am sooo tired...more tired than yesterday after the run, weird isnt...
anyways, its been a long time since i'd finished reading a story book from head to toe. the book's called "Kite Runner", i cried once half way through the story.
It's a recount of a man's life from when he was 12 to somewhere arnd 40, the story abt how he had betrayed his best friend when he was young and found out that his best friend was his half illegitimate brother, but by the time he found out, he was nearing 40 and his brother was executed some time ago. he thus had a mission to seek out his nephew and bring him away from afghan and raise him as his own. along the way, he finally confronted his cowardice years back where he witnessed his brother raped but was too afraid to stand up for him. He fought the man who raped his brother, who also intended to rape his nephew. in the end, his nephew saved his by shooting a steel ball into the man's socket, just like how his father used to protect his brother in the past. then, it was a journey to bring his nephew into his family, along the journey he had carelessly and momentarily shattered the boy's new found hope by offering to temporarily place him in an orphanage while he settle the adoption matters. The boy attempted suicide that night, and he was terrified, he started to pray and do all sorts of religious thingies that he had not practiced in decades, suddenly realizing that there is a God, and God will forgive him and keep the boy alive.....
i cried once more at the end of the story, it was like a long journey finally coming to its end, and then u realize that u still want to continue walking...
...i dunno wad im talking abt, ...so wadever, i m going to sleep, nitez

yes i havn been blogging, i m sorry....
anyway just felt that i shoud blog for once in a long long time.
today was 2.4, blardy hell i failed again...nvm i shall excel in my retest....not that i din do my bes today, i really couldn run for some stupid reason, like my muscles are too tight...blah blah, they really were, i promise i will not walk for goodness sake during the rerun. anyway i always run better during reruns......
wth...time passed so fast that i din even realise its april already!!! eunice wrote down the countdown days to olvl and preprelim today and it was only 200+ days away!!!! aaaaa omgomg....and i m like still not done with my geog holiday homework which is due two days later and my blardy career essay due today but i m planning to do a draft for it tmr....slack right?
tmr is another long long day and i m now watching anime....slap myself....but i did my homework u see, so i deserve a bit of relaxation b4 i go to sleep....
sleep is like never enough these days, its like u lie on bed for awhile and u have to wake up alr....not even enough time to make out with whoever in ur dreams la....doopez....lucky i nv go to TJC, else my sleeping time would be cut until its so short that its uncuttable......
oh, no more wasting time, i shall go watch NANA ^^, yes NANA got anime ler! first episode yeeps1!!

just done watching HUNTER x HUNTER, not very happy with the ending, but rather happy that i finally finished the whole anime, from head to toe! 92 episodes leh, no mean feat ok, lol. what's really impossible is to try finishing ONE PIECE, coz its blardy damn long la, i m like at 169 only, and i have until 240 on my com, and it seems that its out till 260+ liao....dioonz...totally harshed my mellow....lol.
ONE PIECE is really fun to watch, am starting to go into this frenzy again alr...aaargh...
like i m juz done with one thing, and here comes another, tho i nv thot of watching anime tedious, but still i cant help but feel that there really is toooo much anime alr...its taking up too much of me, i cant concentrate on other things when theres anime around...
aaargh, i m going mental....

its raining outside, im looking at the cute little birds jumping arnd in the tree outside my window. just hope that they dont jump into my room, tt's all i ask for. remembering last time when we just moved in to my current residence, there was no curtain in the kitchen. and everytime we leave the window open for ventilation, the stoopid birds flew in and created a rackus out of my kitchen. why do i say they are stoopid??? coz they know how to come in, but they duno how to go out......silly billy....
anyway, i have to agree that rain makes ppl sad. "alot of ppl cry when it rains" quote Crystal from MIB2....ha... to think that i was so high just now singing in the shower.... (aw the birds look so cold...they keep fluttering their wings and trying to find shelter beneath the leaves.........)
i havn done a single piece of homework this whole aftnn....the time is sooo freaking wasted, but i just couldn bring myself to do my work...what is this??? uuurgh, curses...
oh man, today i unintentionally overheard someone's conversation over "what kind of gers guys like...." =.= dooopezzz... yes, this is the stage everyone goes through, the practise hunt for potential other halves...wadever it is...but, its really quite annoying to hear like almost everyone talking abt it..... what use is it to analyse what kind of gers guys like, so what if u found out?? it'll just put you down more as u realize u dun fit the descriptions at all.........=.=
oh well..............
shimin went home early today, she wasn feeling well, thought she acted strangely since morning. my darling : pls take care of urself...and get well soon...
the Mrs Secretary/Clerk (or duno what...) asked shimn whether she had flu-like symptoms or fever, just to play safe i guess...
anyway, today's council invest was boooring, i only liked Geraldine's dance, she rox!!! haha..ourclass sat at the last row, and slacked...it was the seat that *** sat last yr LoL, can i say i can still feel the warmth??? bwahahahaha...
saw Krystal on bus today, LoL it was sooo funny ^^. She msged me to say that we were on the same bus, and i realize that she was siting right infront of me...I LURVE KRYSTAL!!!! she'll always be the big SIS in my heart, i so envy that asshole alan to have such a nice sister, if only she was mine...boohooo...
right...shud i go do my work??
wait, wad are the stuff i need to do.......
oh yes... the freaking compo...i sincerely hate english lessons...for wadever reasons there be............

reading ppl's blogs can be really annoying, esp. ppl like PhOBeeBee....i didn noe she has a blog until one day i saw it. I went to read out of curiosity and found myself twitching at every word, it just gets on my nerve, really. i mean, some ppl are just so not realistic, why cant they be someone who's more acceptable and acknowledgeable?? why does she still have to obstinately go her own way when she knows that it's not reaping the fruit she wants. Super ACBC lor! I cant stand it! Never have i been annoyed this much, felt like punching her. Come one man, why do u have to be someone that ppl hates........
enuf.....i shall not let my mind linger over this subject anymore, disgusting out my brain cells...later i die of disgust how?

4/2'06 ROX!!!!

blog about today's March Games.
Our class emerged 3rd!!!! amazing rite, we actually beat so many classes! and last year we like kena kicked out in the 3rd game....
Wow, I lurve 4/2 man, my class rox seh! Didnt realize tt until today, =)
our team: Lester, Nat, Apr, Divek, Karnt(LoL), WeiHao, Adlin, PuuQin, Yuxian, Shimin (^^) and me, lol. Lester's so cool, and today's his bday ><, and Ian's too. Eck.
anyway, abt today.
met Shimin at the usual place at 0800. We were deciding wad time to meet ytd, she said 0755, and i was like "no not so early, so on time for wad, lets meet at 0805...lol" well so we met, i've given up hope to cajole, lure, seduce, plead, whatever her to play for the game. It's so wasted! She can play so well, and she dun want to play. She's soo obstinate and stubborn, haiya.... but bobian, she's shimin wad...
dono y our class's match was scheduled until so late, we waited and waited and waited somemore, still not our turn yet. Poor angeline, she came at 0745 and left at 0830, without watching our match, so poor thing...
so we went to watch bball matches with PuuQin and YuuXian, lol, first match was 5/1 against 4/8. it was fun to watch, we cheered at every goal, didn matter which side's goal also. Mr Lim played v well, and i rmb him saying he wasnt in his school team when he was in sec school. anyway, there was this LARD in the 5/1 team, ppl say that he's soooo PHAT he couldn even fit into the 2 poles of the basketball goalpost. damn, and u see the ripples when he run, yeeks, really look like running piece of Lard....
den later was bball match btw 4/3 and 4/6. and 4/3 won!!! woosh! LoL, i m loyal supporter. score was 12-10, i cudnt belive that they actually scored this many in such a short time. the match was good, coz the two teams got standard, lol. nice. realize most of the girls in the team no use one, haiz, there to fill up the names only, pathetic...
den hmm, wad did we do....
slacked arnd loh....... i tried to find balls so can play with shimin, ha, today she v ting hua, so obedient, ask her to play, she will play one, gd gd ger! Long long time nv play vball liao, reminisc...(wadever). (if not for tt f*king cheePANG, we wouldn land up liddat...) anyway, we were playing vball with Shimin, Apr, Nat Puu and surprisingly Mr Leow...din know he cud play...hehe. Den this terrible thing happened. I wanted to hit the ball, then walk walk, and trip over this little girl, and i fell flat on my face, not heavily la, but i hit my knee and it hurts. >< boohoo i must have fell damn ugly man, so no face liao lar....sit up and they all crowd arnd me and asked me whether im ok anot, ^^ feel so gd to hav ppl care abt u ><. Then i saw the Weihong and Jiahao there laughing at me!!! Woa, i can go flush myself down the toilet bowl liao, sooooo paiseh!!!!
Lol, stupid, then was the match against 5/1... oh b4 that, long long b4 that got play against 4/4, (seriously i dun like tt team ><). And we WON!!! WOOSH!!! I was so happy that i kissed Puuqin, lol, then she went eeeeeeeeeeing all over. Coz monday we lost to 4/4 4-3, sai, all my fault, keep falling off the chair... and tt fooking JAMES, that duno who's bf, keep knocking me off. And i think that he thinks his legs are beautiful (puke puke and puke somemore), coz he keep doing these, these stretches and duno what poses he did to show off his legs, diaoz....guys can be obsessed with body parts other than their chic?? lol, sick...
den aft tt match wit 5/1, we lost, but we played well, our team got fighting spirit! and Lester v GOOD ^^, the 5/1 team all so impressed haha. according to shimin, that shawn grabbed my hand when i was unstable on the chair.....i din know...now my hand feels weird...(faints) woa n he hit my waist during the game, duno whether he got grudges towards me or wad, hit until so hard, damn painful....haiz...den later they ask me to go down and change lester be captain...no choice, i go there be extra. ...i couldn do anything lor, kns, i was so angry wif myself coz i really made them lose the ball, later couldn get over it and i...last game against 4/3, i become spectator, sub PuuQin in... shout until voice hoarse liao...but realize tt 4/2 is really a nice class (except for some ppl....Lol)

okay, i knoe that time goes by fast, and it really does go by fast, im still traumatized that it has gone by so fast.
for crying out loud, its half way thru march alr.........
anyways, my results for this term was lousy, got a pretty 50 for my english, and bloody 60 for CHInese.
Hello? Me? Getting a fooking b4 for chinese?! I could go knock myself on the wall already.
Am i really more deprived or wad? y do ppl get 90+ while i could hover around 50-60?? Am i really that stupid??
oh shux......nvm........like everybd else's doing, i shall work xtra hard for the second term.

I do not think that my intepretations to life and understanding to certain issues are shallow and superphicial (however u spell it...), i do catch the gist of things and can add in my own opinions. y is that my mom keep saying that my comprehension skills are lousy? more often than not, i deem myself to be able to understand things that many can't. Izzat lousy??
in my opinion, my mom is the one who has weird understanding of things, sometimes i really couldn't care less about what she thinks, cuz it would always oppose to mine. Always......
even without realising that she's doing it, she says "no" by instinct.
why am i downgrading my own mother here......
nope, this is not downgrading, i luv her as much as i luv life (well...) its just that sometimes ppl need to complain.
i can't complain to her not because i think it's rude or disrespectful, but because that whatever i say will be immediately butted back at me.
i m 17! i know to a certain extent what is right and what is wrong, why is that every sensible thought I have, had to be shot back at me being unrealistic and impractical?? Come on!
Maybe sometimes what i say could be pretty improbable, like building castles in the air, unrealistic ramblings abt what i wanna do in the future. Hey, isn't there at least a little room for imagination and creativity??
I've just read an analysis on THE ENGLISH TEACHER. The themes about predictability vs unpredictability never hit me as much it did. It applies so well to my own life, that i kind of feel a connection with Narayan, that our lives have a similiar scent.
That our lives are stifling and mundane due to all the timetables and schedules and deadlines...where did the spontaneity and "live" life go??

I m posting the pictures i took at the Zoo yesterday, LoL, my first time at the Singaproe Zoo.
COOOl..........

siao ah pek

what a freaking day it was....
let me briefly recount the terrible event that took place 3 hrs ago.
...
it was a beautiful aftnn, with the terribly beautiful sun showering us with his beautiful rays of light.........
along the busy street of AMK, beside the teeny little bank,
this PESTY INSANE AH PEK came to us...
"$^%@$#^%$&...BO...^*^&*$"
i m thinking that he's probably asking for $$.
we picked up our speed and he sped up his.
we raced across Guardian, and we ran into the MINOSHE Brassiere shop.
AHA, come n get us old man, LoL.
He walked straight and down the road, disappearing around the corner of the bakery shop.
"Did he go away??"
"Let's cross over to the other side ^^."
We ran.
We saw.
He saw.
I peeked around the corner to see if he's still following, that's when my gaze met his, sending shivers down my spine. He's crazy.
We went crazy and took off running.
Thinking of heading back to PoPuLar, but no, we will still go to Mac.
So we took a UlU route along the carpark, and ran with all our might, charging into Mac.
Panting and sweating, we sat down at the small corner at the rear end of the mac.
we changed places 3 times, and ended up in the corner near the counter.
we thot we lost him.
we were wrong...
just as we savoured the last spoon of Msflurry icecream, i saw him sneeking around outside.
"Oh Shiit! He's here!"
Ducking my head under the table, futile attempts to hide myself. We put our heads on the table, and peeked from below our arms.
He peered around, sniffing our traces.....
he sneeked in, heading towards our first seat.

That's it! We are leaving this place!
I stepped out and almost got tripped over by a freaking umbrella poking out from the neighboring table.
"Damn it"
Meanwhile, Shimin was working on the entangled strap of my bag and the stool with futile efforts.

We shot out of the door and ran for our lives as fast as our trembling legs could carry us. We managed to escape. Once again. Cool.

Asagao

I found out what Morning Glory is in Japanese.
「朝顔」(asagao)
not fair, it sounds so nice ><
tt is one thing i like abt Jap, it sounds really soothing when u read it.

ok fine, i m rewriting my post, cuz the previous one was lost due to unknown causes.
im frustrated, cuz i hav to write this all over again.......
[breathe in....breathe out.......]
[SMACK!]
anyway, i ve got a new series to catch. I duno wad its name is, >< but it looks kind of promising with pretty nice graphics, and I think it's a Bishounen anime, and of cuz i would support all bishounens!!!
ok, tt was crap.
today is one whole week aft last saturday, the horrible outing i went to.
guess now i can say smth abt it.
ok, i shall continue tmr.....

a new anime coming ur way!

woosh! new anime to watch!
tho i've never heard of it b4, but its kinda promising ^^, excitement.
and later at 2230, its my fav kor. show! final episode, harhar, must watch.
and wad else....
the lost city of Bombay has appeared in the lift lobby, and I have to step over the relics everytime i go out or come back. Why do they have to do this? The floor looks pretty ok to me, doesnt look old enough to be replaced, y's the govt doing unnecessary things? Its not juz my block, the whole area is undergoin the same thing. Isnt it wastage?
my dad said it was inevitable coz the construction workers had to do some work, if the govt dont giv them smth to do, they'd have no income.
True.
Guess we'll juz have to put up with Bombay for some time then. Its not that bad either, kind of fun to walk on uneven ground.

Samurai Champloo!

i've just finished watching Samurai Champloo.
The ending was not remarkably touching or twisted.
Not much of an emotional stir even.
But I feel so fulfilled. Maybe because finally I finished this anime.
Samurai Champloo has a very unique style, there's one episode which was utterly stupid, it was abt the Mugen Jin and Fuu and somemore other unimportant people playing baseball with the americans. The americans inside were spastic, all they could say was "jesus", "oh my god" and "bastard"....it was like in the end the jap thrashed the americans and they did not dare to set foot on japan ever again. As if it was really true la. So gullible these ppl.
But of coz i was on Mugen's side, he was so hunky!
I liked Mugen and JIn, both of them were so desirable!!! lol....
anyway, what i liked abt them was that they are brave and they kill with style. Come on man, all who fight shud see how they fight la! Kewl beyond description man.
Envy Fuu so much, get to travel with those 2. I'd be so blessed if i cud really meet ppl like them. ><
Long Live! Mugen and Jin!

0h no......i m terribly regretting what i had just done.....how the hell did i coax myself to do it???
boohooo....cries........
its unblivable, i m actualy regretting this when i ve thot "dam it, juz do it man, cut! cut it. No more, finish, enuf!"
now i m really regretting it alr........
why the hell did i do tt for???
now it seems so empty alr.
noooooo.....it isnt happening.......
my mind is going bonkers!
life is so stressful!
i wanna die............

oh its really nice to kno tt i'm actually unattractive and undesirable.
great, brilliant.
that's all i wanted to hear.
Fine! I'll show u ppl what attractive and desirable is, bring it on man.
i feel so darn insulted.........
kns.
u ppl suck!

Feb 18th...the outing....the sadness...the tears.....

ever since last night, i cant help thinking abt him........
like the scenes kept replaying and I think I was very harsh and difficult.......
its not tat i did it on purpose, i jus didn like to left out, i get very frustrated. Especially is that kind of outing, all the more i'd think he hates me.
sighz.........guess i screwed up...........
frenz?

today is a super sucky day! i hate today!
was it me or jus that ..............hurrrrgh........forget it.....
jus remember tat today sucked like hell.

Os

The Day...
The day which the previous batch got back their "o" results.
There were alot of 6 pointers, it was so encouraging, i felt almost that I could be one of them too. If only i could get 6 points, i'd be able to go to TJC.
Anyway, I got back my Express Chi o results, I got an A1, i wasnt surprised, but b4 i got it back, i was dam worried and paranoid. I didn know that I would cry, it just came out when i heard my dad's voice. I sobbed into the phone, and gave my Dad a scare. He thought something terrible happened to me........ my dad....
it's always liddat, the paranoia b4 getting ur results.
you cant help but let your thoughts stray and get the better of you.
it depends on how you take the stress.
seeing the seniors get their results, i thought abt next yr, would i be able to walk out of the hall smiling? mayb not, would I be able to walk out with joy or sorrow? with pride or regret? it all depends, depend on how hard I work myself this yr.
2006, the very impt yr, the yr I take my Os.
but as Mrs Tan said, even tho O lvl is very important, it is only a passing stage in our life. whether we do well or not, we'd still have to get on with our lives. true?

I'd wish for all andersonians to fare for their Os, and pass this mere stage of our lives with no regret, and carry on, living our lives to the fullest, and make the best out of each and everyone of us. For everybody is a gem, u will polish and carve in order to shine. And it's impossible to not shine if you have polished and carved hard enuf.

I really hate myself...
Why can't i juz act normal? why do i have to be so uncomfortable arnd people?
Is it me? or what?

went for the MILK fund CIP thing this morning. Quite fun at the beginning. Feels great when u hear the coin doink into ur can. I observe that the elderlies are generally more generous. They doink quite alot of money. The kids also. when it comes to teenagers or young ppl, they are $%@$^%. Some just stare at me, some ignore me, some run away when I approach them. Like the hell i want to see their face so badly. Someone donated sweets to me, that's fresh.
Had to walk around smiling so brightly that i wonder what the hell happened...
anyway, it was quite ok la, at the beginning.
later, we were like dam tired. I m lazy to even talk. i became totally anti social and i duno, dun even wanna talk to shimin, who also didn bother to talk to me, coz she got her glamourous Charmaine.
sigh, why didnt daryl come to ToPaYo today??? would have walked up to him n ask for donations and hp no.... LoL
oh ya, i asked for donations from a tcher in anderson whom i duno, oops, awkwardness...
the stupid 88 and 159 take so long to drive from tpy to my home, i sit until i want to puke.
better avoid going to tpy...
when i got home, i ate noodles, it was heavenly coz i havn eaten since morning. then i went to sleep, i think i drooled alot, coz my pillow smells weird, eek.
I've got plenty of work to do tmr, hw and tests to study for, and i have lessons in the aftnn.
buzy day, all by myself, tt explains why i m anti social. i m like always alone.......
there were this 2 guys from china, they make their own mvs and upload onto e net, they are like so famous now, coz their mvs are dam funny.
when i watched their mvs, i laughed non stop, coz its really hilarious.
then i felt miserable, how i wish i cud be liddat, doing crazy things with my pal.
problem is where the hell is my pal?!
applying perfectly to this ancient saying:
(the one puuqin said for chinese lesson...)
相识满天下，知己有几人。
something like that, its a shame i forgot the orginal vs. well the meaing is there...
its really hard to be a happy teen.
like always thinking abt whether u are good enough, doubting yourself, unsure abt yourself....
hope i can step out of this, soon...

man, it sucks, i wanted to buy the inbase shoes today, but they were not there anymore! sobx....
anyway, engl. lesson today was not fun, tt Ms Heng was obviously biased la,every other group presented and when it comes to mine, she just let it be when we said we've got nothing much to add, when she insisted other groups to present when they were like also had nothing to add.
I dono what to say abt her, i like her lessons, its interesting but somehow i just feel quite uncomfortable. Like i always find her way of looking at me not very appealing. anyway, we've got another troublesome thing to do, prepare for a 3 min speech on reflections upon reading this article on Bullying. Well, this is a topic that I might have alot to say. But to say it infront of her, i probably need a dose of courage. I cant talk to her at all, i feel oppressed when she talks to me, like i find it difficult to even to look her in the eye. Guess I'll just have to brace it through, its due nxt fridae, i have one week's time to prepare, i m not sure whether its enough.
Today is obviously wasted, couldn buy the shoes i wanted, wasted 2 hrs walking arnd j8 for something not quite my business. i just don feel right, i mean its like its not even our business and u drag us along, and like leave us when u don need us anymore. Please la, i deem myself with alot of pride, i don like being treated like that.
cmon la, crap shit.....
i wanna watch advent children tmr and kns got the stupid MILK thingy.
we are doing it at tpy, again. no big deal for me. I shall go slag and pull thru the thing and return home in one piece to watch my beloved CLOUD!!!
Dad was sposed to swim with me today, but what a @$%@&%, he forgot to bring his swimming trunks. MAN, and he told Mom that it was because I didnt keep it for him! Aaaargh, isnt he atrocious??? so it ended up me swimming alone, and my Dad sleeping on the chair, darn he was so comfortable la.
let's see... i ve got tons of work to do, and i ve got my jap lessons on sun again. kind of don feel lke going....I m planning to cramp all my work to do on sunday tho. shud have enough time la....haha, im lying to myself obviously......dam...
ooo, its getting itchy, i wanna watch FF7 now!

i havnt been blogging for sometime, did i?
right now, i m breaking my head over that stupid lit essay about goodness of children...
there's no goodness in children! they are lil devils running all over the place!i find them cute when they cry...sense of superiority maybe. its ecstatic to see them cry, LoL, that was my secret hobby a long long time ago.
so, what shall i write for my essay?
i find it more frequent that I can't write an essay or a compo smoothly or fluently, it just gets stuck somewhere somehow. either it's because I m slowly forgetting my vocab or I m aging backwards that I donno how to construct a proper sentence. As Ms heng said, my writings are atrocious. never mind that, I think i'm running short on time to do my homework. there's pretty much i need to do. sighs....i m glad there's alot of work, but i juz don have the time and energy to do it....
god bless me ><

oh my god, i'm practically breaking my head over the two essays. its difficult to think. my story is in a mess. I can't even sort out how to begin it. I was trying to start writing out the plot, before I actually go to organise and present it the way i want to. However, even writing out the plot seems almost too impossible for me. i spent one day to come up with a story based on a dream i had, which i could only remember almost nothing about. and spent another day to think of a way to present it, and finally i did come up with something creative as i sat dreaming at the basketball court. I was glad that i went there, because it's pretty relaxing to sit and daydream. I know i shouldn think it a chore which would only make my life more difficult. but i cant help but think it a horrible horrible chore, as writing was never my forte (totally untrue of wad ms Heng said). I have to come up with a 1500 words long essay. I doubt i can even come up with 1500 words long rubbish, let alone a proper essay that would promise me an A in my CA2. Why do i have to go to b1??
the other essay, which I'm supposed to write about my father, was another tedious task for me to do. look at him, what 1000 words can i possibly make up to say about him? well, i could always start by saying that my dad is very very noble and kind...and blah blah blah....but i don want to write untrue stuff about my dad. not because i m worried that if my essay's chosen somehow and my dad gets invited and discovers that what i had written about is all bullshit crap. why would i ever think of that, i wouldn even want anyone to read my essay, for privacy and for dignity.
what can i do???
right now, i'm focusing on my commonwealth essay. i hope i can really really come up with something right. it was a fabulous dream i had, its a pity i forgot about it.
oh man...................i'd rather die........

Worshipping.......

I SAW DARYL!!!! AFTER SOOOO MANY DAYS!!!!!!
KEWL!!!!!!!!!!!!
LoL....
HE'S WEARING ALL RED JERSEY, OOO HOT, HAHAHA, MUZ B AFTER SOME TOURNAMENT BA.
KEWL KEWL!
WEEEEEEEE.................

i'M really starting to abhore ppl who do not respect others.
Either not respecting teachers, or just fellow ppl.
who do they think they are anyway? Being rude and all to ppl, and yet expect ppl to respect them? I think not.
everybody is so darn full of themselves that they could afford to trample on other's dignity. so what if you don like that particular teacher? U "walao" at whatever she says that you do not agree? u sleep during the class right below her nose?
think how does tt feel if it were you?
I bet you are too thick to even think of that.
probably you think its cool that u do not see the big deal of a teacher, that you are brave enuf to go up against her by doing little fidgets just to irritate her.
what good does that do?
and u get angry coz other ppl responds to that teacher u don like?!
please...save me the atrocity...
its just unbelievable that you are like that, I thought you were the sort who knows right from wrong, who respect others....
yet...
just take it that i've been blinded and...wadever...

freaking stupid singaporeans

i hate to say this, but those singaporeans are really getting on my nerve.
i don care if this is a sweeping statement, i m damn unhappy abt this.
Are there anyone more stupid than those ppl? I cant belive this la/
they can barbeque outside the lift, on the 5th floor...
siao la these ppl
dam inconsiderate, i bet those bags of rubbish tt were stuck in the chute were theirs, so darn stupid, they have to taught how to dispose rubbish?
they can freaking throw themselves in!
curse them.
its so dam obvious the father is having affairs, coz he married a dam uncouth and ugly woman who has never properly learnt her manners.
if she doesnt show respect to us, i can jolly well forget abt mine.
she's getting hell from me, mark my words, suckers.

A.I.R

看完了A.I.R 这部动画了。 好感动的。最后还哭了呢。
我好像从中学会了非常珍贵的东西。到底是什么呢？
我说不上来。
不过好像有种很满足的感觉。让人十分温暖那 (笑)
A.I.R 其实是一部很美的动画，描述着一个很凄美的故事。
刚开始还有点看不懂得说，有点摸不着头绪，跟一般的动画不一样。
说它曲折离奇吧，又好像不怎么复杂，蛮简单的故事背景来的。
但要说它简单吗，却又觉得故事的含义很深，令人回味。
所以我才说它很美 (^_^)

到现在，对A.I.R的映像还不是很清晰，朦胧的感觉挥之不去。
似懂非懂的样子。
回味呀，回味。。(v_v)

总觉得我好像变成熟了呢，长大了呢。
A.I.R 值得一看啊，感叹人与人之间的爱。
强力推荐哦！

what time now?

i cant sleep....
almost 3 in e morning, and i feel hungry, maybe i shud get smth to eat....
am reading Nana now, its a nice comic, cant wait to watch the show, ^^. tho its abit of a censored ><
if only i cud draw as how they draw nana, if only.......sigh...
i really really cant sleep, aaargh, i need pills.
oh, i can go watch tv u kno, hmmm.....

reading nana..........

fou

I am currently listening to SS501, new Korean pop grp, they sure know how to make first impressions, ^^, i m mesmerized.......
reading Bleach at the same time, Ikkaku is KEWL!!!!
Oh, this song is good~~~
I found out that the song Superstar, sang by both S.H.E and Ash, was originally sang by Sweetbox, called China Girl. Both Ash's version and Sweetbox's version are nice, and S.H.e version sux. 3 ppl singing cant overpower one, they should go home and reflect. And know what, I juz realize, SHe version didnt even do a remix or whatsoever, that is the music of the song is totally copied from Sweetbox, that is so integrity-less. At least, Ash's version is more meaningful, and much nicer music and vocals.
My achievements:
Managed to find 3 sites to dl mp3 due the cruel Haoting.com not offering Download option anymore.
Came across this Korean forum, and thats where my dl will come from, totally cool, i could get everything from there. No need to look for Korean sites anymore.
[X-Japan - Endless Rain...]
i wonder who started me listening to XJapan.....their songs are sad, sadness that touched ppls hearts..

Sunday.
went to take Jap exam.
this time i sat for the exam in the Science lab in the Jap School. LoL, it was miniature, cuteness beyond words. I noticed their display of Butterfly Biao Ben (><), there's AgehaCho, TatehaCho.... and many more, it was beautiful. It awoken the frenzy in me, and got me drawing butterflies all over the place, ^^ LoL. Rmb the song Ageha by W-inds? hehe, Ageha is a type of butterfly with very big wings, and has a teardrop at the bottom of each wing, and the ones i saw have luminous colors, O.O
aft the exam, i went home on my own, coz Sarah had her dad to fetch her and Peiying was going somewhere. If I wasn't alone, my trip home would be hilarious. Due to flooding of the puny little bus stop opposite, thus impossible for me to board any bus. Many other ppl also gave up waiting and walked along the road, and I followed. These ppl are evil dudes, during my obedient following-behind-their-butts i had to cross LongKangs, and climb railings, trot down a muddy slope and almost tearing my slippers, circulate my way through the flats, and finally board a bus which i have no idea whr it goes. I trusted those dudes, unbelievably.
well, in e end, i arrived at Tampines mall, miraculously. I didnt know Tanah Merah was so near to tampines. ahh, civilisation, what a relief, many thanks to the evil ppl who led the way.
that was my lil adventure last sunday, lol.

Monday,
stayed up till 11pm, and left for airport at 1130, to receive my Mom. ^^ My Dad was talking abt foreseeing the unforeseen on the way, and he didn foresee that my mom's plane was late, we waited thr for almost 2 hrs, b4 the plane finally landed. well, during the wait, I was having fun comparing height with the air stewardess, downright lame, and I was taller than all of them, they were shorter than me even in heels, how short are they??
lol, I like short ppl, they are cute. hahaha.
so finally we got my mom, we took a taxi home. when we were under my block, taking out the luggages from the car, i discovered that mom took the wrong luggage. sweat...so my parents hurried back to the airport, while i took e 4 other bags, big n small back. I was exclaiming to myself how strong i was, when the trolly bag toppled and caught my leg, leaving a ugly looking scar...I wouldn have minded if the scar was nice........but it was ugly.....
half n hr later, my parents returned with the rightful luggage, relief...

Wednesday.
spposedly another boring day, but was disturbed by a fire...
yes a fire. not v big, but was enough to leave the top 2 floors of my block black as my stove at home. there was some commotion and aha, I was taken back by the suaveness of the fire-fighters.... V.V lol, they were really cool, quick and handy while they put out the fire. Much to my amusement, there were ppl in pajamas, facials, and shampoo on their hair... was laughing til my sides ached.

Thursday.
went for dental appt in e morning, got cleaning n scaling done, my dentist was again making me do the brushing practice on tt oral model of his, he seems to be amused, i wonder whether he has a fetish over tt model, ew. I slept through the cleaning, only to open my eyes from time to time when he asked me if i was Ok, he probably thought I fainted. sweat..sweat....
aft tt, went to meet Shimin at Jubilee, saw her earings, very nice, ^^, very ex also, lol. She chose tt pair coz the others were the "Angeline" style, lol, no offence.haha.
went to buy our textbooks at popular, and detoured to Anderson, to buy Marianne Chong, coz popular don have. Saw Yuxian, Chloe, Peiying, Huimin, and Eunice thr, yuxian gave us a little hp toy each. haha, hp toy....:P
went back to central to have lunch, at pizza hut, happiness. Lol.

this is dam long post, sai, gotta sleep, and i forgot to shower......

juz realize i didn blog abt chalet.
fine, i shall blog.
the chalet was boring, most of the time, coz i wasnt participating...
what u expect, from dying old me...
the funner part was when i trying to rollerblade la, i fell until my butt went blue, i didn know how to fall foward, so i kept landing on my butt, pain...>< good thing james lee stayed back to help me, dono y, but thank goodness he's there, else i'd be crawling my way arnd. haha he tried to coach me la, but i was too stupid, so ended up him running and pulling me along, he said it was training....woa, dam i m grateful, shall repay his kindness. due to the murderous pair of roller blades, i have now 2 bloody blisters on my ankles, it wasnt properly cleaned then, so now its infected and swollen, plus the powder tt my dad gave me which i'm spposed to apply on my wound, my blisters are giving me hell....
another fun part of the chalet was when on the night of e first day, james lee, elain n me went to the roof. we were daring ourselves to cross from one roof to another, thrilling. haha. tt was fun.
one more thing, i learnt a few more card games, like Bridge and Pig. bridge was fun,e "intellectual" game according to Chloe. Pig is a funny game, lol.
what else?
oh, yuxian cut her hair, couldn recognize her at first, coz don look like her alr. ahhh my grand daughter don look like my grand daughter anymore, T_T...boohoo ><
then urgh, what else?
oh, i witnessed the guys trying to get their hair done, it was horrible...oops...gives me the weird feeling when i see guys trying to decorate themselves. I've only just overcome the disgust i get when i see guys in pink....
james kang shud get his hair cut b4 he tries to style it, his current hair is too even and thick, they will stand up like pillars, he shud cut layer keep the back and the sideburns long. yar... and abel yang, his hair can stand without wax, why he want to put wax to make it look like a block. and who else?? arkar and zhongming, their hair were ok, looks more natural and stylable. and james lee, his hair was ok also, but way too troublesome.
yar, ugh, first day went by eventually, 16 ppl on 4 beds, we were TRYING to sleep.
abel was dam noisy, like he ever wasnt...so they were making fun of nelson, muahahaha, i rmb the part where he ate his cup noodles in the toilet, or did he not.... anyway, nelson was still nelson, like how nelson wud always be....
the second day, even more boredom, i don even rmb what i did, or what they did. only that finally i shall go home aft i see ethel's face. she n jelyn la, troublesome ppl, thot i wud be able to see both of them so i went to the chalet and in e end one nv went and the other went when i was abt to go home, fauk it.
ethel was still ethel, i still don get it when i ask her y she wore anderson yeah, and she told be if not i wan her to wear tj shirt.... haiz....nvm...
i noticed that ethel painted her nails, haha, wheuweeep, sexy sexy, hahaha.
and i juz read the other ppls blog, guess i missed out alot of "fun", but i was glad i went home. sheesh....
tmr's JLPT　exam, I'm sooo nervous that I cant sleep, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
no, i shall go to bed, i cant afford to miss my exam....
oh, shall i mention that my braces' got new color combi, haha green n pink, it's stupid, and funny, mahahahha.
ok, i shall go bath, and sleep and wake up 5 in the morning to revise and leave at 7....

oh, i just saw that Darren tagged....
now i feel pretty bad abt doing what I did to him.
Now that he mentioned it, I feel worse.
I'm sorry darren, I didnt mean to...um...slander u or whatever that was...
eh....juz take it as i wasnt in my right mind....
reeeelly reeeelly sorry.... ><

JLPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JLPT tomorrow, i feel so nervous...
I read through all my text and notes, and I felt so confident, only that after a while i forgot everything and need to replenish my confidence again.
My exam is 0930 in the morning, abt 3 hrs long, ends at 1245, I'm going alone this time, I wonder whether I'd meet someone I know. I decide to leave my house at 7 tmr morning, I hope 2 hrs are enough for me to get to e Japanese School, I try to avoid taking cab coz this time nobd gonna share cost with me.
hmmm.......
I m on drawing frenzy again....

hell

and thr i msg my dad saying e braces didnt hurt...
actually it is painful, its ok if i dont touch it or bite down, if not, it'll give me headaches. one of tt small lil thing came off, i got to tell POON. She was exclaiming "excellent! excellent!" when she finished with my braces, and now, it came off aft a little brushing. swt...
i chose green, coz i think the green is nice, dad said nxt time i take pink. fine with me, pink is nice also.
oh man, it hurts....

bleach leaves me wondering...

and there i was amazed to finally see Rukia's Zanpakutou, and the nxt moment i see her beaten up by "broken face" (-.-|||). I'm hurt...
it seems that the broken face ppl are sooo much stronger than Shinigamis that it hurts. Their zanpakutou release itself is so horrifying, wait til they get to their Bankai, i doubt i'd be able to take the blow.
And talk about Rukia's zanpakutou release, it was dam kewl~~~, elegant at the same time. its name is "Sode no Shirayuki" (Sleeve of the White Snow)
[Soul Society regards it as the most beautiful Zanpakutou in existence. It's a weapon that's bound to the ice and snow family of Zanpaku. The blade, the handguard, even the hilt, everything about this Zanpaku is pure white.
-First Dance: Tsukishiro, Sode no Shirayuki does not only freeze the land it touches but anything that lies within its circle.]

.....right now, i'm in a state of devastation... is Ikkaku gonna die???
Fuck that stupid volcano monster, if he kills Ikkaku, I'm gonna kill him!!!
(5min...) Oh, it seems that Ikkaku's not dead yet!!! wohoo!!! what's he gonna do? what's he gonna do? oh, oh, oh~~~ oooh, he's smiling, wow, kewl, kewl, it's so GODDAMIT FUCKING COOOOL!!!! (oops, i shudn have said tt, ><)
oh no! Ikkaku's hit by the volcano bastard's fist, and he's on fire!!! aaargh!!! water! water!!!
YES! HE LIVES!!! That's my Ikkaku!! Kick tt dick's ass, Ikkaku~~~, gogogo~~~ WOOOHOOOO!!!
darn, y izzit loading so slow....testing my patience...

....
....
oh
My
GOD....
Ikkaku is releasing his BANKAI.....
faints....

i feel bad. for doing things that piss ppl off and pissed myself as well.
Im sorry for slandering darren in m msn nick and blocking him, i wasnt in my right mind, but since he said the "f" word, i shall not feel obliged to apologize.
i feel bad, coz i couldnt control myself and got caught playing solitaire by my dad, even tho he repeatedly drummed in me that the next time i was caught playing would mean that he's given up on me. pretty extreme, but i trampled on his words, and here i am, feeling stupid and regretful. wad should i say to him?
i admit i'm in the wrong, but its hard to put into words.
I m not normal today.
I need to get out.
think i shud go to sleep early and wake up early tmr, to drive myself through another day of studying and another day of continuous self-motivation...i wonder how long it will keep me going. i seem to have exhausted every drop of energy i hold. right now, i'm dried up.
I don't wish to go any further.
let me stay here, let me rest.
let me recollect myself. please dont give up on me. it makes me sad.
despite telling myself that my dad's never serious abt matters like this, it still scares the shit out of me....
i miss my mom...

i shall go to sleep. only sleep can comfort me, it gives me a few hrs of peace before having to face the tiring procedural days ahead.
how i wish that i can be someone who's dependable, reliable, who does what she says,someone who keeps her promise. if i were to be my dad, i would desperately want to track that stray naughty sperm back in preventing this hazard coming into earth.

i m tired. i shall sleep.....

ooo long time no blogged...

jajaja, feeling good ^^, listening to Hirahara's song, it was amazing that she had tt NAGORI YUKI song in her album, i heard that song in the jap show Mr Tok lent me. It was nice ^^.
now i shall try to remember for the past..5 days...
wednesday - thursday...
me went to that ulu leadership camp, 2 days 1 night, luckily. Tell you what, it SUX!
Didn't do anything exciting. I thought that the Kayaking and mud walk would be fun, but NO, it wasnt. for kayaking, we only wet ourselves to do the stupid capsize drill (dam, one ugly woman juz walked by, yuck ><), we werent even this far from the shore, and i lost my socks.... it left me feeling grumpy all day. After the freaking capsize drill, we were to sit in the "field kitchen" and listen to that rotting instructor do theory work on "How to be a Leader", how lame. Knowat, they referred to us as "leaders" like "oi, leaders, come'ere..." (and stuff liddat), lame right! And i bet they think it was so clever...diunz...
I was damn grumpy so i wasn listening to tt instructor, i was talking to huimin they all. then the stupid instructor made me stand up and tell them wad i was talking abt. Shux... so i did tell them wad i was saying. He then went hypocritic, saying that what i said was right, and he think it was right too, and blah blah, but was trying all ways to rebutt me la, hypocrite...(ooo, this song is nice ^^, ayaka hirahara ^^)
aft tt we went to pitch out tents, it was the only fun thing lor. the tent was a what they called luxurious tent (or whatsoever). Dam big. materials : one very heavy sheet which i dono what its called, 2 shorter wooden poles with protruding nails on one end, and one very long pole that is supposed to be the roof, and 8 guide lines and 8 pins, oh and 8 floorboards.
we spent like one hr or so pitching the tents. aft which, from what i rmb, we went to the field kitchen again, to listen to cock. we were supposed to come up with some stupid skit or song or smth. I wasnt listening, as usual... my grps presentation was shit, Im not complaining..^^
dinner was fun, we cooked it ourselves, was supposed to come up with 10 different dishes. it started raining halfway, so we went to cook in the MPH(multi-purpose-house, diunz). haha our prized dish was cooked rice with curry powder wrapped in raw cabbage, LOL!!!! the food was nice, really, personally, i find the magee mee really appetizing ^^.
so aft doing the skit and stuff, we cleaned up la, showered, then went to sleep in our tents. there were 6 of us in our tent. Eunice, Huimin, Cheryl, Amy and her fren, plus me. we didnt talk much and went to sleep. The sleeping part is the funnest part of the camp, i think ^^. It was nice, sleeping with rain drumming above our heads, relaxing ^^. We got to sleep another 30 min coz it was raining heavily in the morning, wopee.
the next day, thursday, a good day, coz we are leaving!!!
we had to unpitch our tents aft breakfast. speaking of unpitching, theres someone i muz muz bring up. it is tt amy's fren, dono whats her name, she's super irritating! i took out the pins, ask her to wash, and she washed for so damn long, slowly take her time, when we were working to our death trying to wipe the bloody sheet clean. when she came back right, she didnt pick up the cloth and help out kno, she juz stood there holding the broom and talk cock. she thinks she's so pro, order ppl arnd, when she herself sit thr and talk, i really felt like kicking her face. i showed her that i was irritated and ask her to stop talking and get to work.
finally, we cleaned up everything, was so tired that i thot i will die. then we got to kno that only our sheet was clean and passed expectations, all the other 6 failed and had to be recleaned. dam...
so once again, we got down on all fours and start wiping like wiping was our lifetime achievement. that stupid ger was there again slacking when the others were working like dogs. ok, skip the cleaning.
at last, we finished, it was a great sense of satisfaction, coz our group managed to clean 3 goddam sheets ^^. i refuse to talk abt wad tt shit ger did.
then blah blah, more talking and stupid stuff, and area cleaning (diunz) we were leaving!!!!
finally...

that was the camping story, not very interesting..
the next day, i went to dentist, got my other 2 extractions, this time no so fun, coz it came out too fast... >< now i have 4 metal ring-like things on my 4 back teeth, wasnt tt bad, at least i can still chew with these things on.

yesterday, we sent me mom off to the airport, i can see that mom was very happy, she wore all red, woo, hot, lol. finally, aft so many years, mom was going back to China, Chengdu, of course she's happy. She's leaving for a week or two. and during this period, i hav the whole house to myself, muarharhahrar, weeeeeee. my dad only comes home in the aftnn, muarharharhhar, even better ^^. it feels good to be in charge, ^^.

change of plans, gonna watch HP4 with Shimin and Joanne, coz my Dad no time to watch with me, ><.

yup tts abt all, ^^...
i was frustrated with OekakiCentral yesterday, I couldnt submit the little devil that i drew due to some technical problems, and tt picture wasnt saved. T.T.... i m on drawing frenzy lately, cant help it, its a way of de-pressuring, i suppose. betta than nothing, altho i often end up frustrated...:P...
heez.

extracted my teeth ^^

i went to get my two outgrowth extracted yesterday.
i used to be scared of extracting me tooth, supprisingly it was pretty fun ^^.
the fun part was when the doc injected tt "numb" drug, i forgot wat its called, anaethetic?? :P.
haha then half of my face went numb and my gums feel swollen, i lost control of my left nostril...muahaha, it was hilarious!!!
she starts to mess with my two outgrowths, using something tt looked like screwdriver...lol, i kind of felt the flesh separate from the tooth, a quick sense of pleasure, how perverted....
ya, the extraction went well, and i didnt bleed alot, the wound healed pretty fast. Places near my head heals faster than places far from my head...lol.. the wound doesn hurt anymore, it is the blue rubberbands tt POON stuffs into my teeth tt is irritating. It feels like u have left overs stuck in between ur teeth, big chunks. every bite will induce a moment of pain and pressure on my gums. pain ~~
other than that, i have no complains for getting my teeth extracted, now i can at least smile normally, no more ugly protrusions and well i look better on photos now. happiness ^^

aaa irritated, my dad nag me again, cannot play game le, even msn solitaire also don let me play, iz this how to treat a ill person?! i may die of depression or lack of fun and games....
o crap, maybe i shall go sleep.
blog again tmr.
see tt i changed my blogskin?
haha, me so proud
coz i made it!!! partly. but still i m very proud muahahahar ^^
today, there was a manga workshop by INOUE at Jurong East Library. haha. they called it a crashcourse, nah, e philix, or wadever his name was, taut only the very basics, and they still had e cheek to ask us by how much did tt course improve our knowledge on e subject on the survey. crap.
but then i met this Liz ger, her drawings are superb! i feel so inferior, T.T...
I aspire to draw better than her! and tadaa, i have a new motivation, vroom vroom...
really, i need to put in more hardwork, i really have to, i havnt been drawing lately, and it gets rusty without practice....
i need inspiration!!!! i don wan my pieces to come out all with the same ppl doing the same things, wearing the same expresiion!
I want my drawings to be able to convey somthing!
something meaningful, not just a pretty ger posing.
But something much deeper, with a message.
ya, tt wld be nice ^^.
ok. tt's abt all.
ha and i saw tt short guy again, hahaha

baaa

its not her fault that she didnt know!
It's not her fault that at her hometown,
Mary did not have a lamb, maybe mary had a dog or a cat.
Really, its not her fault...

doops...havnt touched GB for days...my heart yearns for it. Perhaps i might get to play a teeny little bit tmr...prayzzzzzzz

fergot to mention yesterday. tuesday i went out wif shimin, haha, i finally saw her wear skirt... ^^ (i sound weird...) ya, we went to Genki Sushi to ask abt part times, and ya it's probably another gone case. Lala~~ but the impt part was when we were at Kino, there were many JaP guys, woohooo!! excitment ^^ lol...
haha there were 2 grps of them, maybe they went there as one grp but split up eventually. haha geeks and hunks, woot! for some reason, i just cant resist jap guys, ill fall head over heels for them, heex... shimin wished me luck in getting a jap bf nxt time, and i wished her luck in getting a korean one.
we wondered how come singapore guys does not have the luring characteristics of jap guys although they try means and ways to look like them, but in the end turn out a flop. whew~~~
i got a flu, and e right nostril wont stop running, irritatin, really.
haha i did a stunt with me boogie just now, i made a bubble, lol, wot a feat! the bubble was reeally big u kno, 0.0
and i was seen by me dad when i accidentally flicked my tissue out of da window...lmao, well, he told me to go pick it up.
i've been very hardworking these two days, and i hope i can keep it up. Nxt yr is dreadful, and I need to be prepared, for unseen circumstances may occur.
come to think of it, this yr passed so fast, that i couldnt blive how fast it past.... i can still rmb at e start of e yr, i was thinking tt O's were still hell far away. but now, seems like they were right at me dorrstep. prrrr, shivers...

hmm, someone muz b glad tt i updated, huh. ^^

fine! i shall update. :D heex...nothing much to say anyway.
i got inspired and decided to change the "PONG SHUI" of my study, harhar.
I singlehandledly shifted de table and singlehandledly dismembered my com and joined them back, woot! wot a sense of satisfaction ^^.
yesterday, e uncle from next door suddenly started talking to me, freaky, :P. He's a nice person, I think, but i juz cant figure out y he started to talk to me all of a sudden...
i m looking all over for the midi for GLAYxEXILE - SCREAM, i juz watched the mtv a few days ago, and i was shocked. it was SUPER COOOOOL!!!!!! I had always knu that EXILE was great at dancing, and the mtv totally enhances my thot. IT WAS COOL BEYOND EXPLANATION!!!! i wish i can put it up here, but i dono how.... sobx...
my dad's picking on me every now and then, i m getting used to it alr...haha, my mom was right, what does it matter? He's my dad and he likes to pick on me, so let him pick all he want then, i shall be wise to keep my mouth shut and listen to de weird little things he comes up to irritate me, hmmm, quite interesting sometimes. ^^
did i mention that my year end results suck?
it sucked....like hell! i was so ashamed to bring that piece of dog poo paper home to let my dad sign, boohoooooooo. sigh...that is y i need to change e PONG SHUI...
I like tt MTV commercial abt the PONG SHUI, its so funny!!! MUARHARHARHAR! I wonder whether i can download it somewhere, hmmm ...

i had been a very obedient and initiative girl today, and i award myself for that, coz end of yr is arnd the corner, and I must get good grades this time, at least my L1R5 less than 10, so i studied with fervour and enthusiasm for the whole aftnn, the prime of my life was spent studying, isnt that sweet ^^
Dad went out wit Mom to help me get a mouse, coz the previous went crazy, and I had been sticking to my Graphier, and was afraid that it might spoil under my care, so they went to buy a new one, i was spposed to tag along but I had to study so i stayed behind.
When my Dad came back, I knew it would happen that way, he bought a laptop mouse for me and it was useless...so out of pure frustration, i went out on my own and bot a normal-for-God's-sake mouse, and a USB plug or smth, it was pink, and it was cute, it cost 40 bucks and I bought it, total I spent 70 bucks today...
and now my new mouse is juz lying on the table, alittle bit to my east, emitting mesmerizing blue light, just cant take my hands of it, and once again, I proclaim that I have unique and good taste, weeeeeee!
A few days ago, my ReGet Deluxe went expired, I dono y, its not supposed to be since I had registered it with Keygen, but it juz went expired....sad...,it's the best download manager I've used and now I cant use it anymore, booohoooo T_T...
Now I'm downloadin DAP, and it's freaking slow, coz there's little seed, and its only a mere 3mb, infuriating....uuuurgh...
hmmm, I had planned to download Windows XP Professional but was unsuccessful coz it's kind of old and nbd's seeding it....wewewewewew
Bitcomet has been updated to version 0.60, not much difference except now that it has a Preview feature, amazing (my foot)...
Next thurs is the start of the dreaded days, and I dare say I'm not prepared for it, why? BECAUSE THE FREAKING GEOGRAPHY IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate geog, i hate geog....i hate it..........

i need a shrink...

I m telling you, I'm gonna go crazy one of these days...
I've pouring over geography for 2 days, and I realized I can't take it animore, geog disgusts me, it makes my life super difficult, as if I'd need them when i grow up...
what am I gonna do during my weekend?
do i have to say?
coz it freaks me out...
well i juz have to revise everything i need to revise..
Im having my dinner now, 1130pm...taste like shit...
and Im looking out fer a super fuking mosquito under my table, if it bites me again, it's gonna get it, try doing me when i m like this, it wont hav a tiny bit of him left, for sure.

MOm's Birthday today, ^^
Wish u a happy birthday, and happy everyday ^^, Love ya Lots ^^

due to something, mom doesnt wanna celebrate her birthday anymore, its been like that for 2 years already. I really dont wish to see my Mom being sad and gloomy, I like her when she overpowers my Dad, I like her when she orders people arnd (not me preferably), she gives me a sense of power when she does tt, and I really want to tell her tt i hope she can do it more often...am i weird or wad?
anyway, last night I couldnt sleep so i got up and arnd 12 and played Gb til 2 and then watched Full Metal Alchemist episode 35. It was gruesome, the people in tt village getting Fossil Disease and the way they die is very disgusting, stone-fied...Full metal is a very realistic anime if you ask me, very distinguished and very true, i always cry watching Full metal..sighs..
and aft last night, i conclude tt i play Gb better at night, becoz I kept winning that's why. I even managed HIgh Angles using turtle...blooodi, I was amazed ^^. I shall try tml night, coz tonight really need some sleep, else I wont be able to wake up tml morning.

today arh, another boring day~~~
i purposely got my hair cut yesterday for today's photo taking, in the end i forgot to apply wax la, and it went like this way --->, and tt way <----. totally ugly, ha, this year's photo cannot block shimin's face liao, darnz....
before the photo taking, mr lim came to talk to me, ask me why these days my face so black, and i told him coz school is very boring, then he started telling me stuff tt i heard from my parents, o well, i guess everybd says da same thing anyway..
i dono why, its not i nv tried to perk up in school, but it's juz so damn gloomy tt it affects my mood lo, then i also got nothing to talk to my frens ma, no common stuff to talk, dono wad rongji or smth, haiz, can't say its lame la, onli i dono how to appreciate lo.
i rmb, last time, someone asked me what are frenz for...and that and then i replied a stupid answer, and tt person probably thinks i m a shallow person.
wad are frenz for?
i wonder whether i do have any true frenz at all...
why do i compel myself to do things i don like?
whats freaking wrong with me?
o fook, i don giv a damn, juz get this 2 yrs over n done with la, damn frustrating sometimes.
I need to adjuz myself, whether my attitude or my character or anithin liddat...
should hav more confidence in myself la, then i'd dare to go talk to daryl, darnz...
then should also believe in myself more, not everything other ppl say is correct one...
and i should like myself more also, coz if everybody hates me, then who's left to love me?
i wonder....
anyway, heck la, shud concentrate studying and don freaking give a damn abt other ppl, coz they don affect me, they cant and they wont....
I m a loner, but i am not alone, i need to find someone who understands me, and knows me....not juz some half hearted ppl trying to be nice.......

Oh My Goodness!
I'm gonna be a freaking lesbian??!!
Coz last night i dreamt that I was getting married with a WOMAN!!!!
oh god, pls don let mi be a lesbian T_T, and then i dreamt tt my dad was wearing striking pink pants and running arnd the place, i guess it was a church...i guess
lol my super weird dream, my "wife" was a Japanese I think....
PPl say wad happens in dreams are opposite in reality... which means I'm not a lesbian, and my "husband"'s gonna be a jap...
lol..crap
Never knew that I was an emotional person, I cried ALOT of times this week.
I cry when I watch Full Metal Alchemist.
I cry when I read "CRYING OUT LOVE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE WORLD"
I cry when I watch "Mr Tok's VCD"
I cry when I watch "DA CHANG JIN"
....
cry so much, so not like mi. Got problems liao...tsk tsk

A VErY MeAnINgFul Day

wops...
ok, went for dental today, did the model of my teeth and x-ray and scaling, was a horrible day, well actually not that bad, all the pains and going-to-pukes aside, it was quite ok.
ya, april was right, the x-ray thing they stuff into ur mouth really makes you wanna puke, i wonder how i did managed to refrain from vomiting.
Reached Outram at 7.30am, was 45 min early, so we went to the food court to eat breakfast. Went for appment at 8.15 and they started messing with my mouth...
first they told me to swallow all my saliva, then dr POON stuffed this black metal scoopy thing into my mouth, took it out, filled the scoop with green plasticine stuff, was THIS much u kno, and stuffed back into my mouth. That's supposed to be molding the shape of my teeth, so POON pressed the scoop down onto my lower teeth, with so much force that i thought my jaw's gonna drop, she took it out juz b4 i was about to puke. then she did the same to my upper jaw...aft tt i was made to bite down hard onto some pink plastic mold or smth. O, then she took pictures of my teeth and dadada, i was told to take x-ray at lvl 4...
The x-ray was stupid, had to stand in some stupid postition and grabbing some stupid handle and bitting some stupid thing....took me half an hr.
At 9 smth, i went down to lvl 4, for scaling. tt's when the pain began...
it was painful even to juz recall...
aiya continue tml...now i go sleep liao

he~~llo~~

ok, I'm blogging bcoz someone told me to update.
O where shall I start...
Alot has happened last week...
Some really sad things, I shall not mention, coz it's not my right to talk about it.
And I went for dental appment, the Doc POON told me that my brushing is bad, and probably may need to go thru surgery to correct my jaws after the braces. and blahblahblah...
OK, guess what time did I go to sleep last night? Or rather this morning? Ha, 6am, half an hour before my Dad wakes up for work, pro right, haha, I played GB till 4am then went to my room and read comics till 6...not a very healthy lifestyle, but it doesnt hurt if i do it once in a while...
So I woke up 1130 today by the beautiful sound of the horny GaLangGuNi man, washed up and ate my lunch at the dining rm, watching vcd, the one i borrowed from Mr Tok.
Addicting, really, took me a long while to switch.
Left home at 3 to go take passport size photo for my JLPT exam form, got really pissed off by that OBAASAN, coz she kept critisizing my hair and finally in the end said that "you are not very good looking...". I took it personally and I stared at her, and said "I'm SO sorry..." and I left. Not very harsh, I should have made it sharper and so that she ...o well, I'm a magnanimous puuurrson....~~~
ya, so aft tt i went to Kovan to hand in my registration form, I had worried abt whether the school had alrdy closed for the day coz the time was 1530 and today's a sunday...you know~~ but luckily, i kind of ran into the principal, and so managed to hand in the form without a wasted trip.
Ok, maths qn.
$(75 - 27.5 - 27 - 2.5 - 3.9 - 2.7)= $5.40

The above calculation is the finance of today. Amazing rite...
The best part of today is the walking-home-from-the-busstop section. Guess who i saw!?
DARRYL!!! WOOHOO!!!
I was brave today, and I walked inside the basketball court, so to be nearer...teehee, ya and I saw him glancing .... u know, and then....u know....hahahahha, i cant continue....gotten all excited juz to recall....
haha, ya, but he's not alone, so I didn bother to go talk to him...
ok abt all, haha

SORA JIMA

juz watched ONE PIECE EPISODE 152, the part where they set out to Sky Island (Sora Jima), they had to ride on the sea explosion current in order to reach the sky.......i got soooo gan dong!!! i'm like all teary now, sobs, juz too magnificent alr.......one piece is the only anime that can make me cry, haha ^^. SORA JIMA NI IKE!!!!
O shux go to rush fer my lesson liao. SARABA TOMOYO!!~~~

one more thing

o, juz now 4got to mention.
this aftnn, i was doing hw with ShiQi at the tables near the badminton court, then suddenly got this stupid indian man appear behind me then down there blabber blabber. we couldnt understand a shit he was saying coz he's drunk and it was damn smelly, and he was like coming nearer and nearer to me, i thought he was asking us for money, then both of us were like damn scared.
finally i understood what he was talking abt, he mistook shiqi as my mother coz he refered to me as "son" (darn...) then he was like scolding shiqi for teaching me maths is chinese..........lame right? wth, damn smelly somemore, at first i thought he was going to punch me, uuurgh, disgusted...
then i was like "oh ya, oh i see, thank u bye bye..." then he went off....phew, i really thought he was going to punch me.......T_T
when we were "attacked" by that man, there were actually 2 other persons sitting there, they like ran away aft they saw that guy approaching, omfg, so irresponsible, at least can warn us right. some helpful stupid singaporeans la...
hmphf

walao

freaking hell juz quarrel wif my dad, i was minding my own business then he come and find fault from me, say i nv do homework, like shit man, i do until no more homework to do alr still wan2 do, keep comparing me with my cousin, he can go america uni, so what? keep saying liddat i keep playing canot go uni, keep saying that i cannot go uni, keep saying i canot go uni, when i tell him i can go, he will glare at me and ask whether i can anot, then im left to agree with him that i cannot go uni, then he will threaten to slap me, my fucking hell, then wat u wan me to do? keep doing homework wont get me to uni one lor, wat the hell.... o lvl havn take yet tell me abt uni, my fucking hell!!!!!
hate it lor, walau, he liddat my mother also liddat, they juz wan to see me sitting at the table looking at a book or wadever they are so like jumping in joy, freaking ppl, liddat can uni izzit? then i shall sit at the table and stare my way to uni lor, fuck u man.
stupid shit, now i hate everyone, spoil my god dam mood, do homework liao lor, walao, what else can i do? freakking stupid shit.

trigonometric functions

harhar, was taught trigo by my DAD jus now, was hilarious...
not really funny juz now, but come to think of it now omg, harhar dam funny...
actually if i were to be taught maths by my DAD i m a genius by now, harhar, really my DAD's reeeeeeaaaally pro at maths, can't help but wonder whether i inherited his genes or not...i think i did...hehe
well, trigo isn't so bad, juz have to rmb that secant cosecant and cotagent thingy, takes a little bit of time, but turns out to be no problem for me, ^^ i may not be a maths genius, but i'm not stupid either...I'M SMART YOU KNOW...TEEHEE, my head's getting big...
i love me DADDY ^^ and i kno he loves me too, tho he keeps shouting at me and i keep shouting back, i can't find another better DAD than my DAD, and well, hehe, my DAD ROCKS!!!!
phew, one week gone, tests over, left one more cheng yu test to go, i feel so guilty for not being able to go deeper into Chinese and stuff, chinese lessons all so damn slag, hate it u kno, hate it when april and abel and yuxian they all keep saying chinese sux, like hell lor, if it really sux, then don speak la, haiya, so infuriating... anyway, made up my mind to take LEP when i go to JC. Can take 2 LEPs? Feel like taking both Chi and Jap hehe.......I pray....
hmm...today's download rate was pretty low, but i feel quite accomplished coz i managed to download Shaman King from 15% to 30% in 2 days, impressive eh? hope it finishes soon ^^
sometimes i don like her (not namin in case ppl see n spread) coz i find that she could be quite selfish at times, wad she think abt is, how to say, superficial stuff, she did not even want to explore deeper into the matter and consider things from other ppl's objective, i mean sometimes when she talk abt stuff it's all abt what she thinks, and most of the time what she thinks are pretty incomprehensible by me, not that I totally don't understand but it's that I myself will not think that way, that way which makes things so complicated...anyway this is juz sometimes of her, i can take it u know, harhar, gtg, go throw rubbish liao...

omg...

Jian Gui le!!!
I was playing gunbound juz now ma, then use random bot, guess wad, i kena 6 time knight u know!!! 6FREAKING TIMES!!! Freaky lor then also alot ppl got dragon today, the dragon's ss damn coooooool, dono how to describe la, dam coool jiu dui le.
T.T so gan dong, sob sob.
Tml, last paper, yippee, so happy then can come home right after school to watch BLEACH and NARUTO!!!!
OMG I LOVE THURSDAYS, Y? COZ GOT NARUTO AND BLEACH MA. LOL HARHAR
K LA, GO SLEEP LE, TODAY NEW BEDSHEETS, HELLO KITTY ONE, LOL, SO CUTEE, JUZ LIKE MOI
MUARHARHHAR

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o well since i got nth to do, i shall blog once in awhile.
hmm...today national day celebration, i sang Singapore's National Anthem and said their pledge.......well no harm done, but I shall not be loyal to another country..... o well.........
Then aft long long time of standing in the freakking parade square, or wadever that piece of shit is, then we set out to collect newspaper frm BLK 536.
I dono, i juz went there to knock on doors and collect newspapers, and i most probably didn do anything else.
Then aft that we went to J8 to eat pasta, there goes my 10 bucks, sobs...all for April's wish to eat pasta wif shimin n me......and on our way we met LinXiu and Eunice. Speakin of Eunice, she's my hope, to get the OBS shirts that I was unable to get last time..heehee, lucky lucky.
O and we saw this whole group of Japanese students walking around in J8, I think they are on exchange program with RJC, so goooood, and there's this guy who looked like SHINYA whom I had the chance to tok to but was too wimpy to do so.....I will reflect upon this......
aft which we left and went back home and later went to play badminton with April...
That's abt all that happened today.....
I find that I'm getting more and more compressed.....or smth liddat, can't think of that stupid word.
Well I talk less and less, and I'm like dying most of the time, I used to think that I'm that way coz I didn get enough sleep or I'm hungry...well I may be wrong...I donno, maybe its my problem, that I don mix ard with ppl well.....Mrs Lee said that I need to talk more..........Like I didn't knoe........ haiz, where did the crazy and crappy me go to? Screams........
I need a holiday, a real holiday, to go somewhere far far away and enjoy myself a little, i feel as if I'm wasting my life and my time......how can it be liddat?
O and this aftnn i msg ChenYong, again, he got scolded by his mom, and his mom said that I'm Bu 3 Bu 4 de ger...I feel traumatised.......don dare to msg him anymore.
O freaking hell, I feel much much better aft blogging, maybe I shall revive me blog... ya I really should...
hmmm...seems to me that me and Tyler are not gonna keep in touch anymore.....o well,i dono what to say....very sad izznt it......
o well hope that this yr goes by and nxt yr whizzez past and I m nowhere near the freaking Anderson.....
yes finally i get to sleep for all i want tml, I really need to get some sleep man.
I think i'm slimming down.....that's a good thing, think maybe i need to go out start jogging again.
U know, most of the time I'm alone, and maybe that's why I can't mix arnd with ppl so much, but like hell, I'm not those crazy ppl........ ok, i shall stop......

hahaha

hmm havn been posting, shux...
well yesterday was fun, its good to have a friend who lives near u, haha, went to play badminton with April aft school, then aft tt went to sit at the basketball court to watch ppl play. Was reeeli funny, we named everybody there, Got DouJiYan, Fire,Sissy,Japan, Monkey,DuZi, Bernard, and last but not least,Whale2!!! haha, its a long story how these names came about. haha, the DouJiYan was dam stupid, but dam funny hahahaha.
Whale2 is the SHUAI-EST guy there playin bball, called him whale2 coz he resembles April's Wilson (Whale1) haha.

destitute

um, my phone got confiscated by me folks on friday, coz my bills came, and as usual it shot everywhere, but friday was a good day...haha. Y? It was badminton with Tyler day, narharhar, guess i made a big fool of myself by playin with him coz his pro...haiz, harhar...v nice day ^^
then saturday was the NTU Ignite Hunt '05 thing, it was reaally fun. We met this really handsome ANgMo guy at that food court at ChinaTown there, haha had loads of fun n laughs discussing how we are gonna go over n say hi......we couldn muster the courage to do that, but when he was about to leave, we managed to say bye, harhar, he was so nice..........^^ omg, we name him Peter, haha,
then becoz it was so fun on saturday we went on the sunday one as well. Very fun as well. its really a very good experience n maybe we'd want to do it nxt yr n nxt nxt yr ........as well.
today is a fuckin boring day, because its school......i dreaded this day but it arrived even sooner.. sobs....
I havn toked to Tyler for quite a few days, hope he still thinks of me, i don wanna lose contact with him..........T.T
ok that's all. Oral exam's starting soon, i hope i can do well, really! o well..not convincing enough...

hmm

today went to ai tong school there play vball, very sian to tell the truth and Ive gone thru alot of trouble, most of which are caused by my very own stupidity tho so I've got no one to blame....
O well I was s'posed to meet shimin n april them two at the bus stop opp shimin's place at 12pm, I was watching tv so I left realli late. I reached the 72 bus stop and sat there for like 15 min when finally the bus came, I realized tt my EZLINK was missing. I was frantic so i traced my route back to my home, rammed my house then went out again, haiz, poor me did so many extra things..... then wad, b4 crossing the road to the bus stop, where a bunch of hougang sec boys sat there howling like dogs, and I spotted my dear ezlink lying there, on the floor...
Oh well guess I cant be more grateful, (oops forgot to shower.....) yar, tt's my story.
I dropped my ezlink twice today, and thank god for showerin me with love and care, that I still possess the damned card, thanks to shimin n april for savin me ass....guess i really need to find a better place for the card....
Yar abt the vball, it was ok, play wit small kids, I acted stupid of coz, like i don make a fool of myself playin vball? Tt's not quite possible lol, thats me...
WEll one thing i muz mention, the wu shu did seem really fun, and their wu shu lao shi was cooooool.
And yar Jelyn n MeiYan were there too, I dono, we kind of like drifted away.....haiz...sad neh. But I don really like them keep u knoe tokin abt tjc stuff, its not tt im not interested, but when u overdo it, it seems like they are tryin to show off, not that I don understand y they wanna do tt, but yar, doesn really feel that comfortable if u get wad I mean........
Guess I pissed my Dad off pretty much with my Gunbound indulgence these few days. I was juz starting to understand boomer when I hav ta pull myself out frm these desires (accordin to wad my dad said). O well, guess it can't be helped, I hav to prove him wrong that I can do well when I play, I blive I wil do well if I put my heart to it, really, thats how much confidence I hav, which goes to explain y I did so badly last term, tt's coz I didn really care abt studyin, too much confidence... oh well, guess the lord didn give me a brain fer nth. aaa, frustration, I m turnin nocturnal, if I wanna play gb, I hav ta wait til my dad goes to sleep, diu.........
oh well gtg, sleep awhile, come back l8r to battle......
so gay my entry, blah blah...

中島美佳 レジェンド

Legend レジェンド
Mika Nakashima.中島美佳

awai orenji no kami yuraide　　　　　　　淡いオレンジの髪揺らいで
tooku kimi ga mieta kigashite　　　　　　遠く君が見えた気がした
atari miwasu keredo shitteru　　　　　　　当たり見和すけれど知ってる
koko ni iru hazu mo nai koto wa　　　　　 ここにいるはずもないことは
mune wo kiri hiraite omoide wo nagame　胸を切り開いて思い出を眺め
zutto wasurezu ikite yuku hou ga ii no?　　 ずっと忘れず生きて　ゆくほうがいいの　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

kimi wa yume de oyoideru 　　　　　　　　　　 　　君は夢で泳いでる
ningyo ni nareta kara　　　　　　　　　　　　　 　　　人魚になれたから
nemuri ni tsuita watashi wo annai shite yo ne　 眠りについた私を案内してよね

douka mou ichido ude nobaseba　 　　　　　　　　どうかもう一度　腕伸ばせば
todoku basho ni kimi wo modoshite　 　　　　　　届く場所に　君を戻して
ame wo kasa de fusaida namida mo　 　　　　　　　雨を傘でふさいだ　涙も
kata ga nure kokoro made nureta　 　　　　　　　　　肩が濡れ　心まで濡れた

ude wo kami kudaite kokoro kara toozake　 腕を髪砕いて　心から遠ざけ
kitto wasurezu ikite yuku koto ga ii no.　　　　きっと忘れず　生きて事がいいの

kimi wa yume de oyoideru 　　 　　　　　　　　君は夢で泳いでる
ningyo ni nareta kara　　　　　 　　　　　　　　　人魚になれたから
osanai koro ni mite ita 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　押さないころに見ていた　
yuuhi de tokashite yo　 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　夕日で溶かしてよ

an na suteki na hi wo　　　　　　　 あんな　素適な　日を
an na taisetsuna mirai wo　　　　　 あんな　大切未来を
naze kantan ni ubatte shimau no?　 なぜ簡単に奪ってしまうの

kimi wa yume de oyoideru 　 　　　　君は夢で泳いでる
ningyo ni nareta kara　　　　 　　　　　人魚になれたから
fukaku shizunda 　　　　　　　　　　　　　 深く沈んだ　
omoi wo atsumete hoshi e　 　　　　　　　思いを集めてほしへ

kimi wa yume de oyoideru 　 　　　君は夢で泳いでる
ningyo ni nareta kara　 　　　　　　　　人魚になれたから
namida karashite utau yo　　　　　　　 涙からしてよ
muku wareru youni　　　 　　　　　　　　　報われるように
muku wareru youni　　　　　　　　　　　　　 報われるように
yume de aimashou　　　 　　　　　　　　　　　　夢で会いましょう

one of the best day of my life; best day

if i don blog now i dono when i will haha
yar as u can see, today is the TYLER movie day la. haha, quite fun, we caught up abit coz havn't toked for a long time, haiz, starting to miss him alr.
he is so clumsy, man i cant blive it, he can be walking and continuousli droppin stuff at the same time, and he lost his wallet, pathetic, haiya, then he got no money to take bus, hahaha, so ke lian, I saved his ass la of coz.
We were supposed to watch Star Wars la, but I was late so we watched Madagascar instead, which was the onli movie available at 2 o'clock, it is a stupid movie, and i totalli regret watching it, see who's the producer then it'd not be so shockin, hmm who is the producer actualli?
Nvm... b4 the movie we went like walk all over the place la, quite stupid, then down there tok abt stupid things, haha, then we watched SHin-Chan and laff like idiots. haha
Aft the movie we went to sit outside the Woodlands MRT and talk talk la.
Actualli we are not that kind of relationship leh, no boy and ger fren la, juz v good frenz haha, like brothers liddat, haha.
Thx alot for ShiMin and April, my dear dear darlings who accompanied me, tk u ppl!!! Luv u!

hmm...let's see...

woohoo holiday post sheesh, time reeeeli flies, haha.
Last friday we had our Sports Carnival, way cool, altho our class didnt realli win anithing, (bleahx) but we sure had a good time, And Yuu was so deliberate, he kept walking ard infront of me, harharhar :)
Then Ethel and Jelyn came also, I humped them, muaharharhar, miss them sooooo much, got carried away. They are reeeeli bad ppl, keep saying TJC rox, haiz, purposely make me feel miserable, but, i have to look open abit, this is how ppl are like, have to bear with things like this.
Then yesteray, Saturday, mornin we went for our IPW thingie, went to MINDS (Home for the Intelligentli disabled of Singapore; smth liddat), well, we had our fun, the ppl there are nice, and this one thing I like abt them is that they are real, not like those hypocrites out there. haha, we did musical chair, limbo, and captain's ball and stuff, reeeeli fun.
Aft that I went to bedok, TJC open house, yar, it was nice, harhar, alot of good lookin ppl, harhar, saw Jelyn Ethel MeiYan Kumaran n KaiJie, and their dear Mr Hasim, haha, they were a funny bunch. AAAh, envious envious envious......
haha, my bad, didnt gib my best tt time, but who cares, wads done is done, anyway i hav my own clique now, and Im happy wit wad i hav. haha, and I have TYLER!!! MAHARHARHAR. :)
then aft that went to bedok mrt to wait fer my fwen to pass me e long waited package frm me gramp. then went back with Ethel..yar, tiring day.
Nxt Saturday is MOVIE WITH TYLER DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YIPEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!
hmmm, wad else?
today aft my jap class, went shopping wit ShiQi, she wanted to buy stuff for her Sec3 camp. I forgib her as this is her first time goin camp, coz in my opinion, u r supposed to bring all the lousy stuff for camps and stuff, and hers are all brand nu. It doesnt make sense....... haha, and she did one reeeeli funni thing when we were on our way home. hahahahahahah, think of it make me laff............
tml, maths extra lesson at 8, yar, tt's all............
I wonder when tt Mac person is gonna call me............................
nite nite ;)

o long time no blogged, i juz found out who natlehte is, and I m not telling, haha. lamo.......
ha, another boring day, with the same schedule and doing the same things again and again.........how's tat? my life is so wonderful....
haiz, wad again?
I hope naruto 135 comes out soon, e last episode was way too powerful, can't really get over it yet, u see.
I almost failed my english paper, but in the end I managed to pass it, and my overall was a C.. I can alr predict wad me old man's gonna say........haha
I dl many many OST s today, wonders whether i've the time to listen anot.
And I found out that the Hokage's funeral theme song name is actuallly called "Grief and Sorrow"....
yar, tt's abt all......
today e chinese talent time, e only thing that I wanna say abt it is, CHEW YAN IS A BITCH!!!!!!!
hmmm, sounds bad enough.............

sianz

Guess what.
Last night, I got caught, caught toking on the phone, by my dad, and o god, had to "keep it low" for "A COUPLE OF WEEKS!" O god, I wonder how am i gonna pull thru these days, i m getting too attached with ........ sighs, but my dad's reaction was so weird..he didnt even scold me, he didnt even seem to think tt i was talking on the phone, was I really tt lucky? Or was it my dad trust me too much? I wonder, i feel kind of guilty when I'm actually doing this, feels as if I'm betraying my Dad's trust..........is it really that bad?
Aft i hang up last night, he msg me, he said he got shocked when he heard my dad's voice over the phone, and stuff liddat, and he said he wont blame my father for, he's only protecting his daughter............ i got pretty touched, and got swarming with tears. He's so understanding and mature and omg, he's all that I look for in a guy and in a friend. He is about the best guy I've ever known (so far), tks alot man, love u.
lucky i still have those msg left in my phone, I guess i'd be able to pull thru the low-lying period with them. I hope u do the same..........
haiz..........sighs again..........why does it have to be so complicated?

dum dee dum

another tiring day, haaa, it's juz so good to be home.............I wonder when will i be having my own home.........
tell u wad, MARCHEN AWAKENS ROMANCE ROXXXXXXXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!
OMg, it's juz way too cool, its abt mixing fairy tales with all those stuffs, the whole thing is abt ARM, weapons they use, which are in forms of accessories. WAY COOL man, bracelet and stuff, and turning into weapons and shields?! MAn, it's juz out of the world.......

I played gunbound juz now, it's been really really long, e last time i played was sec one.......haha, bad memories u see. Today i played again, wonder wad went wrong with me, and I played so stupidly i actually shot myself, harhar, they called me shyt ass, or smth liddat, haha....so sad.

I jus picked tt piece of scab frm above my mouth, and it hurts like hell, omg, it bleeded somemore, tho I like blood........... haha sick. omg, so late liao, hav to go lo.

Oh one more thing

Oh one more thing, TODAY ISH MOTHER'S DAY!!!
FOR MY ONE AND ONLY DEAR MOM,
I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U I LOVE U

hahahahahha

My blog skin ish sooooooooo cool, it's from Final Fantasy, the music playing is called [The Sky Above] and I definetly know how to sing that blardy nice song.
I bought this TVXQ cd, and it rox to the core, for one thing it's from S.M. Entertainment, no wonder Shi Min love them so much. Their Tri-angle mv is so cooool!!!! I love their ZAO XING, so style!!! They gave me e inspiration for the manga competition coming up, I noe it'd gonna be tough to draw them, but it is my art and I will accomplish it!!! woohooo!!!!
And one more thing, there's this new manga coming along called (I think) Marchen Awakens Romance, it rox man, it's gonna be another big hit. haha, it's kind of stupid lar, the ppls' dialogue but i like it, it feels so natural, and the artist's style is so unique! I love it. WOOOOOOO!!!!
when I get too high, I will listen to that midi i downloaded onto my phone, it's the music played during the Third Hokage's funeral, really sad and solemn, but I like all the same, it makes ppl feel calm and serene, and it's really good music.
tml school again, did I mention that Anderson Sec suck like hell? no? then I shall say this again, ANDERSON SECONDARY SCHOOL SUX!!!! Har, then they gonna say this is bad advertisement, like to hell I'd care! :P

Am I missing out?

Why do I keep getting the feeling that I'm being left out?
Hmm.... how long do I have to keep my life this way?
I feel really really lonely, and I can't find anyone to talk.
I will not talk abt it with my mom, coz sometimes I find her way of thinking too different from mine, we don't really have much in common, that's really sad to say. I have way too much common with my Dad, so it'd still be useless if I talked with him, I'd know what he would say, so what's e point?
Talking with Tyler may probably be the only let out for me. The less-than-one-hour-everyday talk was the about the only time that I feel comfortable with, and I'm saying this again, I'm not going to let this talk stop, for him and for myself.
I've caught a pretty bad flu and I keep making things look ugly, haha, but I do clean up after them, so don't worry. I've even discussed the viscosity of the thing with him yesterday, a pretty weird topic for 2 weirdos to talk abt for half an hour.
I've finally sorted out my problems, I think, the reason why I feel lonely and left out, is because I have no more Jelyn and Ethel. Although we used to talk abt stupid things, and we were never serious, I've only now come to realize that, that's the way I want it to be. I like to talk about really stupid things and not be serious at all, but it seems pretty impossible for now. It's not that I'm picking on my clique now, I like them as they are, but it is impossible for them to be like how we used to be with Jelyn and Ethel. I hate to admit it, but I really regret for not giving my best during the interview with TJC last yr.
I shall abstain from brooding too much on the past and be content with the current situation, at least I still have Tyler. One more year, and all these shall come to a stop, there'd be a new start for me, and I'd have my chance to find the crappy buddies that I desire.........
I found that WeiSiang had the same blog skin as mine, and I shall change mine........hehe

AAAARGH

i am damn pissed off. my parents were still going on non stop abt e phone event. well for one thing, i m not gonna stop contactin him, for gods sake, i m not doing anything wrong, i m onli toking to a fren, a fren whom i like alot, tt's all! And they were hinting that I m guy-crazy, this is bull shit! My parents are so #4@#4 !!! AAArgh, it sucks, everything sux, I HATE EVERYTHING!!! I Hate it when wei hao and zi jun start talking abt Naruto, I hate it when they think that naruto is theirs, for naruto is mine!!!! They do not even kno how to appreciate naruto, and they are talking as if they've known naruto since way back, LIKE SHIT!!!! I TELL U. I knew naruto way back, ok, I kno naruto much better than u do, so shut e hell up! Damn it

お久しぶりですね~
Ha, guess it's really been long since i last wrote here, and to tell the truth I m not quite glad to be back here, you see, I got sick of it already, but I have to carry on coz I have to overcome me bad habit of giving up way too early, Like Real, I always do things with perserverence ok, don anyhow say.
I havent talked to Tyler for 2 days, and i feel so empty, curse his mom for making him sleep so early, oops, wonder whether I shld say tt, haha, paiseh.
I M SOOOO SSsICK of SCHOOOL!!!! Screams. Sec 3 life is boring and boring and boring! GOD DAMN IT~~~

oh tired sia.....

aaargh, I m totally exhausted... not that I really did much of any work today except falling asleep during class, but I m reeeeelly reeeeelly tired. Mentally....
Well I think today's logarithms test was piece of cake, not tt delicious though, but it was pretty easy, there's pretty high chance that I might get full marks, I can't see why not... but...haha, as if it really matters.
I guess it's bcoz of e pungent smell of tt insect something something thing, tt I had a good chance of smelling it close up, tt made me like this, there's probably brain damage inside.
There'd be 2 more tests coming up.
And they say it's only the second week aft school reopen, and they are having bloody tests already.....what kind of cow shit is this?
I actually got distinction for my lit elec, tt's fresh, I didnt even know 60+ can equal to distinction....
Bloody hell......

I m damn pissed off.
Stupid Tyler, tok with him damn tiring.
bloody asshole

justinechan@blogskins

What happened today was quizical, I donno where to start, coz I'm still inside e whirlpool, and well, might have learnt a really important lesson: use a proper phone card when I wanna call Tyler, it's way cheaper....
well, i guess i'm a born money-sucking machine, I donno how I do it, but I always manage to spend way lot of money. I feel so guilty, it's as if I do not treasure the fruit of my parents' hardwork. In my mind, I'm totally aware of this, but somehow I always manage to do it e wrong way. Maybe tt xplains why I kept getting hung upside down in my dreams. I hope, I pray that my handphone bills don go shooting to outerspace, I can't take no shocks no more.
Ok, to what I had wanted to say.
I couldnt msg Tyler, and I can't call him on my hp, coz I thought it'd be damn xpensive, and I thought using me home phone wld be much cheaper. And today I realize what I thought was wrong and it was stupid. I always learn my lesson aft only I have suffered the pain. Haizz...... I'm no Stoic tt's y i wanna take things into my own hands, which turned out to be bad enough that I would rather be tt Stoic.....
Anyway, me home phone bills went shooting all over e place, and i got shocked and didnt know what to do. I had expected tt Dad would flare when he sees e bills. I was pretty much prepared when he appeared behind me and gave me e scare of my life, he always does tt, i wonder why....
Instead of throwing me down the rubbish chute, I was only given a few serious warnings and some really really inspiring talks. Dad wasn't the least bothered by the amt of money to pay (maybe a little, we are not tt rich either, not like somebody) but instead he cares more about my study, my future and my life. He wonders why I had chosen to be chatting on the phone while I could have been studying, which is right now the main main thing to me. He told me that certain reasons (don wanna list) that I shld giv myself pressure in order to go that extra mile.........
Well what I wrote may not sound touching enough, probably because I write pretty incoherently, but what really happened moved me to tears.
My parents are the bestest people that I am gifted to be with, it is my utmost fortune to be born in this family....and well, I'm glad that I lurve my parents......sobz
oh yar, that justinechan@blogskins, this guy creates e best blogskins tt I have seen so far.