Raa

I boiled boiling water just now.
I am partially scalded by boiled boiling water.
I am feeling ambivalent now, coz its amazing that boiling water can be further boiled and that I am utterly stupid.
Anyhow I had really storilistic dreams last night, more like this morning coz I just woke up. Its totally about uni life as how I saw it before I came to uni myself. It was more scandalous than I thought I thought. Yet now my life is clean as a sheet of printing paper. Not sure whether I should complain, but I really find this more or less boring. I need excitement in my life...
chingay =/ to excitement, fyi. it is a evil monster which eats up all my family time and makes me feel horribly guilty towards my parents.
My dad is getting a new TV, finally, I bet his wrapping his jumping-joys up with fake sorrow just so that my mom wont explode. Haha. But he wants me to go shop with him, and today is his freeday, yet Im not. I yearn to spend quality time together with my family because I know, it will be harder to come by in the future. sad face.
Anyhow.
I went to the Personal Growth Group on thursday. It was very surprising. I got to know myself better. I realised I appear to be someone who don't care about other's opinions, but in actual fact, I care about more than anybody. I live on the appraisals (partly) from others, which is a bad thing. I need to stem my confidence and self-esteem from within myself. I need to love myself, and just saying it wont make it real. I need to be the person I can love.