i had been a very obedient and initiative girl today, and i award myself for that, coz end of yr is arnd the corner, and I must get good grades this time, at least my L1R5 less than 10, so i studied with fervour and enthusiasm for the whole aftnn, the prime of my life was spent studying, isnt that sweet ^^
Dad went out wit Mom to help me get a mouse, coz the previous went crazy, and I had been sticking to my Graphier, and was afraid that it might spoil under my care, so they went to buy a new one, i was spposed to tag along but I had to study so i stayed behind.
When my Dad came back, I knew it would happen that way, he bought a laptop mouse for me and it was useless...so out of pure frustration, i went out on my own and bot a normal-for-God's-sake mouse, and a USB plug or smth, it was pink, and it was cute, it cost 40 bucks and I bought it, total I spent 70 bucks today...
and now my new mouse is juz lying on the table, alittle bit to my east, emitting mesmerizing blue light, just cant take my hands of it, and once again, I proclaim that I have unique and good taste, weeeeeee!
A few days ago, my ReGet Deluxe went expired, I dono y, its not supposed to be since I had registered it with Keygen, but it juz went expired....sad...,it's the best download manager I've used and now I cant use it anymore, booohoooo T_T...
Now I'm downloadin DAP, and it's freaking slow, coz there's little seed, and its only a mere 3mb, infuriating....uuuurgh...
hmmm, I had planned to download Windows XP Professional but was unsuccessful coz it's kind of old and nbd's seeding it....wewewewewew
Bitcomet has been updated to version 0.60, not much difference except now that it has a Preview feature, amazing (my foot)...
Next thurs is the start of the dreaded days, and I dare say I'm not prepared for it, why? BECAUSE THE FREAKING GEOGRAPHY IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate geog, i hate geog....i hate it..........

i need a shrink...

I m telling you, I'm gonna go crazy one of these days...
I've pouring over geography for 2 days, and I realized I can't take it animore, geog disgusts me, it makes my life super difficult, as if I'd need them when i grow up...
what am I gonna do during my weekend?
do i have to say?
coz it freaks me out...
well i juz have to revise everything i need to revise..
Im having my dinner now, 1130pm...taste like shit...
and Im looking out fer a super fuking mosquito under my table, if it bites me again, it's gonna get it, try doing me when i m like this, it wont hav a tiny bit of him left, for sure.

MOm's Birthday today, ^^
Wish u a happy birthday, and happy everyday ^^, Love ya Lots ^^

due to something, mom doesnt wanna celebrate her birthday anymore, its been like that for 2 years already. I really dont wish to see my Mom being sad and gloomy, I like her when she overpowers my Dad, I like her when she orders people arnd (not me preferably), she gives me a sense of power when she does tt, and I really want to tell her tt i hope she can do it more often...am i weird or wad?
anyway, last night I couldnt sleep so i got up and arnd 12 and played Gb til 2 and then watched Full Metal Alchemist episode 35. It was gruesome, the people in tt village getting Fossil Disease and the way they die is very disgusting, stone-fied...Full metal is a very realistic anime if you ask me, very distinguished and very true, i always cry watching Full metal..sighs..
and aft last night, i conclude tt i play Gb better at night, becoz I kept winning that's why. I even managed HIgh Angles using turtle...blooodi, I was amazed ^^. I shall try tml night, coz tonight really need some sleep, else I wont be able to wake up tml morning.

today arh, another boring day~~~
i purposely got my hair cut yesterday for today's photo taking, in the end i forgot to apply wax la, and it went like this way --->, and tt way <----. totally ugly, ha, this year's photo cannot block shimin's face liao, darnz....
before the photo taking, mr lim came to talk to me, ask me why these days my face so black, and i told him coz school is very boring, then he started telling me stuff tt i heard from my parents, o well, i guess everybd says da same thing anyway..
i dono why, its not i nv tried to perk up in school, but it's juz so damn gloomy tt it affects my mood lo, then i also got nothing to talk to my frens ma, no common stuff to talk, dono wad rongji or smth, haiz, can't say its lame la, onli i dono how to appreciate lo.
i rmb, last time, someone asked me what are frenz for...and that and then i replied a stupid answer, and tt person probably thinks i m a shallow person.
wad are frenz for?
i wonder whether i do have any true frenz at all...
why do i compel myself to do things i don like?
whats freaking wrong with me?
o fook, i don giv a damn, juz get this 2 yrs over n done with la, damn frustrating sometimes.
I need to adjuz myself, whether my attitude or my character or anithin liddat...
should hav more confidence in myself la, then i'd dare to go talk to daryl, darnz...
then should also believe in myself more, not everything other ppl say is correct one...
and i should like myself more also, coz if everybody hates me, then who's left to love me?
i wonder....
anyway, heck la, shud concentrate studying and don freaking give a damn abt other ppl, coz they don affect me, they cant and they wont....
I m a loner, but i am not alone, i need to find someone who understands me, and knows me....not juz some half hearted ppl trying to be nice.......

Oh My Goodness!
I'm gonna be a freaking lesbian??!!
Coz last night i dreamt that I was getting married with a WOMAN!!!!
oh god, pls don let mi be a lesbian T_T, and then i dreamt tt my dad was wearing striking pink pants and running arnd the place, i guess it was a church...i guess
lol my super weird dream, my "wife" was a Japanese I think....
PPl say wad happens in dreams are opposite in reality... which means I'm not a lesbian, and my "husband"'s gonna be a jap...
lol..crap
Never knew that I was an emotional person, I cried ALOT of times this week.
I cry when I watch Full Metal Alchemist.
I cry when I read "CRYING OUT LOVE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WORLD"
I cry when I watch "Mr Tok's VCD"
I cry when I watch "DA CHANG JIN"
....
cry so much, so not like mi. Got problems liao...tsk tsk

A VErY MeAnINgFul Day

wops...
ok, went for dental today, did the model of my teeth and x-ray and scaling, was a horrible day, well actually not that bad, all the pains and going-to-pukes aside, it was quite ok.
ya, april was right, the x-ray thing they stuff into ur mouth really makes you wanna puke, i wonder how i did managed to refrain from vomiting.
Reached Outram at 7.30am, was 45 min early, so we went to the food court to eat breakfast. Went for appment at 8.15 and they started messing with my mouth...
first they told me to swallow all my saliva, then dr POON stuffed this black metal scoopy thing into my mouth, took it out, filled the scoop with green plasticine stuff, was THIS much u kno, and stuffed back into my mouth. That's supposed to be molding the shape of my teeth, so POON pressed the scoop down onto my lower teeth, with so much force that i thought my jaw's gonna drop, she took it out juz b4 i was about to puke. then she did the same to my upper jaw...aft tt i was made to bite down hard onto some pink plastic mold or smth. O, then she took pictures of my teeth and dadada, i was told to take x-ray at lvl 4...
The x-ray was stupid, had to stand in some stupid postition and grabbing some stupid handle and bitting some stupid thing....took me half an hr.
At 9 smth, i went down to lvl 4, for scaling. tt's when the pain began...
it was painful even to juz recall...
aiya continue tml...now i go sleep liao