some 4 days after end of os...well...what can i say...it was fast
one min i was dreading it, and then its gone! i definetly hope that i can achieve 6 pts, but i giv myself leeway, 6-8 would be acceptable. i dont really expect to get n a1 or even an a for english n geog...dam geog........
anw...been going out for the last 4 days, super relaxed...attempted job hunts but so far not successful. haiz...wad is with those ppl, i rather them tell me in the face that i dont wanna employ u, then make me anticipate their call within the next hrs/days...
i spent too much money these days, my slippers broke or tore when i was walking arnd Plaza Sing, so i bought this pair of sneakers, and a pair of jeans at the heat of the moment. well, so far i'm happy with buying my own clothes rather than my mom buying for me...hehe.
today, i more or less gao ding my grad ball clothes, cost me 70 bucks....its gonna be v shocking...i cudn blive it myself, let alone u...
shoes and accessories...and shud i ask huiyi to do my hair too?? lol...worth a try...

woosh! one and one-third down! chem prac tmr! kinda relaxed, this o lvl feels like nothing, probably too used to exams already, wonder whether its good to not feel nervous. anw, found some really nice Bleach pics, shall upload here haha. found them at bbs.dmzj.com. aw i juz love all the guys from bleach!!!

probably a worm juz wriggled into my head and decided to settle there for the rest of my life, this bulge on my temple juz wont go down...and it hurts...
this reminds me of that little joke my cousin told me.
'What's more terrifying than seeing a worm in your apple?'
'Half a worm...'
LMAO....

anyway, i kind of realized something really philosophical today, i feel like a grown-up.
My neighbour held some kind of party or celebration today, it seems. Because they live at the end of the walkway, there were many people walking up and down outside my house. I was pissed, cause i couldn't quite focus on my work. Anyway, more distractions came along, and i totally gave up studying and started to sulk and curse my neighbours.

Who would not be pissed if people were playing mahjong and laughing like anything outside your window?

I tried shutting the door and window, I even stuffed tissue in my ear! Even that couldn't stop the noise.

There were some even more audacious people who decided they could lean against my window and start checking themselves out, with me at the desk trying too hard to be calm.

In the evening, I thought I could finally have some peace and quiet, more people came streaming in...I was screaming...inside..

These people just seem to really enjoy testing my patience, some even sat right under my nose and smoked their cigarettes happily, blabbering dialect that sounded like animal talk.

Alright, they pushed me too far, I was going to show them who's the boss, display my prowess...but, well i didn't quite dare...politeness, you see.
So i decided to turn on my audio to max volume, and had TVXQ's new single blarring out the window.

Aha, they jumped in shock. Revenge...is sweet. They started rolling their eyes at me, talking even more loudly (in dialect, while obviously they were badmouthing me). Well I didn't really care, I was just happy I could save my ears from those dialects, they make my heart itch.

After much staring, they finally gave way, I admit the volume was probably too loud, I couldn't stand it either, I had no choice..
And hurray, one by one, they cleared the way, and I had my clean view-from-the-window back. WHo's da MAN?

And then my philosophy came in, I realized that people are really a pain in the butt when u think they are, conversely, if you think they are nice, they are too...
I happen to see this old man, who stared at me when I tried to blast him away, I thought of smiliing at him, and when i did, he smiled back...
then it dawned on me...it takes alot to be magnanimous and not to get pissed by every little thing people do, but it sure feels better when you receive a smile rather than eyeballs that threaten to disappear into their sockets (too much rolling).

Graduation....

the LAST day of school. We've graduated from Anderson officially.
Altho the farewell assembly wasnt really sad or touching, in fact it was juz givin out certs for prelim results, but the sight of MR CHYE really make mi wanna come back to Anderson. All in all, Anderson is a good school, 4 yrs has gone by, and we've all grown up, memories n more memories....
its always this kind of scenario that i fear most, sad to part, but have to move on.
after today, 4/2'06 is no more, SHIMIN JOANNE CHARMAIN YUXIAN PUQIN APRIL ANNA NAT ANGELINE EUNICE HUIYI WEIMUN LINXIU....we are classmates no more...tears....may we remain frenz and keep in touch even after we pursue different paths. all the times that we went crazy together, laughed n cheered for our class, etc etc, will be fresh in my heart and shall never be forgotten....FRIENDS FOREVER!!!
well the only person tt i m glad to NOT see anymore is Abel, @#!$%%#$@, rejoice! let him "own" all the poly ppl if he ever managed to get in thr. like weihao said, "double the shock" when he play DOTA and get back his results. well, if it was anybody else, i'd sympathise with him, but if for ABEL! I'm happily laughing my head off! But, if he decides to pull up his socks from now, it might be very much too late, but better late than never, at least it wont be sooo bad...but hey, its not my problem.
anw, juz wanna take this time to thank all the ppl who made my secondary school life enjoyable and meaningful, esp 4/2 gers, haha we kinda bonded only in the second half of our last yr, short but sweet, i'll nv forget everyone!
lastly, hope every1 pass O with flying colors, and shall we party all night long right aft the last paper, ooo i cant wait...O lvl SUX, but WE ROCK!

My 18th Bday...

My bday's in 4 days...should i say its special coz i'd be 18?? Dont really feel any excitement towards my bdays tho, coz theres no practice to celebrate it in my family, not that i care...
but this yrs bday kinda special, coz it falls on the exact same day as the Mooncake festival! my bday has never been so special, shall i make it really memorable??? but seeing that my mom n dad are both working night shift on that day, i doubt anything much could happen...guess i have to spend the day alone, maybe i could go gaze at the moon and imagine my family gazing at it too.........
nah...too sentimental for me...but i would really hope that my bday this yr could be once in a lifetime...

O is in 30days!

Just felt like liven up my blog abit, changed the background, stung by that pic, wonder if its based on real life person...
found some pretty cute pics, shall upload it here...

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i haven been blogging...
just received an email from Alice, kinda glad to be still in touch with her. Seeing how she's still regarding me as her closest friend, i kinda feel guilty for detesting her behind her back. its not that Im those kind of scheming backstabbers, its not that i behave differently infront of her and behind her, at least not i intended to. when she's nice, i totally love her alot, but when she gets cross and detestful, i cant help but to feel irritated n annoyed, i m torn in trying to decide exactly how to feel towards her, she put me in a dilemma that lasted almost 6 yrs till now....but deep down, i know im grateful to have her as a friend, we have an affinity, and it has not ended...

this one is sooo cute!!! cant stop laffing omg...



this one abit...like going to de zoo liddat...micky so funny!!!

reading bleach haha, the manga story is so much more interesting than the "BOUND"s, the new character's name all so greekish, ~~~OLA....all ends with LA.
dun feel like sleeping, haiz...., dam hungry, all tt CY's fault. Ask me translate some freaking chinese love story coz he freeking cant read chinese. the passage so freakng long!!! curses.... i m amazed at my translating skills tho, not bad huh me.
i did 2 geog essays today, kudos.... i m Da MAN, woosh, 17 left harhar.
i tried to copy down some korean song lyrics juz now, ended up onli managed to copy one, used up 5 pages in my notebook for ONE song! keep copying the wrong verse coz i duno wad im copying, all the words look the same to me....
feel like eating kfc now....aaa so hungry!!! someone feed me........
shiqi is such a #$!^$, i was hoping she could get through the audition today n she told me she backed out last min, i feel like wringing her head, uuurgh, made me feel so anxious for her.
i told my mom the condtion of my jap class, n she laughed she choked on her food. coz i tried to imitate that JOEY-san in my class reading the passage. OMG, i really cant stand the way she read kno, its annoying to keep waiting for her to read the nxt word. The smart guy, the teacher n me were like practically teaching her how to read alr, and she still read it wrongly. let mi show u:
Joey: Kare wa....shi...shiio...hi..hi..hi
Smart guy: shiohikari
me: shiohikari
SenseiL shiohikari shiohikari
Joey: hi...hi....
$%@#$%!

naruto

im reading naruto now, feeling a sense of loss, coz naruto is getting lamer and lamer, for both the anime n the comic, wth...it was so interesting in the beginning, and now it bcom like this.....when is the naruto i luved coming back??? same goes for bleach, idun understand these ppl, if they havn finish with the show then put it off for the moment la, y do they have to force themselves to come up with sucky fillers to make their fans disappointed? I've totally given up chasing those new animes, stick to 2 at a time, i still have my OnePiece there collecting dust...i downloaded too much for mi to swallow, really have to take care of my com prevent from formatting it, dun wanna lose all my treasure.
i did one geog essay n one a maths paper today, feel v accomplished, i shall treat myself with icecream and tea. tmr got jap lessons, i really dun feel like going, my tcher sux, i'd rather go kinokuniya there n pore over the books there then sitting in tt shabby classrm, arnd uncool ppl and listen to his crap...ok, sometimes he's nice n benign etc, but u see the huge generation gap and the huge boring face he has, it cancels everything off. n my classmate, omg, all of them are dorks and nerds, jus dun like the way they read jap, they sound like my neighbors playing mahjong, v loud n clear, yes, but really v unappealing, onli mine is good, soothing n nice.
last lesson tmr, guess i shud put it off for the moment, get the O done first then take care of jlpt...lvl2 is quite hard la, got alot of sentence structure to study, i nid a dict la, my mom reluctant to buy for meee, liddat how i study??? sianz....

at a lost at how to feel....

My Grandfather just called.
My Great Grandmother passed away yesterday, approximately 2 and a half years after my grandmother, her daughter, died.
My GreatGrandma, whom I am fortunate to have met, even for that short period which I could hardly recall, lived to 102 years old. She was a happy old lady with a very positive view for life, partly (I think) due to having slowly lost much of her memory (she claims she didn't know i existed..). Fortunately, she passed away peacefully during her sleep, serene.
I pray for her safe journey in the other world.
Now that I have only 2 Grandparents left, Grandpa from my mother's side, and Grandma from my father's side. I didn't have a complete set of grandparents to begin with, my dad lost his father during the tomultuous period, when he was only 16.
Life and Death...
I'm beginning to think about living and dieing...
sometimes, i couldnt feel alive, i feel as if i'm dead but still moving like i'm not.
i m confused...not really sure about how to think or feel about my GreatGrandma's death...the sadness came in slowly, to think that I announced it loud and clear to my mom...now, I can't seem to think anymore..........

my bro

haven't been blogging for pretty long time i think.
juz felt like writing smth after reading my brother's blog. dam philosophical he became. however his philosophies centre around love and the nature of sex and stuff liddat, juxtaposition of sex between animals and humans.........tt kind of freaked me out. Guess this is wad guys his age think about. They tend to give it the scientific tinge instead of just the emotions and feelings we girls have. werd.
anyway, i could still remember the day he introduced his girl to me, i was dam smart to see through his teeny lie that she was only a friend. I was a little shaken and melancholic after he confessed that the girl was his special person. Not that I'm in lurve with my brother or wad, but the possesive inclination just couldn admit that my brother had a girl other than me. well, i happily forgot about it aft that, and went around telling my relatives abt it other than his mom, coz however big my mouth is, i kept my promise to him, not to let his mom know abt it. Secretive... If i was his mom, i would have known tt my son had gotten himself a girl, its female intuition, or my aunt was pure dumb, oops.
in his blog entry, he wrote that he doesnt ask much out of this relationship, doesnt necessarily have to have alot to talk abt when they are together, he's juz happy that they are together even if they feel akward. That really sounded like a love story, kind of cliche, but i guess its bcoz everybody felt the same way. it spanned 6 yrs since his confess and their first date. I'd always knew my bro was resilient ^^. anyway i m really proud of him, at least he's one guy i know that is serious about his girl and their relationship, that's worth celebrating for.
congrats to his girl too, my bro is that one in a million guy and she found him.
haaa~~~ so sweet ><
wish that my bro can tell me his love story from the very beginning ><

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i honestly abhore my personality, sometimes i hate myself so much that i wish i wasnt myself....someone kill me....

i honestly do not know wad to blog about. i leave my computer on for nothing in particular, and do my work in front of it. amazingly, i do not get distracted. 3 consecutive days of rest was not relaxing at all, i m not allowed to relax at all. be it in school or not in school, i m as tensed up anywhere. every thought going on in my head is about study and school work. at home, i spend most of time doing homework, if not, worrying about it. yesterday, i suddenly came to realize that i had not sat infront of the tv to watch a tv show properly in days, or even months. (though i watched anime on com...)3 consecutive days of rushing my work, i'm still left with mounds of hw......they could bury me alive if i were to shake the foundation a little......maybe it would be better if they did........
dreading school..i wish i could be anywhere but school....school is even more horrifying that before. its horrifying the way it makes time go so fast, like its eating up ur time and that the time has passed without u noticing it...
i shud go to sleep...but its only 9.30, not used to going to bed this early....feels as if there's still incomplete work...

am sooo tired...more tired than yesterday after the run, weird isnt...
anyways, its been a long time since i'd finished reading a story book from head to toe. the book's called "Kite Runner", i cried once half way through the story.
It's a recount of a man's life from when he was 12 to somewhere arnd 40, the story abt how he had betrayed his best friend when he was young and found out that his best friend was his half illegitimate brother, but by the time he found out, he was nearing 40 and his brother was executed some time ago. he thus had a mission to seek out his nephew and bring him away from afghan and raise him as his own. along the way, he finally confronted his cowardice years back where he witnessed his brother raped but was too afraid to stand up for him. He fought the man who raped his brother, who also intended to rape his nephew. in the end, his nephew saved his by shooting a steel ball into the man's socket, just like how his father used to protect his brother in the past. then, it was a journey to bring his nephew into his family, along the journey he had carelessly and momentarily shattered the boy's new found hope by offering to temporarily place him in an orphanage while he settle the adoption matters. The boy attempted suicide that night, and he was terrified, he started to pray and do all sorts of religious thingies that he had not practiced in decades, suddenly realizing that there is a God, and God will forgive him and keep the boy alive.....
i cried once more at the end of the story, it was like a long journey finally coming to its end, and then u realize that u still want to continue walking...
...i dunno wad im talking abt, ...so wadever, i m going to sleep, nitez

yes i havn been blogging, i m sorry....
anyway just felt that i shoud blog for once in a long long time.
today was 2.4, blardy hell i failed again...nvm i shall excel in my retest....not that i din do my bes today, i really couldn run for some stupid reason, like my muscles are too tight...blah blah, they really were, i promise i will not walk for goodness sake during the rerun. anyway i always run better during reruns......
wth...time passed so fast that i din even realise its april already!!! eunice wrote down the countdown days to olvl and preprelim today and it was only 200+ days away!!!! aaaaa omgomg....and i m like still not done with my geog holiday homework which is due two days later and my blardy career essay due today but i m planning to do a draft for it tmr....slack right?
tmr is another long long day and i m now watching anime....slap myself....but i did my homework u see, so i deserve a bit of relaxation b4 i go to sleep....
sleep is like never enough these days, its like u lie on bed for awhile and u have to wake up alr....not even enough time to make out with whoever in ur dreams la....doopez....lucky i nv go to TJC, else my sleeping time would be cut until its so short that its uncuttable......
oh, no more wasting time, i shall go watch NANA ^^, yes NANA got anime ler! first episode yeeps1!!

just done watching HUNTER x HUNTER, not very happy with the ending, but rather happy that i finally finished the whole anime, from head to toe! 92 episodes leh, no mean feat ok, lol. what's really impossible is to try finishing ONE PIECE, coz its blardy damn long la, i m like at 169 only, and i have until 240 on my com, and it seems that its out till 260+ liao....dioonz...totally harshed my mellow....lol.
ONE PIECE is really fun to watch, am starting to go into this frenzy again alr...aaargh...
like i m juz done with one thing, and here comes another, tho i nv thot of watching anime tedious, but still i cant help but feel that there really is toooo much anime alr...its taking up too much of me, i cant concentrate on other things when theres anime around...
aaargh, i m going mental....