projects, projects and more projects...

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
9 o'clock count down 6 minutes, must remember to wake my mom up, then go to sleep, i m dying already.
went for half a volleyball training today, quite fun except for the spoiling-the-fun cum stupid rain. then went for stupid science tuition, half way thru the class, i almost fell asleep, cant keep me eyes open no matter how. Guess that the others also suffered quite a lot from my cursed perspiration. i found myself really smelly too, what can i do? i cant control how i swear...

香君啊，你。。。

今天不知何故和亲爱的潘大小姐翻脸了。当她在桌子上写我是“屁洞”。为什麽当她在桌子上写“wanyi=asshole"的时候，我会那么生气？我没惹她，也没招她，为什麽她这么讨厌我？回家的路程上，我一直在想，最终得出的结论是：XiangJun hates me."
可能是因为我经常说她很烦，很讨厌，之类的话吧。我很讨厌跟人说”对不起”，所以对她说了那种话之后，虽然有些内疚，但却不会低声下气地向她道歉，反正是她有错在先嘛。
当她不烦人，不找人麻烦的时候，我认为她是个不错的女孩。就像那天，她跟我谈起她小妹妹的时候，我真的很喜欢那时候的她。很成熟，很可爱。真希望她永远那样。
我想因为我常常对她的态度很不好，所以她现在一定很讨厌我吧。想起她上次的Speech，我想她所说的应该是我吧。（叹气）真令人心痛啊。
Thinking about what happened just now, my heart ached again. When I quarelled with XiangJun, Ethel only just told me "cool it". That's cold, ok. It's not like someone whom you regard as one of your closest friend would say to you when your are against someone, not that I'm saying XiangJun was to be blamed, I owe a lot to her, i would say. But Ethel's "coldness" (ooh, I m freezing!) reminded me of my one and only true friend, and again, she's far far away in China, and haven't been contacting me for eternity. Hello~. Alice was the only friend that stood on my side whenever someone's against me or me against someone. except for her, from young till now, i had not one friend who would go " Hey, don bully wanyi!" or something like that. Most of the times, people would gang up with one another to play tricks on me and make me feel stupid. haizz....
Ok,
to xiangJun: dear panpan, i've always thought of u as my friend. i donno what u think. apart from sometimes u try to irritate ppl, u are really quite nice. please stop all the irritates and just get along as all friends does. i apologise, if i had been unkind or treated u with no respect....but ( ok , i cant go on anymore, this so mushy...!)

um...

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
haven't been updating for a few days, i really couldnt find anything interesting enough to write down about. this week is a very blank week of my life. i hate it when ethel goes crazy with abel yang and sarah, i hate it when mom kept asking me stupid questions about the comp, i hate it when he doesnt reply me. i jus hate it!
hate is such a heavy word, shouldnt use hate, well hate here means irritating.

muahahaha...

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
I've finally fixed my darned computer! A great feat of a lifetime! But was unable to complete my Chinese Composition homework. Darn....

VAn Van Van!!! Anderson Number 10!!!

WOA!!!<> Van rocks!! She's the best!! Three-pointer siah! woawoaowoa!!!

what kind of sh** is this?!

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
O.K. What kind of shit is this?!
I locked myself up in the study room with this stupid computer and having a cold war with my parents. They don't understand me at all, all they want me to do is to give in to them. (Just returned from a toilet break.) This computer sucks to where, they are not as clear as moi, how this happens, they are too not known more than moi, and now they are there pointing and saying things like "it's all your fault that the computer is in this pathetic staea ." and blah blah blah blah blah. Isn't that the most irritating thing!? I just can't take it and my mom blames everything on me saying that I'm being defiant and them being my parents have the right to reprimand me and more blah blah blah s.
O.K. I've realised my wrong for argueing with them and makde my mom scream like some nicompoop. But they are totally ignoring me and pretending that I'm non-existent, ehat kind of childish parents are they?! Can't take it anymore, I wanna sleep!

using school com...

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
yar, sending my lao ya computer for repair today. haizz, gonna miss it....
my dad bought a new hp yesterday, i really lurved that model, and he bought to use himself, NOT FOR MOI!!!! i m so angry ( wow school computer damn fast, haha). anyway.... i think i m gonna miss him also, unable to message him for like a few weeks, wonder whether he will be angry anot.... aaah, got nothing more to write.... sianz.....ooo later got SEX ed, teach us how to pett, hahahaha, how funny...

love torn (izzat de right word? or the left one? ok, lame...)

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
yaya,couldnt update this thing for the past ...one day. Well, doesnt affect anything, not that anything really special happened yesterday.
Oh yar, saw on Popjam yesterday, one of my favourite Jap idols, W-inds!!! I only love the lead singer, Keita, but I should support the grp in order to support Keita, in fact I'm really starting to find Ryuichi irritating. Anyway, they performed a "SPECIAL" yesterday, at the start of the show. They were really cool, theiir SPECIAL was a combination of the newest singles : Pieces, Long road, Super Lover and I think the last song was Game. I was totally mesmerized and all, when suddenly when they were singing Game, each of them took off their outer clothing leaving either T-shirts or Sleeveless for view, wow, their muscles and all!!! The trio went down the stage and interacted with the "screaming bitches", shaking hands and things. Ok, i already was jealous (they were actually touching my beloved Keita!!!), when suddenly Keita put his legs on the porch and waved suavely to the crowd. That was one cool image but was ruined by those bitches frantically slapping Keita's leg and thigh!!! aaaaargh, i m angry all right, how could Keita have let them do that to him!!!

i m bursting with raging anger

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
ok, this is like the n th time my computer goes crazy and slow. i feel so like want to just crush this stupid computer and just get some new and better ones just dropping down from the sky. today is one annoying and irritating day. mom took some bloody stupid photos of me in stupid poses, and came out in the pictures, i look fat like hell, and de color differences on my skin was so obvious! when i complain to my parents that i find myself really ugly and shitty, they told me that this stage of my life is the ugliest. yar right. everytime is de same! the pictures taken of me always look so much different fro m what i see of myself in the mirror. WHY! why cant i just be the old me, who appears "normal" in both pictures and mirror, and de image in both are of the same person?

pAIN.....Pain!!!!

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
now that my muscles screamed too much, i couldnt hear them nor feel them anymore. yar, wad i m gonna say is that i definetly had grown much bolder after i had started messaging "him" through friendster. I jhad just messaged him telling him that i m totally freaked about insects and added him to my contacts on MSN. soon i could be toking to him freely and mayb passing casual remarks in school. I m still working on it, hai, ganbarimasu!

abrador

俺は海賊王になるの男だ
went for e field trip today, to e long missed Labrador Park. Though i don't quite remember what the tour guide's name was but i think she was quite nice a lady though i find her eyes kind of disturbing.
Saw a lot of familiar places in the park, for exmaple that huge and imaginative compass, brought quite alot of happy memories of the days we spent in Pri5.
always finding my life getting more and more interesting and yet more stressing as of the new challenges that enters my life and had to really learn how to deal with them. and yet sometimes i wished i would
just die on the particular spot and time (the umpteenth time the freaking player playing the Azumanga Daioh song, getting irritating...) Mum coming home today from Malaysia or shld
I say tml that she'd be home very very very late tonight.
Aaarghs, can hardly keep my eyes open. somethings' damn wrong with my email, its either i don get the mail that i m supposed to get and having ppl using my add to send emails to other ppl.......z
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

俺は海賊王になるの男だ

haha, spent the whole afternn making another chinese file frontpage. this one i made only fifteen min ago, is way cooler than that pink hair guy that was first on the frontpage. Honestly, i really donno y i chose to color him pink in the first place, maybe i shall upload some pictures of it so that anybd hu reads my blog (hardly) can get a better idea of wat i m trying to picture.
the funniest thing in the world that came to surface today:
me : "Mr Ismail, what was your CCA when ur were in Secondary sch?"
Ismail: " muahahahaha! TRRRRA-ke and FFFFieeld!"
me, xiangjun, jelyn, geraldine : " track and field....muahahahahahahhhhahahahahahahhahahahha!!! (continues on and on)
Ismail: " i dont look like from track and field izzit. I can run and jump very high one you know!"
"muahahahahahahaha....HAHAHAHAHAHA....HOHOHOHOHO!!!!!"
haizz, of all laughable things, i think all of us will be mentally scared for life......

my dad...wow!

ok, seriously, my dad is such a maths genius.
well, i knew that long time ago, coz he keeps complaining abt what a maths idiot i am, compared to him and what he had already been doin when he was my age and blah blah blah... what i have been telling him is that he had been really really stingy when he's... um.. producing me. gave me all the bad habits and his stupidity genes, and leaving with himself all the good quality ones, still blame me for being not as clever as he is. -_-;;;
anyway, glad to have such a genius dad, he's also pro in chem, science, physic, bio....blah blah and blah, and he's good in sports also, although he looks like a 4 mths pregnant woman now. he blames it one me mom, saying that when she's carrying me, mom drinks the soup that has all the essence and dad will gobble the chicken, duck or watever that mom didnt want to eat.
such a nice and loving father cum husband, none left on the planet nowadays...{^_^} 幸せな私。。。

ONE PIECE ROX!!!

ok, today's content does not totally have to do with One Piece. in fact, today is so normal that i find nothing special that i can write about it. Mom went to Malaysia half an hour earlier, leaving me and Dad at home for the nx 3 days while she enjoys herself on holiday, how cruel!!! mm, bought One Piece comic book 1, it's been long time since i've bought a comic, Bt'X, i had thought would be my first and last collection. I wonder..... this morning had diarrheo, fought hard to keep it inside all the way from home to school, hard way, half way the stupid principal's ever so long tok, i went to the washrm for release, after that i felt much much better! ONE PIECE ROX!!!

俺は海賊王になるの男だ！

フワンピイス！
One Piece rox man! I finished downloaded the first 10 episodes, although this's not the first time I watched it, one piece still takes me to the rox. Can't believe if there's anybd asking me what's One Piece, one thing I would do is to hit the person on the face hard with Luffy's GOMU GOMU NO PISTOL!!!!
俺はやれの事がやるぜ、死んじゃうが別じゃ！
This is what Luffy said that inspired me most, meaning that I do what I want to do, even if I risk my own life, I don't care.
Cool, isn't it. One of the character, not one of the important though, Coby, a cowardly small little guy who dreamt of being one of the Marines but was forced to slavery by some fat woman, was also inspired by Luffy and in the end successfully, with the help of Luffy and Zoro, became one of the Marines.
He made to Luffy a vow secretly in his heart, that one day he and Luffy would meet again, as pirates and Marines.
いつか、俺達まだ会える。海賊と海兵隊員の様に。
with this, i've once again decided to start my morning jogs again. Like Luffy, with determination, I will success, even if death takes me, I don't care!

woweeeeeee

hahaha, i m so happy, i received a message from my crush!!!!!!!!!!!!! woo aah woo ahh ahhh

Calling all people who reads my blog ( me?)

if you see alot of ~!@#~@!#~ things when opening my blog,
right click and choose Unicode for encoding.

oops cum wow cum eeeuh...

forgot to update on thursday coz i was dead beat. had blue-blacks all over because of over initiative. remember that rolling thing in volleyball? had practice on thurs coz today is holiday. thurs is practices for guys, but we went,too many ppl, so the coach didnt really have the energy to look after each and everyone, so the grp of us went to play by ourselves in one corner. because of the over initiative, we ordered ourselves to "roll" for the ball if needed, then "round" (shoulder ur teamates then squat-then-stand for decided times) 5 times if we shirk a ball or used single hand to hit the ball, etc. now we are injured and pained, but we had fun, haha.
today, another fun day.
went to Marine Parade to have bbq, with mom cum friends cum their kids.
didn't thought it gonna be fun, but it turned out really fun.
one of the kids was my age and was a real hunk, totally mesmerizing (o.k not that serious coz i totally ignored him).
taught how to rollerblade in half an hour by a 10 yrs old cutie called 奇龙.
after learnt how to skate, i fell 3 times awfully ugly on the track and almost got wheeled by all the passing bikers and skaters.
Overturned mom's friend's bike while cycling, and disfigured the basket in front, because of a sudden brake, shiok (:P)
went to the beach and buried both my legs in the sand and looked like a migit, should have taken a picture, haizz, how disappointing.
played Bloody Knuckle with the "buriers", didnt win once, and lost real badly.
rode home on a lorry, and had painful butts and dragonball hair. so nice to be home.
visited my secret crush's website and was shocked, he truly is talented.
so tired and couldn't find anybody to go to the Lord of the Rings exhibition, so sad.
can't stand that Abel Yang and increasingly finding Ethel irritating. (o.k she's gonna read this, i'd better make it sound gruesome)
she's really crazy, and i keep having the feeling that she doesn't respect me at all. she gets closer n closer with Sarah and Abel Yang (walking piece of evolved fat), and just don't seem to care about me anymore. not that i want her to stick with me every second or things, but she's like treating me differently, take for example:
Scenario 1:
i ask her :"ethel, going down for recess anot?"
ethel: " don't feel like to."
me:"k"
sarah:"ethel, let's go down."
ethel : " k "
...........to be continued.............

sexuality education....tsk tsk

haha, i finally completed my book stand. not that i m trying to boast or what, it's really cute and nice. its too difficult to discribe its beauty with my limited vocabulary, i'll try and upload a picture of it. sure if anyone sees it wil fall in love with it also....

dying

amazing me. i can still find myself conscious. ok, today's training was tough. we must "roll" and now my hips are either red or blue. thought they say that the roll is supposed to help to protect you from injuries (i m a volleyball player) , and yet i find that the roll create injuries more than protecting me. i m now hanging my head by the side and its gonna fall off any second. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......

whew...

hey, i actually managed to remember to come back here. I m new at creating blogs, and i suck at it, i spent like 2 hours last night and only managed to change the background color to black. Hahaha, laugh at my stupidity(quote from Ethel). survived another day at school, can't wait to end my studies and maybe lead a wandering life. trust me, that's my dream to lead a wandering life, influenced by Samurai X. Who cares.... Jeez, almost forgot, I saw that person today. and for once i forced myself not to look at him. good effort, although i still end up staring at his back llike some idiot. but it's always good to step out the first step. I think i should change the music of my blog, listen too many times already, a bit -.-||| .....

泣きたい。。。。

learn from clara, and frenz, create my own blog. quite cool, provided i remember to update it everyday, which is hardly possible.
ok, i was heartbroken from 7.25p.m. onwards. I checked out friendster, and miraculously found my crush (blush blush), as i was reading his testimonials, found out that he already has his sweetheart. maybe he never did notice me as i am so un-noticeable, and he was like so talented and ...wow.
what am i?
while piecing back my heart, i found another crack. i feel empty. empty as i had no one to talk to. my closest friend Alice was far away in China, and she was the only truest friend i had. remembering how i used to take her for granted, i feel like giving myself a punch on the face (ouch, maybe not so hard). as i am writing this, i can feel my cheeks wet by unidentified liquid.
what am i to do????