AAAARGH

i am damn pissed off. my parents were still going on non stop abt e phone event. well for one thing, i m not gonna stop contactin him, for gods sake, i m not doing anything wrong, i m onli toking to a fren, a fren whom i like alot, tt's all! And they were hinting that I m guy-crazy, this is bull shit! My parents are so #4@#4 !!! AAArgh, it sucks, everything sux, I HATE EVERYTHING!!! I Hate it when wei hao and zi jun start talking abt Naruto, I hate it when they think that naruto is theirs, for naruto is mine!!!! They do not even kno how to appreciate naruto, and they are talking as if they've known naruto since way back, LIKE SHIT!!!! I TELL U. I knew naruto way back, ok, I kno naruto much better than u do, so shut e hell up! Damn it

お久しぶりですね~
Ha, guess it's really been long since i last wrote here, and to tell the truth I m not quite glad to be back here, you see, I got sick of it already, but I have to carry on coz I have to overcome me bad habit of giving up way too early, Like Real, I always do things with perserverence ok, don anyhow say.
I havent talked to Tyler for 2 days, and i feel so empty, curse his mom for making him sleep so early, oops, wonder whether I shld say tt, haha, paiseh.
I M SOOOO SSsICK of SCHOOOL!!!! Screams. Sec 3 life is boring and boring and boring! GOD DAMN IT~~~

oh tired sia.....

aaargh, I m totally exhausted... not that I really did much of any work today except falling asleep during class, but I m reeeeelly reeeeelly tired. Mentally....
Well I think today's logarithms test was piece of cake, not tt delicious though, but it was pretty easy, there's pretty high chance that I might get full marks, I can't see why not... but...haha, as if it really matters.
I guess it's bcoz of e pungent smell of tt insect something something thing, tt I had a good chance of smelling it close up, tt made me like this, there's probably brain damage inside.
There'd be 2 more tests coming up.
And they say it's only the second week aft school reopen, and they are having bloody tests already.....what kind of cow shit is this?
I actually got distinction for my lit elec, tt's fresh, I didnt even know 60+ can equal to distinction....
Bloody hell......

I m damn pissed off.
Stupid Tyler, tok with him damn tiring.
bloody asshole

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What happened today was quizical, I donno where to start, coz I'm still inside e whirlpool, and well, might have learnt a really important lesson: use a proper phone card when I wanna call Tyler, it's way cheaper....
well, i guess i'm a born money-sucking machine, I donno how I do it, but I always manage to spend way lot of money. I feel so guilty, it's as if I do not treasure the fruit of my parents' hardwork. In my mind, I'm totally aware of this, but somehow I always manage to do it e wrong way. Maybe tt xplains why I kept getting hung upside down in my dreams. I hope, I pray that my handphone bills don go shooting to outerspace, I can't take no shocks no more.
Ok, to what I had wanted to say.
I couldnt msg Tyler, and I can't call him on my hp, coz I thought it'd be damn xpensive, and I thought using me home phone wld be much cheaper. And today I realize what I thought was wrong and it was stupid. I always learn my lesson aft only I have suffered the pain. Haizz...... I'm no Stoic tt's y i wanna take things into my own hands, which turned out to be bad enough that I would rather be tt Stoic.....
Anyway, me home phone bills went shooting all over e place, and i got shocked and didnt know what to do. I had expected tt Dad would flare when he sees e bills. I was pretty much prepared when he appeared behind me and gave me e scare of my life, he always does tt, i wonder why....
Instead of throwing me down the rubbish chute, I was only given a few serious warnings and some really really inspiring talks. Dad wasn't the least bothered by the amt of money to pay (maybe a little, we are not tt rich either, not like somebody) but instead he cares more about my study, my future and my life. He wonders why I had chosen to be chatting on the phone while I could have been studying, which is right now the main main thing to me. He told me that certain reasons (don wanna list) that I shld giv myself pressure in order to go that extra mile.........
Well what I wrote may not sound touching enough, probably because I write pretty incoherently, but what really happened moved me to tears.
My parents are the bestest people that I am gifted to be with, it is my utmost fortune to be born in this family....and well, I'm glad that I lurve my parents......sobz
oh yar, that justinechan@blogskins, this guy creates e best blogskins tt I have seen so far.

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told ya today is e 21st.

Wadever that was, i dont like it.
I'm dead bored bcoz I can't seem to make sense of what happened today.
My school life is getting worse n worse, and I'm gonna kill that bloody mosquito tt bit me, killing it is too kind and gentle for someone like me, I am thirsty, blood thirsty, not tt its teeny amt of blood can satisfy me, but it's better than none. I didnt get to watch any Naruto today, bcoz I fell asleep the moment my head touched my pillow when I got home this aftnn.
I still havnt e chance to listen to the Full Metal Alchemist OSTs which look so delicious and tempting, but I havnt got e time, so I'll juz leave it there for the time being.
I guess I will not read tt QIAN JI BIAN (Thousand Chicken Changing, lol) book since I've yet to start on it and I have "The Song OF/FOR Nero" waiting for me, starkly sexy waiting for me on my bed, and I can't to open it, am I being very crude? (Damn e mosqto bit me again!!!!)
Well, like to hell I'd care whether I'm being crude anot, why?not happy?
Anyway, I think I'm getting more n more extreme coz I kept thinking abt weird things and kept dreaming of being hanged upside down. Weird, yar tt's e word.
I think that I shld be more vocal, I wonder why I always find myself speechless when I shld be talking, to whoever not in particular, not like what I was yrs ago, I get thrown out of class for talking too much. Maybe tt's wad changed me.
Pity, I can't chat with Tyler for 2 weeks which is long enough for anything to happen. But I might get too bottled up that I really start killing ppl on the street, pity them and pity me.
Fine, be that way, like i'd care for god sake, I think my bed is calling out to me. so tadaa.
Fucking boring school with fucking boring ppl running around....

Torture...my ass hurts....

OH MY GOD! (some say this phrase is not very polite to those christian ppl... like I'd care...)
Anyway, I've jus done screwing my maths homework, and I'm only half way through the paper, and I can't take it anymore. I wonder who's screwing who?
It is a very hard blow to my pride, I can't be screwed by these.... things!? Mental note to screw them back....
I think I'm getting pretty incoherent now, exhaust my brain too much. Why the hell did I leave my homework till the last day of the holiday? What have I been doing for the past bloody week? Hmmm.... I can't pretty much remember....... only that I have a screwing pain in the neck, I wonder how I got it, and my breath smells bad, like I'd care...., blessing to ppl I'm gonna tok to for the rest of next week.
I can't help but to wonder, what am I doing with my life?
I DEFINETLY HAVE TO PUT IN MUCH MUCH MORE EFFORT THAN WHAT I AM DOING NOW!!!! I CAN'T JUST DOZE AWAY MY WHOLE LIFE! THIS IS RIDICULOUS! AND I .......
And I pretty much can't go on anymore coz my ass hurts (am not telling why) and I want to meet my ***** in my sleep.
One weird thing, I keep dreaming of myself getting hanged upside down like how it was like when I went to the CARNIVAL with my cous. It sucks I tell you, esp when you've given up hope and thinking "Please god, let me fall and crack my head for all I'd care, don't let me hang up here any longer...." and the clamp holds on even tighter (maybe that's why my ass hurts, but who knows?)
Rumble rumble, excuse me, that was my tummy, I think we have business to talk about, hardcore business, I mind you......
Pain and pleasure....Hmm where did I see that phrase? Sounds pretty "ぴったり" to my case....
aaargh.
Well I had a good time bickering with Tyler on phone today again, although it cost me $1.50, I'd be getting my phone bills again in a few days, and i dread when that day arrives....
oosh, my business meeting can't hold on any longer, got to go. I guess my ass belongs to the Protestants. Please don't let me get a 30 yrs conflict with it. I can't imagine whats gonna happen.....

Once again I installed e Bloody ME on my Bloody laggy computer. And I know that I should not expect too much from it either, I'll jus hope tt someday i will wake up and find a not so bloody computer at the end of my bed........

fish eye balls

Muaharhar, GRAPHIRE ROX!!!!
Woa, i didnt know i m such a artistic person until i ve my hands on me SILVER GRAPHIRE!!! Oh My, Graphire sound so coool!!!
saw krystal today, today her bday, i rmb wrongly, i thought yesterday was e sixth, but anyway, i saw her today, and she's damn chio!!! Blushx. Haha,
KRYS HAPPY BDAY!!!

Fucked......

There was this Mayflower primary sch carnival at the swimming complex today, it kind of reminds me of my dear alma mater (weird usin dis word).
I got brutally abused by some fucked-up asshole yellow-ear-plugged sicko juz bcoz i swam into his way. I shall curse him tt his bird flies away and get squashed by a car, his balls also roll away and squashed by tt same car.
He touched my *toot*, bloody idiot.
and now i have to download MS all over again, bcoz tt stupid patchin thing wont work. Have to on my comp until nxt morning, waste my time, bloody hell.

Hatred....

i guess i've never hated someone so much. Now i am.
who is tt lucky person? That bloody Koh. Damn Koh. I hate her for rejecting
e two designs tt i drew with my blood and sweat. She juz can't see it, can she?
she has eyes one her a**, hasn't she?
She sux, i tell u, nobd sux more than she does.
I tell u, aft i leave anderson, e first thing to do would be givin her e trashing tt she deserves.
I don care. She leaves e black spot in my life.
I tell u, there's no one i hated so much in my life like i hate her!
Not exactly hate, but right now i feel damn BuSHUANG so i don care.

not e best day of my life...

weird neh. y today daddy come home so early? hmmm. i was tokin wif tyler, then have to suddenly hang up the phone. I don dare to openly communicate wif him anymore, phone bills problem, can only do so in e dark of night(b4 my dad returns), have to think of new calling plans for next week.........coz dad is doing morning shift.
toking wif tyler is fun, although sometimes we run out of topics, i could juz ly there and listen to e silence, although phone bills are going crazy. Tks alot to him, arigato~
today was juz some normal day. where i cant really keep track of e happenings, i m getting fed up already, bloody shit.
went out to KFC for lunch aft school, with shimin puqin and april. all e way, listen to april laugh made me so exhausted, wonder where she got all e energy to laugh liddat. the way she laugh make me wanna cry, and plus PuQin's explosive laughter, wabiang, mental torture sia. what i really need in these times is tranquility, calm and peace. watever, i m going to sleep.

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wad exactly happened today?
yar, english project, some Mtv shit, i admit it's pretty interactive and something new, but to tell the truth i don really feel comfortable to be grouped with (wads her name? oops, short term memory again) Elaine. Not tt i don like her, but it juz don feel right, too bad.... but i think i should make an effort to participate ACTIVEli doin e "thing", coz it's 20% of our CA2....bloody hell...........
Our school says tt there's no mid- year exam, no SA, but there's e CA, there's not much diff. i think............ wad are they thinkin abt? It's not as if we are idiots......
during chinese lesson, we managed to finish Spirited Away, and the thing ate into our recess, but it seems tt no one cares, so ..... it's like e n th time i'm watchin it, I still can't get enough of it, Haku is so cooooooool! I hope Mr Tok makes us do some movie review thingy, haha.
oh yar! something must be mentioned! Last night, Tyler called me! And we chatted for exactly 29 min, hahahar, i was trying v hard not to laugh too loud under me blankets. Muarhar.
Aft e chat, i realized i really really really like Tyler alot, he's such a funny person, i think we can make perfect soul mates. Harhar....
i finally got tat Logarith thing in my brain, not tt i'm so dense tt it took so long, actualli not long at all quite fast liao. Haaa, and made my dad a joke by saying stupid things and him saying stupid things back which are really stupid. But once again, I must declare that Me DAD is e greatest mathematician in the WWWW!!! wow... haha, my dad rox, my mom rox, and I r....well self-proclaimed rocking is not very healthy, but u know, i know, can do liao, muarhahrharhar
Haku is so COOOOOL! TYLER IS SOOOO coooool!!!

Fire?

Juz now went swimming, was so very very excited coz havnt swam for 2 weeks ( gotten all flabby again, damn). The water looked so blue and cool, triggering off a chain of lovely imagination.....
but then! E horrible thing happened. There was e terrible stench of burnt stuff, and haze and smoke everywhere, even in the water where i was swimming!!!! Screams! I was planning to swim to my very last ounce of strength to make up for the past two weeks and be able to answer to my hairstyle. (Dui de qi wo de "hairstyle"). There was bugs stinging me in the water somemore, impossible but there really was! I got stung everywhere, but later when i did some serious thinking, maybe the stinging feeling was caused by those pieces of ashes in the water. Then later saw on someone's msn nick said that there was forest fire near his/her house, so tt may probably be e reason, forest fire............
AAArgh, spoiled my day.....
when is tyler coming on? havn't tok to him for a day liao, missin him. Haha.
He was telling me abt some movie of a hermit meeting someone and killing a mage.....aft a while i got all confused and went ooo, aaa, oorrh I see.......
I guess i'd better go start "K"-ing my chemistry text bk, if i flunk my CA, I wonder whether i'd get to see the sun anymore.....
Dad ordered me to copy tt stupid fooootball schedule for him again, curses to e stupid printer, and to my surprise there's a team named Crewe Alexandra, hmm, wonder wad it means......
I hate it when my upload rate is n times my download rate!!!! uuuurgh....
ok ok , chem...........prrrr, shivers

Valentine.........ooo

wads e biggy abt valentine, it's juz a day named aft some old guy. haha guess i'm saying this out of jealousy....more of envious, can't be jealousy, when did i start to drool aft other ppl's good fortune?
nah, tt is so not "karei". I think i've put on weight again. Kusoi! It's not as if i care alot abt how heavy i am, it's always been so. Prrrr. Sucky.......
I getting fed up of my school days, maybe i should drop out like he did, get a job and get a life. Haha.
E skin on my fingers are peeling disgustingly, like snake skin metamorphed wit fish scales. Yuck!
And e color of my thigh is getting worse. It did not return to its should-be color, it looks live chao-da meat, don even make me want to eat, damn damn, curses. I think i'm going senile, forget things so v easily, think i muz eat more of tt brain tonic my mom bought.
today didnt get to go swimming coz there's e bloody stupid maths hw. Curses. For a moment i was really shocked to find tt i could not understand wad e questions are asking abt. Scary.......
wednesday got geog test, and 17th muz hand in compo which i hardly know wad to write.............god!!! my life is goin haywire...........

currently i m in e midst of trying to understand what am i thinking.
one moment i was engorged in thinking, next, i don realize what those thoughts were.
I think it's time that i should open up more. I need to tell people my thoughts and feelings, instead of teliing them to myself. The only problem is that, to whom?
To Shi Qi? Nah, I've given up much hope on telling her my inner conspiracy, haha, as her reactions most of the time make me flare up, inside. And i bear with it somemore, I cant believe it.
To Qi Yue? Nah, she's too far, only to do it was to pretend she's somewhere there, and well, inner stuff again........
To Ethel? Nah again, she's far too busy to bother about me.
To Jelyn? Probably.
To Angeline? Hmmm, never try b4, but i guess it wont work out, i always forget what i want to say to her.
To ShiMin? Nah again, don feel like it.
To Asami? Nah, writing Jap letters is tiring, probably do tt once two months, haha. But I like Asami, she ROX!
To Fuji? Nah, half the time i cant understand what he's talking about.
To Tyler? Nah, too costy.
Who else?
when did i become like this? I thought i never had problems with myself. Maybe i need to council my mom, oops.
Ahem. I think my Social Studies homework was pretty OK, probably would be able to get 6-8 marks ba. Hopefully......
Mrs Lee said that it's more professional to use more passive sentence structure rather than " I, I, I" all the time. It is time that we think more of other things rather than just how I think, and how I feel.
And today's Jap lesson is about "Ukemi", meaning passive sentence structure. Muarhahaha. It was pretty simple, and I was slapping mosquitoes most of the time. It was miraculous when i was sure the damned thing was between my two devilous palms, but instead it hid in between the middle and fourth finger of my right hand, unharmed........
in the end, i was unable to extinguish the god damned mosquito living in our Jap classrm........pathetic.............

原来“Auntie” 这个称呼听起来是那么的刺耳呀。在二零零五年一月二十九日午后三点+ ，我以肉身承受了两枚超强子弹炮，这炮弹之所以特别，是因为当打在受害者（我）身上时，会发出类似 “Auntie” 的声响。
被炮弹砸傻了的我，突然灵机一动，把炮弹导向另一受害者，可怜的诗棋。。。
我有一天没看到他了，有点儿想他了呢。。。

I'm feeling very stressed. How come? To hell as if I know.
Life sux, I hate everybody, I am lonely, but I'm not alone. Weird. I may be getting psycho or schizophrenic. how?
I don feel like seeing anybody anymore.
Why do I feel this way? Beats me, it juz came like that, I was quite happy just a while ago. I can't take it anymore, why don i just jump down from the window?
This sux...............