Saturday, December 25, 2004

fuck you, asshole!

thank you, god, or whoever's up there, for giving me and my family the most unthinkable gift on the bloody christmas night. Whoever's up there, i m definetly gonna smash ur ass.This is the worst day of my life! My mom's crying again. My Dad's silent, and i m not sure what he is thinking, and me, am here cursing the god. Why? We just received a call from my Unc, that my aunt, mom's younger sis, has got some bloody illness! I loved my aunt alot! She's de nicest aunt ever! And for god sake! Why does my mom's family keep getting these bloody illnesses!? WHO'S GONNA BE NEXT? huh? You bloody hyprocrite, it's christmas! u ass.....................

Friday, December 17, 2004

“一个不相信自己的人,没有值得认同的价值。”
“下次再见面时,我会成为更厉害的男人!” ----------小李。

Sunday, December 12, 2004

ooooo

long time never blog liao, rusty le.
today is de official day of me starting to learn flute(by meself leh!!! proud sia). I was playing "Serenade" just now, although total only 4 notes to play, still got me all sweaty sia, play flute must have v big chest, then can have enough air to blow. Heard that someone even play until vomit blood because of improper breathing and over-exhaling, bla bla. I definetly don't want that, that poor guy never can play de flute anymore after that mouthful of blood, serious damage to system. So this kind of thing is not going to happen overnight, so i'd better not dream and be pratical, practice everyday lor..... must change attitude, cannot procrastinate anymore, must be eager in life, look down on others but never look down on self (my no. n th moto)
but considering whether want to go for trainin tml, really don feel like seeing all those ppl de faces, 気持ちが悪い。。。 I think now most de boys all start to grow le, tt day saw ChangRong, he taller than me liao, tt y didnt want to talk to him, cause v paiseh, used to look down to talk to him de, now muz look up liao.........aaaargh, i so wish that i could be a guy!!!
anyway, was watching ONE PIECE just now, finally got to the part with the Ms Wednesday and Mr9 thing liao, v amusing sia. Got one guy, code name Mr.8, kept on singing Ma~, Maa~, Maaa~~ like choir ppl, made me laugh until fall of the chair. I LOVE ONE PIECE!!! And Luffy and ZORO are SOOOOOO COOOOLLLLL!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh

Saturday, December 04, 2004

muscles

a few minutes ago, i was singing to Ayumi's End Roll, with my ears plugged. My Dad must have shouted pretty loud as i was able to hear him over my earphone's volume 9. He said my singing was horrible, i didnt believe him, so i used me hp to record my singing all over again. It wasnt tt bad, i mean, anyone who sings with the ears blocked comes out that way wat, and mine was still with the tune and all, jus tt it sounded like desperate cries or something if i put it in an v objective way. Hmm, i shall practise my singing sometime, i m somehow losing the grip nowadays......... haha.
anyway, today went with Mom to that Sheng Song (watever.....)Super Mart today, there was a LOT of stuff, and a LOT of ppl, and very little space. I kept banging into ppl, and get pushed around by sickening malay woman, really, she really pushed me!!! how @#@$!#$#@$@#$%
so we bought a lot of things, and we walked all the way to Hougang Point, wasnt that far, but was really tiring, coz i held the bags like monks holding water............sounds weird, but anyway, i held the bags of stuff with my arms outstretched, straight. and according to me mom, i looked totally amusin, she was laughing her head off while watching me behind. i did that in order to develop some more muscles on my arm, but the process proves to be quite harsh, but i'll try and keep up the funny work, and someday i'll............................................

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

sianzzzzzzzzzzz

totally bored, how?
i had even resulted to try and watch TWee all day to kill my time, and even that was futile effort. NO decent programmes to watch, i had long gotten sick of the bloody maths questions, and now it seems that boredom has stripped away all my desire to draw. The pictures that i drew these few days were bullshit. Souless, meaningless, and what more? how i wish i could find myself a decent job to do.........................................................................................................................................................