n 3 more to go.
it is super mind boggling to do cs1101 paper, i feel like i have no brain left after it, gladly i finished the paper and im way confident.
nm2101 was slip shot, anyhow write, i can't find the essay way of writing back, more like talking on paper, you know, and anyhow come up with some terms to fill in those i cant remember, wow, stupid stubborn old idiots, lmao.
anyone want my notes?

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

haiz.
one thing i like more about home than hall is that, I can prance around butt naked and nobody gives a damn. Aspiring naturalist at home.
but, i get over relaxed and I don't study. sux.

I officially hate new media...omg...i want to live in a cave.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I come from a family of simple happiness. My mom, a simple hardworking woman, whose joy and happiness stems from the welfare of me and my Dad; my Dad, a simple hardworking man, whose joy and happiness swells from watching me grow, and watching my mom grow (laterally). My home, my family is a place of comfort and a source of pure joy.

Schadenfreude

scha·den·freu·de   [shahd-n-froi-duh]
–noun
satisfaction or pleasure felt at someone else's misfortune.

hahaha

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

LOVE LOVE LOVE

AKB48



Typical jpop I used to like back in secondary school. Till now, I'm still affectionately attached to such teenage idol groups from Japan. Anyway this is a song of self-motivation, using River to represent hardships and obstacles, of which one must believe that she can overcome regardless of how fast,how dark and how deep the river is. Hehe, thinking of taking Jap module next sem. :) and maybe go SEP in Japan??

Major dun like farewells

attended hall command just now. ended up crying like a kid.
I really cannot withstand such tears-beckoning activities, especially when I see people whom I usually think won't cry, cry, the tears bank just explode. Don't even dare to look at photos I took just now, must be fucking ugly. I took photos with certain seniors that I had a chance to know, and it's really very little, can count with 5 fingers. its always at times like this that I regret not going out to know more people and to know them better, and always at times of depart do I start to regret the time that I did not spend with those people who could potentially be rewarding life companions. Reminds me of my jc class, secondary sch class, even though we weren't all that bonded, the thought of departure just breaks me.
anyhow, to all the commanding seniors, you all are wonderfully inspiring and life would be different without u all, and all the best for yall future endeavors!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

haaa

that (above:title) is supposed to be a sigh of pleasure and serenity. those that u emit after sipping fragrantful japanese tea, while sitting on a comfy tatami, overlooking the fallen flowers in your plantationally backyard.

supposed to be studying yo, which i put on hold while i started to sidetrack ..wow..2 hours ago. MUST STOP NOW.

Anyhow came across this person's profile on facebook http://www.facebook.com/ainara.gothburguese, her dp is oddly funny. and her website link brought me to this spanish site on death/goth/metal/punk/rock, all that stuff. Just by scrolling down looking at the cd covers gimme the cringe. its interesting to know that this sort of things exist, and one can't deny them just because one can't accept them. for all you know, this is their way to vent their frustrations, through so to remain sane.

ok, back to webcast. rarara

It's the time again

time to start muggin like there's no day and night, and there's no other thing I would love better to do. books and notes and webcasts, you and I are gonna fuse as one (quote stepf).

happily, my chest pain is miraculously gone, maybe coz of the vball session just now. Went down to play vball with Nus recrea vball people, last session of the sem already, it was quite good and the people were very nice. Was pleasantly surprised that Jiarong from hall was also there. haha he had alot to teach me. seriously think he is a very nice person, too bad he's leaving and today is the last time I will see him. fml...this is called no fate, good thing there's always facebook.

in my house, in my room, on my bed now. feeling zenned and peaceful, and happy.
Just wanna note that, the walk back to hall was pleasant even tho short.


loving this song

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

FUCKING CHEST PAIN GO AWAY!!!!!

AS max

at some points in time, I just like to pretend there's nobody around at all. I don't like to socialize for the sake of not appearing lonerish, I don't like to pop into conversations and start bragging about what's up with me (I don't like people who do that either). When such things/people happen, I choose to just walk away, then comes the difficult part, sometimes, I can't just walk away. You feel bad. For "pangseh-ing". But at the same time, I feel bad for wasting my time in situations I wish not to be in.
Sometimes these thoughts exemplify and I suddenly feel like an antisocial egg, I just want to roll into a comfortable corner. At times. Like now.

Anyhow, Dance Uncensored was awesome, sat in near-front-row seats, I could see the dancers' faces clearly, really expressive faces, it's really quite amazing.

Saturday, April 03, 2010


Was watching this movie awhile ago, Lean on Me, played by Morgan Freeman as Principal Joe Clark. Another one of those inspiring education movies, where the one true stubborn educator boils through the system meltdown governed by corrupted self-proclaimed saints always saying "it's for YOUR own good.." yadda yadda. I feel that it's important to have someone you want to emulate, someone who could guide you through life by example.

Thursday, April 01, 2010

Guiltless

I studied, so I'm guiltless.
And I scored full marks for quiz 2 cl2281. No it's not easy, and yes I am dam happy.
Just learnt that there's this guy Vernon from hall who studies double degree LAW AND LIFE SCIENCE....makes me feel sooooo small and incapable, and he is super involved in hall activities and doing well for both sides, godlike, major idolize him. If he can do it, I'm sure I can too, more so that I have only single degree, more so I must do my single degree well. ONWARD 5 A'ssssssssss!!!! I must grasp u's in my fingers and squeeze the juice out of u's, and taste the victory drop by drop.

Anyhow was reading the book called Games People Play. It provided explanations to many questions I previously had, and I find that everytime I start thinking about pointless things, averting to the theories from the book help to make it all seem simpler and less screwed up, and somehow I derive joy from it. I long for the day that I could trust myself to make the right decisions and not needing to be in control of myself all the time.

Very inspired to become a better person.
Very happy to have been me.