Monday, February 27, 2006

Asagao


I found out what Morning Glory is in Japanese.
「朝顔」(asagao)
not fair, it sounds so nice ><
tt is one thing i like abt Jap, it sounds really soothing when u read it.

Saturday, February 25, 2006







ok fine, i m rewriting my post, cuz the previous one was lost due to unknown causes.
im frustrated, cuz i hav to write this all over again.......
[breathe in....breathe out.......]
[SMACK!]
anyway, i ve got a new series to catch. I duno wad its name is, >< but it looks kind of promising with pretty nice graphics, and I think it's a Bishounen anime, and of cuz i would support all bishounens!!!
ok, tt was crap.
today is one whole week aft last saturday, the horrible outing i went to.
guess now i can say smth abt it.
ok, i shall continue tmr.....

a new anime coming ur way!

woosh! new anime to watch!
tho i've never heard of it b4, but its kinda promising ^^, excitement.
and later at 2230, its my fav kor. show! final episode, harhar, must watch.
and wad else....
the lost city of Bombay has appeared in the lift lobby, and I have to step over the relics everytime i go out or come back. Why do they have to do this? The floor looks pretty ok to me, doesnt look old enough to be replaced, y's the govt doing unnecessary things? Its not juz my block, the whole area is undergoin the same thing. Isnt it wastage?
my dad said it was inevitable coz the construction workers had to do some work, if the govt dont giv them smth to do, they'd have no income.
True.
Guess we'll juz have to put up with Bombay for some time then. Its not that bad either, kind of fun to walk on uneven ground.

Samurai Champloo!



i've just finished watching Samurai Champloo.
The ending was not remarkably touching or twisted.
Not much of an emotional stir even.
But I feel so fulfilled. Maybe because finally I finished this anime.
Samurai Champloo has a very unique style, there's one episode which was utterly stupid, it was abt the Mugen Jin and Fuu and somemore other unimportant people playing baseball with the americans. The americans inside were spastic, all they could say was "jesus", "oh my god" and "bastard"....it was like in the end the jap thrashed the americans and they did not dare to set foot on japan ever again. As if it was really true la. So gullible these ppl.
But of coz i was on Mugen's side, he was so hunky!
I liked Mugen and JIn, both of them were so desirable!!! lol....
anyway, what i liked abt them was that they are brave and they kill with style. Come on man, all who fight shud see how they fight la! Kewl beyond description man.
Envy Fuu so much, get to travel with those 2. I'd be so blessed if i cud really meet ppl like them. ><
Long Live! Mugen and Jin!

Monday, February 20, 2006

0h no......i m terribly regretting what i had just done.....how the hell did i coax myself to do it???
boohooo....cries........
its unblivable, i m actualy regretting this when i ve thot "dam it, juz do it man, cut! cut it. No more, finish, enuf!"
now i m really regretting it alr........
why the hell did i do tt for???
now it seems so empty alr.
noooooo.....it isnt happening.......
my mind is going bonkers!
life is so stressful!
i wanna die............

Sunday, February 19, 2006

oh its really nice to kno tt i'm actually unattractive and undesirable.
great, brilliant.
that's all i wanted to hear.
Fine! I'll show u ppl what attractive and desirable is, bring it on man.
i feel so darn insulted.........
kns.
u ppl suck!

Feb 18th...the outing....the sadness...the tears.....

ever since last night, i cant help thinking abt him........
like the scenes kept replaying and I think I was very harsh and difficult.......
its not tat i did it on purpose, i jus didn like to left out, i get very frustrated. Especially is that kind of outing, all the more i'd think he hates me.
sighz.........guess i screwed up...........
frenz?

Saturday, February 18, 2006

today is a super sucky day! i hate today!
was it me or jus that ..............hurrrrgh........forget it.....
jus remember tat today sucked like hell.

Friday, February 10, 2006

Os

The Day...
The day which the previous batch got back their "o" results.
There were alot of 6 pointers, it was so encouraging, i felt almost that I could be one of them too. If only i could get 6 points, i'd be able to go to TJC.
Anyway, I got back my Express Chi o results, I got an A1, i wasnt surprised, but b4 i got it back, i was dam worried and paranoid. I didn know that I would cry, it just came out when i heard my dad's voice. I sobbed into the phone, and gave my Dad a scare. He thought something terrible happened to me........ my dad....
it's always liddat, the paranoia b4 getting ur results.
you cant help but let your thoughts stray and get the better of you.
it depends on how you take the stress.
seeing the seniors get their results, i thought abt next yr, would i be able to walk out of the hall smiling? mayb not, would I be able to walk out with joy or sorrow? with pride or regret? it all depends, depend on how hard I work myself this yr.
2006, the very impt yr, the yr I take my Os.
but as Mrs Tan said, even tho O lvl is very important, it is only a passing stage in our life. whether we do well or not, we'd still have to get on with our lives. true?

I'd wish for all andersonians to fare for their Os, and pass this mere stage of our lives with no regret, and carry on, living our lives to the fullest, and make the best out of each and everyone of us. For everybody is a gem, u will polish and carve in order to shine. And it's impossible to not shine if you have polished and carved hard enuf.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

I really hate myself...
Why can't i juz act normal? why do i have to be so uncomfortable arnd people?
Is it me? or what?

went for the MILK fund CIP thing this morning. Quite fun at the beginning. Feels great when u hear the coin doink into ur can. I observe that the elderlies are generally more generous. They doink quite alot of money. The kids also. when it comes to teenagers or young ppl, they are $%@$^%. Some just stare at me, some ignore me, some run away when I approach them. Like the hell i want to see their face so badly. Someone donated sweets to me, that's fresh.
Had to walk around smiling so brightly that i wonder what the hell happened...
anyway, it was quite ok la, at the beginning.
later, we were like dam tired. I m lazy to even talk. i became totally anti social and i duno, dun even wanna talk to shimin, who also didn bother to talk to me, coz she got her glamourous Charmaine.
sigh, why didnt daryl come to ToPaYo today??? would have walked up to him n ask for donations and hp no.... LoL
oh ya, i asked for donations from a tcher in anderson whom i duno, oops, awkwardness...
the stupid 88 and 159 take so long to drive from tpy to my home, i sit until i want to puke.
better avoid going to tpy...
when i got home, i ate noodles, it was heavenly coz i havn eaten since morning. then i went to sleep, i think i drooled alot, coz my pillow smells weird, eek.
I've got plenty of work to do tmr, hw and tests to study for, and i have lessons in the aftnn.
buzy day, all by myself, tt explains why i m anti social. i m like always alone.......
there were this 2 guys from china, they make their own mvs and upload onto e net, they are like so famous now, coz their mvs are dam funny.
when i watched their mvs, i laughed non stop, coz its really hilarious.
then i felt miserable, how i wish i cud be liddat, doing crazy things with my pal.
problem is where the hell is my pal?!
applying perfectly to this ancient saying:
(the one puuqin said for chinese lesson...)
相识满天下,知己有几人。
something like that, its a shame i forgot the orginal vs. well the meaing is there...
its really hard to be a happy teen.
like always thinking abt whether u are good enough, doubting yourself, unsure abt yourself....
hope i can step out of this, soon...

Friday, February 03, 2006

man, it sucks, i wanted to buy the inbase shoes today, but they were not there anymore! sobx....
anyway, engl. lesson today was not fun, tt Ms Heng was obviously biased la,every other group presented and when it comes to mine, she just let it be when we said we've got nothing much to add, when she insisted other groups to present when they were like also had nothing to add.
I dono what to say abt her, i like her lessons, its interesting but somehow i just feel quite uncomfortable. Like i always find her way of looking at me not very appealing. anyway, we've got another troublesome thing to do, prepare for a 3 min speech on reflections upon reading this article on Bullying. Well, this is a topic that I might have alot to say. But to say it infront of her, i probably need a dose of courage. I cant talk to her at all, i feel oppressed when she talks to me, like i find it difficult to even to look her in the eye. Guess I'll just have to brace it through, its due nxt fridae, i have one week's time to prepare, i m not sure whether its enough.
Today is obviously wasted, couldn buy the shoes i wanted, wasted 2 hrs walking arnd j8 for something not quite my business. i just don feel right, i mean its like its not even our business and u drag us along, and like leave us when u don need us anymore. Please la, i deem myself with alot of pride, i don like being treated like that.
cmon la, crap shit.....
i wanna watch advent children tmr and kns got the stupid MILK thingy.
we are doing it at tpy, again. no big deal for me. I shall go slag and pull thru the thing and return home in one piece to watch my beloved CLOUD!!!
Dad was sposed to swim with me today, but what a @$%@&%, he forgot to bring his swimming trunks. MAN, and he told Mom that it was because I didnt keep it for him! Aaaargh, isnt he atrocious??? so it ended up me swimming alone, and my Dad sleeping on the chair, darn he was so comfortable la.
let's see... i ve got tons of work to do, and i ve got my jap lessons on sun again. kind of don feel lke going....I m planning to cramp all my work to do on sunday tho. shud have enough time la....haha, im lying to myself obviously......dam...
ooo, its getting itchy, i wanna watch FF7 now!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

i havnt been blogging for sometime, did i?
right now, i m breaking my head over that stupid lit essay about goodness of children...
there's no goodness in children! they are lil devils running all over the place!i find them cute when they cry...sense of superiority maybe. its ecstatic to see them cry, LoL, that was my secret hobby a long long time ago.
so, what shall i write for my essay?
i find it more frequent that I can't write an essay or a compo smoothly or fluently, it just gets stuck somewhere somehow. either it's because I m slowly forgetting my vocab or I m aging backwards that I donno how to construct a proper sentence. As Ms heng said, my writings are atrocious. never mind that, I think i'm running short on time to do my homework. there's pretty much i need to do. sighs....i m glad there's alot of work, but i juz don have the time and energy to do it....
god bless me ><