i am getting very irritated with everything, everyone, known or not known, i am just in the mood to find fault in everything and everyone around me.
fuck, i hate to organise outings, which is irritating and disappointing, for one ppl dont return ur calls and reply ur sms, only zillion hours later they tell u they are free coz they havn got a job...and freaking the day before the outing, only after i asked, they tell me they cannot make it! will it freaking hurt to tell me a bit earlier?? har! its yux and irritating! which is anyhow ask me to organise, happily tell me will confirm turn up, thn now leave me hanging.....wabiang, very happy izzit......sux........i should happily prepare a bucket of dung to throw at ppl that irritates me.
i hate reading ppls blogs who write like they are talking to someone, with no proper substance, just boring recounts of what had happened that day, it doesnt hurt to do it once in awhile but hello, blogs are not navigation journals, not for you to record what time u wake up, what time u leave house, what time u freaking take a shit in the poohole! its irritating to read this kind of blogs. and its even more irritating to know tht ppl do actually follow this kind of blog and comment that "hey love ur blog, keep it up!" i can just show u what i ate last night here, its much more interesting. yux...hypocrites and shallow little humans...they are to be squashed out one by one like the flies in the iphone game SWAT.
then again i hate to read blogs that are censorred and muffled, such tat aft u read time n time agn, i still duno what exactly the persons talking about, most of the time is things to do wif their significant other halves. like "omg i hate myself for not being caring enough...she was sick, and i said these and that kind of stuff...yux i hate myself" yes, i hate u too! chew on ur keyboard asshole!
sheesh....i find artsy ppl irritatin as well..(im saying this coz i am irritated now)...because of the air of arrogance around many of them......its just...they purposely speak with a different slang, walk wit a different style, act in a different manner...and i suppose that makes u one of kind, and possibly artsy...
ok to be fair, there are definetly real artsy ppl that sucks ur attention dry the moment they appear, like the air suddenly smells nicer and the world less insane when they are around. to be double fair again, these are the exotic minorities who actually mastered themselves, outside this circle of perfection is a hopeless bunch of ppl too trying and too far from perfect, suck on it suckers! i wish i had a bloody camera, so that i could capture proof, and probably show the contrast btw a goddess and a goddess-wannabe-but-failed-at-it.
thn again, i must say i love the lasalle campus, its really one of a kind, even tho i cant make out the meaning behind every piece of displayed art, or the architecture itself, some innate feelings stirs at the sight of them, and the whole atmosphere was artsy and probbing. like the "black hole" which is a pond with a human statue rising out of its depth...the word "(re)production" describes it so well, with a elusive connection btw black hole n production that seems to be there, but yet so undefined.
yes, i am positive that i am gg mad for the moment,i just lately realized that the world isnt a peaceful place that it had appeared to me for the past decade, it is filled with evil and sinister motives tat haunts u when u sleep. someone who lives right next to ur room can be a total stranger and may one day just rob u naked. sometimes i hate to see the underside of human nature, the vanity that keeps the financially crippled to keep scouring for branded materials, to satisfy that gapping whole of insecurity within by keeping up a bright appearance...stupid and disgusting. why the hell make urself so miserable in order to keep up the facade while inside u are just an insecure asshole who could still turn back if u just listened. but no, u chose to scorn n ignore words of kindness and wisdom, and so it is expected that one day u will end up with nothing.
as an example of irritating bloggers, this is what they do at the end of their posts. "ok, i tink i am very sleepy now, so i shall stop writing here k? goodnite everybody, i love you all very much! and she turns and goes to sleep. xoxo. love ya. muacks...." irritating or not?