I signed up for two courses/workshop that just one year ago I would totally scorn at. "Personal Growth" and "Meditation".
Suddenly, the inner and spiritual me wants to take over.
Sometimes, I feel the worldly evils are so oppressive that it seems like a good idea to just end everything.
I believe suicidal thoughts exist in everybody's head now and forever. It depends on whether it is enough to push you over the border between dying and living. Both require equal amount of courage, imo.
So far, I still want to stay alive. weak smily :>
I used to complain that I think too little, too shallow, too obvious. Yet now I feel it's happier that way. The more things you discover, and the deeper you delve, the darker it seems.
I hope meditation is a way out to this mental turmoil and put some weight into my feet so that I can feel truly alive...
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