Saturday, February 25, 2006

a new anime coming ur way!

woosh! new anime to watch!
tho i've never heard of it b4, but its kinda promising ^^, excitement.
and later at 2230, its my fav kor. show! final episode, harhar, must watch.
and wad else....
the lost city of Bombay has appeared in the lift lobby, and I have to step over the relics everytime i go out or come back. Why do they have to do this? The floor looks pretty ok to me, doesnt look old enough to be replaced, y's the govt doing unnecessary things? Its not juz my block, the whole area is undergoin the same thing. Isnt it wastage?
my dad said it was inevitable coz the construction workers had to do some work, if the govt dont giv them smth to do, they'd have no income.
True.
Guess we'll juz have to put up with Bombay for some time then. Its not that bad either, kind of fun to walk on uneven ground.

Samurai Champloo!



i've just finished watching Samurai Champloo.
The ending was not remarkably touching or twisted.
Not much of an emotional stir even.
But I feel so fulfilled. Maybe because finally I finished this anime.
Samurai Champloo has a very unique style, there's one episode which was utterly stupid, it was abt the Mugen Jin and Fuu and somemore other unimportant people playing baseball with the americans. The americans inside were spastic, all they could say was "jesus", "oh my god" and "bastard"....it was like in the end the jap thrashed the americans and they did not dare to set foot on japan ever again. As if it was really true la. So gullible these ppl.
But of coz i was on Mugen's side, he was so hunky!
I liked Mugen and JIn, both of them were so desirable!!! lol....
anyway, what i liked abt them was that they are brave and they kill with style. Come on man, all who fight shud see how they fight la! Kewl beyond description man.
Envy Fuu so much, get to travel with those 2. I'd be so blessed if i cud really meet ppl like them. ><
Long Live! Mugen and Jin!

Monday, February 20, 2006

0h no......i m terribly regretting what i had just done.....how the hell did i coax myself to do it???
boohooo....cries........
its unblivable, i m actualy regretting this when i ve thot "dam it, juz do it man, cut! cut it. No more, finish, enuf!"
now i m really regretting it alr........
why the hell did i do tt for???
now it seems so empty alr.
noooooo.....it isnt happening.......
my mind is going bonkers!
life is so stressful!
i wanna die............

Sunday, February 19, 2006

oh its really nice to kno tt i'm actually unattractive and undesirable.
great, brilliant.
that's all i wanted to hear.
Fine! I'll show u ppl what attractive and desirable is, bring it on man.
i feel so darn insulted.........
kns.
u ppl suck!

Feb 18th...the outing....the sadness...the tears.....

ever since last night, i cant help thinking abt him........
like the scenes kept replaying and I think I was very harsh and difficult.......
its not tat i did it on purpose, i jus didn like to left out, i get very frustrated. Especially is that kind of outing, all the more i'd think he hates me.
sighz.........guess i screwed up...........
frenz?

Saturday, February 18, 2006

today is a super sucky day! i hate today!
was it me or jus that ..............hurrrrgh........forget it.....
jus remember tat today sucked like hell.

Friday, February 10, 2006

Os

The Day...
The day which the previous batch got back their "o" results.
There were alot of 6 pointers, it was so encouraging, i felt almost that I could be one of them too. If only i could get 6 points, i'd be able to go to TJC.
Anyway, I got back my Express Chi o results, I got an A1, i wasnt surprised, but b4 i got it back, i was dam worried and paranoid. I didn know that I would cry, it just came out when i heard my dad's voice. I sobbed into the phone, and gave my Dad a scare. He thought something terrible happened to me........ my dad....
it's always liddat, the paranoia b4 getting ur results.
you cant help but let your thoughts stray and get the better of you.
it depends on how you take the stress.
seeing the seniors get their results, i thought abt next yr, would i be able to walk out of the hall smiling? mayb not, would I be able to walk out with joy or sorrow? with pride or regret? it all depends, depend on how hard I work myself this yr.
2006, the very impt yr, the yr I take my Os.
but as Mrs Tan said, even tho O lvl is very important, it is only a passing stage in our life. whether we do well or not, we'd still have to get on with our lives. true?

I'd wish for all andersonians to fare for their Os, and pass this mere stage of our lives with no regret, and carry on, living our lives to the fullest, and make the best out of each and everyone of us. For everybody is a gem, u will polish and carve in order to shine. And it's impossible to not shine if you have polished and carved hard enuf.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

I really hate myself...
Why can't i juz act normal? why do i have to be so uncomfortable arnd people?
Is it me? or what?

went for the MILK fund CIP thing this morning. Quite fun at the beginning. Feels great when u hear the coin doink into ur can. I observe that the elderlies are generally more generous. They doink quite alot of money. The kids also. when it comes to teenagers or young ppl, they are $%@$^%. Some just stare at me, some ignore me, some run away when I approach them. Like the hell i want to see their face so badly. Someone donated sweets to me, that's fresh.
Had to walk around smiling so brightly that i wonder what the hell happened...
anyway, it was quite ok la, at the beginning.
later, we were like dam tired. I m lazy to even talk. i became totally anti social and i duno, dun even wanna talk to shimin, who also didn bother to talk to me, coz she got her glamourous Charmaine.
sigh, why didnt daryl come to ToPaYo today??? would have walked up to him n ask for donations and hp no.... LoL
oh ya, i asked for donations from a tcher in anderson whom i duno, oops, awkwardness...
the stupid 88 and 159 take so long to drive from tpy to my home, i sit until i want to puke.
better avoid going to tpy...
when i got home, i ate noodles, it was heavenly coz i havn eaten since morning. then i went to sleep, i think i drooled alot, coz my pillow smells weird, eek.
I've got plenty of work to do tmr, hw and tests to study for, and i have lessons in the aftnn.
buzy day, all by myself, tt explains why i m anti social. i m like always alone.......
there were this 2 guys from china, they make their own mvs and upload onto e net, they are like so famous now, coz their mvs are dam funny.
when i watched their mvs, i laughed non stop, coz its really hilarious.
then i felt miserable, how i wish i cud be liddat, doing crazy things with my pal.
problem is where the hell is my pal?!
applying perfectly to this ancient saying:
(the one puuqin said for chinese lesson...)
相识满天下,知己有几人。
something like that, its a shame i forgot the orginal vs. well the meaing is there...
its really hard to be a happy teen.
like always thinking abt whether u are good enough, doubting yourself, unsure abt yourself....
hope i can step out of this, soon...

Friday, February 03, 2006

man, it sucks, i wanted to buy the inbase shoes today, but they were not there anymore! sobx....
anyway, engl. lesson today was not fun, tt Ms Heng was obviously biased la,every other group presented and when it comes to mine, she just let it be when we said we've got nothing much to add, when she insisted other groups to present when they were like also had nothing to add.
I dono what to say abt her, i like her lessons, its interesting but somehow i just feel quite uncomfortable. Like i always find her way of looking at me not very appealing. anyway, we've got another troublesome thing to do, prepare for a 3 min speech on reflections upon reading this article on Bullying. Well, this is a topic that I might have alot to say. But to say it infront of her, i probably need a dose of courage. I cant talk to her at all, i feel oppressed when she talks to me, like i find it difficult to even to look her in the eye. Guess I'll just have to brace it through, its due nxt fridae, i have one week's time to prepare, i m not sure whether its enough.
Today is obviously wasted, couldn buy the shoes i wanted, wasted 2 hrs walking arnd j8 for something not quite my business. i just don feel right, i mean its like its not even our business and u drag us along, and like leave us when u don need us anymore. Please la, i deem myself with alot of pride, i don like being treated like that.
cmon la, crap shit.....
i wanna watch advent children tmr and kns got the stupid MILK thingy.
we are doing it at tpy, again. no big deal for me. I shall go slag and pull thru the thing and return home in one piece to watch my beloved CLOUD!!!
Dad was sposed to swim with me today, but what a @$%@&%, he forgot to bring his swimming trunks. MAN, and he told Mom that it was because I didnt keep it for him! Aaaargh, isnt he atrocious??? so it ended up me swimming alone, and my Dad sleeping on the chair, darn he was so comfortable la.
let's see... i ve got tons of work to do, and i ve got my jap lessons on sun again. kind of don feel lke going....I m planning to cramp all my work to do on sunday tho. shud have enough time la....haha, im lying to myself obviously......dam...
ooo, its getting itchy, i wanna watch FF7 now!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

i havnt been blogging for sometime, did i?
right now, i m breaking my head over that stupid lit essay about goodness of children...
there's no goodness in children! they are lil devils running all over the place!i find them cute when they cry...sense of superiority maybe. its ecstatic to see them cry, LoL, that was my secret hobby a long long time ago.
so, what shall i write for my essay?
i find it more frequent that I can't write an essay or a compo smoothly or fluently, it just gets stuck somewhere somehow. either it's because I m slowly forgetting my vocab or I m aging backwards that I donno how to construct a proper sentence. As Ms heng said, my writings are atrocious. never mind that, I think i'm running short on time to do my homework. there's pretty much i need to do. sighs....i m glad there's alot of work, but i juz don have the time and energy to do it....
god bless me ><

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

oh my god, i'm practically breaking my head over the two essays. its difficult to think. my story is in a mess. I can't even sort out how to begin it. I was trying to start writing out the plot, before I actually go to organise and present it the way i want to. However, even writing out the plot seems almost too impossible for me. i spent one day to come up with a story based on a dream i had, which i could only remember almost nothing about. and spent another day to think of a way to present it, and finally i did come up with something creative as i sat dreaming at the basketball court. I was glad that i went there, because it's pretty relaxing to sit and daydream. I know i shouldn think it a chore which would only make my life more difficult. but i cant help but think it a horrible horrible chore, as writing was never my forte (totally untrue of wad ms Heng said). I have to come up with a 1500 words long essay. I doubt i can even come up with 1500 words long rubbish, let alone a proper essay that would promise me an A in my CA2. Why do i have to go to b1??
the other essay, which I'm supposed to write about my father, was another tedious task for me to do. look at him, what 1000 words can i possibly make up to say about him? well, i could always start by saying that my dad is very very noble and kind...and blah blah blah....but i don want to write untrue stuff about my dad. not because i m worried that if my essay's chosen somehow and my dad gets invited and discovers that what i had written about is all bullshit crap. why would i ever think of that, i wouldn even want anyone to read my essay, for privacy and for dignity.
what can i do???
right now, i'm focusing on my commonwealth essay. i hope i can really really come up with something right. it was a fabulous dream i had, its a pity i forgot about it.
oh man...................i'd rather die........

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Worshipping.......

I SAW DARYL!!!! AFTER SOOOO MANY DAYS!!!!!!
KEWL!!!!!!!!!!!!
LoL....
HE'S WEARING ALL RED JERSEY, OOO HOT, HAHAHA, MUZ B AFTER SOME TOURNAMENT BA.
KEWL KEWL!
WEEEEEEEE.................

Friday, January 13, 2006

i'M really starting to abhore ppl who do not respect others.
Either not respecting teachers, or just fellow ppl.
who do they think they are anyway? Being rude and all to ppl, and yet expect ppl to respect them? I think not.
everybody is so darn full of themselves that they could afford to trample on other's dignity. so what if you don like that particular teacher? U "walao" at whatever she says that you do not agree? u sleep during the class right below her nose?
think how does tt feel if it were you?
I bet you are too thick to even think of that.
probably you think its cool that u do not see the big deal of a teacher, that you are brave enuf to go up against her by doing little fidgets just to irritate her.
what good does that do?
and u get angry coz other ppl responds to that teacher u don like?!
please...save me the atrocity...
its just unbelievable that you are like that, I thought you were the sort who knows right from wrong, who respect others....
yet...
just take it that i've been blinded and...wadever...

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

freaking stupid singaporeans

i hate to say this, but those singaporeans are really getting on my nerve.
i don care if this is a sweeping statement, i m damn unhappy abt this.
Are there anyone more stupid than those ppl? I cant belive this la/
they can barbeque outside the lift, on the 5th floor...
siao la these ppl
dam inconsiderate, i bet those bags of rubbish tt were stuck in the chute were theirs, so darn stupid, they have to taught how to dispose rubbish?
they can freaking throw themselves in!
curse them.
its so dam obvious the father is having affairs, coz he married a dam uncouth and ugly woman who has never properly learnt her manners.
if she doesnt show respect to us, i can jolly well forget abt mine.
she's getting hell from me, mark my words, suckers.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

A.I.R

看完了A.I.R 这部动画了。 好感动的。最后还哭了呢。
我好像从中学会了非常珍贵的东西。到底是什么呢?
我说不上来。
不过好像有种很满足的感觉。让人十分温暖那 (笑)
A.I.R 其实是一部很美的动画,描述着一个很凄美的故事。
刚开始还有点看不懂得说,有点摸不着头绪,跟一般的动画不一样。
说它曲折离奇吧,又好像不怎么复杂,蛮简单的故事背景来的。
但要说它简单吗,却又觉得故事的含义很深,令人回味。
所以我才说它很美 (^_^)

到现在,对A.I.R的映像还不是很清晰,朦胧的感觉挥之不去。
似懂非懂的样子。
回味呀,回味。。(v_v)

总觉得我好像变成熟了呢,长大了呢。
A.I.R 值得一看啊,感叹人与人之间的爱。
强力推荐哦!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

what time now?

i cant sleep....
almost 3 in e morning, and i feel hungry, maybe i shud get smth to eat....
am reading Nana now, its a nice comic, cant wait to watch the show, ^^. tho its abit of a censored ><
if only i cud draw as how they draw nana, if only.......sigh...
i really really cant sleep, aaargh, i need pills.
oh, i can go watch tv u kno, hmmm.....

reading nana..........

Saturday, December 10, 2005

fou

I am currently listening to SS501, new Korean pop grp, they sure know how to make first impressions, ^^, i m mesmerized.......
reading Bleach at the same time, Ikkaku is KEWL!!!!
Oh, this song is good~~~
I found out that the song Superstar, sang by both S.H.E and Ash, was originally sang by Sweetbox, called China Girl. Both Ash's version and Sweetbox's version are nice, and S.H.e version sux. 3 ppl singing cant overpower one, they should go home and reflect. And know what, I juz realize, SHe version didnt even do a remix or whatsoever, that is the music of the song is totally copied from Sweetbox, that is so integrity-less. At least, Ash's version is more meaningful, and much nicer music and vocals.
My achievements:
Managed to find 3 sites to dl mp3 due the cruel Haoting.com not offering Download option anymore.
Came across this Korean forum, and thats where my dl will come from, totally cool, i could get everything from there. No need to look for Korean sites anymore.
[X-Japan - Endless Rain...]
i wonder who started me listening to XJapan.....their songs are sad, sadness that touched ppls hearts..

Sunday.
went to take Jap exam.
this time i sat for the exam in the Science lab in the Jap School. LoL, it was miniature, cuteness beyond words. I noticed their display of Butterfly Biao Ben (><), there's AgehaCho, TatehaCho.... and many more, it was beautiful. It awoken the frenzy in me, and got me drawing butterflies all over the place, ^^ LoL. Rmb the song Ageha by W-inds? hehe, Ageha is a type of butterfly with very big wings, and has a teardrop at the bottom of each wing, and the ones i saw have luminous colors, O.O
aft the exam, i went home on my own, coz Sarah had her dad to fetch her and Peiying was going somewhere. If I wasn't alone, my trip home would be hilarious. Due to flooding of the puny little bus stop opposite, thus impossible for me to board any bus. Many other ppl also gave up waiting and walked along the road, and I followed. These ppl are evil dudes, during my obedient following-behind-their-butts i had to cross LongKangs, and climb railings, trot down a muddy slope and almost tearing my slippers, circulate my way through the flats, and finally board a bus which i have no idea whr it goes. I trusted those dudes, unbelievably.
well, in e end, i arrived at Tampines mall, miraculously. I didnt know Tanah Merah was so near to tampines. ahh, civilisation, what a relief, many thanks to the evil ppl who led the way.
that was my lil adventure last sunday, lol.

Monday,
stayed up till 11pm, and left for airport at 1130, to receive my Mom. ^^ My Dad was talking abt foreseeing the unforeseen on the way, and he didn foresee that my mom's plane was late, we waited thr for almost 2 hrs, b4 the plane finally landed. well, during the wait, I was having fun comparing height with the air stewardess, downright lame, and I was taller than all of them, they were shorter than me even in heels, how short are they??
lol, I like short ppl, they are cute. hahaha.
so finally we got my mom, we took a taxi home. when we were under my block, taking out the luggages from the car, i discovered that mom took the wrong luggage. sweat...so my parents hurried back to the airport, while i took e 4 other bags, big n small back. I was exclaiming to myself how strong i was, when the trolly bag toppled and caught my leg, leaving a ugly looking scar...I wouldn have minded if the scar was nice........but it was ugly.....
half n hr later, my parents returned with the rightful luggage, relief...

Wednesday.
spposedly another boring day, but was disturbed by a fire...
yes a fire. not v big, but was enough to leave the top 2 floors of my block black as my stove at home. there was some commotion and aha, I was taken back by the suaveness of the fire-fighters.... V.V lol, they were really cool, quick and handy while they put out the fire. Much to my amusement, there were ppl in pajamas, facials, and shampoo on their hair... was laughing til my sides ached.

Thursday.
went for dental appt in e morning, got cleaning n scaling done, my dentist was again making me do the brushing practice on tt oral model of his, he seems to be amused, i wonder whether he has a fetish over tt model, ew. I slept through the cleaning, only to open my eyes from time to time when he asked me if i was Ok, he probably thought I fainted. sweat..sweat....
aft tt, went to meet Shimin at Jubilee, saw her earings, very nice, ^^, very ex also, lol. She chose tt pair coz the others were the "Angeline" style, lol, no offence.haha.
went to buy our textbooks at popular, and detoured to Anderson, to buy Marianne Chong, coz popular don have. Saw Yuxian, Chloe, Peiying, Huimin, and Eunice thr, yuxian gave us a little hp toy each. haha, hp toy....:P
went back to central to have lunch, at pizza hut, happiness. Lol.

this is dam long post, sai, gotta sleep, and i forgot to shower......

Saturday, December 03, 2005

juz realize i didn blog abt chalet.
fine, i shall blog.
the chalet was boring, most of the time, coz i wasnt participating...
what u expect, from dying old me...
the funner part was when i trying to rollerblade la, i fell until my butt went blue, i didn know how to fall foward, so i kept landing on my butt, pain...>< good thing james lee stayed back to help me, dono y, but thank goodness he's there, else i'd be crawling my way arnd. haha he tried to coach me la, but i was too stupid, so ended up him running and pulling me along, he said it was training....woa, dam i m grateful, shall repay his kindness. due to the murderous pair of roller blades, i have now 2 bloody blisters on my ankles, it wasnt properly cleaned then, so now its infected and swollen, plus the powder tt my dad gave me which i'm spposed to apply on my wound, my blisters are giving me hell....
another fun part of the chalet was when on the night of e first day, james lee, elain n me went to the roof. we were daring ourselves to cross from one roof to another, thrilling. haha. tt was fun.
one more thing, i learnt a few more card games, like Bridge and Pig. bridge was fun,e "intellectual" game according to Chloe. Pig is a funny game, lol.
what else?
oh, yuxian cut her hair, couldn recognize her at first, coz don look like her alr. ahhh my grand daughter don look like my grand daughter anymore, T_T...boohoo ><
then urgh, what else?
oh, i witnessed the guys trying to get their hair done, it was horrible...oops...gives me the weird feeling when i see guys trying to decorate themselves. I've only just overcome the disgust i get when i see guys in pink....
james kang shud get his hair cut b4 he tries to style it, his current hair is too even and thick, they will stand up like pillars, he shud cut layer keep the back and the sideburns long. yar... and abel yang, his hair can stand without wax, why he want to put wax to make it look like a block. and who else?? arkar and zhongming, their hair were ok, looks more natural and stylable. and james lee, his hair was ok also, but way too troublesome.
yar, ugh, first day went by eventually, 16 ppl on 4 beds, we were TRYING to sleep.
abel was dam noisy, like he ever wasnt...so they were making fun of nelson, muahahaha, i rmb the part where he ate his cup noodles in the toilet, or did he not.... anyway, nelson was still nelson, like how nelson wud always be....
the second day, even more boredom, i don even rmb what i did, or what they did. only that finally i shall go home aft i see ethel's face. she n jelyn la, troublesome ppl, thot i wud be able to see both of them so i went to the chalet and in e end one nv went and the other went when i was abt to go home, fauk it.
ethel was still ethel, i still don get it when i ask her y she wore anderson yeah, and she told be if not i wan her to wear tj shirt.... haiz....nvm...
i noticed that ethel painted her nails, haha, wheuweeep, sexy sexy, hahaha.
and i juz read the other ppls blog, guess i missed out alot of "fun", but i was glad i went home. sheesh....
tmr's JLPT exam, I'm sooo nervous that I cant sleep, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
no, i shall go to bed, i cant afford to miss my exam....
oh, shall i mention that my braces' got new color combi, haha green n pink, it's stupid, and funny, mahahahha.
ok, i shall go bath, and sleep and wake up 5 in the morning to revise and leave at 7....
oh, i just saw that Darren tagged....
now i feel pretty bad abt doing what I did to him.
Now that he mentioned it, I feel worse.
I'm sorry darren, I didnt mean to...um...slander u or whatever that was...
eh....juz take it as i wasnt in my right mind....
reeeelly reeeelly sorry.... ><

JLPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JLPT tomorrow, i feel so nervous...
I read through all my text and notes, and I felt so confident, only that after a while i forgot everything and need to replenish my confidence again.
My exam is 0930 in the morning, abt 3 hrs long, ends at 1245, I'm going alone this time, I wonder whether I'd meet someone I know. I decide to leave my house at 7 tmr morning, I hope 2 hrs are enough for me to get to e Japanese School, I try to avoid taking cab coz this time nobd gonna share cost with me.
hmmm.......
I m on drawing frenzy again....