um, my phone got confiscated by me folks on friday, coz my bills came, and as usual it shot everywhere, but friday was a good day...haha. Y? It was badminton with Tyler day, narharhar, guess i made a big fool of myself by playin with him coz his pro...haiz, harhar...v nice day ^^
then saturday was the NTU Ignite Hunt '05 thing, it was reaally fun. We met this really handsome ANgMo guy at that food court at ChinaTown there, haha had loads of fun n laughs discussing how we are gonna go over n say hi......we couldn muster the courage to do that, but when he was about to leave, we managed to say bye, harhar, he was so nice..........^^ omg, we name him Peter, haha,
then becoz it was so fun on saturday we went on the sunday one as well. Very fun as well. its really a very good experience n maybe we'd want to do it nxt yr n nxt nxt yr ........as well.
today is a fuckin boring day, because its school......i dreaded this day but it arrived even sooner.. sobs....
I havn toked to Tyler for quite a few days, hope he still thinks of me, i don wanna lose contact with him..........T.T
ok that's all. Oral exam's starting soon, i hope i can do well, really! o well..not convincing enough...
Monday, June 27, 2005
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
hmm
today went to ai tong school there play vball, very sian to tell the truth and Ive gone thru alot of trouble, most of which are caused by my very own stupidity tho so I've got no one to blame....
O well I was s'posed to meet shimin n april them two at the bus stop opp shimin's place at 12pm, I was watching tv so I left realli late. I reached the 72 bus stop and sat there for like 15 min when finally the bus came, I realized tt my EZLINK was missing. I was frantic so i traced my route back to my home, rammed my house then went out again, haiz, poor me did so many extra things..... then wad, b4 crossing the road to the bus stop, where a bunch of hougang sec boys sat there howling like dogs, and I spotted my dear ezlink lying there, on the floor...
Oh well guess I cant be more grateful, (oops forgot to shower.....) yar, tt's my story.
I dropped my ezlink twice today, and thank god for showerin me with love and care, that I still possess the damned card, thanks to shimin n april for savin me ass....guess i really need to find a better place for the card....
Yar abt the vball, it was ok, play wit small kids, I acted stupid of coz, like i don make a fool of myself playin vball? Tt's not quite possible lol, thats me...
WEll one thing i muz mention, the wu shu did seem really fun, and their wu shu lao shi was cooooool.
And yar Jelyn n MeiYan were there too, I dono, we kind of like drifted away.....haiz...sad neh. But I don really like them keep u knoe tokin abt tjc stuff, its not tt im not interested, but when u overdo it, it seems like they are tryin to show off, not that I don understand y they wanna do tt, but yar, doesn really feel that comfortable if u get wad I mean........
Guess I pissed my Dad off pretty much with my Gunbound indulgence these few days. I was juz starting to understand boomer when I hav ta pull myself out frm these desires (accordin to wad my dad said). O well, guess it can't be helped, I hav to prove him wrong that I can do well when I play, I blive I wil do well if I put my heart to it, really, thats how much confidence I hav, which goes to explain y I did so badly last term, tt's coz I didn really care abt studyin, too much confidence... oh well, guess the lord didn give me a brain fer nth. aaa, frustration, I m turnin nocturnal, if I wanna play gb, I hav ta wait til my dad goes to sleep, diu.........
oh well gtg, sleep awhile, come back l8r to battle......
so gay my entry, blah blah...
O well I was s'posed to meet shimin n april them two at the bus stop opp shimin's place at 12pm, I was watching tv so I left realli late. I reached the 72 bus stop and sat there for like 15 min when finally the bus came, I realized tt my EZLINK was missing. I was frantic so i traced my route back to my home, rammed my house then went out again, haiz, poor me did so many extra things..... then wad, b4 crossing the road to the bus stop, where a bunch of hougang sec boys sat there howling like dogs, and I spotted my dear ezlink lying there, on the floor...
Oh well guess I cant be more grateful, (oops forgot to shower.....) yar, tt's my story.
I dropped my ezlink twice today, and thank god for showerin me with love and care, that I still possess the damned card, thanks to shimin n april for savin me ass....guess i really need to find a better place for the card....
Yar abt the vball, it was ok, play wit small kids, I acted stupid of coz, like i don make a fool of myself playin vball? Tt's not quite possible lol, thats me...
WEll one thing i muz mention, the wu shu did seem really fun, and their wu shu lao shi was cooooool.
And yar Jelyn n MeiYan were there too, I dono, we kind of like drifted away.....haiz...sad neh. But I don really like them keep u knoe tokin abt tjc stuff, its not tt im not interested, but when u overdo it, it seems like they are tryin to show off, not that I don understand y they wanna do tt, but yar, doesn really feel that comfortable if u get wad I mean........
Guess I pissed my Dad off pretty much with my Gunbound indulgence these few days. I was juz starting to understand boomer when I hav ta pull myself out frm these desires (accordin to wad my dad said). O well, guess it can't be helped, I hav to prove him wrong that I can do well when I play, I blive I wil do well if I put my heart to it, really, thats how much confidence I hav, which goes to explain y I did so badly last term, tt's coz I didn really care abt studyin, too much confidence... oh well, guess the lord didn give me a brain fer nth. aaa, frustration, I m turnin nocturnal, if I wanna play gb, I hav ta wait til my dad goes to sleep, diu.........
oh well gtg, sleep awhile, come back l8r to battle......
so gay my entry, blah blah...
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
中島美佳 レジェンド
Legend レジェンド
Mika Nakashima.中島美佳
awai orenji no kami yuraide 淡いオレンジの髪揺らいで
tooku kimi ga mieta kigashite 遠く君が見えた気がした
atari miwasu keredo shitteru 当たり見和すけれど知ってる
koko ni iru hazu mo nai koto wa ここにいるはずもないことは
mune wo kiri hiraite omoide wo nagame 胸を切り開いて思い出を眺め
zutto wasurezu ikite yuku hou ga ii no? ずっと忘れず生きて ゆくほうがいいの
kimi wa yume de oyoideru 君は夢で泳いでる
ningyo ni nareta kara 人魚になれたから
nemuri ni tsuita watashi wo annai shite yo ne 眠りについた私を案内してよね
douka mou ichido ude nobaseba どうかもう一度 腕伸ばせば
todoku basho ni kimi wo modoshite 届く場所に 君を戻して
ame wo kasa de fusaida namida mo 雨を傘でふさいだ 涙も
kata ga nure kokoro made nureta 肩が濡れ 心まで濡れた
ude wo kami kudaite kokoro kara toozake 腕を髪砕いて 心から遠ざけ
kitto wasurezu ikite yuku koto ga ii no. きっと忘れず 生きて事がいいの
kimi wa yume de oyoideru 君は夢で泳いでる
ningyo ni nareta kara 人魚になれたから
osanai koro ni mite ita 押さないころに見ていた
yuuhi de tokashite yo 夕日で溶かしてよ
an na suteki na hi wo あんな 素適な 日を
an na taisetsuna mirai wo あんな 大切未来を
naze kantan ni ubatte shimau no? なぜ簡単に奪ってしまうの
kimi wa yume de oyoideru 君は夢で泳いでる
ningyo ni nareta kara 人魚になれたから
fukaku shizunda 深く沈んだ
omoi wo atsumete hoshi e 思いを集めてほしへ
kimi wa yume de oyoideru 君は夢で泳いでる
ningyo ni nareta kara 人魚になれたから
namida karashite utau yo 涙からしてよ
muku wareru youni 報われるように
muku wareru youni 報われるように
yume de aimashou 夢で会いましょう
Saturday, June 04, 2005
one of the best day of my life; best day
if i don blog now i dono when i will haha
yar as u can see, today is the TYLER movie day la. haha, quite fun, we caught up abit coz havn't toked for a long time, haiz, starting to miss him alr.
he is so clumsy, man i cant blive it, he can be walking and continuousli droppin stuff at the same time, and he lost his wallet, pathetic, haiya, then he got no money to take bus, hahaha, so ke lian, I saved his ass la of coz.
We were supposed to watch Star Wars la, but I was late so we watched Madagascar instead, which was the onli movie available at 2 o'clock, it is a stupid movie, and i totalli regret watching it, see who's the producer then it'd not be so shockin, hmm who is the producer actualli?
Nvm... b4 the movie we went like walk all over the place la, quite stupid, then down there tok abt stupid things, haha, then we watched SHin-Chan and laff like idiots. haha
Aft the movie we went to sit outside the Woodlands MRT and talk talk la.
Actualli we are not that kind of relationship leh, no boy and ger fren la, juz v good frenz haha, like brothers liddat, haha.
Thx alot for ShiMin and April, my dear dear darlings who accompanied me, tk u ppl!!! Luv u!
yar as u can see, today is the TYLER movie day la. haha, quite fun, we caught up abit coz havn't toked for a long time, haiz, starting to miss him alr.
he is so clumsy, man i cant blive it, he can be walking and continuousli droppin stuff at the same time, and he lost his wallet, pathetic, haiya, then he got no money to take bus, hahaha, so ke lian, I saved his ass la of coz.
We were supposed to watch Star Wars la, but I was late so we watched Madagascar instead, which was the onli movie available at 2 o'clock, it is a stupid movie, and i totalli regret watching it, see who's the producer then it'd not be so shockin, hmm who is the producer actualli?
Nvm... b4 the movie we went like walk all over the place la, quite stupid, then down there tok abt stupid things, haha, then we watched SHin-Chan and laff like idiots. haha
Aft the movie we went to sit outside the Woodlands MRT and talk talk la.
Actualli we are not that kind of relationship leh, no boy and ger fren la, juz v good frenz haha, like brothers liddat, haha.
Thx alot for ShiMin and April, my dear dear darlings who accompanied me, tk u ppl!!! Luv u!
Sunday, May 29, 2005
hmm...let's see...
woohoo holiday post sheesh, time reeeeli flies, haha.
Last friday we had our Sports Carnival, way cool, altho our class didnt realli win anithing, (bleahx) but we sure had a good time, And Yuu was so deliberate, he kept walking ard infront of me, harharhar :)
Then Ethel and Jelyn came also, I humped them, muaharharhar, miss them sooooo much, got carried away. They are reeeeli bad ppl, keep saying TJC rox, haiz, purposely make me feel miserable, but, i have to look open abit, this is how ppl are like, have to bear with things like this.
Then yesteray, Saturday, mornin we went for our IPW thingie, went to MINDS (Home for the Intelligentli disabled of Singapore; smth liddat), well, we had our fun, the ppl there are nice, and this one thing I like abt them is that they are real, not like those hypocrites out there. haha, we did musical chair, limbo, and captain's ball and stuff, reeeeli fun.
Aft that I went to bedok, TJC open house, yar, it was nice, harhar, alot of good lookin ppl, harhar, saw Jelyn Ethel MeiYan Kumaran n KaiJie, and their dear Mr Hasim, haha, they were a funny bunch. AAAh, envious envious envious......
haha, my bad, didnt gib my best tt time, but who cares, wads done is done, anyway i hav my own clique now, and Im happy wit wad i hav. haha, and I have TYLER!!! MAHARHARHAR. :)
then aft that went to bedok mrt to wait fer my fwen to pass me e long waited package frm me gramp. then went back with Ethel..yar, tiring day.
Nxt Saturday is MOVIE WITH TYLER DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YIPEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
hmmm, wad else?
today aft my jap class, went shopping wit ShiQi, she wanted to buy stuff for her Sec3 camp. I forgib her as this is her first time goin camp, coz in my opinion, u r supposed to bring all the lousy stuff for camps and stuff, and hers are all brand nu. It doesnt make sense....... haha, and she did one reeeeli funni thing when we were on our way home. hahahahahahah, think of it make me laff............
tml, maths extra lesson at 8, yar, tt's all............
I wonder when tt Mac person is gonna call me............................
nite nite ;)
Last friday we had our Sports Carnival, way cool, altho our class didnt realli win anithing, (bleahx) but we sure had a good time, And Yuu was so deliberate, he kept walking ard infront of me, harharhar :)
Then Ethel and Jelyn came also, I humped them, muaharharhar, miss them sooooo much, got carried away. They are reeeeli bad ppl, keep saying TJC rox, haiz, purposely make me feel miserable, but, i have to look open abit, this is how ppl are like, have to bear with things like this.
Then yesteray, Saturday, mornin we went for our IPW thingie, went to MINDS (Home for the Intelligentli disabled of Singapore; smth liddat), well, we had our fun, the ppl there are nice, and this one thing I like abt them is that they are real, not like those hypocrites out there. haha, we did musical chair, limbo, and captain's ball and stuff, reeeeli fun.
Aft that I went to bedok, TJC open house, yar, it was nice, harhar, alot of good lookin ppl, harhar, saw Jelyn Ethel MeiYan Kumaran n KaiJie, and their dear Mr Hasim, haha, they were a funny bunch. AAAh, envious envious envious......
haha, my bad, didnt gib my best tt time, but who cares, wads done is done, anyway i hav my own clique now, and Im happy wit wad i hav. haha, and I have TYLER!!! MAHARHARHAR. :)
then aft that went to bedok mrt to wait fer my fwen to pass me e long waited package frm me gramp. then went back with Ethel..yar, tiring day.
Nxt Saturday is MOVIE WITH TYLER DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YIPEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
hmmm, wad else?
today aft my jap class, went shopping wit ShiQi, she wanted to buy stuff for her Sec3 camp. I forgib her as this is her first time goin camp, coz in my opinion, u r supposed to bring all the lousy stuff for camps and stuff, and hers are all brand nu. It doesnt make sense....... haha, and she did one reeeeli funni thing when we were on our way home. hahahahahahah, think of it make me laff............
tml, maths extra lesson at 8, yar, tt's all............
I wonder when tt Mac person is gonna call me............................
nite nite ;)
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
o long time no blogged, i juz found out who natlehte is, and I m not telling, haha. lamo.......
ha, another boring day, with the same schedule and doing the same things again and again.........how's tat? my life is so wonderful....
haiz, wad again?
I hope naruto 135 comes out soon, e last episode was way too powerful, can't really get over it yet, u see.
I almost failed my english paper, but in the end I managed to pass it, and my overall was a C.. I can alr predict wad me old man's gonna say........haha
I dl many many OST s today, wonders whether i've the time to listen anot.
And I found out that the Hokage's funeral theme song name is actuallly called "Grief and Sorrow"....
yar, tt's abt all......
today e chinese talent time, e only thing that I wanna say abt it is, CHEW YAN IS A BITCH!!!!!!!
hmmm, sounds bad enough.............
ha, another boring day, with the same schedule and doing the same things again and again.........how's tat? my life is so wonderful....
haiz, wad again?
I hope naruto 135 comes out soon, e last episode was way too powerful, can't really get over it yet, u see.
I almost failed my english paper, but in the end I managed to pass it, and my overall was a C.. I can alr predict wad me old man's gonna say........haha
I dl many many OST s today, wonders whether i've the time to listen anot.
And I found out that the Hokage's funeral theme song name is actuallly called "Grief and Sorrow"....
yar, tt's abt all......
today e chinese talent time, e only thing that I wanna say abt it is, CHEW YAN IS A BITCH!!!!!!!
hmmm, sounds bad enough.............
Friday, May 13, 2005
sianz
Guess what.
Last night, I got caught, caught toking on the phone, by my dad, and o god, had to "keep it low" for "A COUPLE OF WEEKS!" O god, I wonder how am i gonna pull thru these days, i m getting too attached with ........ sighs, but my dad's reaction was so weird..he didnt even scold me, he didnt even seem to think tt i was talking on the phone, was I really tt lucky? Or was it my dad trust me too much? I wonder, i feel kind of guilty when I'm actually doing this, feels as if I'm betraying my Dad's trust..........is it really that bad?
Aft i hang up last night, he msg me, he said he got shocked when he heard my dad's voice over the phone, and stuff liddat, and he said he wont blame my father for, he's only protecting his daughter............ i got pretty touched, and got swarming with tears. He's so understanding and mature and omg, he's all that I look for in a guy and in a friend. He is about the best guy I've ever known (so far), tks alot man, love u.
lucky i still have those msg left in my phone, I guess i'd be able to pull thru the low-lying period with them. I hope u do the same..........
haiz..........sighs again..........why does it have to be so complicated?
Last night, I got caught, caught toking on the phone, by my dad, and o god, had to "keep it low" for "A COUPLE OF WEEKS!" O god, I wonder how am i gonna pull thru these days, i m getting too attached with ........ sighs, but my dad's reaction was so weird..he didnt even scold me, he didnt even seem to think tt i was talking on the phone, was I really tt lucky? Or was it my dad trust me too much? I wonder, i feel kind of guilty when I'm actually doing this, feels as if I'm betraying my Dad's trust..........is it really that bad?
Aft i hang up last night, he msg me, he said he got shocked when he heard my dad's voice over the phone, and stuff liddat, and he said he wont blame my father for, he's only protecting his daughter............ i got pretty touched, and got swarming with tears. He's so understanding and mature and omg, he's all that I look for in a guy and in a friend. He is about the best guy I've ever known (so far), tks alot man, love u.
lucky i still have those msg left in my phone, I guess i'd be able to pull thru the low-lying period with them. I hope u do the same..........
haiz..........sighs again..........why does it have to be so complicated?
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
dum dee dum
another tiring day, haaa, it's juz so good to be home.............I wonder when will i be having my own home.........
tell u wad, MARCHEN AWAKENS ROMANCE ROXXXXXXXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!
OMg, it's juz way too cool, its abt mixing fairy tales with all those stuffs, the whole thing is abt ARM, weapons they use, which are in forms of accessories. WAY COOL man, bracelet and stuff, and turning into weapons and shields?! MAn, it's juz out of the world.......
I played gunbound juz now, it's been really really long, e last time i played was sec one.......haha, bad memories u see. Today i played again, wonder wad went wrong with me, and I played so stupidly i actually shot myself, harhar, they called me shyt ass, or smth liddat, haha....so sad.
I jus picked tt piece of scab frm above my mouth, and it hurts like hell, omg, it bleeded somemore, tho I like blood........... haha sick. omg, so late liao, hav to go lo.
tell u wad, MARCHEN AWAKENS ROMANCE ROXXXXXXXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!
OMg, it's juz way too cool, its abt mixing fairy tales with all those stuffs, the whole thing is abt ARM, weapons they use, which are in forms of accessories. WAY COOL man, bracelet and stuff, and turning into weapons and shields?! MAn, it's juz out of the world.......
I played gunbound juz now, it's been really really long, e last time i played was sec one.......haha, bad memories u see. Today i played again, wonder wad went wrong with me, and I played so stupidly i actually shot myself, harhar, they called me shyt ass, or smth liddat, haha....so sad.
I jus picked tt piece of scab frm above my mouth, and it hurts like hell, omg, it bleeded somemore, tho I like blood........... haha sick. omg, so late liao, hav to go lo.
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Oh one more thing
Oh one more thing, TODAY ISH MOTHER'S DAY!!!
FOR MY ONE AND ONLY DEAR MOM,
I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U
FOR MY ONE AND ONLY DEAR MOM,
I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U
hahahahahha
My blog skin ish sooooooooo cool, it's from Final Fantasy, the music playing is called [The Sky Above] and I definetly know how to sing that blardy nice song.
I bought this TVXQ cd, and it rox to the core, for one thing it's from S.M. Entertainment, no wonder Shi Min love them so much. Their Tri-angle mv is so cooool!!!! I love their ZAO XING, so style!!! They gave me e inspiration for the manga competition coming up, I noe it'd gonna be tough to draw them, but it is my art and I will accomplish it!!! woohooo!!!!
And one more thing, there's this new manga coming along called (I think) Marchen Awakens Romance, it rox man, it's gonna be another big hit. haha, it's kind of stupid lar, the ppls' dialogue but i like it, it feels so natural, and the artist's style is so unique! I love it. WOOOOOOO!!!!
when I get too high, I will listen to that midi i downloaded onto my phone, it's the music played during the Third Hokage's funeral, really sad and solemn, but I like all the same, it makes ppl feel calm and serene, and it's really good music.
tml school again, did I mention that Anderson Sec suck like hell? no? then I shall say this again, ANDERSON SECONDARY SCHOOL SUX!!!! Har, then they gonna say this is bad advertisement, like to hell I'd care! :P
I bought this TVXQ cd, and it rox to the core, for one thing it's from S.M. Entertainment, no wonder Shi Min love them so much. Their Tri-angle mv is so cooool!!!! I love their ZAO XING, so style!!! They gave me e inspiration for the manga competition coming up, I noe it'd gonna be tough to draw them, but it is my art and I will accomplish it!!! woohooo!!!!
And one more thing, there's this new manga coming along called (I think) Marchen Awakens Romance, it rox man, it's gonna be another big hit. haha, it's kind of stupid lar, the ppls' dialogue but i like it, it feels so natural, and the artist's style is so unique! I love it. WOOOOOOO!!!!
when I get too high, I will listen to that midi i downloaded onto my phone, it's the music played during the Third Hokage's funeral, really sad and solemn, but I like all the same, it makes ppl feel calm and serene, and it's really good music.
tml school again, did I mention that Anderson Sec suck like hell? no? then I shall say this again, ANDERSON SECONDARY SCHOOL SUX!!!! Har, then they gonna say this is bad advertisement, like to hell I'd care! :P
Saturday, May 07, 2005
Am I missing out?
Why do I keep getting the feeling that I'm being left out?
Hmm.... how long do I have to keep my life this way?
I feel really really lonely, and I can't find anyone to talk.
I will not talk abt it with my mom, coz sometimes I find her way of thinking too different from mine, we don't really have much in common, that's really sad to say. I have way too much common with my Dad, so it'd still be useless if I talked with him, I'd know what he would say, so what's e point?
Talking with Tyler may probably be the only let out for me. The less-than-one-hour-everyday talk was the about the only time that I feel comfortable with, and I'm saying this again, I'm not going to let this talk stop, for him and for myself.
I've caught a pretty bad flu and I keep making things look ugly, haha, but I do clean up after them, so don't worry. I've even discussed the viscosity of the thing with him yesterday, a pretty weird topic for 2 weirdos to talk abt for half an hour.
I've finally sorted out my problems, I think, the reason why I feel lonely and left out, is because I have no more Jelyn and Ethel. Although we used to talk abt stupid things, and we were never serious, I've only now come to realize that, that's the way I want it to be. I like to talk about really stupid things and not be serious at all, but it seems pretty impossible for now. It's not that I'm picking on my clique now, I like them as they are, but it is impossible for them to be like how we used to be with Jelyn and Ethel. I hate to admit it, but I really regret for not giving my best during the interview with TJC last yr.
I shall abstain from brooding too much on the past and be content with the current situation, at least I still have Tyler. One more year, and all these shall come to a stop, there'd be a new start for me, and I'd have my chance to find the crappy buddies that I desire.........
I found that WeiSiang had the same blog skin as mine, and I shall change mine........hehe
Hmm.... how long do I have to keep my life this way?
I feel really really lonely, and I can't find anyone to talk.
I will not talk abt it with my mom, coz sometimes I find her way of thinking too different from mine, we don't really have much in common, that's really sad to say. I have way too much common with my Dad, so it'd still be useless if I talked with him, I'd know what he would say, so what's e point?
Talking with Tyler may probably be the only let out for me. The less-than-one-hour-everyday talk was the about the only time that I feel comfortable with, and I'm saying this again, I'm not going to let this talk stop, for him and for myself.
I've caught a pretty bad flu and I keep making things look ugly, haha, but I do clean up after them, so don't worry. I've even discussed the viscosity of the thing with him yesterday, a pretty weird topic for 2 weirdos to talk abt for half an hour.
I've finally sorted out my problems, I think, the reason why I feel lonely and left out, is because I have no more Jelyn and Ethel. Although we used to talk abt stupid things, and we were never serious, I've only now come to realize that, that's the way I want it to be. I like to talk about really stupid things and not be serious at all, but it seems pretty impossible for now. It's not that I'm picking on my clique now, I like them as they are, but it is impossible for them to be like how we used to be with Jelyn and Ethel. I hate to admit it, but I really regret for not giving my best during the interview with TJC last yr.
I shall abstain from brooding too much on the past and be content with the current situation, at least I still have Tyler. One more year, and all these shall come to a stop, there'd be a new start for me, and I'd have my chance to find the crappy buddies that I desire.........
I found that WeiSiang had the same blog skin as mine, and I shall change mine........hehe
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
AAAARGH
i am damn pissed off. my parents were still going on non stop abt e phone event. well for one thing, i m not gonna stop contactin him, for gods sake, i m not doing anything wrong, i m onli toking to a fren, a fren whom i like alot, tt's all! And they were hinting that I m guy-crazy, this is bull shit! My parents are so #4@#4 !!! AAArgh, it sucks, everything sux, I HATE EVERYTHING!!! I Hate it when wei hao and zi jun start talking abt Naruto, I hate it when they think that naruto is theirs, for naruto is mine!!!! They do not even kno how to appreciate naruto, and they are talking as if they've known naruto since way back, LIKE SHIT!!!! I TELL U. I knew naruto way back, ok, I kno naruto much better than u do, so shut e hell up! Damn it
Monday, April 11, 2005
お久しぶりですね~
Ha, guess it's really been long since i last wrote here, and to tell the truth I m not quite glad to be back here, you see, I got sick of it already, but I have to carry on coz I have to overcome me bad habit of giving up way too early, Like Real, I always do things with perserverence ok, don anyhow say.
I havent talked to Tyler for 2 days, and i feel so empty, curse his mom for making him sleep so early, oops, wonder whether I shld say tt, haha, paiseh.
I M SOOOO SSsICK of SCHOOOL!!!! Screams. Sec 3 life is boring and boring and boring! GOD DAMN IT~~~
Ha, guess it's really been long since i last wrote here, and to tell the truth I m not quite glad to be back here, you see, I got sick of it already, but I have to carry on coz I have to overcome me bad habit of giving up way too early, Like Real, I always do things with perserverence ok, don anyhow say.
I havent talked to Tyler for 2 days, and i feel so empty, curse his mom for making him sleep so early, oops, wonder whether I shld say tt, haha, paiseh.
I M SOOOO SSsICK of SCHOOOL!!!! Screams. Sec 3 life is boring and boring and boring! GOD DAMN IT~~~
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
oh tired sia.....
aaargh, I m totally exhausted... not that I really did much of any work today except falling asleep during class, but I m reeeeelly reeeeelly tired. Mentally....
Well I think today's logarithms test was piece of cake, not tt delicious though, but it was pretty easy, there's pretty high chance that I might get full marks, I can't see why not... but...haha, as if it really matters.
I guess it's bcoz of e pungent smell of tt insect something something thing, tt I had a good chance of smelling it close up, tt made me like this, there's probably brain damage inside.
There'd be 2 more tests coming up.
And they say it's only the second week aft school reopen, and they are having bloody tests already.....what kind of cow shit is this?
I actually got distinction for my lit elec, tt's fresh, I didnt even know 60+ can equal to distinction....
Bloody hell......
Well I think today's logarithms test was piece of cake, not tt delicious though, but it was pretty easy, there's pretty high chance that I might get full marks, I can't see why not... but...haha, as if it really matters.
I guess it's bcoz of e pungent smell of tt insect something something thing, tt I had a good chance of smelling it close up, tt made me like this, there's probably brain damage inside.
There'd be 2 more tests coming up.
And they say it's only the second week aft school reopen, and they are having bloody tests already.....what kind of cow shit is this?
I actually got distinction for my lit elec, tt's fresh, I didnt even know 60+ can equal to distinction....
Bloody hell......
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
justinechan@blogskins
What happened today was quizical, I donno where to start, coz I'm still inside e whirlpool, and well, might have learnt a really important lesson: use a proper phone card when I wanna call Tyler, it's way cheaper....
well, i guess i'm a born money-sucking machine, I donno how I do it, but I always manage to spend way lot of money. I feel so guilty, it's as if I do not treasure the fruit of my parents' hardwork. In my mind, I'm totally aware of this, but somehow I always manage to do it e wrong way. Maybe tt xplains why I kept getting hung upside down in my dreams. I hope, I pray that my handphone bills don go shooting to outerspace, I can't take no shocks no more.
Ok, to what I had wanted to say.
I couldnt msg Tyler, and I can't call him on my hp, coz I thought it'd be damn xpensive, and I thought using me home phone wld be much cheaper. And today I realize what I thought was wrong and it was stupid. I always learn my lesson aft only I have suffered the pain. Haizz...... I'm no Stoic tt's y i wanna take things into my own hands, which turned out to be bad enough that I would rather be tt Stoic.....
Anyway, me home phone bills went shooting all over e place, and i got shocked and didnt know what to do. I had expected tt Dad would flare when he sees e bills. I was pretty much prepared when he appeared behind me and gave me e scare of my life, he always does tt, i wonder why....
Instead of throwing me down the rubbish chute, I was only given a few serious warnings and some really really inspiring talks. Dad wasn't the least bothered by the amt of money to pay (maybe a little, we are not tt rich either, not like somebody) but instead he cares more about my study, my future and my life. He wonders why I had chosen to be chatting on the phone while I could have been studying, which is right now the main main thing to me. He told me that certain reasons (don wanna list) that I shld giv myself pressure in order to go that extra mile.........
Well what I wrote may not sound touching enough, probably because I write pretty incoherently, but what really happened moved me to tears.
My parents are the bestest people that I am gifted to be with, it is my utmost fortune to be born in this family....and well, I'm glad that I lurve my parents......sobz
oh yar, that justinechan@blogskins, this guy creates e best blogskins tt I have seen so far.
well, i guess i'm a born money-sucking machine, I donno how I do it, but I always manage to spend way lot of money. I feel so guilty, it's as if I do not treasure the fruit of my parents' hardwork. In my mind, I'm totally aware of this, but somehow I always manage to do it e wrong way. Maybe tt xplains why I kept getting hung upside down in my dreams. I hope, I pray that my handphone bills don go shooting to outerspace, I can't take no shocks no more.
Ok, to what I had wanted to say.
I couldnt msg Tyler, and I can't call him on my hp, coz I thought it'd be damn xpensive, and I thought using me home phone wld be much cheaper. And today I realize what I thought was wrong and it was stupid. I always learn my lesson aft only I have suffered the pain. Haizz...... I'm no Stoic tt's y i wanna take things into my own hands, which turned out to be bad enough that I would rather be tt Stoic.....
Anyway, me home phone bills went shooting all over e place, and i got shocked and didnt know what to do. I had expected tt Dad would flare when he sees e bills. I was pretty much prepared when he appeared behind me and gave me e scare of my life, he always does tt, i wonder why....
Instead of throwing me down the rubbish chute, I was only given a few serious warnings and some really really inspiring talks. Dad wasn't the least bothered by the amt of money to pay (maybe a little, we are not tt rich either, not like somebody) but instead he cares more about my study, my future and my life. He wonders why I had chosen to be chatting on the phone while I could have been studying, which is right now the main main thing to me. He told me that certain reasons (don wanna list) that I shld giv myself pressure in order to go that extra mile.........
Well what I wrote may not sound touching enough, probably because I write pretty incoherently, but what really happened moved me to tears.
My parents are the bestest people that I am gifted to be with, it is my utmost fortune to be born in this family....and well, I'm glad that I lurve my parents......sobz
oh yar, that justinechan@blogskins, this guy creates e best blogskins tt I have seen so far.
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Monday, March 21, 2005
told ya today is e 21st.
Wadever that was, i dont like it.
I'm dead bored bcoz I can't seem to make sense of what happened today.
My school life is getting worse n worse, and I'm gonna kill that bloody mosquito tt bit me, killing it is too kind and gentle for someone like me, I am thirsty, blood thirsty, not tt its teeny amt of blood can satisfy me, but it's better than none. I didnt get to watch any Naruto today, bcoz I fell asleep the moment my head touched my pillow when I got home this aftnn.
I still havnt e chance to listen to the Full Metal Alchemist OSTs which look so delicious and tempting, but I havnt got e time, so I'll juz leave it there for the time being.
I guess I will not read tt QIAN JI BIAN (Thousand Chicken Changing, lol) book since I've yet to start on it and I have "The Song OF/FOR Nero" waiting for me, starkly sexy waiting for me on my bed, and I can't to open it, am I being very crude? (Damn e mosqto bit me again!!!!)
Well, like to hell I'd care whether I'm being crude anot, why?not happy?
Anyway, I think I'm getting more n more extreme coz I kept thinking abt weird things and kept dreaming of being hanged upside down. Weird, yar tt's e word.
I think that I shld be more vocal, I wonder why I always find myself speechless when I shld be talking, to whoever not in particular, not like what I was yrs ago, I get thrown out of class for talking too much. Maybe tt's wad changed me.
Pity, I can't chat with Tyler for 2 weeks which is long enough for anything to happen. But I might get too bottled up that I really start killing ppl on the street, pity them and pity me.
Fine, be that way, like i'd care for god sake, I think my bed is calling out to me. so tadaa.
Fucking boring school with fucking boring ppl running around....
I'm dead bored bcoz I can't seem to make sense of what happened today.
My school life is getting worse n worse, and I'm gonna kill that bloody mosquito tt bit me, killing it is too kind and gentle for someone like me, I am thirsty, blood thirsty, not tt its teeny amt of blood can satisfy me, but it's better than none. I didnt get to watch any Naruto today, bcoz I fell asleep the moment my head touched my pillow when I got home this aftnn.
I still havnt e chance to listen to the Full Metal Alchemist OSTs which look so delicious and tempting, but I havnt got e time, so I'll juz leave it there for the time being.
I guess I will not read tt QIAN JI BIAN (Thousand Chicken Changing, lol) book since I've yet to start on it and I have "The Song OF/FOR Nero" waiting for me, starkly sexy waiting for me on my bed, and I can't to open it, am I being very crude? (Damn e mosqto bit me again!!!!)
Well, like to hell I'd care whether I'm being crude anot, why?not happy?
Anyway, I think I'm getting more n more extreme coz I kept thinking abt weird things and kept dreaming of being hanged upside down. Weird, yar tt's e word.
I think that I shld be more vocal, I wonder why I always find myself speechless when I shld be talking, to whoever not in particular, not like what I was yrs ago, I get thrown out of class for talking too much. Maybe tt's wad changed me.
Pity, I can't chat with Tyler for 2 weeks which is long enough for anything to happen. But I might get too bottled up that I really start killing ppl on the street, pity them and pity me.
Fine, be that way, like i'd care for god sake, I think my bed is calling out to me. so tadaa.
Fucking boring school with fucking boring ppl running around....
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Torture...my ass hurts....
OH MY GOD! (some say this phrase is not very polite to those christian ppl... like I'd care...)
Anyway, I've jus done screwing my maths homework, and I'm only half way through the paper, and I can't take it anymore. I wonder who's screwing who?
It is a very hard blow to my pride, I can't be screwed by these.... things!? Mental note to screw them back....
I think I'm getting pretty incoherent now, exhaust my brain too much. Why the hell did I leave my homework till the last day of the holiday? What have I been doing for the past bloody week? Hmmm.... I can't pretty much remember....... only that I have a screwing pain in the neck, I wonder how I got it, and my breath smells bad, like I'd care...., blessing to ppl I'm gonna tok to for the rest of next week.
I can't help but to wonder, what am I doing with my life?
I DEFINETLY HAVE TO PUT IN MUCH MUCH MORE EFFORT THAN WHAT I AM DOING NOW!!!! I CAN'T JUST DOZE AWAY MY WHOLE LIFE! THIS IS RIDICULOUS! AND I .......
And I pretty much can't go on anymore coz my ass hurts (am not telling why) and I want to meet my ***** in my sleep.
One weird thing, I keep dreaming of myself getting hanged upside down like how it was like when I went to the CARNIVAL with my cous. It sucks I tell you, esp when you've given up hope and thinking "Please god, let me fall and crack my head for all I'd care, don't let me hang up here any longer...." and the clamp holds on even tighter (maybe that's why my ass hurts, but who knows?)
Rumble rumble, excuse me, that was my tummy, I think we have business to talk about, hardcore business, I mind you......
Pain and pleasure....Hmm where did I see that phrase? Sounds pretty "ぴったり" to my case....
aaargh.
Well I had a good time bickering with Tyler on phone today again, although it cost me $1.50, I'd be getting my phone bills again in a few days, and i dread when that day arrives....
oosh, my business meeting can't hold on any longer, got to go. I guess my ass belongs to the Protestants. Please don't let me get a 30 yrs conflict with it. I can't imagine whats gonna happen.....
Anyway, I've jus done screwing my maths homework, and I'm only half way through the paper, and I can't take it anymore. I wonder who's screwing who?
It is a very hard blow to my pride, I can't be screwed by these.... things!? Mental note to screw them back....
I think I'm getting pretty incoherent now, exhaust my brain too much. Why the hell did I leave my homework till the last day of the holiday? What have I been doing for the past bloody week? Hmmm.... I can't pretty much remember....... only that I have a screwing pain in the neck, I wonder how I got it, and my breath smells bad, like I'd care...., blessing to ppl I'm gonna tok to for the rest of next week.
I can't help but to wonder, what am I doing with my life?
I DEFINETLY HAVE TO PUT IN MUCH MUCH MORE EFFORT THAN WHAT I AM DOING NOW!!!! I CAN'T JUST DOZE AWAY MY WHOLE LIFE! THIS IS RIDICULOUS! AND I .......
And I pretty much can't go on anymore coz my ass hurts (am not telling why) and I want to meet my ***** in my sleep.
One weird thing, I keep dreaming of myself getting hanged upside down like how it was like when I went to the CARNIVAL with my cous. It sucks I tell you, esp when you've given up hope and thinking "Please god, let me fall and crack my head for all I'd care, don't let me hang up here any longer...." and the clamp holds on even tighter (maybe that's why my ass hurts, but who knows?)
Rumble rumble, excuse me, that was my tummy, I think we have business to talk about, hardcore business, I mind you......
Pain and pleasure....Hmm where did I see that phrase? Sounds pretty "ぴったり" to my case....
aaargh.
Well I had a good time bickering with Tyler on phone today again, although it cost me $1.50, I'd be getting my phone bills again in a few days, and i dread when that day arrives....
oosh, my business meeting can't hold on any longer, got to go. I guess my ass belongs to the Protestants. Please don't let me get a 30 yrs conflict with it. I can't imagine whats gonna happen.....
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