老爸又在取笑我了，太过分了，居然把我的创作当成笑话看待。虽然是有那么点好笑 （这不是重点），但是也太过于清是我的感受了啦！！！
昨天我闲暇时写了这么一段：
[ 人非草木，我是人，又如何能不动心。如今我已失去令我动心的“他”，麻木的心确任然动着。。。。]
哪儿好笑呢？老爸说，既然我已失去令我动心的东西，为什么我的心还在动着。。。
想起来，的确听矛盾的，所以我也觉得蛮好笑的啦。
明天要干啥嘞，真伤脑筋，希望我拜托老妈买得The Incredibles 能尽快到手，我都等不及了啦!!!

黑血慢慢地淌着，但我却。。。。
直到大地被我的血染成一片漆黑，我才发现，
原来我已不再。。。
虚拟的我，漫无目的地漂浮。
看见了，在黑暗中的一丝光芒。
我欣喜地飞去，身体渐渐有了温度，黑白电视机变成彩色的了。
我飞啊飞，和光芒拥抱，与其合为一体。
我好开心。。。
黑暗慢慢散开，黑血也渐渐蒸发，而我则成为光明中的一颗小黑点。

海賊王の事はちょっと久しぶりだた。今日はもう一度XPは俺のパソコンに取付けられた。ちゃんとOKです、いままで。
今日は少し退屈させった、でも楽しいかった。
明日きっと朝の走る事が絶対できる、まだ逃げられないです。私臆病者じゃないです、ですから、恐れの事は逃げられないです。それは、新しいの俺です。

我好累呀，这一天下来我都快虚脱了，明天要穿什么呢，好伤脑筋啊。
爸妈好像蛮反对这份工作的，说会浪费掉这一个假期，我也不知道该怎么办。
找工作真麻烦，我好想这个假期就这么混过去就完了，妈咪怎么这么强人所难呢。我好辛苦呢。。。我去睡了。

on the edge of a mental breakdown right now, feels like i haven't been actually talking to anybody in days, let me see whether i have bad breath......
lame, ok nvm, boredom boredom boredom, guess that's e only word to describe our pitiful holidays, and u actually have to go back to school 4 days per week for bloody volleyball trainings.....this is pure torture, i managed to skip today's session coz of the rain, but still can't come up with an appropriate excuse for it, everyone else has MCs, how could they do that, all get flu and cold at the anointed moment? why am i left out? curse tt bloody runny nose, why cant it run a few more days longer?
guess it's me 5th time watching Cinderella Story, ZiJun would be so proud. why? beats me....
y cant i just get a bloody part time to waste away this eternity of boredom? why do i have to put up with that bloody volleyball trainings where i m obviously not needed, i hate to admit it, but yar, since they do not need me there, why do i still have to go?! bloody assholes!!!!

feels weird, maybe i've grown taller....? coz today wake up then go outside skipping, my used-to-be-long skipping rope seemed so short, and i couldnt skip normally, had to like curl my legs....haha, i really did grow taller!!!! weee!!!!
ok, taday is officially de first day of my holiday, and i can't stand it already, so boring!!! i m like watched the Cinderella Story for 3 bloody consecutive times already, although it was quite sweet, but u see, i really cant keep myself busy, and not wasting my precious time......i m bored i m bored.....
later, going to Ethel there to play badminton, although she did not invite but i decide to tag along, entertain myself, maybe pretend the others (ahem.....u know) are invisible, anyway, i think de only ones that could really play are Jelyn and Lap Tak, and i'm definetly not going to play with Lap Tak so ya, that narrows. wats wrong with Ethel anyway, she's like leaving me out on everything, even if she's knew that i may reject because of some ppl, but she could have at least asked me, at least make me feel needed, wads fucking wrong with her?! I don owe her, bloody hell.....
aaargh, irritating, i go watch One Piece...... fuck .......

the light in the living room is going on and off, very irritating, and Dad, out of pure laziness will say " 没关系，闪就闪咯。。。”I can no longer fish out anything to say, speechless...
anyway, today's Jelyn's birthday party and we had a hell of a time, woohoo! Congrats Jelyn, for turning 14!!!
yup, ferst we did the bloody water bombs, and one thing i must comment, it was pretty fun, and curse that bloody Chloe, she poured one whole basin of water down my back, and poor Jelyn, i think wherever i went i always left behind a print of my ass.
they we went to play 终极密码, that must be either Jelyn or Angeline's favourite game, this time is like last year, same place same people, same punishment, eat gross mixture of things.
i m particularly proud of the grape one, the one that we split the grape in half, put one M&M on one half and two drops of tobasco( i know it's wrong spelling), and guess who gana-ed? Meiyan!!!
poor she, she total gana 3 times, eat all the horrible stuff. haha
me gana one time only, the last round, the one that i had to pick out 8 M&M/Resin using me mouth from a plate of flour. not that bad, but i wonder whether they'd got that idea from Fear Factor, they always ask them to pick things up with their mouths....prrrr, and now that my nose is feeling kind of weird, the right nostril is running profusely, and i think that ( this may be disgusting but i still wanna say) i have "flourified" mucus.....pretty disgusted myself, but it sure is de truth and a truth nonetheless, how stupid of me to inhale when my face is in the flour!!!
then come the birthday cake, hardcore man, haha, very difficult to cut, and the toy they had on top was sweet but hard, i couldnt devour the white elephant....remorse...
then came the cater, yup, it was pretty good, and we ate it while watching Mean Girls, which i think, didn't make much of a sense to me, t'was pretty funny when we watched it, but yar, didnt make that much sense now, can't even remember clearly a scene from it....hopes that Cinderella Story's nice, and yar, many thanks to dear dear ZiJun, she was so nice!!!
yar, and yesterday, last day of school, pretty sad, coz no more 2/4'04 and no more Jelyn, Ethel and Mei Yan next year, sobs, will miss them dearly.......it's really very sad!! only one thing that i'm glad of, that is no need to be same class together with some freak, whom yar, i really detest, abhor and alienate. i pratically hate his company, nothing good comes from it..... but who cares now, that i m free from the torments....muaharharharhar...
one more thing, i m so power man, i downloaded almost 20 over episodes of One Piece in just two days!!!!! no mean feat, man, it's the achievement of the century!!!! whish!!!!

真可悲，2/4‘04 只剩明天，最后一天了。这两年来，这个班给我们大家带来了欢喜和眼泪，友情和亲情，是个十分活跃又温馨的班级，在这个班级里上课，总是笑声不断，开心不绝。直到今年转来的那个混世魔王，真是一颗老鼠屎坏了一锅粥。虽然我承认有他在，一些时候是蛮好玩的，不过久了就觉得厌烦了。不过在怎么样，2/4’04 还是最棒的！

泪

wadever......slack......
today cannot be considered as any nice day in my life. my life was always ruined starting from the moment i decided to join volleyball as my CCA. Ruined ruined ruined....... i like playing volleyball, but the problem is i never get a proper chance to do so. reasons, there are, but i don't think they are my causings, i never did anithing to deserve that. wad else can i say, this is fate, Unmei, 命运。。。however hard i try to defy, it still overpowers.... yar, sure, i m not the only person getting this, guess many others do too, and so there actually is someone who shares the same pain, not that pathetic anymore....... i ve tried to be optimistic about this thing, but, sometimes, your will overpowers e thought, painful...... i asked Mr Lim why did he pick me among e others for the OBS camp thingy, the one that Jelyn's swimming coach said that we have to bring that whatever-they-call-it to manually dig out the hole to BURY your shit, yar, and he said that, he wanted to find someone different, not as to send all the same people every year. how different am i?
i don want to be different, more appropriately is that i want to be unique, not different, ain't i different enough already?!
i hate this, alot, two more years to go, and i m fucking out of this school...... i really am regreting my choice of coming to anderson, makes my four years of secondary life so miserable, and pathetic, was it my fault?

痴

本来呢，今天是要去找工作的，结果没找成，因为他们都嫌我们太小了，像是请童工似的。所以后来我就跟诗棋去拍Neoprint，说实话，还蛮好玩儿的，不过就是贵了点儿，嘿嘿。我还照得挺不错那，挺有味道的，哈哈哈哈，真不害臊。。。。
好玩儿是好玩儿，但是一想到我那该死的成绩不知该如何是好时，一股子怨气就冲上云霄了，不杀几个人是无法平静下来的，就如西索一样，嗜血如狂。。。
真悲惨啊！！！！
我下辈子该怎么办？？？

影

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Currently listening to Shimatani Hitomi's 期待的一天，she rocks man, her voice is like 天籁之音，superb!!!
volleyball practices resumes, start of ours days of torments and living hell (not tt bad actually), the whole 中二 ppl wasted long long time, coz ya, the whole sec 2 is not gonna play in any games, not that it affects me in anyway, but still it's pretty depressing.... who the hell cares when they heck abt us, just hope that ......nvm, i shall be a kind little girl (XD)
got back our fucking stupid(i jus sneezed, i m excused) exam papers, and now i donno how to break the terrible news to me parents......seems like they are more disappointed than meself. How's that possible?! I m like worked so hard for the papers and i get all those very pathetic grades and stuff, now what did i get for working so hard? bloody shitty marks, how grateful....
aaaargh.............
tml, going to find meself part time jobs le, hope that i can get one, i need $$$ desperately, for? donno, maybe stuff me self with KUISHINBO stuff.....or buy W-inds' nu CD.....tons of things to get, and most importantly i m getting me self tons and tons of assessment stuff. if i worked so hard to get bloody marks, then all i have to do is to work harder, til i get a satisfying grade, seems like it's pretty slow for me to realise this...... but better late then never, and yar like Mr Lim says, be more optimistic....
Ethel's planning to sell me her Anderson exercise books, i demand 1/2 price (is that too harsh, maybe lesser) and she's so reluctant, looks like i have to use some business tactics, 1/2 price is ok wif me wad.......haha.........
aaaaaaaargh.........frustration.........

Finally i activated e WAP and MMS 功能 in me 宝贝，so happy, and got me 座充 also, and got to know tat the kind and 可爱 lady who smittened me to buying the phone, 她的名字 is Michelle, and she is those type of outgoing, 搞笑，cute and nice, and looks nicer in photographs, pple. So glad to know her, 嘻嘻。
今天，went to Yio Chu Kang there to play badminton with Jelyn, and her swimming coach, and de lifeguard Terence, and some other ppl. 好爽啊，but both v tired and "screwed" at the 同时。i feel as if my arms are floating around, my back is twisted and bent, my legs are like screws..... v undesirable feeling, feels as if........ u've just discovered tt ur fav vask just went "weeeee-ing" out the window.
then when we play 完了that time, got one ....middle aged man (his face looked as if you'd just punched out all his teeth, from far), came to borrow a 羽毛球。i chatted wif him a while when he came to return the ball, and he said tt he is a coach in AJC and he coaches staff and tchers....没听说过。aniway, so glad tt i went out today, or else i won be so sure that i wont do anithing 愚蠢。

e second day of me owning me phone, this is wad Jap "Shiawase" means, n today total sent 50 over 简讯， gana 谴责 by my father, and he was very 惊讶 when he saw in me contacts, me 老公 Geraldine 的 name, coz i put 老公there, haha, 好险啊。 and 拜托， i m like (count fingers) 16 了, and my Daddy like so worked up when he saw guys' names in the list, as if i got 男朋友like dat. As if i want to....(ugh...freaks), i just want to 嫁给 my phone and 伸也，鲁夫，
庆太，敬多 and 悠，and maybe 右典 also, yup, tt's all, hahaha.
tml, waiting for 芝苓 to confirm time for badminton in Yio Chu Kang, 我想我 hav no idea where the badminton courts are in YCK, heck lar, v glad to be able to do smth, not like now, still lazing around, rotting, wasting me soul, and i think, i havnt shower et, oops. well, i smelled like ....me...., normally we would say this is 有性格。haha. then 可能 Tues can go Escape le, 等了好久哦，等到花儿也谢了。。。sobz...
tml still hav to go to Hougang Mall again, coz tt woman didnt get me my charger today, waste my time, 讨厌啦！

currently lazing around, feeding my toes to e decomposers,eating me rotting Fairprice Chocolate Icecream, downloading One Piece, reading peeps' blogs, 犹豫 between whether to buy Nokia 3220 or Sony Ericson T630 later, oh fug it lar, so 麻烦。。。
last night, I 一口气 finished watching 10 episodes of One Piece, took me 5 hrs man, from 9 pm to 1 am, so 爽, and now i m transfering the stuff onto CDs coz 10 episodes are damn 大Size one, 1.3GB leh, will take up alot of 空间的，now copy until episode 29 了，this sure is one cheaper way to get meself anime, and God Damn the fucking
尾田荣一郎，wad for he draw the anime so damn long, now it's almost 200 episodes liao, i will download like siao de, but do i hav a choice? （叹气）this 5 days here is boring like hell 了，other than watch TV, download One Piece, come here write crap, read some bloody Sanctum book...what else do i do? bloody hell, today i still hav to go for tuition, crap rite, if i don go, i'd be paying de 70 bucks for bloody no thing. 天啊！！！i don wanna admit tt, I WANNA GO TO SCHOOOOOOL!!!!!

i just read that ger Genevieve's blog, scared the hell out of me man, and please lor, she's onli like 13? and she cuts herself, man, there's other things to do and she chose to cut herself, it's so v unblivable!? i mean tt onli since last yr, start goin to secondary schools then i came to know ppl who really cut themselves (altho better than cutting others), due to wotever, but, mayb i m too naive, but i still finds that this is so hard to contemplate, dear, there's alot other stuff to do here, like stop producing carbon dioxide......
ok, back to tt genevieve... i nv did like her, but i don detest her either, neutral i'd say, well i kind of admire her for being so defiant, at least she dares to be, when most of the ppl want to but dont dare (im not saying tt it's good, but..). but please man, she's like so...(um um..) , she diss mrs kamal, say tt mr ismail is gay (bloody hell! he's a nice tcher lor), and like has to c mr ang everyday (mr Ang Chipmunk). diaoz, i'd think it be better for her if she migrated together with Roy to Toronto (did i get e place rite?), benefits both she herself and all others, she can go there and cut herself to pieces for all i care, and she also gets her piece of cake....
till now, i still cant accept the fact tt ppl in me school do actually cut themselves, wad for? u like all the scars here and there?! u think it's art?! de "in" thing?! aaargh, i m so freaked out by her blog entries, guess tt cant slp tight today....

damn damn damn, now then i can do me maths test paper in 15 min, all correct somemore, aaaaargh, why like that!? so unfair, u wan make me cant do it then cant do it all the way lar, why make me now can do it liao, so so so.......aaaaargh!!!! somemore now i think de questions so easy!!!! abish abish!!!

堕落啊！！！我已经看了一整天的电视了，怎么办啊！！！好希望明天快点到来嘞，快闷死了啦。。。

YEAH!!!!!考完试了！！！快乐啊！！！自由啊！！！爽啊！！！
终于自由了 ne, 不用再K书了！！！可以。。。。。了！！！
再过两天，偶就可以跟偶的 HP 见面了，真期待 ne。。。。
受不了了，真是爽毙了！！！！

ha, never knew i can relate pythagoras, and congruence/similarity thingy with e graph man, cool... lurves maths (temp) and luvs me DAD, muackx
today is Alice de birthday, wee!!! loved her so much that i skipped me lunch to create e ultimate birthday present for her, so proud of myself, yar also becoz she sang me a song over the internet from far in China (lurve me country), and i was so touched that i swear tt can't giv a lousier one. and sure i didnt, if not y it is e ultimate one, muarharharharhar.