sian.....im super dying from studying..i dont see any more meaning in mugging other than the fact that if i dont, i'd have no future. CRAZY shit, i bet if i had gone out to work at the age of 15, i would have totally earned my first million by now. who cares about getting A for exams, can eat? can feed ur baby? I bet 50 bucks for half the ppl who scores A all the time to be a loser in their lives after school. this is something i learnt from studying CLL, this prose about a wise man who leads a very carefree life when the entire society strives for fame and status. when he studies, whenever he has learnt something new he can be so overjoyed that he forgets to eat, but he does not dwell on the words and phrasings or make himself memorise everything. this is what learning should be! to the learn the essence and forget the form. who the stupid asshole go and memorise everything from a to z, siao, even as big as u think ur head is, there are other more important things to remember other than just knowledge and more knowledge. and i always believe that knowledge are crap when they are not being used. so what if u get like A STAR STAR in some subject, it all reduces to mere alphebets if in the end u do not use it. so why why...do i have to memorise and stuff so much crap into my brain, when i could actually immerse myself in things that i like learning????? i havn drawn for eternity and i tink i probably returned most of what i learnt back to my teacher. which is...aaaaargh...irritating.....
i m bored to the max man....so bored that i actually tried to watch harry potter all over agen...which i find is quite entertaining after awhile...but i cant go on to finish it! because i need to study!!! damn it........im now really quite pissed....
i thought o lvl was bad......now i have to go through it all over agen......i feel like screaming my head off..........and just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah......can i turn time backwards and lead my carefree toddler life for the rest of my life.........................
sometimes life is just boring........and its even more irritating to find that this boredom kills ur every interest in anything at all........seeing that i dont even feel like drawing anything......i know this is totally screwed up shit. whyyyyy..........i 'd rather be a small little butterfly fluttering around the bush downstairs and get eaten by the idiot cat that meows so loudly night after night. i m being incoherent, which reminds me that i have been dreaming really imaginative dreams these few days. one very memorable one was that i could exercise super power, such as closing the door w/o touching it, moving things, levitating my mom....all with a twisted handsign, which i recalled i tried to do it when i woke up and then realized it was all but a dream.........hah...how i wish i could be a manga character in ONEPIECE, it would be so exciting! my life would be entirely different! and it would be just so untiring to find myself in different worlds one after another, and have enemies' butts to kick every now and then.......sometimes i just get very negative............which is very unlike myself, i always thought that life is beautiful.......oh whatever.........i shall force myself to mug for another 30 mins before i flop dead.......