NO way man

If it was one year back, i might probably just accept it. But no, I refuse to accept ppl’s arrangement for me without pushing it. Sorry but just no way am I gonna stand one side like a retard.

The A-Team

HOHOHO, I FUCKIN LOVE MOVIES LIDAT!!! WOOT!! GOD I WISH TO BE ONE OF THEM. SHIT AWESOME!!!

Photos again. :P

 

 

Went to this tourist attraction place called 国色天香, there were rides and everyth but I didn’t ride on any, technically because I have old people in tow, but honestly because I actually is quite scared. Ha. Anyhow, love the sheer bigness, that’s something you don’t see in sg, no offence, but sg is tiny. Pardon the countryside look, I don’t bother to dress up, coz once again I am with old people in tow, I look perfect to them even if my face is meshed up, plus I don’t really need to dress up, I am just beautiful as I am. No joke.

Anyhow, gonna move in to hall tmr, superbly reluctant, oh well what can I do, last year in hall. Shall get a private jet next academic year.

Just heard today that someone from Sheares hall committed suicide just recently. As someone who don’t know shit about the person, I wouldn’t say things like “oh so sad”, “oh he took the easy way out”. Everyone has suicidal thoughts, I even came up with “interesting ways to die” at work two years ago. Life is difficult, and it’s getting difficulterer. I’ve lived till now because I havnt met or encountered anything that would kill me, I plan to stay away from those things, but nothing is certain.

I am thankful for the peaceful and comfortable life I have led by far.

Photos

 

My Mom brought me to take 艺术照, i have no idea what it’s called in English, photos turned out better than I thought, just that I havn gotten them yet, waiting for my grandpa to mail it over.

It’s my first time at a photo shoot, it is unnerving and the camera man didn’t help much by being bossy and impatient, the poses he made me do are beyond my comprehension, however they actually look nice in print, so I forget all the curse words I have to say about him. The purpose of this is to leave a photo memory of I look like now, and I should say I’m quite glad to have agreed to it, even though I don’t like to have makeup on my face and wigs on my head.

Amused because my Dad still thinks that the person on the photo is not me, he will quite often point at the photo and say “Who is that??”, and I would say “ME.”, and he replies “Impossible, it must be someone else.” Oh well, accept it, it is me, even though it doesn’t look like me, or the other way round.

I must say this…this..place..is doing quite well. For the few times I went down, there were quite a number of people being buzzed around to do make up, hairstyle, and pushed into rooms to take photo. I even saw this pregnant lady walking around in a costume that fully uncovers her protruding belly. I guess every girl would love something like this, keeping visual memories of youth and time.

Below are some photos I took while waiting for my turn, and 4 soft copies of how the actual photo looks like.

 

…wahahaha.

                   

Procrastinating…

I have one million lumps of things to post about, but I dun have the drive to do so. Yet I feel the more I procrastinate, the more I will start to forget, seeing how amazingly fast I forget things these days. The only excuse I have is that I havn been able to sort out my thoughts, I dun know where to begin and how to end.

Been back for just one day, I feel like I didn’t leave at all. The time I spent in Chengdu felt like a dream, sometimes I doubt whether I’d really left this place for real, or was it all part of my imagination.

Anyhow, I had been thinking that instead of seeing “forget” as a disability to remember, it is refreshing to think of it as the ability to disremember. Imagine having to remember everything single little thing about every single little thing, I forgets that thought immediately. I wonder how each time Shiqi can remember all the tiny things I used say and do, why spend so much memory space on such insignificant matters?? If only I could attach a USB to my head, I could have thumbdrives as hairs.

I hate the fact that school is starting….I hate the fact that my sem is going to be torturous like hell. woooo… guess it’s the same for everyone. When to get busy if not now???

and so im back

quick post before i fall asleep on my thickened bed with 3 weeks of dust.

i am now back in spore, i am heartbreakingly missing my home now...i could cry you a river..I am not used to the driver on the right side, not used to not listening to my vulgar-sounding dialect, not used to the cleanliness, i miss chengdu already.

thn again, when i was there, i super missed singapore too, i missed my friends, i missed my Dad, i missed internet....

been living on cloud nine for the past 3 weeks, takes a bit of getting-use-to living back on the ground, school's starting and I havn started researching on modules. ralalala.

anyhow, many stuff to post about my beloved city, the land of good food and living buddhas haha, i myself is a pig turned holy. weee

Mini thoughts and goodbyes

Hey, in a pretty weesh, FOC is over. Done is the job of Games Ic, and it's always till the very end do I start to actually like what I was doing. I could still recall the awkward silences when it started out when having meeting with 2 unfamiliar people, my fellow gamesic ZQ and Jason. and when I trace the entire flow from the most historic form of our games flow to the actual ones carried out in the past week, the changes were amazing, and I couldn't believe WE did that. I was actually rather proud despite the fact that, y'know, I was a pretty big slacker and ZQ and jason did most of the tiresome work. But hey, I'm the only girl, haha, and that makes me excusable.

Anyhow, the camp ended nicely last night at the wee hour of 10pm with our awesomely wonderful EXCO performance in which I played a small part of choreographing a dance to the song "I Will Survive", and I loved my fellow Awesome Girls (URIRA: AWESOME GIRLS!!!) and it is aptly OUR dance. And Michael Jonah just poached my eyeballs away because he is just suavingly handsome for that matter. William's saxophone performance is also eye opening and fame-uppingly attractive. Hey yo, SoC is as fun as any other, if not more, and I do love the friends I have made even if they are not the "COOLEST" people. And HuiYun and YiJia and me are like copies of each other coz we just love all the same things.

Apart from the friends I've got to know better through this experience, the job itself also pretty much gave me a different view to things. I have been an OGL before, but I've never been a game master until this camp. Having fun and make other people have fun are two entirely different concept. Not only do I have to make clear the instructions in the shortest time possible, I need to coordinate my helpers, get a clear view of the whole game play and watch out for everybody's safety and fun level at the same time. Of which I honestly believe I did a really good job. :D

Also, before this I simply hate doing menial "saikang" stuffs for any other people, really, I HATED it. but now I am actually pretty fine with it, as long as what I do is contributing to the "greater good". Stuff like tying waterbombs (1000+ of them and still not enough WTF!), cutting strips of paper, sticking pieces of paper all over the school yadda yadda, and all at the crazy hours when others are either already asleep or are still sleeping. But hey, if I am gonna be a part of something, I better make sure I am an asset and not a liability. It's better to be highly demanded for than to be hung aside being good at nothing. something I learnt is that I should give and do my best at the moment that I am doing it, and not come to later and apologize saying "sorry for screwing up", it's ridiculous and I honestly despise it.

Having some withdrawal feelings now, and I really do hope that our FOC Exco Com stays tight after the camp, and outings should be planned asap coz I'm missing them all already.

In about 10 hours time, I'd be on the plane back home, like FINALLY~~~ it has been a long 5 years since I last returned and I am mad excited!!!