finally i solved the problem on my blog, where stuff that shouldnt be linked was linked somehow, i m such a genius, muarharharhar.
i got a nu haircut today, threw away that bloody idea of trying to keep my hair long, i think that was kind of impossible for me to have long hair, shakes head, hard to imagine even, but no matter! someday somehow, i will succeed in keeping it long, coz my father wants to see, hehe. i m also quite interested...hmmm...
continued reading da book Martha Peake, abt the story of a man wretched by bad gin, his drinking of gin caused his wife's life and almost taken his, he was then left with half humanity, his backbone was crushed during the fire he caused, after it healed, he became a monster. Martha was his daughter, who sticked with him through thick and thin, but as she grew up, she turned into a fine woman, her father's anguish and humiliation mounted as the years passed. the father, though resisted the temptation for many years couldnt help himself but to drown himself in it, and once he is drunk, he lost his remaining half of humanity, he would abuse himself at first. but as the times increased, martha became his target for release. until the part where i am now, the second attempt the father made, and successfully raped his own daughter, and worse deposited his seed in her, his daughter conceiving his child.....
how sick, vomits, told you it's a sad story, sobs....