hell

and thr i msg my dad saying e braces didnt hurt...
actually it is painful, its ok if i dont touch it or bite down, if not, it'll give me headaches. one of tt small lil thing came off, i got to tell POON. She was exclaiming "excellent! excellent!" when she finished with my braces, and now, it came off aft a little brushing. swt...
i chose green, coz i think the green is nice, dad said nxt time i take pink. fine with me, pink is nice also.
oh man, it hurts....

bleach leaves me wondering...

and there i was amazed to finally see Rukia's Zanpakutou, and the nxt moment i see her beaten up by "broken face" (-.-|||). I'm hurt...
it seems that the broken face ppl are sooo much stronger than Shinigamis that it hurts. Their zanpakutou release itself is so horrifying, wait til they get to their Bankai, i doubt i'd be able to take the blow.
And talk about Rukia's zanpakutou release, it was dam kewl~~~, elegant at the same time. its name is "Sode no Shirayuki" (Sleeve of the White Snow)
[Soul Society regards it as the most beautiful Zanpakutou in existence. It's a weapon that's bound to the ice and snow family of Zanpaku. The blade, the handguard, even the hilt, everything about this Zanpaku is pure white.
-First Dance: Tsukishiro, Sode no Shirayuki does not only freeze the land it touches but anything that lies within its circle.]

.....right now, i'm in a state of devastation... is Ikkaku gonna die???
Fuck that stupid volcano monster, if he kills Ikkaku, I'm gonna kill him!!!
(5min...) Oh, it seems that Ikkaku's not dead yet!!! wohoo!!! what's he gonna do? what's he gonna do? oh, oh, oh~~~ oooh, he's smiling, wow, kewl, kewl, it's so GODDAMIT FUCKING COOOOL!!!! (oops, i shudn have said tt, ><)
oh no! Ikkaku's hit by the volcano bastard's fist, and he's on fire!!! aaargh!!! water! water!!!
YES! HE LIVES!!! That's my Ikkaku!! Kick tt dick's ass, Ikkaku~~~, gogogo~~~ WOOOHOOOO!!!
darn, y izzit loading so slow....testing my patience...

....
....
oh
My
GOD....
Ikkaku is releasing his BANKAI.....
faints....

i feel bad. for doing things that piss ppl off and pissed myself as well.
Im sorry for slandering darren in m msn nick and blocking him, i wasnt in my right mind, but since he said the "f" word, i shall not feel obliged to apologize.
i feel bad, coz i couldnt control myself and got caught playing solitaire by my dad, even tho he repeatedly drummed in me that the next time i was caught playing would mean that he's given up on me. pretty extreme, but i trampled on his words, and here i am, feeling stupid and regretful. wad should i say to him?
i admit i'm in the wrong, but its hard to put into words.
I m not normal today.
I need to get out.
think i shud go to sleep early and wake up early tmr, to drive myself through another day of studying and another day of continuous self-motivation...i wonder how long it will keep me going. i seem to have exhausted every drop of energy i hold. right now, i'm dried up.
I don't wish to go any further.
let me stay here, let me rest.
let me recollect myself. please dont give up on me. it makes me sad.
despite telling myself that my dad's never serious abt matters like this, it still scares the shit out of me....
i miss my mom...

i shall go to sleep. only sleep can comfort me, it gives me a few hrs of peace before having to face the tiring procedural days ahead.
how i wish that i can be someone who's dependable, reliable, who does what she says,someone who keeps her promise. if i were to be my dad, i would desperately want to track that stray naughty sperm back in preventing this hazard coming into earth.

i m tired. i shall sleep.....

ooo long time no blogged...

jajaja, feeling good ^^, listening to Hirahara's song, it was amazing that she had tt NAGORI YUKI song in her album, i heard that song in the jap show Mr Tok lent me. It was nice ^^.
now i shall try to remember for the past..5 days...
wednesday - thursday...
me went to that ulu leadership camp, 2 days 1 night, luckily. Tell you what, it SUX!
Didn't do anything exciting. I thought that the Kayaking and mud walk would be fun, but NO, it wasnt. for kayaking, we only wet ourselves to do the stupid capsize drill (dam, one ugly woman juz walked by, yuck ><), we werent even this far from the shore, and i lost my socks.... it left me feeling grumpy all day. After the freaking capsize drill, we were to sit in the "field kitchen" and listen to that rotting instructor do theory work on "How to be a Leader", how lame. Knowat, they referred to us as "leaders" like "oi, leaders, come'ere..." (and stuff liddat), lame right! And i bet they think it was so clever...diunz...
I was damn grumpy so i wasn listening to tt instructor, i was talking to huimin they all. then the stupid instructor made me stand up and tell them wad i was talking abt. Shux... so i did tell them wad i was saying. He then went hypocritic, saying that what i said was right, and he think it was right too, and blah blah, but was trying all ways to rebutt me la, hypocrite...(ooo, this song is nice ^^, ayaka hirahara ^^)
aft tt we went to pitch out tents, it was the only fun thing lor. the tent was a what they called luxurious tent (or whatsoever). Dam big. materials : one very heavy sheet which i dono what its called, 2 shorter wooden poles with protruding nails on one end, and one very long pole that is supposed to be the roof, and 8 guide lines and 8 pins, oh and 8 floorboards.
we spent like one hr or so pitching the tents. aft which, from what i rmb, we went to the field kitchen again, to listen to cock. we were supposed to come up with some stupid skit or song or smth. I wasnt listening, as usual... my grps presentation was shit, Im not complaining..^^
dinner was fun, we cooked it ourselves, was supposed to come up with 10 different dishes. it started raining halfway, so we went to cook in the MPH(multi-purpose-house, diunz). haha our prized dish was cooked rice with curry powder wrapped in raw cabbage, LOL!!!! the food was nice, really, personally, i find the magee mee really appetizing ^^.
so aft doing the skit and stuff, we cleaned up la, showered, then went to sleep in our tents. there were 6 of us in our tent. Eunice, Huimin, Cheryl, Amy and her fren, plus me. we didnt talk much and went to sleep. The sleeping part is the funnest part of the camp, i think ^^. It was nice, sleeping with rain drumming above our heads, relaxing ^^. We got to sleep another 30 min coz it was raining heavily in the morning, wopee.
the next day, thursday, a good day, coz we are leaving!!!
we had to unpitch our tents aft breakfast. speaking of unpitching, theres someone i muz muz bring up. it is tt amy's fren, dono whats her name, she's super irritating! i took out the pins, ask her to wash, and she washed for so damn long, slowly take her time, when we were working to our death trying to wipe the bloody sheet clean. when she came back right, she didnt pick up the cloth and help out kno, she juz stood there holding the broom and talk cock. she thinks she's so pro, order ppl arnd, when she herself sit thr and talk, i really felt like kicking her face. i showed her that i was irritated and ask her to stop talking and get to work.
finally, we cleaned up everything, was so tired that i thot i will die. then we got to kno that only our sheet was clean and passed expectations, all the other 6 failed and had to be recleaned. dam...
so once again, we got down on all fours and start wiping like wiping was our lifetime achievement. that stupid ger was there again slacking when the others were working like dogs. ok, skip the cleaning.
at last, we finished, it was a great sense of satisfaction, coz our group managed to clean 3 goddam sheets ^^. i refuse to talk abt wad tt shit ger did.
then blah blah, more talking and stupid stuff, and area cleaning (diunz) we were leaving!!!!
finally...

that was the camping story, not very interesting..
the next day, i went to dentist, got my other 2 extractions, this time no so fun, coz it came out too fast... >< now i have 4 metal ring-like things on my 4 back teeth, wasnt tt bad, at least i can still chew with these things on.

yesterday, we sent me mom off to the airport, i can see that mom was very happy, she wore all red, woo, hot, lol. finally, aft so many years, mom was going back to China, Chengdu, of course she's happy. She's leaving for a week or two. and during this period, i hav the whole house to myself, muarharhahrar, weeeeeee. my dad only comes home in the aftnn, muarharharhhar, even better ^^. it feels good to be in charge, ^^.

change of plans, gonna watch HP4 with Shimin and Joanne, coz my Dad no time to watch with me, ><.

yup tts abt all, ^^...
i was frustrated with OekakiCentral yesterday, I couldnt submit the little devil that i drew due to some technical problems, and tt picture wasnt saved. T.T.... i m on drawing frenzy lately, cant help it, its a way of de-pressuring, i suppose. betta than nothing, altho i often end up frustrated...:P...
heez.

extracted my teeth ^^

i went to get my two outgrowth extracted yesterday.
i used to be scared of extracting me tooth, supprisingly it was pretty fun ^^.
the fun part was when the doc injected tt "numb" drug, i forgot wat its called, anaethetic?? :P.
haha then half of my face went numb and my gums feel swollen, i lost control of my left nostril...muahaha, it was hilarious!!!
she starts to mess with my two outgrowths, using something tt looked like screwdriver...lol, i kind of felt the flesh separate from the tooth, a quick sense of pleasure, how perverted....
ya, the extraction went well, and i didnt bleed alot, the wound healed pretty fast. Places near my head heals faster than places far from my head...lol.. the wound doesn hurt anymore, it is the blue rubberbands tt POON stuffs into my teeth tt is irritating. It feels like u have left overs stuck in between ur teeth, big chunks. every bite will induce a moment of pain and pressure on my gums. pain ~~
other than that, i have no complains for getting my teeth extracted, now i can at least smile normally, no more ugly protrusions and well i look better on photos now. happiness ^^

aaa irritated, my dad nag me again, cannot play game le, even msn solitaire also don let me play, iz this how to treat a ill person?! i may die of depression or lack of fun and games....
o crap, maybe i shall go sleep.
blog again tmr.
see tt i changed my blogskin?
haha, me so proud
coz i made it!!! partly. but still i m very proud muahahahar ^^
today, there was a manga workshop by INOUE at Jurong East Library. haha. they called it a crashcourse, nah, e philix, or wadever his name was, taut only the very basics, and they still had e cheek to ask us by how much did tt course improve our knowledge on e subject on the survey. crap.
but then i met this Liz ger, her drawings are superb! i feel so inferior, T.T...
I aspire to draw better than her! and tadaa, i have a new motivation, vroom vroom...
really, i need to put in more hardwork, i really have to, i havnt been drawing lately, and it gets rusty without practice....
i need inspiration!!!! i don wan my pieces to come out all with the same ppl doing the same things, wearing the same expresiion!
I want my drawings to be able to convey somthing!
something meaningful, not just a pretty ger posing.
But something much deeper, with a message.
ya, tt wld be nice ^^.
ok. tt's abt all.
ha and i saw tt short guy again, hahaha

baaa

its not her fault that she didnt know!
It's not her fault that at her hometown,
Mary did not have a lamb, maybe mary had a dog or a cat.
Really, its not her fault...

doops...havnt touched GB for days...my heart yearns for it. Perhaps i might get to play a teeny little bit tmr...prayzzzzzzz

fergot to mention yesterday. tuesday i went out wif shimin, haha, i finally saw her wear skirt... ^^ (i sound weird...) ya, we went to Genki Sushi to ask abt part times, and ya it's probably another gone case. Lala~~ but the impt part was when we were at Kino, there were many JaP guys, woohooo!! excitment ^^ lol...
haha there were 2 grps of them, maybe they went there as one grp but split up eventually. haha geeks and hunks, woot! for some reason, i just cant resist jap guys, ill fall head over heels for them, heex... shimin wished me luck in getting a jap bf nxt time, and i wished her luck in getting a korean one.
we wondered how come singapore guys does not have the luring characteristics of jap guys although they try means and ways to look like them, but in the end turn out a flop. whew~~~
i got a flu, and e right nostril wont stop running, irritatin, really.
haha i did a stunt with me boogie just now, i made a bubble, lol, wot a feat! the bubble was reeally big u kno, 0.0
and i was seen by me dad when i accidentally flicked my tissue out of da window...lmao, well, he told me to go pick it up.
i've been very hardworking these two days, and i hope i can keep it up. Nxt yr is dreadful, and I need to be prepared, for unseen circumstances may occur.
come to think of it, this yr passed so fast, that i couldnt blive how fast it past.... i can still rmb at e start of e yr, i was thinking tt O's were still hell far away. but now, seems like they were right at me dorrstep. prrrr, shivers...

hmm, someone muz b glad tt i updated, huh. ^^

fine! i shall update. :D heex...nothing much to say anyway.
i got inspired and decided to change the "PONG SHUI" of my study, harhar.
I singlehandledly shifted de table and singlehandledly dismembered my com and joined them back, woot! wot a sense of satisfaction ^^.
yesterday, e uncle from next door suddenly started talking to me, freaky, :P. He's a nice person, I think, but i juz cant figure out y he started to talk to me all of a sudden...
i m looking all over for the midi for GLAYxEXILE - SCREAM, i juz watched the mtv a few days ago, and i was shocked. it was SUPER COOOOOL!!!!!! I had always knu that EXILE was great at dancing, and the mtv totally enhances my thot. IT WAS COOL BEYOND EXPLANATION!!!! i wish i can put it up here, but i dono how.... sobx...
my dad's picking on me every now and then, i m getting used to it alr...haha, my mom was right, what does it matter? He's my dad and he likes to pick on me, so let him pick all he want then, i shall be wise to keep my mouth shut and listen to de weird little things he comes up to irritate me, hmmm, quite interesting sometimes. ^^
did i mention that my year end results suck?
it sucked....like hell! i was so ashamed to bring that piece of dog poo paper home to let my dad sign, boohoooooooo. sigh...that is y i need to change e PONG SHUI...
I like tt MTV commercial abt the PONG SHUI, its so funny!!! MUARHARHARHAR! I wonder whether i can download it somewhere, hmmm ...