Wednesday, June 04, 2008

プロポーズ 大作戦!


刚刚一口气看完了一部日剧,名为《求婚大作战!》。实为感动,所以与此抒发一下感言。
《求婚大作战》讲述了发生在一个婚礼当天的一个故事,现在想起来结构与中华文学里读的《雪山飞狐》有点相似,就是与现实一天内,演绎过去,还有将来。 故事的男主角“岩瀬健”(山下智久饰)与女主角“吉田禮”是从小学三年级就一直在青梅竹马的好朋友。健一直深深爱着禮,而禮也一直喜欢着健,可是两人之间 青梅竹马的那层关系却一直阻碍着两人进一步的发展。就这样拖沓,直到礼终于要成为别人的新娘时,健的极度懊悔让奇迹出现了... ...
住在教堂里的妖精看到健的悔恨于心不忍,与助他一臂之力,让他能回到过去改变那一切让自己后悔、让礼遗憾的事迹。于是通过婚礼上播映的照片 Slideshow中的一张张回忆的照片,他穿越时空,回到过去,想方设法地改过、修正、涂抹。可是一次次的失败和一次次回到现实看见可爱的新娘坐在别的 男人身边时,他近乎放弃。过往的事迹一刀一刀刺痛了他的心,仿佛无论他如何努力都只是把礼推得越来越远而已,自己眼睁睁地看着新爱的人一步步走向别的男 人。无能为力的同时还要佯装祝福,实在是痛彻心肺。
当Slideshow放到真正最后一张照片了,他回到过去倾尽全力设法挽回,却冥冥中悟出了一个道理。与其一直悔恨过去,希望能从新来过,不如努力现在, 放眼未来。既然已经发生过的不管回去多少次,能改变的也只是漫长历史中的数个小时,还不如把握住现在,把握住将来更来得可贵。
男孩用尽妖精给他的所有机会,领悟了这个道理,于是回到婚礼上,一好友的身份对新郎新娘致词,倾吐了十四年来郁积在心中的一切感情,然后扬长而去。精疲力竭的他来到教堂里,在耶稣面前不禁失声哭泣。这一切都过去了啊。至少我努力了啊。只要礼得到幸福我就满足了啊。
结局如何我就不说了,相信我,这是一部非常好的片子。我从中学到了几个道理,不加修饰,朴朴实实的做人道理。比如说“什么事都等着明天来做的人,是傻瓜”,“心里有话就该说出来,不要以为那个人会一直在那里”,等等、等等。
感动啊。感动的同时,也惊讶原来一直走偶像路线的山下智久能够如此真实地出现在荧幕上,不造作、不虚伪,仿佛他就是那个喜欢了女孩十四年之久的痴情男孩。不仅如此,毕竟山下是个超级帅蛋,看这部戏可是流够了口水的啦。强力强力推荐!!
一下是图览时间














Monday, May 19, 2008

中国人

今天,5月19日,下午2.28分,距四川大地震一个星期,全球的华夏儿女沉痛地默哀三分钟。这是史无前例的三分钟,悲痛的三分钟,让所有中国人这一个星期以来积蓄的情绪释放的三分钟。全中国下半旗,汽车轮船火车列车那一刻一起鸣笛,和全球的中华儿女一起沉痛地追悼在地震中丧生的同胞。

我和父母在家里的客厅,面对着电视,默哀了三分钟。默哀的同时,我注视着电视屏幕,各地的华人或有组织地集体默哀,或在自己的岗位起立默哀,新闻主播鲁豫默哀时不住抽泣,工作人员全都庄严肃穆地默哀。虽然是短短的三分钟,但这体现的是我们中国人的团结和力量。从有关地震的新闻报道里,我看到了中国的强大,团结,和守望相助的精神。凄凉悲欢离合,鼓舞人心的救助支援不断地打动我们的心。虽然我们一家人远在他乡,无法与全中国一起承受灾难后的劫后余生,无法献出我们微薄的力量,但是这三分钟让我们感觉到我们还是中国人,身在他乡又如何,只要我们的心紧紧相连,这场灾难中国一定挺得过去!从灾难中重生的是新的中国,强大的中国,且有宽厚无私的中国!

身为炎黄子孙,我就应该有炎黄子孙的气概,光是哭是没有用的,现在能做的就是好好记住现在的心情,这种沉痛却倍受鼓舞的心情!

Saturday, May 10, 2008



I like this picture alot, though I don't really know why, I just like it.

Watched CO concert last night, well, it was quite an eye opener, I've never watched one before, if not for Stepf, bet I will remain knowledgeless abt CO concerts forever. Anw, watching them perform kind of brought back some primary school memories, back when I played the KulingTang in the AngKlung band. Amazingly I could still rmb the notes and beats I used to play in this Tango song we performed at SYF. ah~~ memories...

back to CO concert, it was eye opening yes, there were some instruments that I had never seen before, and I found it quite odd for a guy to play GuZheng. Stepf's percussion performance was memorable. Its suprisingly moving to see your friends up there doing their "thing", almost like looking at a different person, I meant it in a good way.

among the songs played last night i especially like the first one called 奋勇前进 and 菊花台. i can't really put into words why, but rather i felt this tingly feeling and the urge to cry when listening to these two pieces. i feel this same feeling when watching the last dance in both Step Up One and Two, when in Superman Returns, Superman carried the land off into space, and when watching One Piece, everytime when Luffy and gang kick some ass, the tears just keep flowing. I guess i feel quite shaken by what I was watching or listening to. listen to this , probably get what i mean...
X TV- Sadame ~Piano Version~ - X TV

Monday, May 05, 2008

时间从手指间流逝。。。

最近的日子过得有些糊里糊涂,脑袋里好像清楚一天下来所发生的事情,也可以回想起几天前的“往事”,但心里总觉得不踏实,好像没有活在当下的感觉。真的是如此吗?没有活在当下的人,通常不是沉浸在往事回忆里,就是专心织着未来飘渺的梦,往往当下的那一分那一秒是被忽略掉的。人们总是满脑子对未来的憧憬和计划,总想着将来我要如何如何,将来的日子会像梦中一样美好。问问自己,可能吗?若不把握当下,这些梦想只是过眼云烟,海市蜃楼罢了。没有稳固的基垫,在伟大的城堡也无法建成。我想这个道理很多人都懂,“别在空中建起城堡来”这句谚语耳熟能详,但有谁真的能做得到呢?有多少人又能逐步把梦想变成事实呢?又有多少人陷入白日梦里能够完整地抽身出来呢?“白日梦”就像一片森林,一片隐藏着重重危机的森林,在那蔚然清幽的面具下,无数只魔爪摩拳擦掌,等待着,某个天真的孩子走入。一旦被抓住,想要完整脱身是不可能的,能走出森林的人,都会在森林里失去重要的东西。可悲的是,他们不会知道这重要的东西是什么,永远都不会......

爸爸生病了,喉咙发炎,感冒咳嗽。可能是最近天气无常的关系,许多人都病倒了。爸爸很少生病,偶尔生一次小病其实是一种安慰(说安慰好像不妥,但语言能有限,尽情原谅)。许多人很多年无病无痛,却会突如其来胜一场大病,或患上不治之症。一些病的潜伏期很长,但一旦爆发就无法挽救了。我的阿婆就是如此。身体一向硬朗的阿婆突然被检查出的了肺癌,结果没过多久就走了。阿婆生前非常疼爱我,至今许多儿时与阿婆共度的时光仍历历在目。我很爱阿婆,没能回去见她最后一面是我一生的遗憾。阿婆是我失去的第一个亲人。可能是本来就很久没见着阿婆,阿婆去世总让我感到不真实,我总觉得阿婆仍在照看着我,虽然我并不是很相信鬼神之说。总之我希望阿婆不管在什么地方,是否还是阿婆,或已经转世为人,只要她快快乐乐我就安心了。

人长大了,感慨也多了,有些时候真不知人们活着到底为了什么,有时候想要结束毫无目的的生活(不是要自杀)却又不知从何着手。人生是充满了问号的,本来以为随着自己长大,问号会减少,无奈发现并无减少,反而剧增。无奈,无奈...

Sunday, May 04, 2008

就这样。。



昨天去考了SAT I Reasoning Test。感想如下:
1。数学=简单
2。英文=有一点点难
3。长
考试时间约3小时45分钟,又长又臭,考得我精疲力尽,神魂颠倒。但也没那么夸张,因为实在不怎么难,若不出什么马虎,至少两千以上。不是我bhb,而是亲身总结。
考完试后找SQ出来吃饭,我们都是累人两个,趴在桌子上都懒得动,平常她还会帮我卖,对她挤眉弄眼一下就搞定的,结果不成功,反变得我得给她卖,失败。。。
后来又去吃蛋糕,幸福。
总结昨天,累。不过开心。

回到家,突然听爸爸说差点儿就见不着他了,吓出我一身冷汗。原来中午爸爸和同事出去吃饭,回来的时候乘同事的车,在十字路口出了车祸,被一辆小货车撞上。爸爸坐在靠内的座位,离被撞的车身较远,没有受伤。真是万幸啊。今年是爸爸的本命年,万事得多加小心,不要出事才好。爸爸还开玩笑的说还好他穿了红内裤,为他挡了一灾。红内裤啊,红内裤,万分感谢你保护了我爸爸,希望这一年内都能好好保护他。感激不尽了。





Thursday, May 01, 2008

Yesterday ^^ (Happy Bday Ivie)

muaha..ytd was fun, esp the "ivie dunking" muaha, fun. who's bday next heeheehee.
photos taken from class blog ^^ ytd was a pretty good day, apart from beatrice losing 200 gold from quiting viwawa halfway when the kuku technician came in to kaypo.













Monday, April 28, 2008

“那是女娲炼石也无法弥补的天裂”

女娲炼石补青天,这是多么恒古流传的神话,美丽、壮阔,有沧桑。记得小时候有一部中国动画片专门讲述这类神话故事,在我看来,那应该是中国动漫的始祖了吧,题材画风都不错的说。华文课上,读了一篇短篇小说,又或者是一篇长篇散文?一万多字。。。到底。。。
故事是写作者白先勇和好友王国祥(关系暧昧)一起生活过的日子,直到王国祥因病去世。这篇文章我花了整整一的小时才读完,文章感情从轻快到沉重到悲伤,引人入胜,叩人心弦。若不是在大庭广众下,我早已痛哭失声。尤其是最后一句“...那是一道女娲炼石也无法弥补的天裂。”我整颗心都要碎了。人生在世,知己难求。得一知己,则死而无憾。酒逢知己千杯少。知己啊,知己... 王国祥不但是白先勇的知己,甚至是他的爱人,王国祥的死对白先勇来说可能是世界末日了吧。我不敢,也不能说我能理解白先勇的心情,但是读到“天裂”时我的确感受到了他的悲痛,心一下揪住,热泪盈眶。
“树犹如此,情何以堪”...

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

life is UNFAIR!!!

I duno why. life is juz so unfair...and i duno whr is the unfairness, i juz tink its super uber duper unfair. *crashed wall*
people can work at 5 bucks per hour, and earn 800 in a month! and wad hav i??? *kicks wall* my job makes me feel bad abt myself, coz i juz cant do things rite. they have so mani do's n don'ts that i wonder who the hell actually cares!? being a waitress is so not my thing, so not my thing totally. even tho, well, some ppl thinks its cool, and the environment is good.....but it juz doesn suit me at all!!!! i dun talk during work, i dunno why....i m not a quiet person at work.....n i DUN TALK!!!! its crazy....
the people thr...i donoo...i juz dun find them likeable....even tho i hav nth agenst them...........nooooo!!! stop making me into an introvert pls!!! uh...i shall quit my job very soon......very very soon......

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

trauma

I'm having the "why is everything happening to me" feeling now...
sadly, there's is this man who just committed suicide at my block..I went to look at the scene. His body was covered in white sheets, and dark blood could be seen flowing out. According to neighbours, this man doesnt live in my block, but one block across the street...it was a young man in his twenties...
i feel sad for the guy...wonder what was going on in his mind when he jumped...I feel traumatised coz i recall that I actually heard the "thump" sound while peeling fruits in the kitchen......
I can't sleep tonight no more......

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

YES no more SHIIT!!!

yay, joy to the world! PW is so over!!! actually the OP onli la, but who cares abt I&R??? my group was the last group to present for our slot la. then wa see the first two group finish everything, was like so jealous la. then when we finish, no more excitement alr....diaoz...but im happy nonetheless haha. should i bitch here??? like its so over already, no point in bitching abt it animore. shall blog another day man, play time wahahahaha. and i have to say that WANG LI HONG's GAI BIAN ZI JI is super inspiring! I was like feeling damn good about myself when listening to this song! like in the morning on the bus, i was alternating btw this song and the stupid recording of my voice. it was inspiring nonetheless.
shiiit, i still have chinese homework, DUE TODAY!!! Fack....
heck, shall play first. wahahahaha

Friday, October 26, 2007

life is so irritating sumetimes...

how often do you find a young man (MAN for crying out loud) not able to tidy up his room, greet his elders, be nice to his sister. NOT very OFTEN, but yet, i dio one right in my house. I mean, it may be due to his brought up wadever that he doesn do any housework, throw his things about, be so messy that im certain a pig would snort at his room in disgust. omg, look at his room! (which was initially MY study!) He has one study table with cupboards for books, and dozens of drawers, one closet totally new and bought entirely for him, and half of a book shelf which is rightfully mine (and i told him to clear out of it...) and he's still throwing everything around. WTH its my home not HIS! I feel like screaming in his face man, does he intend to let my mom, tired after work, and go work her ass off to clean up his room for hiM??? my mom will not do it, i wont agree to that! what freaking right does he have to make MY MOM work for HIM? in ur fucking dreams sucker!
and my dad, din he like promise to educate him, be stern and forceful when he does smth wrong, when i offered to use his hp to send a moderately stern msg saying "clean up your room", he insist that i use "please". TO HELL WITH THAT LOR! If i had to beg him to do that, I would more happily choose to mince his head off with that chopper. LIKE HELL!! Its so freaking unfair, esp when my dad already knows this guy has been brought up totally wrong, self-centred and selfish, he doesnt want to be stern to him juz because he's lost his father and does not have any kin with him here. That IS pitible, but this is a different thing!!! I dont see anibd asking me to tidy up my room with a "please"? I'd sooner get a beating before i get that. this is totally ridiculous la.
omg
i cant bear for the 2 yrs to end and this sucker leaves my life entirely. Im not being super unfriendly or out-casting him because he sort of like took away half a daddy. He doesn deserve it omg, to be treated with respect, even though he is older than me by a couple of months. WOuld u respect someone who doesn respect your parents, cant rmb to turn off the tap after use, doesn giv a damn abt leaving the door unlocked and exposing my entire family to danger??
he sux, and i have to admit my dad is not making any difference at all even though he said he would. my dad is such a procrastinator, he always waits for a "chance", like hell this chance is gonna come soon...this bloody guy whether intentionally or not has been planning his schedule totally different from us such that he doesnt have to see our faces. and my dad continues patiently to wait for that precious chance to come.
if i were my dad, being stern is not being mean, being all strict is the one n only way to help this nephew of his, and he's still trying to be just be nice. He has totally pissed off my mom on this, and she doesn bother herself with the issue anymore, and belive it or not, he's pissing me off too. when that fateful moment comes, and i snaps, i will make hell for the fucking asshole.

Friday, October 05, 2007

fucking asshole

that cousin of mine is a super fucking asshole. its almost unbelievable that someone so grotesque exist and has to live with mi...
he is such an eyesore that i sometimes i really hoped that his dead father could revive and just bring him away.
i know its sad to have lost his father at a young age. that doesnt mean he can come n try to ruin my family. i have been putting up with the shit he's been giving me because my father has openly proclaimed that he is a responsibility that his late brother passed on to him, and he has to be responsible for him until his stay is over.
i have been swallowing my anger and frustration on the account of doing it for my father since he feels obliged to fullfil his brother's wishes.
i need an outlet desperately, i m seriously going crazy from frustration.
this fucking ass is a stupid backstabber, and the person he backstabs is none other than my mother, fuckin hell... he twists the truth and made it sound like my mother was abusing him or something...and complains to my father. fucking crazy, my mother is not obliged to look after him, and she takes on the role of a loving aunt who looks after him like how she looks after me. and this is how he repays her.

now my parents are frustrated at each other for lack of understanding on both sides. my mom doesn understand my father's sense of responbility towards this nephew of his. and my dad couldn understand her frustration over his lack of respect and rudeness towards her. all in all, this fucking asshole should go to hell. it is all his fault that my happy family is now filled with animosity.

at times like this, i have to do something to keep my side of the battle tight, i have to keep my parents close and then we could together ward off the evil asshole trying to break up my family.

if anything ever, ever happens to my family, he will be held responsible, and i will give him hell.

beware u arsehole full of shiit!!!

Monday, August 27, 2007

suei

ok, i havn been blogging for really long time. but something happend today that i must record. I dio-ed bird shit for the first time in my life!
my god, it was damn stupid...
i actually felt the shit drop onto me, juz tt i dismissed it thinking someone juz accidentally hit me or smth. imaging....damn sian..........
wth...stupid bird...

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

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Monday, June 11, 2007

changing mi...

I think I am a super inconsiderate, selfish and stuck-up kid.
I made my mom n dad angry today coz i din call back to say that i wont be coming home for dinner...
a slight memory loss, and they blew their top at me.
well, on my part, it wasn't something to be angry about, i simply forgot to call back...a slip of the mind, trivial...
but my mom was worryin about mi, not knowing whether to cook my dinner or not, not knowing whether i am safe or not...and when she called mi, i din pick up my phone coz i couldnt hear it...double the anger...
guess im busted tmr....
prays...

oso, i m really sorry that i took my bro for granted and selfishly hated him for disturbing my life...i guess i was a really bad host, and totally din do my part to make him feel comfortable and welcomed....instead i was feeling proud to be alienating him....
wad a jerk i am....
i am not totally disliking him based on nothing, there are times when it is annoying and i can't find an outlet to discharge...
i wasn't born with a brother, and now i have one, i should be grateful and i should play my part as a good younger sister...
i should grow up...
i am no longer a kid...
i do not need all the attention, and i can take care of myself.
i can control my actions and thoughts, and sort out my priorities.
i need to have a target to work towards to.
and, i need to save up, to realize my bold dreams.

proud to be a matured me...

Thursday, June 07, 2007

memorable...

ahem...i shall write this post solemnly...
today, is the first day i m wearing a....
tampon...

not meant to be disgusting or wad...juz thot tt this is quite a meaningful thing, that i shud rmb this is the day.

tampons are disgusting...
they are biodegradable...
wad.....